The sharp pain in my whole body woke me up suddenly, and I sat up in shock, and found that I was already drenched in sweat, cold sweat even soaked my clothes, and the spirit stones in my hands slipped off due to the sweat in my palms. The ** spicy one on the hand, as well as the red marks left by the spirit stone. Next to him was An Yin, his expression was extremely complicated, and he looked like he wanted to say something.

"Just ......," I began, but I was speechless for a moment, not knowing what to say. I knew that the dream was my past life, and that the woman who loved An Yin passionately was me. However, a thousand years have passed, and I am now Meng Yishi, not Qiu Mu Hibiscus. I don't know how I'm going to deal with my former lover.

"So, you should know everything." He said lightly, and seemed relieved.

"It's only a part, but you can guess the whole thing," I picked up the spirit stone on the ground and said, "That's why you gave up reincarnation and became my lonely spirit?" ”

"In a few days you will have a complete memory of your past life, and all you want to know will have answers," he said, standing up, "I gave up reincarnation because of hibiscus, but it was a complete accident that I became your lonely spirit." It's just a blessing that it's such a coincidence. ”

"Do you still love her?" I asked. I use "she", yes, I'm not akiki. Those were her, and his story. I remembered the quiet nights before, looking at me silently, perhaps looking at the hibiscus in my body.

It was late at night, and the clear light of the moon sprinkled on the cabin, reflecting An Yin's face. Outside, the wind was blowing violently, and I heard the sound of bamboo shaking.

He was just silent.

He didn't need to say anything more, the answer couldn't be clearer. Everything that used to be was nothing but my own passion.

Not wanting to continue this maddening silence, I looked around and asked, "What's going on with this cabin?" The cabin didn't show up just now. ”

An Yin smiled weakly and said: "Hibiscus is dead, but I can't die, I still have the military camp that General Qiu asked me to take care of, I still have responsibility, I still have to kill the enemy for the country." I couldn't die with her, so I survived. Then, as I grew older, I left the frontier and lived in seclusion in this small room, where I lived in seclusion until I died of old age. I am not as brave as hibiscus, I am afraid of death, so I live, so I live in such pain. You know what that feels like? It's worse than death. I deserved to be so miserable, and in the end it was my cowardice and my incompetence that caused her. ”

General An Yin, who fought on the battlefield, made many meritorious achievements, lived up to the Son of Heaven, did not live up to the country, did not live up to the people, did not live up to the barracks, but he failed the person he didn't want to live up to the most. That sword accompanied him to kill the enemy in blood, but it couldn't protect the woman he loved the most. He fulfilled his youthful ambitions and achieved fame, but felt empty. Half of the long-cherished wish of the year was completed, but all of it was lost.

"Maybe that's what Hibiscus wants, she's doing everything she can to protect you and the barracks. You are alive and well, and she may feel relieved to watch from heaven. ”

An Yin closed his eyes, I could imagine his torment over the years, in those sleepless nights, hugging the cold and gradually blurring memories for warmth, but I could never hold those warm hands again.

"Are you still in seclusion?" I looked at him and asked. I wonder if he is still the same person he was back then, and if his memory has returned, whether that person is still the same person he used to be.

"When Hibiscus died, An Yin was already dead, An Yin had already died, An Yin was born for Hibiscus, and he also went with Hibiscus," An Yin laughed like a madman and continued, "I thought that if you remembered the events of your previous life, you were Mu Hibiscus, and my Hibiscus would come back." However, you are not hibiscus, and you feel that those memories are completely the story of another person who has nothing to do with you. There are some things that, once lost, will never come back. Even if you become a lonely spirit, if you have the power and lose it, you will never be able to get it back. ”

Those past events were like a pot of wine, which made An Yin drunk and crazy, drunk and heartbroken. My heart is also cold, loss, we have been experiencing. Chen Zhi's smiling face appeared in front of my eyes again, and I felt as if a steel nail had been stabbed into my body, only through the entire chest. It hurt so much that I couldn't breathe. The watch on my wrist was still a birthday gift from Chen Zhi to me last year, and she said that she would give such a personal item so that I could always see and think about her.

I looked down at the watch and burst into tears.

"Remembering Chen Zhi again?" An Yin adjusted her emotions and asked me.

I nodded.

"Actually, I had a feeling before that she wasn't human, but she wasn't sure all the time, so I didn't tell you."

"I don't care if she's human or not, she's dead, and there's no point in talking about that anymore."

"Her special ability is supposed to be prophecy, so what she says to you in the end is closely related to your fate......"

"Say no more! I don't care about any of that! Please stop talking about anything about her! "I covered my ears and it seemed hysterical. I noticed that An Yin's eyes were also filled with depression, heartache, helplessness, and remorse, and those eyes were so old, and the constricted eyebrows seemed to never be unraveled. We are so similar, but his hidden pain is far above mine.

When a moth sees the light, it no longer wants to curl up in that cold corner, even at the cost of its own life. For a good person or thing, after getting it, you can no longer afford to lose, and once you lose it, you have nothing.

"I'm sorry." It seemed like half a century had passed, and I finally said.

"I can understand your feelings," An Yin said slowly in a hoarse voice, "but we need to calm down now, or their sacrifices will be in vain." If I'm not mistaken, Chen Zhi should be a special kind of solitary spirit. She was born with a humanoid entity, had no spirit tamers, and could not attack, or even defend. The power she possesses is foreknowledge. Chen Zhi desperately wanted to tell you something before she died, it should be that she saw your future and wanted to remind you of something. ”

"She told me not to, but she didn't say what she didn't want." I calmed down, but when I think back to that scene, my heart still hurts and I can't breathe.

"Don't?" An Yin groaned.

"Are you telling me not to go back?" I asked.

An Yin shook his head and said, "Sooner or later, they will find here, it's not safe here." We've been here for a few days, and we should get out of here. ”

Leave? I was startled and asked, "Where to go?" ”

Am I going to hide like this for the rest of my life? Just like Mom and Dad...... When I think of this, I suddenly feel powerless, and the future is bleak. It's not my fault.

Without waiting for An Yin to answer, I already had the answer: "I want to go to the Lord." ”

"He won't shelter you, unless you're willing to be his hard-working lackey like Qi Yan. Don't expect him to judge this fairly, he won't. And he was the one who started it. ”

"I don't expect any more forgiveness or refuge. It's just that I don't want to go on like this, I feel so tired. Moreover, I have no motivation to live, and I don't know what reason to use to sustain me in life. My parents died, my best friend died, my dearest aunt betrayed me, and my most trusted teacher wanted to kill me. It's just you, I only have you now, I can't die just because of you. Let's dissolve the relationship, you continue your life as a free solitary spirit, and death is my best relief. "I suddenly understood the relief in my parents' grief when they faced the final death.

"So you want to die? You and me, I am your lonely spirit, and I will never betray you. ”

"I know I have you! But it's not enough, what I want is life, there are only two people, and two people like us who are so abnormal, can't make up a life. Anyin, haven't you realized it yet? Your life as a lonely soul is actually supported by a memory, but memories alone are far from enough! I'm not Akiki, so you don't have to be responsible for me. Let's dissolve the relationship. ”

"I know, I always knew that you weren't Qiu Mu Hibiscus, every word I say and every promise I make now is to Meng Yishi, not Qiu Mu Hibiscus."

I suddenly remembered what Qi Yan had said to me, the lonely spirit only loves once, and the person who loves is his master, and usually, the death period of the master is the death period of the lonely spirit. I can't just die, my life is not only mine, it's still safe. Everything became a knot that could not be untied, and I had no choice but to mechanically wait for the arrangement of fate.

"Then let's go back, go back to your city, let's live a good life, even if it's only for one day," An Yin said with a sudden smile, "I also want to wear your clothes and eat mint ice cream once." ”

I laugh.

"Okay."