My head hurts, and when I open my eyes like black jewels, my mind is still in a state of flux. After a while, I remembered that I seemed to be talking to an old fortune teller who was dressed dirtily and almost like a flower. How can he lie here now, is it possible that his incurable sick body finally can't hold on and faints?

Where is this, looking around, like smoke is a little shocked, isn't this my home, and there are still a row of awards from elementary school to junior high school on the wall, here?

Could it be that he was dreaming, like smoke supporting his body, and found that his body was a little light, as if he was seriously ill after a long illness. Turning his head to look at the dressing mirror at the head of the bed, Ruyan felt like he had seen a ghost, and the girl in the mirror looked like her fourteen or fifteen-year-old girlhood.

Quickly got out of bed and walked to the dressing mirror, the girl in the mirror moved in line with herself, surprised and puzzled with all kinds of expressions written on her face, bit her finger, pain! This realization made Ruyan confirm that everything was true, and it seemed that he was really said by the old flower, and he would be reborn again.

I remember that at that time, her marriage was broken, she was seriously ill, and she had no hope of seeking medical treatment, so she chose a funeral tour, didn't someone say it? Even if there is no hope of survival, it is better to die as a distant tourist, at least the world has also seen it.

On the brand-new desk, there is still a bowl of red water, such as smoke, I remember that this is brown sugar water, I remember that I came to menstruation at the age of thirteen, and I suffered from menstrual cramps from the first time, and this disease has tormented my whole life.

The past in my mind is like a nightmare, as if it is still in front of me, and my heart is like a chill.

Ruyan pinched himself with his fingers again, the pain was still there, it seemed that everything was true, but he didn't expect that the poisonous oath he made to God before he died was fulfilled, and he was also said by the old flower. Like a marriage, I was surprised and delighted, and I couldn't tell how I felt. Happily, there is really a rebirth in this world, and I am surprised that I have returned to the most critical year in my life.

The past, still like flowing water, washes back and forth with memories, because of cowardice, the middle school grades began to lose and retreat after being at the jealous tablemate until he withdrew from the top 60 in the school, and then failed the college entrance examination, was admitted to an inconspicuous high school, and was confused for three years, and then talked about a love that he thought was unforgettable, but he finally had to break up because of the difference between the two families.

Because of the death of his heart, he missed the best age for marriage, and finally married a man with a drag oil bottle for the second marriage because of the cheesiness of the family, but because he gave birth to a daughter and did not inherit the seed for his family, he became a thorn in the side of his parents, and he calculated step by step, and finally he had to leave his favorite daughter and his parents who loved him the most, just to leave the demon family. Married again, but because of the reason of working outside, the body was threatened by sub-health but was infertile, I saw Chinese medicine and Western medicine, and finally the body was declining in the sequelae of drugs, and after the death of her parents, the other party was increasingly disgusted with her because she had not been pregnant for so long without pregnancy and entangled in the case of bed collapse, and finally she died alone because of the lack of love and warmth at the age of forty......

Tears slowly crawled down her cheeks, and the pain of the past tightly pinched Ruyan's throat, making Ru Marriage feel a little breathless for a moment, but in the end, everything is over, isn't it?

Raised his hand to wipe away the tears on his face, moved to the desk in the room, and put his second-grade middle school textbook in the book, Ru Marriage took a deep breath, he will not be so cowardly in this life, he will never live that life in a mess, he will never stay away from his parents and relatives who love him the most for anyone, and he will never be emotional because outsiders and parents quarrel.

The alarm clock on the stage rang, the hour hand pointed to two o'clock in the afternoon, such as the marriage reached out and pressed the alarm clock, and then carefully looked at the calendar on the wall, yes, it was August 16, 1985, at this time, although the summer vacation, but because of the relationship between foreign languages, such as marriage to the summer English training course, this day is the end of the foreign language training. Although it is very ordinary for his family to be in the countryside, his parents have always supported him in his studies, unlike some rural people's short-sightedness, who think that it is useless for women to study. A few girls next door have dropped out of school after graduating from primary school, some have been working outside, and there is a classmate who used to play well in elementary school, and has become a child's mother. At the age of fourteen or fifteen, he still has the vow he made in elementary school in his mind, to be admitted to university, and to achieve his dreams.

Pick up the textbook of the junior high school, such as the marriage found that the knowledge in the textbook is still very familiar, it seems that the top 20 results in the school are not bad, fortunately, everything can be restarted, this time the provincial key middle school has been in the palm of the hand. And I will never give up myself for the so-called love at the same table, and I will enter an embarrassing place for the rest of my life.

I looked at the textbook of the second year of junior high school again, and found that my memory was better than before, and I had the ability to forget it, and I was really surprised. It's almost six o'clock in the afternoon, Ru Ma sorted out the textbooks, went downstairs, Mom was already cooking dinner, Dad had just come back from the field, saw Ru Marriage down, beckoned to Ru Marriage, "Girl, come and see what Dad brought back to you." ”

Hearing Dad's girl, Ruyu's heart is sad and joyful, these two words are Dad's affectionate name for himself, I remember that in my last life, because of that relationship, Dad never called these two words again, looking at Dad Liu Yuhai's tanned face because of working in the fields, Ruyu's heart was full of sourness, Dad has paid too much for this family, in this life, I must cherish the relationship between father and daughter, and I will never be separated from my father because of that unpopular love.

"Dad, what good things do you want to show the girl? I'm curious? Ru Marriage happily ran to Liu Yuhai's side, looking at the black and gray thing hanging from the grass in his father's hand, a fluffy pom-pom-like thing, "Ah, is this a hedgehog?" Daddy, where did you get this thing? ”

Liu Yuhai scratched his nose, "It's a secret, I won't tell you." It's for you. ”

Ru Marriage's heart is full of touch, I remember the last life, my father also caught a little hedgehog for himself from the field, the little hedgehog and himself cultivated a deep feeling, usually helped himself a lot of small favors, and brought a lot of happiness to his life, but unfortunately he lost it because of marriage.

Seeing this little hedgehog, my heart was full of sighs; You're finally here for me again. Carefully hanging the hedgehog to the kitchen, I saw my mother Lan Hui serving them bowls of rice, and when she saw Ru Ma entering the kitchen, Lan Hui turned around and said to Ru Ma, "It's time to eat, call your father to eat, put your little thing in that small basin, and raise a relationship first, so you won't get lost." ”

Ru Ma looked deeply at her mother's back and whispered, "Okay, Mom." ”

Put the small things into the basin on the ground, walked to the kitchen door, and saw Liu Yuhai, who was washing his hands in the yard, and called, "Dad, it's time to eat." ”

"Okay, eat."

During the meal, at the bottom of the noodle bowl, Ru Ma unexpectedly saw two poached eggs, Ru Ma's eyes were red, and he silently picked up a poached egg into his father's bowl, and then picked up the other one and put it in his mother's bowl, Liu Yuhai and Lan Hui were stunned, "What's the matter, girl, isn't it delicious?" This is for you to replenish your body, how to clip it into your parents' bowl, eat it! "Liu Yuhai and Lan Hui put the lotus at the same time

The eggs are sandwiched back into the bowl of smoke, and the smoke knows that the conditions at home are not good, and the grandfather and grandmother's legs and feet are not good and there are expenses, and it is not easy for my mother to cook two eggs for herself every night, and many eggs in rural families are sold for money to do daily expenses. Although I have more than a dozen hens at home, I still have a lot of expenses to go to school by myself. In addition, his brother Liu Xianghong is not angry, he always causes trouble outside for three days, and he also owes some debts outside, and his parents are thin-skinned and don't like to owe favors to others, so they are very economical in life.

Looking at the eager eyes of his parents, Ruyan swallowed back the words in his mouth, knowing that his parents would not eat it if he took it back, he silently lowered his head, and his eyes were a little sour. Taking small sips of noodles, my thoughts went back to the year when my parents died after I remarried.

That year, after countless follicle monitoring by Western medicine, Liu Ruma, who was still hopeless in pregnancy, was in deep despair, and was forced to follow the advice of those Western doctors to do IVF. Even his parents passed away for a long time.

Thinking of these, Ru Marriage's heart was painful, and seeing Ru Marriage eating without saying a word with her head down, Liu Yuhai asked curiously: "Girl, are you unhappy?"

Secretly calmed down, swallowed those pains, raised his head like a marriage, his bright eyes were a little wet, and said, "Dad, how can it be?" If you bring me this little hedgehog today, it's too late for me to be high!"

Maybe it's a problem with the light, Liu Yuhai didn't pay much attention to see Ru Ma's wet eyes, and when he heard Ru Ma mention the little hedgehog, he suddenly came to his senses, "Hey, don't you say, this little hedgehog seems to be related to our family, I walked around the field a few times today, and I saw it, as if it followed me, and it didn't move when I caught it. Just let me bring it back to you."