A pair of hands took my hand, and the warmth spread rapidly from my fingertips to my body, dispelling the cold just now.

"I'm here." He said.

"Ah Yin, it's me! I'm hibiscus, I'm back, take me away, take me out of here, take my body back from this girl, we'll be together forever and no one can separate us anymore, okay? ”

An Yin was silent, he didn't answer. I know he's making tough choices, and whoever he chooses is bound to hurt the other side. On one side is his beloved but negative woman Akiki Hibiscus, and on the other side is the master I who has been with him for ten years. I can clearly tell that this balance is inherently unbalanced.

Love, never fair.

I closed my eyes in despair.

Perhaps, I should give this shell to Akiki Hibiscus, she loves An Yin, An Yin also loves him, they have finally waited for this day after thousands of years of vicissitudes, what reason do I have to break them up?

However, I can't, I'm not born to be a selfless person. I always put myself first, because if I don't love myself, there really isn't anyone to love me. I want to live. I've never had such a strong desire to survive. It's only when someone is going to take something away from you that you realize how important this thing is to you. And life is all I have. I'm sorry, Hibiscus Akiki, I'm going to defend my life. It belongs to me.

"This is my body, Akiki Hibiscus is dead, I am your master." I'm not sure if An Yin heard my voice, it was so small, but it used all my strength.

An Yin was still hesitating. I know it's going to be very hard for him, but it seems very easy. He loved Akiki Hibiscus, and from beginning to end, he loved her deeply. All he cares about is my feelings. He sympathized with my miserable experience and thanked me for being with me for ten years, it was his compassion that made him hesitate, but in fact he had the answer in his heart. I began to mobilize the spiritual power in my body, and a thousand years of wandering resentment was not enough to trap me.

Eventually, the hairpin fell out of my hand, and the moment it hit the ground, I heard Akiki's miserable cry: "I hate you!" I hate you guys! I covered my ears, not wanting to listen to the resentment that kept echoing in my ears. I reached out to the hairpin on the ground, trying to get rid of it. An Yin suddenly grabbed my hand and looked at me with an almost pleading look: "Please, don't. "This is the first time An Yin begged me, for a hairpin that almost killed me. Suddenly my hand hung limply like a deflated balloon. I turned around, not wanting to see how An Yin crouched down and carefully picked up the hairpin with tears in her eyes. My heart felt like it was wrapped tightly in an invisible net, and I was suffocating.

The sun struggled for a moment, poked his head out from behind the mountain, and looked curiously at me and An Yin.

"If just now, I didn't use spiritual power, but asked you to choose, who would you choose?" Eventually, I asked the question.

A voice sounded in my head: it was Akiki Hibiscus. I stared at him, not giving him room to dodge.

"Let's go get ice cream, it's time to open the door." He simply turned his back to me, the hairpin in his hand reflecting a dazzling light in the newborn sun.

A terrible fact is in front of me: my position in An Yin's heart is far inferior to that of Akiki Hibiscus, and I stand in front of him alive, but I am not as good as a man who has been dead for more than a thousand years. I finally had to face this fact that I had been avoiding for a long time. I wanted to cry, but my eyes were always a dry desert, and I couldn't shed a single tear.

At this time, I felt someone tugging at the corner of my skirt, and I came back to my senses, and it was the old woman, who was crumpled and clutched tightly in a bracelet, made of stone, very ordinary but could feel the maker's intentions. I vaguely felt like I had seen this stone bracelet somewhere, but I couldn't remember it for a moment. I held the bracelet in my hand, and I felt that the stones were crying softly, and they seemed to be very sad.

"Thank you." I struggled to squeeze a smile at the old man and pulled out the money to give it to her.

The old grandmother hurriedly shook her head and said, "It was originally yours, and this is yours." ”

I have some doubts, but I still feel that my heart warms, there is always something that belongs to me, and I don't have nothing.

I turned around to leave, but was pulled by An Yin: "Where are you going?" ”

"I'm tired and want to go home." I don't want to say anything more to him.

An Yin also stopped talking.

Sleepless.

I lay on the bed, staring straight up at the ceiling, deliberately keeping myself awake and reluctant to sleep. I began to fear the night, the long night, and if I wasn't careful, I would fall into a powerless dream. I hated the feeling that I couldn't do anything by letting my dreams manipulate me. I hate feelings even more, you like him, he doesn't like you, these things are so powerless. I didn't even hesitate to curse myself for amnesia, as long as I could stop liking him. I couldn't help but smile silently, I was always so naïve and ridiculous.

"You didn't sleep, did you?" It's Ann Yin.

I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. I didn't know how to face him, and I began to regret asking that question today. Ignorance is not a kind of happiness.

"I know you're not asleep. You're still angry, aren't you? Seeing that I didn't speak, he continued, "Actually, there is one thing I know better than anyone else, Akiki Hibiscus is dead. If I hadn't met you, I would still be that wandering wild ghost, you gave me a second life, for a person who has experienced life and death, I know very well that I should cherish the person in front of me. So, the answer I'm giving is you, not Akiki Hibiscus. ”

A line of tears slipped out of the corners of my eyes, but I didn't dare to make any sound, I was afraid to face him, and I was even more afraid to face this feeling. I only wish I had been his ignorant master, and he would still be the silent and lonely spirit. In fact, it takes more courage to face real emotions than lies.

"It's not what you really think, you're lying." I simply got out of bed and said.

"Akiki Hibiscus is dead," An Yin repeated, "Yes, it is true that the person I love the most is Akiki Hibiscus, but she is dead. ”

I knew I was pushing him, so cruelly pouring salt on his already festering wounds. But I continued: "Then you destroy that hairpin." What is there to keep for a dead man's hairpin? ”

"Don't do that...... Why ...... with someone who is already dead"

"Hibiscus Akiki is not completely dead!" I almost shouted, "She's still partially alive, in that hairpin, do you dare to destroy it?" ”

An Yin looked at me in shock, gently picked up the hairpin, and asked, "What did you say?" Hibiscus still lives in that hairpin? ”

"What? Are you going to resurrect her? Or are you going to take that hairpin back to your cabin for the rest of your life? I looked at him and asked.

An Yin knelt softly in front of me: "You know my past with her, I beg you to ......"

Yes, I'm jealous, I'm jealous that even though Akiki Hibiscus has been dead for a thousand years, even if she only has a wisp of breath left now, An Yin still regards her as a treasure. Jealousy makes people ugly, and I think I must be ugly now.

Scenes from my past life flashed through my mind......

"As long as there is Ah Yin, I can endure anything."

"I miss Daddy, I miss the Prairie, I hate it."

"I want to get out of here."

"I'm really scared."

"I want to see Ah Yin."

My tears slowly fell.

For the first time, I realized so clearly that akiki hibiscus was a part of me.