In May 1986, my daughter was almost two years old. The health center received a document stating that in view of the current situation of the health system, in-service workers and rural doctors without a diploma can sign up for the targeted entrance examination, and those who pass the test can be admitted to some health schools in the province, and the treatment is the same as that of school students, such as the transfer from agricultural to urban hukou, but after graduation, they can only be assigned to work in the county.

Xia Wei was very happy to hear the news, and finally waited for the day of the exam. She sent her one-year-old daughter to her mother's house diligently, let her grandmother take her, and she studied for the entrance exam with all her heart.

Although Xia Wei is a high school graduate after the restoration of the college entrance examination system, she is also a loser in the college entrance examination, and it has been several years since she left her textbooks, and she still feels difficult to review, so she came to Huhu Middle School and asked the teachers to tutor her, and asked the teachers for some past exam papers, so as to see her ability. She did the exam papers while reviewing, and asked the teachers to correct the papers, and she could score more than 90 points every time she finished the exam. This gave Xia Wei even more confidence.

The exam is coming up in June, the time is urgent, Xia Wei has a full schedule of review time, she gets up in the morning and begins to memorize politics, reviews Chinese and mathematics in the morning, reviews physics and chemistry in the afternoon, and consolidates and reviews the problems left by various subjects in the evening. She just persevered, and when she encountered a problem, she went to the middle school to ask for advice, and she persisted like this for a month.

On the day of the exam, Xia Wei was full of confidence, and her mother specially asked for leave to visit her, and when she saw that her mother also came to visit her in the examination room, Xia Wei felt sweet in her heart, and she performed very well in the exam.

As expected, Xia Wei was admitted to Nanyang Health School. Among the countless candidates, ten people were admitted in the city, what a lucky and happy thing, Xia Wei understood a truth: as long as you work hard, there will be rewards.

On September 1, 1986, Xia Wei, like countless candidates across the country, came to Nanyang Health School to study midwifery.

In the evening of early autumn, the sky was still so hot, and some male and female students were wandering around the campus of Nanyang City Health School, and some male students were playing basketball on the playground.

"Chen Xue is waiting for me."

"Xia Wei, hurry up, I still have to go to the classroom to write a letter."

"Alright." Xia Wei trotted all the way to catch up with Chen Xue, and while the two were talking, they came to the staircase of a row of classrooms, climbed up to the third floor, and came to the classroom of class 862, and the two came to the same desk and sat down in their seats.

There were already a lot of students in the classroom, some chatting, some reading, and some writing letters home. Xia Wei took out a book from the drawer and just put it on the table, when she heard someone shouting outside the window: "Xia Wei from Class 862, someone is looking for you in the school communication room." ”

"Oh, here we are." Xia Wei couldn't care about packing up her books, she patted Chen Xue on the shoulder and said, "Help me ask for leave from the squad leader." As he spoke, he hurried to the school communication room, thinking to himself: Who is coming to me at this time? She strode to the door of the communication room, only to see a young man in his twenties, wearing a white suit and pants, with a strong and graceful figure, with an otherworldly charm, a pair of big and bright eyes smiling in the direction Xia Wei came: "Xia Wei, hello!" ”

"Ah, it's you, Wang Tao, long time no see, so happy!" As she spoke, Xia Wei stretched out her hands to hold Wang Tao's outstretched hand, staring at him and looking at each other affectionately......

Looking at the former lovers, I was full of emotion. Under the intervention of her parents, Xia Wei and Wang Tao failed to get together, and they each started a family. Through his own efforts, Wang Tao was admitted to the recruitment of teachers and taught in a local middle school. Soon after Xia Wei came to Nanyang Health School, she received a letter from a middle school classmate, telling her that Wang Tao was expelled from the school and was sued for divorce by his wife. Receiving such a letter stunned Xia Wei. She thought that at this time, Wang Tao must be very, very sad, and she didn't think much about it, so she immediately wrote a letter to Wang Tao to express her comfort. If it weren't for this situation, Xia Wei might never have thought of having contact with Wang Tao in her life. Although her marriage is very unhappy, and her husband has filed for divorce from her, the traditional concept of starting from the beginning has taken root in my heart.

Wang Tao received Xia Wei's letter and was very excited, he didn't expect Xia Wei to care so much about him. After reading the letter, the pain of unemployment and divorce had been halved, so I immediately packed my bags and came directly to Nanyang Health School to meet Xia Wei before I had time to write a letter.

The two were excited to meet, Xia Wei let go of her hands, stared at Wang Tao's eyes and said with concern, "Have you eaten?" ”

"Oh—not yet." Only then did Wang Tao remember that he hadn't eaten yet.

"Let's go, I'll take you to the restaurant for dinner." Xia Wei took Wang Tao's hand and walked in the direction of the restaurant. Wang Tao followed Xia Wei to the school cafeteria, only to see that there were only more than ten people eating in the huge cafeteria, most of the windows for cooking were closed, only one window for cooking was still open, Xia Wei played some food in the window, found a table and sat down face to face with Wang Tao: "Eat quickly." ”

Wang Tao was also hungry, gobbling up the food, Xia Wei sat there quietly, watching his former lover eat so intently, he must be hungry, so he asked, "Do you want to add more?" ”

"Enough, enough to eat." Wang Tao took out a handkerchief and wiped the oil stains on the corner of his mouth.

"Okay, you wait, I'll wash the rice bowl and come." Xia Wei washed the rice bowl and put it back in its place, and the two walked out of the campus together.

By this time, the street lamps on both sides of the street had turned on, and it was not yet completely dark, and they strolled along the sidewalks of the wide road, the plane trees on both sides of the road swayed in the wind, and occasionally a few cars passed by, passing through several intersections, and in a short time they came to the stadium. They came to the right side of the stadium, found a bench and sat down by the flower bed near the river, and watched the river sparkle under the light of street lamps and neon lights. A breeze blows, and the moon flowers in the flower bed waft a faint fragrance.

"It's a beautiful place." Wang Tao looked at Xia Wei and said with a smile.

Wang Tao stared at Xia Wei's eyes for a long time, affectionate and reserved, he couldn't say a word at this moment, the joy in his heart was indescribable, and his eyes were as hot as fire. Xia Wei lowered her head shyly, Wang Tao held Xia Wei's hand with both hands, Xia Wei's head hung lower, and let him fiddle with his hand, his cheeks were already crimson. Wang Tao pulled out a hand and put it on her shoulder, Xia Wei leaned on his arms like a human, just snuggled quietly, and didn't speak for a long, long time......

Wang Tao broke the silence first: "Thank you for your concern!" I'm so touched to receive your letter, I'm really happy. ”

Xia Wei said lightly: "Can you tell me the reason?" ”

"Yes." So, Wang Tao recalled that painful past.

It was when Wang Tao was the head teacher, and a girl in the class came to him and said, "Teacher ......"

Wang Tao saw that the girl wanted to speak and stopped, and hurriedly asked, "Do you have something?" ”

The girl lowered her head and pinched her fingers and said slowly: "My mother is sick, the family has no money for my mother's medical treatment, I don't want to go to school anymore, I want to go out and find something to do, earn some money to treat my mother, besides, the family has no money for me to go to school." ”

After listening to the girl's words, Wang Tao felt an indescribable pain in his heart, and he immediately told the girl: "You can't drop out of school, where can you go to earn money at such a young age?" If you don't have money to go to school, I can help you, and I will bear your tuition and living expenses in the future. ”

The girl immediately looked up at the teacher in front of her, and suddenly, she felt that the teacher at this moment was so tall and majestic, ah! He's so handsome, why didn't he find him handsome before? The girl looked at the teacher who was nearly ten years older than herself, and she didn't feel a panic in her heart, and suddenly remembered that the teacher wanted to help her, and the girl felt sweet in her heart, but she said in her mouth: "Don't bother you, your family is not having a good time, and your children are still young and have to spend money, and it is not easy." ”

"You're welcome, it's decided, you must complete your studies and get into a school, this is the best reward for your parents."

With the help of Wang Tao, the girls completed their junior high school studies and were admitted to a technical secondary school. The girl was both grateful and admired for the teacher's help, and soon after she was admitted to the school, she wrote an enthusiastic letter to Wang Tao, in which she expressed her gratitude for the teacher's help and also expressed her love for the teacher.

She may have just told her benefactor what she really thought in the form of a letter, but the letter was actually received by Wang Tao's wife, who worked at the same school, and opened it privately. After reading the letter, his wife was so jealous that she turned the school upside down. The principal was afraid that the incident would not have a good impact on the students and the school, so he did not investigate the cause of the incident, so he fired Wang Tao. Soon, Wang Tao also received a divorce request from his wife, and finally the court ruled on the divorce, leaving his son who was less than one year old to live with Wang Tao.

After listening to Wang Tao's story, Xia Wei's eyes were red, and she said with tears in her eyes: "You have been wronged and suffered, it is all my fault, if I had not been so weak at the beginning, what happened today would not have happened." ”

"Where it is, I'm responsible." After saying this, Wang Tao swallowed, and for many days, all the grievances gathered in his heart erupted at once, and tears poured out...... Xia Wei wiped his tears with a handkerchief, Wang Tao took her into his arms, held her face with both hands, and imprinted Xia Wei's lips with those thick and beautiful lips...... I don't know how long it took, Wang Tao whispered in Xia Wei's ear: "I miss you so much." Xia Wei responded in a very low voice in Wang Tao's ear: "Well, me too." Wang Tao was silent, and gently unbuttoned Xia Wei's clothes with his hand, Xia Wei immediately pushed Wang Tao's hand away and said, "Wang Tao, don't do this." ”

As she spoke, she sat up straight and continued: "When I meet you again, I feel like I'm resurrected again, before this, you know, my life is gloomy, there is no passion, there is no **, life has lost its meaning, it's like living in a cage, and he also filed for divorce from me. After being admitted to the school, I was thinking about this question calmly, the person I love is you, I have always loved you, please give me time, we will come together. After speaking, Xia Wei wanted to pull out, but Wang Tao hugged her tighter. In this way, the two snuggled up to the river, quietly enjoying the joy of reuniting after so many years of parting, feeling each other's heartbeat......

In Wang Tao's arms, Xia Wei saw the scene of sharing a table with Wang Tao in junior high school. Every time the teacher called Wang Tao to answer a question, Xia Wei had to turn her face sideways and stare at him, looking at the way he spoke, so cute. Wang Tao also often brings some novels to the class to read, and every time he finishes reading them, he has to secretly show them to Xia Wei, for fear that other classmates will be coaxed when they see them. Wang Tao's composition is the best in the class, the teacher always reads his composition to the students, Xia Wei is close to the water and the first to get the moon, and naturally becomes his first reader. Whenever she thinks of these, Xia Wei's heart is always sweet.

Xia Wei's face was flushed with excitement, and she suddenly remembered something, and slowly pushed Wang Tao away: "It's not early, let's all go back and rest, and play with you tomorrow." ”

"I don't want to sleep." Wang Tao said slowly: "Tomorrow is Sunday, you don't have classes, we will take the train to Suzhou tonight to play, do you think about it?" ”

"Well, that's a good idea, listen to you." The two got up and walked to the bus stop, and after a short time on the bus, they came to the train station, bought two night train tickets, and arrived in Suzhou at more than two o'clock at night. The two decided to rest in the benches in the waiting room of the train station for a while and go to the park until dawn.

So the two of them sat back to back in the chairs in the waiting room and fell asleep. When they woke up, it was already dark, they went to the bathroom of the station to wash hastily, found a snack bar, ate breakfast, bought a map on the side of the road, and began to visit various attractions in Suzhou.

The first stop is the Humble Administrator's Garden, where there are small bridges and flowing waters, pavilions and pavilions, which are beautiful. Next is the Lingering Garden, Tiger Hill Tower, the last stop is Hanshan Temple, I saw a poem on the wall of Hanshan Temple, Xia Wei read it aloud: "The moon falls and the sky is full of frost, Jiang Feng fishes and fires to sleep, Hanshan Temple outside Gusu City, the bell rings in the middle of the night to the passenger ship." After reading the poem of the Tang Dynasty poet Zhang Ji, Xia Wei shouted to the temple: "The modern poet Wang Tao has come here for a visit. "Haha! I won't let you down. Wang Tao said with a smile.

The two laughed and came to the main hall, where a large Buddha sits, and it is said that if you make a wish in front of this Buddha, you can come true. So, they both knelt before the Buddha, made their wishes, and as they left, they exclaimed, "We will come to thank you!" ”

Xia Wei thought that since Xiao Lu had already filed for divorce, it should be a very satisfying thing for him to file for divorce again. However, Xiao Lu and his family are firmly opposed. Not long after the divorce was filed, her father-in-law was diagnosed with liver cancer, and at this time, Xia Wei no longer dared to mention the divorce, for fear of irritating her father-in-law.

It was another summer evening, Xia Wei and Wang Tao walked quietly on the field path on the outskirts of the county, the moonlight sprinkled in the endless rice fields, the green seedlings were like emeralds inlaid on the ground under the moonlight, and the breeze blew through a green wave rustling, mixed with the "cooing" sound of frogs, which was pleasant to the ear. The ridge of the seedling field is very narrow, and the grass is overgrown on both sides of the road, revealing the gray-white path that the people walk in the middle, through the seedling field, they came to the riverside grove where they often meet, and chose a clean place to sit down, Xia Wei thought heavily and pulled a small grass in her hand, and said in a very low voice: "Tao, I can't divorce for the time being, my father-in-law has cancer, and mentioning divorce at this time will make him unbearable, and it will also accelerate his death, I can't do this, otherwise, my conscience will be disturbed." ”

"What? …… What's your reason for that? After a pause, Wang Tao knelt in front of Xia Wei and continued to murmur: "Please, don't give up, okay?" ”

"No, I can't do that, at least not yet."

Wang Tao thought about what Xia Wei said when the two fell in love for the first time, what parents opposed, her mother forced each other to die, etc., and what kind of father-in-law was sick today, these are all excuses. Thinking of this, Wang Tao left angrily.

Xia Wei sat alone in place, just sitting quietly, letting the tears flow down her face. She knew that her happiness was far less important than life, and she didn't dare to expect Wang Tao's forgiveness, so she could only bear it silently.