No one listened to Xia Wei's appeal, and the outpatient doctor told her that she was just doing an appraisal, but she needed to be hospitalized for observation. She actually didn't have any say at this time, no matter how unwilling she was to be hospitalized, she couldn't help herself, she felt like a lamb thrown into the flock of sheep that was about to be slaughtered.

On the night of hospitalization, in the hall of the nursing department, Xia Wei was arranged by the nurses to line up in a long line, and a nurse held a small bowl of medicine and shouted: "Next, Xia Wei will come over to take medicine." Xia Wei took a step forward in the line and said, "Why should I take medicine?" ”

The nurse replied, "If you are hospitalized, you have to take medicine, otherwise why should you be hospitalized?" ”

"I don't take medicine, I'm here for identification."

"No, you have to take the medicine in front of me, and the people who come to the hospital say that they are not sick, but they are all sick." The nurse said solemnly.

Xia Wei still wanted to debate, but the nurse forcibly removed her mouth, threw the pill in, and then handed her a water cup to take a sip of water, and the nurse said with a straight face: "Open your mouth, tilt your tongue up, and show me if the pill is swallowed." ”

Xia Wei ignored it at first, and the nurse began to speak again: "Xia Wei, quickly open your mouth for me to check, if you don't swallow the medicine, take another tablet until you swallow it, don't expect to avoid taking the medicine." Xia Wei reluctantly opened her mouth.

Xia Wei felt how helpless she was, could she be at the mercy of others? She may not know it, but in fact, she is mentally ill. She had to be called by the nurses every day to line up to take her medication, and she had to be with the mentally ill every day. She was sad and sad, she knew that no matter how sad she was, it was useless, all contact with the outside world was cut off, and when she was hospitalized, her mobile phone had been taken away by the nurses and handed over to her family for safekeeping. Later, she also figured out that instead of being sad all day long, it is better to make friends with these patients, and it will not be too lonely and uncomfortable, just take medicine, as long as it is not poison, it will not die.

There are a total of four people in Xia Wei's ward, one is the eldest sister in Shanghai, according to herself, she came to Shanghai from rural Yixing after retirement. Although the separation of husband and wife was solved, she was not suitable for life in the big city for a while, so she thought about divorcing her husband in Shanghai, and she wanted to return to the countryside after the divorce. In this way, she quarreled with her husband about divorce every day, but her husband didn't want to divorce, and he was so noisy by his wife all day that he couldn't concentrate on work, so he sent her to a mental hospital. The eldest sister is warm and generous, very willing to help others, and every day she can be seen leading a group of patients to sing, preach, comfort and help those patients.

There was also a young girl, a college student who had just started working; is an only child; She has a very nice unit and is a police officer. She had to get up every night and walk around her room, with a pair of sharp eyes, and she was still babbling, she was timid and afraid, but she was also very helpful. The girl's mother had to visit her in the ward every night, and the girl's mother said: "Our Xiaoyun is a sensible child, and she is also very sympathetic, she has given her previous clothes to those poor people, she may be too timid, always saying that someone wants to harm her, who is a young policeman who wants to harm her?" Mom stopped crying when she finished speaking.

Xia Wei comforted: "It's going to be okay, don't worry, she may really be scared by something, you will make her more insecure, sometimes it's better to be stronger." ”

The other one, a skilled worker in her thirties, took the initiative to talk to Xia Wei about her hospitalization, and she had a history of mental illness as a teenager. This time, when she was at work, she was misunderstood by her colleagues, and in a fit of anger, she made a move with her colleagues and was sent to a psychiatric hospital for the second time. She proudly told Xia Wei that she had been an advanced individual in the factory for several years in a row, and had created her own set of warehouse storage processes, and her son had excellent academic performance under her tutoring. She said that she regretted beating her colleague, that she shouldn't have been so impulsive, and that she had been sent to a mental hospital. Xia Wei looked at her sympathetically and said, "Don't blame yourself, just know where the mistake is, you can restrain your impulses in the future, the days are still long, just take this time as a lesson." ”

"Yes, I will never be so impulsive again."

Xia Wei and they all became good friends. One night, the nurse on duty came to the girl's bed and wanted to give the girl an injection, but the girl resolutely refused to give the injection, Xia Wei came to the girl and said to her: "You can get it, you see that you can't sleep well at night, and they are also good for you." The girl was scared and said, "I'm afraid of pain, I don't want an injection." Xia Wei held the girl's hand and said, "Don't be afraid, I'm here with you, be brave, you see that Liu Hulan is not even afraid of death, are you still afraid of injections?" Besides, you're still a police officer. Hearing Xia Wei say such a thing, the girl suddenly became obedient.

The girl looked away in shame, and the nurse smoothly injected her with the solution.

In fact, the key to being with mentally ill people is to respect them and make friends with them sincerely, they are still very obedient.

Xia Wei not only made friends with the people in her own ward, but she also made friends with other patients in the daytime activity room. Among these patients were doctors, teachers, students, masseurs, massage therapists, and farmers. Xia Wei learned massage and massage with the masseurs in the activity room during the day, and then gave massage internships to those older patients, and she also led these patients to do some labor, such as cleaning, washing dishes, etc., and led them to square dance together when they had nothing to do.

The Shanghai eldest sister has been hospitalized in the hospital for more than half a year, she told Xia Wei that she wanted to be discharged, but her husband asked her to write a letter of guarantee, promising to take her home if she didn't mention the divorce again, she said she couldn't do it. Xia Wei asked her why? She said that she had no acquaintances in Shanghai, her husband was the CEO of the company, and she had no time to spend with her, so she wanted to return to her hometown in the countryside after divorcing him.

Xia Wei asked her: "Have you ever thought about how to live after the divorce, whether to find another one, or just be single?" ”

She said, "I didn't think about it, I just thought it would be good to get divorced." ”

"Then you must think about the days ahead, if you really can't do it, don't get divorced."

"But there's nothing to do in Shanghai, and there's no one to know, not even someone to talk to."

Xia Wei further persuaded: "Then do housework at home, and you can also go to orphanages or nursing homes to take care of orphans and the elderly in your spare time, so that the time will not be passed, besides, there are many activities in the community now, and it is good to be a volunteer or something, what do you say?" ”

The eldest sister in Shanghai suddenly brightened: "Yes, why didn't I think of it before, in fact, my husband was a young man who was sent to us, at that time, we were still very in love, we have been living separately since he returned to the city, and now we feel a little strange together every day, and my son is in college in Fudan, and he also needs me to take care of him, so I will listen to you and not divorce?" ”

Xia Wei said, "Okay, it's really good that you can think like this, go to the doctor and contact your husband immediately." ”

"Okay, thank you, it would be nice to know you earlier, and I wouldn't have been in the hospital for so long."

"Well, it's good to recognize your mistakes." Xia Wei looked at her with satisfaction.

The day after the conversation, the eldest sister in Shanghai went back to Shanghai with her husband. Although she lost a confidant eldest sister, Xia Wei was still very happy in her heart.

During her days in the hospital, although Xia Wei had many dissatisfactions, she felt that she had gained a lot, especially after making these special friends, which made her feel that as a medical worker, she had a great responsibility on her shoulders. These patients, most of them are positive people, know from their words: they are fragile, they are not used to seeing the ugly side of society, they are idealists. Therefore, we still need to think deeply, as a person with ideals, ambitions, and self-motivation, how should we treat our own life? How to deal with those things that are not satisfactory, how to deal with the dark side of society and interpersonal disputes, etc., are things that everyone must face.

Xia Wei also saw her own shadow from their bodies, why should she be so vulnerable? Why escapism?

In a flash, it has been almost a month since she was hospitalized, Xia Wei has been clamoring to be discharged from the hospital since she was hospitalized for a week, but no one paid attention, and the doctors said that as long as someone from the family came to pick you up, you could be discharged. Xia Wei knew that her family would not take the initiative to ask for her to be discharged from the hospital, because they were afraid that she would resign again.

Finally one day, a patient's family came to the ward, Xia Wei borrowed her mobile phone to call her mother, she asked her mother to come and pick her up quickly, and her mother said, "I didn't receive a notice from the hospital." Xia Wei was anxious: "If you don't come to pick me up and discharge me from the hospital, you should never come to pick me up and go home." She said this for a reason, she knew that she had been sleeping well, but she was asked to take those sleeping pills every day, and sleeping pills were addictive. She was already feeling the side effects of the drug, her memory was starting to deteriorate, her head was weighing a thousand pounds, it was all affected by the drug, and she didn't want to ruin herself like this.

Xia Wei's mother weighed it again and again after answering the phone, but still came to the hospital to pick her up. On the night of discharge, she didn't want to take the sleeping pills taken home, her head was heavier, she couldn't sleep, she tried to reduce the dose, from one to half, and then to a quarter, after about a week of reduction, finally she could sleep without taking medicine, but the side effects of dizziness and tightness caused by the drug still existed, she went to the provincial hospital of traditional Chinese medicine to prescribe traditional Chinese medicine, every night, Xia Wei had to carefully and meticulously boil traditional Chinese medicine, the boiling of traditional Chinese medicine directly affected the efficacy of the drug, she did not dare to be careless. After taking the Chinese medicine, she felt that her head was no longer so heavy. After a course of Chinese herbal treatment, she felt refreshed and once again appreciated the miraculous effects of Chinese medicine.