"What about you?" I don't know why, but I choked up a little in the face of this lonely spirit who seemed to be bent on killing me. I guessed not badly at all, it was indeed a huge conspiracy and deception, but not about murder, but about protection.

His eyes were instantly veiled, and the hand holding the sword began to tremble slightly, he was making a decision, a very difficult decision.

The tears that were about to slide were fleeting, replaced by a faint smile: "Yes, it's time to put it down." I shouldn't continue to be such a lonely soul with only memories. ”

"You're a good lone," I said, looking him in the eye earnestly, "thank you for everything you've done for me." ”

He smiled sadly: "I betrayed you, caused you to despair and collapse, and almost killed you, why do you want to thank me?" ”

"If you really want to kill me, how can I survive until now?" I say. Qi Yan had countless opportunities to make a move, before I became an adult, after I lost my spiritual power, but he didn't. If it had been another judge, I am afraid that I would have died long ago.

"Maybe." There was no expression on his face.

"The fact that I'm standing here right now is the best proof of that." I said.

"By the way, remember? We used to know each other, and we were very good friends during my decades as people. We play the piano, paint, and recite poetry, but you can't bear to learn these things just by thinking about riding a horse and shooting. A shallow smile appeared on Qi Yan's face, as if he saw the naughty, beautiful and tragic girl again.

It was as if it had been lightly bumped by something, and the vague memory became painfully clear......

After entering the palace, the emperor gave Qiu Mu Hibiscus a teacher to teach Qiu Mu Hibiscus to paint, play the piano and compose poems, Mu Hibiscus always kept negotiating with him and tried every means to sneak out to play, Qi Yan couldn't stand her soft and hard, and pity her for being trapped in this deep palace, so he thought of a way to take her out. After Akiki's death, he worked hard to preserve Akiki's entire body and bring her back to her favorite grassland. He promised her that he would take her back to the prairie. And he himself deliberately violated the royal law and was exiled to the frontier, which was the closest place to the autumn hibiscus.

In those years that she thought were lifeless, she was actually well cared for.

"And who is your master? Is it my mom or me? ”

All kinds of ties between me and Qi Yan, the feeling of déjà vu when I saw Qi Yan before, is there still a life between Qiu Mu Hibiscus and me, and in that life I am Qi Yan's master? My heart was pounding, but my mind was buzzing. Why is it that I remember all the things in my previous life but I am missing this part? It's as if someone deliberately erased it.

Some distant memories are waking up, such as the joints of the grass and trees, a girl in a cheongsam, laughing, making trouble, running, Qi Yan following behind her, there is so much tenderness in her eyes.

"Are you my lonely spirit? Hello there! My name is Lin Xuejing, Shuangmu Forest, quiet snow. ”

"What? Your name is Qi!? Then I'll give you a name! Three fires, Qi Yan! Good no good? ”

"This bracelet was given to me? How do you do it without an entity? I must carry it forever and ever! ”

I looked down at the bracelet on my hand and couldn't help but cry, all the truth has always been around me, and I never found out.

Qiu Mu Hibiscus, Lin Xuejing, and I Meng Yishi.

She said she didn't want to study and wanted to go out and shoot archery on horseback. He smiled and said, OK.

She said that she loved General Anyin and the grassland, and hoped to bring her body back to the grassland. He smiled and said, OK.

She said she wanted to study medicine to save lives and help everyone. He smiled and said, OK.

She said she was in love with an officer and wanted to grow old with him. He smiled and said, OK.

She said that she was no longer his spiritual trainer and that she had handed him over to the Lord. He still smiled and said, "Okay."

And even in the end, she was engaged with him in close combat, he held the sword in his hand but never really raised it, she released ten thousand swords, he didn't even defend himself, still looked at the girl......

How many turbulent emotions are hidden under the breezy smile, he loves her so much, loves her for three whole lives, from life to death, the world changes, but he always looks at her, and protects her all well behind her. She had forgotten, she had not remembered at all, she had not known anything. However, he still ignored it and burned his life just to light her way.

"Three lives of a big dream, eventually lonely" The old man's words sounded in my ears again, three lives, my first life was Qiu Mu Hibiscus, and the last life was Meng Yishi, and the middle life that has been forgotten by me is like this. I have lost him three lives...... I kept following the moon in my dream, but I didn't see the sun next to me......

"The Lord said that he would kill you who had the power to destroy, but now that you no longer have such power, He will not continue to hunt you down. You have endured a lot of hardships, and now you can be regarded as bitter and sweet, start your real life," he looked at me with a smile, his eyes fell on the stone bracelet in my hand, and I remembered that in Qi Yan's painting, the girl had this bracelet on her hand, "And, last question, what color am I in your heart?" ”

I closed my eyes, and my memories flowed, and I remembered the first time I met him in the palace, the first time I called his name in the courtyard, the first time I looked into his eyes through the window in the classroom, a golden light lit up my whole world, and my tears fell: "Golden. ”

The figure I once saw in the illusion became clearer, yes, he was Qi Yan who had been guarding my side! I thought I had guessed everything, but I couldn't match Qi Yan's love for me.

He laughed: "Enough is enough." Finally, it's all coming to an end. ”

"It's not over! It's just getting started! I want to learn to draw, and you teach me to draw. "My tears couldn't stop flowing, I was just an ordinary person without spiritual power, I couldn't do anything, so I had to rush over and grab his arm.

"You never like to paint, just like you don't like me, everything I do is willing, you don't have to blame yourself, you don't need to be sad, in the future you will meet a man you really like to accompany you through this life. Although the life of a human being is very short, it is much more abundant than the boundless life of a lonely soul. You don't like the court, you don't like immortality, and you don't like me. I know you better than anyone else in the world. So, don't cry and let it go. He said softly.

"How do you know I don't like you......" I said in despair, this is my retribution, I have lost him for three lives, and in this life he turned around first with my heart that was hurt by me, but I fell in love with him.

"For more than a thousand years, I'm really tired and want to rest, let it go," his voice was full of tiredness, "Your feelings are not love, but touching." You're going to leave eventually, just like you used to. Everything I can has been done. ”

I raised my face and looked at him: "But I'm already in love with you, maybe I've been in love with you for a long time, but I don't know it." I beg you, don't go, give me some more time, give me another chance......" I was so afraid of losing for the first time.

"I'm sorry, I really can't stay any longer."

As soon as my hand was empty, Qi Yan disappeared.

He was gone and never came back.