The book was never ready. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

Not ready to push.

Not ready to hit the shelves.

I wasn't ready to get so much affection from you.

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After reading the title and synopsis, you can imagine how ambitious I was at that time, wanting to write a fast and cool novel.

As a result, when I wrote chapter 10, I knew that the TM was finished, and the rhythm had slowed down again......

Although I was very frustrated, I also accepted my fate, after all, what I wrote was what I wanted to write.

I thought it was going to be a niche novel, probably not much that people liked to read, but ...... That's right, you used your unwavering voting, commenting, and tipping, crackling, and happily waking me up......

Thank you very much.

A lot happened this year, at the end of last year, I quit my job, and at the beginning of the year, I was about to look for a new job when my mom was diagnosed with rectal cancer.

Next, surgery, chemotherapy, and I happened to have nothing to do, so I took care of her in the hospital.

It's not sympathetic to say this, because it's early, and after chemotherapy, it's already cured.

The part where the protagonist's father's cancer is at the beginning is actually a lot of my own emotions. For the first time in my life, I was so frightened when I saw my mother, who was so pale and so weak that she couldn't even speak, after six hours of surgery.

Because my mother was seriously ill, I had nothing to do, and I didn't know whether it was low self-esteem or whether I consciously reached a low point in my life, and for a year, I was almost cut off from all my friends.

So loneliness, long, long loneliness.

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I have a group of very good friends at the university, and after knowing my situation, they all tacitly did not disturb me except for greetings. Even when everyone got together from time to time, almost no one mentioned it this year. I didn't say anything to them, but I was always touched.

Last month, I received a text message from one of them, and she asked how my mom was doing, and then said that everyone felt sorry for me. Maybe I was lonely for too long, and when I saw this sentence, tears fell.

I'm actually a dark and cold person.

I once was on the beach with my friends, and I saw a man wearing a puppet costume who collected money by deceiving people to take pictures, with a small child, squatting on the side and eating the same bowl of oden.

I told her at the time that I was warmer than you think, and definitely colder than you imagined. I don't think it's right for them to deceive, that doesn't give them sympathy.

It stands to reason that a person like me should have been dark to the point of cynicism and indifference to the point of hate, but I didn't.

Whenever I am about to fall into the cold abyss alone, I always see the warmth, feel the warmth, the many people I have met in my life, my relatives, my friends, who have pulled me out again and again.

Therefore, my dark and violent catharsis is expressed in the article, and the warmth and kindness I accept will also be unbearable and want to convey it in the text.

…… It's really hard for you guys to accept the bombardment of my psychopath.

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Well, back to fiction.

So far, this book has less than 300,000, and there are good reviews and naturally bad reviews. As a newbie, I can't press myself, so I will go to the comment section from time to time to take a look.

It's actually very difficult to adjust my mentality, usually I don't go to bed until two o'clock at night, but every morning after eight o'clock, I can't help but wake up and take my phone to the comment area to have a look.

Whenever I see someone who says something is bad, I will go to the book that I think is good and take a look at their book review section. It turned out that someone would scold such a good book, and the author was not angry...... Then I balanced myself and continued to come back and write my own.

But there are always times when I can't adjust, and then I really want to thank the people who gave me good reviews again, and every time I see someone say that they are moved by the story, I am full of energy.

Thank you for supporting me through the most difficult beginnings.

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Thanks to the editor Kirin University, for giving me the opportunity to push it on the shelves.

Thank you to every friend who voted, commented, rewarded, or even just read the book silently, thank you for your support, and thank you for your likes.

Forgive me for not naming names, but your list is too long and too long.

I thought I would be very nervous at this moment, but I didn't expect it to be calmer than I imagined.

By the way, those friends who read pirated copies, if this book has a moment that moves you, please support the genuine version.

Yes, that's it, I'm on the shelves.

Today's three watches.

Originally, I wanted to do three shifts in five days in a row, but I guess I can't do it in a row, so when I owe four watches, I will cash in as soon as possible, sorry, sorry.

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In the end, this chapter is so long, does it count as a plus......

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