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I'm not a good man

Most of the facilities in the playground Ma Xiangyi's body can't play, and Zheng Xiuyan has no interest in playing since thinking of his body. And Jung so-yeon no longer has the happy smile she had when she first came to the playground. Because, the terrifying atmosphere that made her feel suffocated swept through her heart again. Her hand was clenched very tightly, for fear that Ma Xiangyi on the other end would really leave him one day. Although I have been mentally prepared for a long time, no one will not be afraid of loss.

came happily and returned bleakly, on the bus, Zheng Xiuyan pillowed on Ma Xiangyi's shoulder and fell into the air. There is still some time before the cinema, and she wants to take advantage of this time to adjust her mentality, for him and for herself.

It's just that the movie that just started playing in the cinema during this time period was a sadistic movie "The Eraser in My Mind", and for the two of them, the two of them secretly watched this movie when it was just released last year.

The first time I watched this movie, I came completely for the sadistic plot. And this second time I watched Zheng Xiuyan without shedding a single tear during the whole process, not because she had already seen it, but because she saw more things from the movie than the first time. Love is the eternal theme in the movie, and it is also the main theme of a sadistic movie. No one can tell what love is, and no theory of love can conquer everyone, but sweet and romantic love happens around her all the time, just like Zheng Xiuyan thinks that as long as she can hold hands with Ma Xiangyi all the time, it is happiness, that is love. But often love is also cruel and helpless. Ma Xiangyi's terminal illness has been playing with Zheng Xiuyan's nerves all the time, and I don't know how many times she woke up in her dreams, and then shrunk into the quilt alone and cried in pain. Love can't be parted, otherwise Zheng Xiuyan will definitely cut off her feelings for him. It's not that you don't work hard, it's not that you can't do it, after all, there was a period of indifference to him. However, how willing and willing to let him move forward alone in the gloomy world. How can you bear to see him living alone in a world of insecurity. This is also the reason why Zheng Xiuyan's personality has changed drastically and she suddenly wants to get back together with him.

After watching a movie, the two people walked in the night, holding hands that were not separated from beginning to end. The two men walked with their heads down, neither of them spoke, and came to a Western-style restaurant, where the two sat facing each other, ordered a veal steak and a salad, and the rest was two glasses of juice.

"Ahhh!!h Ernie !! Look at who that person is!! Lin Meijing suddenly pushed Jin Shanmei, who was having trouble with the steak next to her, and pointed in one direction and lowered her voice and said, judging from her expression, she was very surprised, as if she had seen an alien.

"Ah, this damn steak" Jin Shanmei muttered, a little annoyed by Lin Meijing's noise, pushed her head hard, and said impatiently: "Ah, dead girl, what are you fussing about."

"Uh, Ma Xiangyi?" Kim Sun-mi couldn't help but be shocked when she looked at Lin Meijing's fingers.

"It's really Ma Xiangyi's senior!!" Lin Meijing held her hands in her heart and her eyes flashed with a gaze, and suddenly saw the woman opposite Ma Xiangyi, and couldn't help but whisper again: "Ernie!" You see a woman sitting in front of the senior, is it the female relative of the senior? ”

"Phew!! No way! I'm not even half pretty, how can I be his daughter-in-law! Kim Sun-mi took a bite of the steak and said with a sour expression. Then he suddenly got up and was about to leave with a dinner plate, but was suddenly stopped by Lin Meijing: "Ernie!" What are you going to do!! ”

"Shh Jin Shanmei made a silent gesture, and then sat directly behind Ma Xiangyi.

Lin Meijing was burdened and speechless, this is a bit of an infringement on others, right? Thinking so, Lin Meijing also followed with a plate and came to Jin Shanmei's side.

"Yiyi is very happy today, thank you for accompanying me." Zheng Xiuyan showed a sweet smile and picked up the juice and gestured to Ma Xiangyi.

"About" Jin Shanmei vomited, and her mouth rolled slightly: "It's disgusting to scream."

"Flutter" Lin Meijing saw Jin Shanmei's jealous appearance and directly covered her mouth and smiled.

"Wow!!" Ma Xiangyi tapped the plate lightly with a spoon, glared at him, looked at the steak on the plate again, and then took a bite of beef and put it in his mouth.

"Cut!" Zheng Xiuyan pouted, and took the beef out of her anger aggrievedly.

"Then you're about to make your debut, do you have any wishes or any wishes?" Jung so-yeon asked while eating.

"I have a wish, but it has nothing to do with debut." Ma Xiangyi didn't raise his head and cut the steak intently.

Zheng Xiuyan looked at Ma Xiangyi's suddenly changing expression and was slightly stunned, Ma Xiangyi's melancholy temperament was actually mixed with a trace of sadness, Zheng Xiuyan hurriedly adjusted her emotions and forced herself to put on a bright smile: "What kind of wish is that?" Hey, tell me about it. ”

"Do you really want to hear it?" Ma Xiangyi raised his head, I don't know if it was an illusion, Zheng Xiuyan saw that his eyes were full of sadness, and there was a mist in his eyes. Nodding subconsciously, a bad premonition suddenly grew in my heart.

"Then can you agree if I tell me?"

"Yes! You say! Zheng Xiuyan snorted deeply, since it was his wish, then no matter what, she had to help him complete it.

Ma Xiangyi lowered his head and sniffed slightly, letting all the sadness and sourness in his heart be emptied: "My wish is to find a good man to marry in the future!"

"What??" Zheng Xiuyan's heart suddenly ached! His face instantly became ugly. In an instant, the fork fell on the table, and his eyes were moist.

"Yui? Aren't you just a good man? Why should I find another man! Zheng Xiuyan's mood instantly became anxious, although she knew his physical condition, but when she heard his ruthless words, she still couldn't accept it.

"I'm not a good man, Su-yeon." Ma Xiangyi said melancholy, and the mist in his eyes finally turned into teardrops, which gently dripped on the printed tablecloth.

It became difficult to breathe, and Zheng Xiuyan's face also turned pale, the last goodbye? Thinking of everything today, maybe this is the way to say goodbye, right? But at least let me accompany you on the last part of your journey.

Zheng Xiuyan took a deep breath, looked straight at Ma Xiangyi and said, "Okay, I promise you!"

Jin Shanmei and Lin Meijing have long lost the idea of eating, and now the two of them are confused, which one is this? How can it be like parting from life and death? Both of them were a little confused.

Ma Xiangyi took a deep breath, the tears in his eyes were held back, he smiled, and put the cut steak on the plate into Zheng Xiuyan's plate: "Eat more meat, look at your skinny!" After speaking, he picked up the salad and squinted his eyes and ate it.

Zheng Xiuyan gently rubbed her eyes, and when she saw Ma Xiangyi's movements, her lips pursed slightly: "You see that I'm thin, aren't you thin?" Bastard, I think you want to stay in shape because of your debut! Hum! Said so, but Zheng Xiuyan still ate it.

"Ernie thinks the two of them are so weird, huh?" Lin Meijing frowned and looked at Jin Shanmei suspiciously, frowned lightly and whispered: "Senior, his wish is to let the girl opposite find a good man, and he said that he is not a good man, but he cares about the girl opposite in every move, what does this mean?" Could it be that the senior did something to be sorry for the girl opposite? That's why I want to make up for each other, and I can't stand the inner torment, so I propose to let her find another man? ”

"No way, he's not like that." Jin Shanmei shook her head firmly, then sighed and said with a small hand: "I feel that there must be a story between two people, no, I must dig it out."

Zheng Xiuyan returned to the dormitory, tossing and turning for a long time without sleep. All I had in mind was the past with Ma Xiangyi and what he said at dinner. I felt sour and helpless. What could be more desperate than being in love and having to separate in the end?

Taking out her mobile phone, Jung so-yeon dialed Kim Jae-jung's phone: "Is OPPA asleep?"

Kim Jae-jung's magnetic voice came from the phone: "Well, no, what's wrong Su-yeon."

"I want to see you." Zheng Xiuyan's eyes flashed with despair, and there was a hint of resoluteness in her tone: "Now, immediately!"

"Okay, wait for me, I'll come right over." After speaking, Kim Jae-jung hung up the phone.

**Park, Zheng Xiuyan's habitat, sitting on a bench with her knees and looking up at the sky, a running sound came, a black shadow draped in the night from far and near, and when she saw the figure under the orange light, the person who came sped up again, holding her knees and panting: "I'm sorry I'm late."

Jung so-yeon slowly raised her eyelids and looked at Kim Jae-joong. A flash of gratitude flashed in his eyes, and it was because he must have run from the dormitory. Not far, four kilometers. As for cars, Kim Jae-jung will definitely not be able to afford them after only one year of debut, and there will be no more taxis so late.

"Oppa, thank you. You are willing to come and accompany me so late. Zheng Xiuyan put her legs on the ground, took out a tissue and wiped it at the position just now: "Sit with me."

Kim Jae-jung nodded, his handsome face turned pale from running, and his wet hair had no styling at all. If he lets his fans see it, he may be even more disappointed. Because, in TVXQ, only he is the least liked.

As soon as Kim Jae-joong sat down, he suddenly felt that there was an extra head on his shoulder, instinctively straightened up, and said with a stammer: "Xiu Xiuyan, what's wrong with you?"

"Oppa, you're a good man, a really good man. I think, I like you, how about our relationship? Zheng Xiuyan's gentle voice made Kim Jae-jung's body tremble, and she looked at Zheng Xiuyan beside her in disbelief, only to find that she had closed her eyes, and tears were flowing from the corners of her eyes.