The sun was setting, it was getting dark, Xue Ren sat alone in the room motionless, he remembered a lot of things from the past. From the first time I saw Dongfang Yu and fell in love at first sight, to the extreme means to win the heart of the beauty, from finally getting the blessing of both parents, preparing for marriage, to coming back again, the beauty has married another woman. He later did a lot to win back her heart, he deliberately accepted Lin Mei'er, who had always been in love with him, hoping to provoke Dongfang Yu's jealousy, he couldn't rest assured that she was all over the house when he learned that she was all over the house, and secretly went to see her, and finally reluctantly let her die and rescued her.

Before saving them, he told her that he didn't mind that she was married, that she had children, and that as long as she was willing to go with him, he would let her take the child with him, and love and take care of the child as his own. That's what he said before saving their mother and son, there was no lack of transaction, she kicked him out, saying that he didn't want him to save him if he died, and then he saw that her eyes were full of hatred.

Yes, hatred, the same look in her eyes when he first saw her after returning from a gap of three years, but then she disappeared, and there was only exhaustion and relief in her eyes. She said at the time that they couldn't go back, and that each had his own life. The first time he saw this look, Xue Ren was dazzled by deceiving himself, but that time he couldn't deceive himself, the hatred in her eyes was so clear, so clear that he could no longer deceive himself.

In the end, he still saved their mother and son, he wanted to save the adults without children, but he thought that if the children were gone, she would not be able to live, and in the end he saved both. Afterwards she said two things. Oh, how could it be two clear, she owed him two lives, including how he refused to take Yongwei away later, just to use this method to keep in touch with her.

He just didn't want to let her see his daughter and think that he had saved their mother and daughter, that is, when she saw Yongwei, he wanted to make her think that he had spent three years for their future and that he had abandoned them like that, and he wanted her to remember how she had failed him, and to empathize with other men.

But now her daughter came to him and told him that her mother owed him nothing emotionally. How could it not be, put aside his love for saving their mother and daughter, just talk about his feelings for her, everything he has done for her, how can she say throw it away, how can it. Suddenly, a conversation popped up in Xue Ren's mind, he didn't remember who said it, and he didn't remember where he heard it, so he thought about it.

"Alas, have you heard, the Dongfang family plotted to kill the prince and usurp the throne, and was sentenced to be beheaded all over the house!"

"Why haven't you heard of it, it's all in an uproar, you said that the Dongfang family has embarked on this road of no return for generations. ”

"Speaking of the Dongfang family, I have to say that Dongfang Yu, family background, character, appearance, talent, all outstanding, not only in our Anqing, the name of the first talented woman in Anqing is well-known in mainland countries, just such a proud woman of the sky, three or four years ago, somehow fell in love with a kid who sells medicine, this is nothing, I didn't expect to lose the groom at the wedding, that family is surnamed Xue, you say that the Xue family will really spoil people, this good family woman is not ruined. Fortunately, General Yun valued love and righteousness, did not dislike others, and finally married her, but I didn't expect that it didn't take long for this stable life to happen. ”

"That is to say, I heard that the sons of the family who asked to marry the Miss of the Oriental Family lined up from the streets of Chang'an Street to the end of the street, but no one took a fancy to the young lady of the Oriental Family, and they fell in love with such a powerless and powerless lord who did not know how to pity the fragrance and cherish the jade. It is also thanks to the protection of General Yun, otherwise this young lady of the family has a heavy reputation, and she is so humiliated, it is difficult to say whether she will survive or not. Now that something happened to the family, although his life was saved, his relatives died tragically, and this hurdle was also sad. ”

"Hey, to be honest, fortunately, the last person who married her was General Yun, who was favored by the saint, if it was that Xue family boy, not only the Yun family could not be saved, but even the Xue family would have to pay for it, and finally said that the girl married outside the Xue family was not implicated, and the slaves in the family also saved their lives. ”

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Another voice sounded in his ears, when he had just returned from medicine, when Dongfang Yu's red eyes were like tears and the words that questioned him were now clearly echoing in his ears.

"If you want to go, you can go, if you want to come, you will come, what are you to me. Xue Ren, who are you, why are you doing this to me, and what qualifications do you have to ask me to return to you. Where were you when you couldn't wait for your newlywed husband to be pointed at when you got married, where were you when the whole city and the whole world were laughing at me as a talking point, when my father's face was gloomy, when my father was laughed at by his colleagues and came back to get angry at me, where were you when someone came to the door to insult me and wanted to marry me as a concubine, I almost, almost got ...... Where are you when you are insulted, I don't need your broken medicine, who wants your broken medicine, you are not by my side every moment when I need you, and finally you hold this broken medicine and say that it is for me, and you want me to come back to you? Xue Ren, how dare you, how dare you!"

At that time, he saw hatred in her eyes, but when Yun Zhentian stepped forward to grab her, she calmed down, there was no hatred in her eyes, he was stung by that scene at that time, and he couldn't think carefully about Dongfang Yu's words to question him. Many years have passed, and he stubbornly believes that Dongfang Yu has failed him, paranoid and self-righteous.

Xue Ren hugged his head, Yu'er, Yu'er, it turned out that I hurt you so much without me noticing, I hated you so hard for so many years, in the end it was just a joke, it turned out that the person I really hated was you.

When I was young and frivolous, I always thought that no matter what I could always hold in my hands, until I lost my beloved, regretted not being timely, and finally stubbornly decided that it was your fault, and now I was awakened by a person who didn't know much about our past.

It's so cold, it's so uncomfortable......

Lin Meier drugged Yun Yi and guarded her to change the towel on her forehead from time to time, her eyes were full of worry. Since I met this child, I have never seen this child so sick, at most she suffers from typhoid fever, but she doesn't need to drink medicine, at least a day and a half a day, at most two or three days, three days will be fine, just like that, a child is now sick like this, although Xue Chen swore more than once that she was fine, and the next day would be fine, but she still couldn't help but worry when she saw it, and she fell ill, she had never seen it before.

Yun Yi fell asleep, this feeling was really uncomfortable, the whole body was not focused, as if soaking in hot water with ice, very hot, but shivering with cold. This is not the first time she has felt like this, except for the days when she was in her mother's belly, this is the third time she has experienced such a feeling.

The first time was when he was rescued by Su Yan. She didn't know when she became an orphan in her previous life, and she was adopted by several families in an orphanage for as long as she can remember. Seven or eight years old was adopted by a couple who couldn't have children, that family was also a rich family, the man opened a small company, but the good times didn't last long, not long after, the hostess had an accident and passed away, the family's company was also in crisis at that time, the man became more and more irritable, thinking that she was a broom star, always beating her.

Once, the male owner of the house drank too much wine and smashed things at home, she was so frightened that she hid in the cabinet, and finally he took it out and beat her violently. Afterwards, the man fell asleep, and she cowered in a corner, desperately wondering if she was going to die. God still had mercy on her, and the next day the person who was going to buy the company came to the door, and that person was Su Yan.

At that time, Su Yan had already begun to take over part of the family business before he was an adult, and he acted decisively and viciously, but he didn't know why he was moved by compassion, he personally picked her up and sent her to the hospital, at that time she had a high fever because of injuries, fright, and freezing overnight, and the feeling was so uncomfortable at that time. Later, she was almost good, and just ushered in Su Yan's adult birthday, he pulled her and told his elders that he wanted her as an adult birthday gift, and he wanted to adopt her as his own child. At that time, she was silent, but she didn't know why she fell into the eyes of Su Yan, a person who was difficult to please, and thought that she and him at that time may be very similar in some places, such as taciturn.

The second time was in this world, when she was nine years old, after her Shangguan family moved away, her father was worried that she would have no one to take care of her, and he also had the will to train her into a generation of generals, so he took her to the military camp to take care of her. She can read military books at such an old age, and she likes to read military books, but her father is very happy, but what her father doesn't know is that in addition to practicing calligraphy and martial arts, she can only read books in the military camp, and the books are basically only military books, and she is too lazy to practice and practice words, so she can only hold this military book to read.

She practiced martial arts very well, and she basically taught it, so her father was even happier, thinking that she was born to be a general, although she was born a woman, but she was worthy of being the daughter of the Yun family who has been a general for generations, and her father is dedicated to cultivating herself into a generation of famous generals.

Unfortunately, when she was nine years old, her father felt that she had been in the barracks long enough, and often left her at the military doctor to get used to the blood, and felt that the time had come to take her to the battlefield. Yun Yi stayed at the military doctor's place, but she couldn't take her to the battlefield, although in modern times, I have also seen scenes of war, and even more serious scenes, but after all, it is different from what I saw and experienced with my own eyes.

At that time, she was sitting in front of her father's horse, her stomach was overturning, and her father even rushed into the battlefield with her, the smell of blood, broken limbs, painful **, and blood splashed on her face...... After the war, her father happily wanted to praise her for keeping silent from beginning to end, until her father's lieutenant came over and told him that something was wrong with her, and her father, who was occasionally a little nervous, realized that something was wrong, and her whole face was dull, and her body was trembling slightly.

After that, there was a serious illness, and it was the same, and then for a long time, as long as she got something greasy, she would vomit, and then her father gave up her desire to be a famous general, a general who can't see too bloody scenes, don't joke, he will die. It's quite cowardly to think about it, at that time, the two lives combined were in their twenties, and they weren't really children.

Maybe this is also related to being born in a peaceful era, and seeing someone being cut feels painful for that person, let alone seeing such an indiscriminate fighting scene on the battlefield. In the military doctor's place, he may not care so much about saving people, but when he goes to the battlefield to kill people, he always doesn't ask for that hurdle in his heart. She couldn't kill people, even if those people were enemies.

Yun Yi thought, no wonder the recruits are emphasized to go to the battlefield to sharpen, not to mention life and death, just this bloody scene, there is enough preparation to choke. Alas, if she had been born in the war years, if she had to be dragged into battle, then she would have been finished. Now, she still doesn't dare to say that she is ready to go to the battlefield, and now when she thinks of those scenes, her heart is still straight.

The third time, needless to say, is now.