PS: When I was young...... Are you going to hit me? Defend the chrysanthemum and escape......

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Xu Xian, who was suspected of being in love, was sitting in the couple's box with Tang Jinyan at the moment, eating bibimbap while chatting with Tang Jinyan.

Their topic is no longer the kind of serious communication they used to have at school. I didn't take the last step just now, but I really did everything I could...... Although both of them tacitly agreed not to mention it again, the theme of the exchange naturally changed, and more people went to the relationship between men and women.

Xu Xian picked up the bibimbap and asked casually, "Li Yunlin...... You're your woman, too? ”

Tang Jinyan didn't want to expose Li Yunlin's background when he met someone, and asked rhetorically: "If yes, are you jealous?" ”

Xu Xian paused, shook his head and smiled: "What are you doing with her vinegar?" I'm not your woman. ”

Tang Jinyan sighed twice and didn't say anything.

Xu Xian silently ate a few bites of food, and then said in a low voice: "There are many women in the underworld like you, right?" ”

Tang Jinyan nodded: "Yes." ”

Xu Xian asked very seriously: "Why do you want to be an underworld?" You love learning so much, you can be a useful person without being in the underworld. ”

The dullness is back in the air. Tang Jinyan smiled dumbly, shook his head and said nothing.

Xu Xian said tentatively: "Renjing Oni...... Isn't it? ”

On the phone call just now, the other party was obviously a singer, and he had recently released a song. As a peer in the circle, Xu Xian knows very well who has recently released songs, and the first one is T-ara. It's just that the voice doesn't sound like Park Suyan, so she can't be sure.

Tang Jinyan smiled: "Su Yan is not. Speaking of which, I would like to ask you, last time I said that she warned me not to bully you, why was your attitude so strange? At that time, it was not good to ask a lot, but now you can ask, right? ”

Xu Xian was silent for a moment and replied in a low voice, "I hurt Ernie. ”

Tang Jinyan was stunned: "A person like you, like a virgin, will hurt people?" ”

"It's people like me who are easy to hurt people." Seo Hyun's eyes were gloomy, as if he was stuck in a memory: "When T-ara debuted, our "genie" was on the list, and everyone met in the background. Ernie had changed from our older sister to our junior, and she was embarrassed and didn't know what to call us, and I ......"

Tang Jinyan understood a little, frowned, and said, "Don't you think Su Yan wants to call you senior?" ”

Xu Xian bowed his head and said, "Yes, there were a lot of outsiders present at that time, and I always felt that it was right to follow the rules agreed upon by everyone...... Ernie's expression at the time was ...... Since then, she has been very polite when she sees me. ”

Tang Jinyan was a little speechless. From the moral point of view of the underworld, no one will help you if you are beaten to death.

Xu Xian said in a low voice: "Later, when I went back, I knew that I had done something wrong, and I was always uneasy. Over the years, I have also wanted to change myself, but there is always some futility......" Speaking of this, she raised her head: "The biggest change I have made is tonight, and I even doubt that it is not me...... Maybe in the dark, I should have this fate, and you used Ernie as a friend to teach me a lesson. ”

Tang Jinyan smiled and said, "Do you think this is a catastrophe? ”

Xu Xian's face was slightly red, but he still looked at him very quietly: "What is it that is not a calamity?" I...... I've been like that to you. ”

Tang Jinyan said with a smile: "In these years, how normal is it to have a night or something, not to mention that we haven't really done it yet, you think it's a disaster?" ”

"One night or something, it's unimaginable for me......" Xu Xian flattened his mouth, a little sad: "I want to leave my first kiss to my boyfriend, but, but, but...... Forget it, you saved me. ”

Tang Jinyan disagreed with this kind of thought, and teased: "Actually, I think I'm still good, and it's nothing to develop into a boyfriend." ”

Xu Xian shook his head and said in a low voice, "The boyfriend I want...... He wants to be devoted to me, and you can't do that. Even if you don't mention that, at least at least, you have to be a good person, you're not. ”

Tang Jinyan's relaxed smile on his face slowly disappeared, and he looked at her silently for a while: "Didn't you say that you want to change yourself?" Why are you still following these rules? ”

"It's not a rule, it's a bottom line." Xu Xian's eyes were clear, and his tone was slow but firm: "It's impossible for me to treat someone like you as a boyfriend, at most...... Make a regular friend at most. ”

Tang Jinyan leaned back in the chair and tightly pinched the armrest of the chair with his right hand.

He just casually teased about his boyfriend, not really. But when I heard this, my heart was still very depressed, very ashamed, as if something was about to explode.

It's like this for everyone......

It's all like that......

It's always the same sentence, you're a bad person.

Song Ji-hyo, who is close to his heart, said so, and Zheng Eun-di, who fell in love, also said so. Because Xu Xian almost caused a discord between his brothers, led to the remake of all plans, and the future was uncertain, she still said so.

Yes, it's true that I'm a bad person, and I don't deny that I have bad intentions for you before. But am I really all evil in front of you? What is my kindness to you, my hesitation, my indecision, my insistence, my renunciation, the dull knife, and the ruthless heart? Is it a clown? You have to say so hard to even be friends?

He looked up at the ceiling, and after a while he said lightly: "I have a woman I like, and I was just going to play with you." It didn't work out anyway, so ...... Be my guest. ”

This means, don't do it even if you're a friend. Xu Xian's face turned pale, biting his lower lip, and he said for a long time: "Okay." ”

The two were silent together.

After eating bibimbap like chewing wax, Tang Jinyan arranged for a younger brother to send Xu Xian home, and left directly without saying a word, walking towards Li Yunlin's apartment.

Xu Xian sat in the car, turned his head to look back, and he couldn't see his figure clearly in the night.

She didn't say anything about his ugly words, because she knew that, just like Renjing Oni back then, he was also hurt and was talking angrily.

But......

Just going to play with you...... Play with you......

She clutched her heart in pain. Why does it feel so painful, like something is cutting inside, as if it is about to crack......

I have never felt like this, even if I encountered the cold black sea on the stage back then, I didn't have such a heartache.

I'm ...... What's wrong?