It was dawn, the glare of the sun forced me to get up from the bench, and I curled up like a tired old man. A coat came from behind me, and it was warm.

Pan Zhen went around to the bench and sat down, handed me a cigarette, and lit one himself: "Why do you sleep here?" ”

"It's quiet here." I said calmly, in fact, I haven't seen him for a long time, and I still think about it in my heart, but I just don't want him to see it.

"Let's go out and hide, I'm afraid the matter between them is not so easy to solve, so many people have died, the old man has begun to recruit troops and prepare for war."

"Wu Yingtian? Hehehaha" I laughed sarcastically: "This is a legal society, what else does he want to do in peacetime?" Rebellion? ”

Zhen turned his face to look at me, his expression was helpless: "Zhang Yao, have you ever had water in your brain?" This is not the kind of war you think about at all, the battlefield may not be in this space, ordinary people don't care, but you and I are different, I don't want you to get involved. ”

"Shock, do you have the ability to erase memories? Give it to me, I'm so tired. Even if you smear me as a fool. Tired leaning on his shoulder.

"I won't, and even if I will, I won't use you, I know you're in pain, but I don't want you to forget about me."

People, really selfish, live for as long as they want. Perhaps it is precisely because of this that it is worth loving and being loved.

"I still have things to do." With that, I stood up, returned my clothes to him, and turned to leave.

He grabbed my hand behind him: "Zhang Yao, let's go." I'll take you into hiding, and it won't be long before things pass. ”

"Hmph, how long do you hide, three years, five years, or thirty years, fifty years? You can afford it. I can't. I still have to spend time with my parents, who are getting older. If this is really an inevitable war, I also want to see who is right and who is wrong. ”

Zhen didn't speak, just let go of my hand.

There was no turning back, leaving a touch of indifferent back. Rushing back to the dormitory, everyone was gone. I guess I went to the cafeteria. The mess of wine bottles and leftovers on the floor seems to have been left uncleaned.

I changed my clothes, tidied up the room, and prepared to go to the teaching building to find Xu Xiaoli later.

When I packed up to Dongyang's desk. A locked drawer caught my eye. I dragged it, and it was quite sturdy.

What's in it? I puple the broom and put it together. A black diary? It's the only thing I can think of, he doesn't remember it anyway, so it shouldn't be a voyeur.

Raise your right index finger. Use a little sorcery. Instantly melts the dark lock. When I opened the drawer, there were several black books inside. I gently took them out and put them on the table, pulling out a random copy of them and flipping through them.

Saturday, December 18th

Today is my 20th birthday, which is very special because my brother will be by my side, I don't know if I blame me for hitting him yesterday, and he still doesn't look very happy when he goes out.

December 19th. Sunday

I didn't expect something to go wrong, maybe the strange things he encountered in the KTV were a sign of danger. I'm very angry. Because nothing can help him when he is in pain and helpless. Seeing that his injured arm was bleeding, the only thing I could do was take him to the hospital.

He was so tired that he fell asleep in the car, and I took the leather gloves he gave me the day before to look at them for a long time. I don't remember much of him, except for the image of an adult taking him away in front of my eyes that day. The scene of him crying and calling out to my brother has become an inescapable memory in my dreams.

He is very good-looking, especially his eyes, which are very much like his mother.

******

I closed the notebook, looked up at the window, and unconsciously saw a blur in front of me.

The door to my dorm room popped open, and I hurriedly put the journal on my desk back in the drawer. Maybe it's a little messy in the room, and the people who come in don't notice my presence.

I poked my head out and looked out, only to see Dongyang holding a beautiful woman leaning against the door and kissing passionately.

Well, is this still the person in the diary? I think if I don't go out again, they're going to start undressing

"Ahem!" I stood up and walked out.

They were all frightened by the sudden noise, and hurriedly packed their clothes, and looked at me in amazement.

"Didn't you say no one?" The woman was angry, opened the door and hurried away.

"Hey! - Dongyang angrily rushed at me and grabbed my collar: "Little white face, why are you hiding here if you don't go to class?" ”

I looked him in the eye very calmly, "I'm sorry. ”

I apologize not for interrupting their passion, but because I am the fault of what he has become, and I regret it.

Unexpectedly, he couldn't help but swing a punch and hit me in the face: "Apologizing is a fart!" Everyone has run away, you accompany me!! ”

I staggered to get up from the ground, and he rode on top of me at once. I only now found out that although this guy has not learned any martial arts skills, and the fight is home, as long as he beats me, I have not been able to dodge once.

The fist rained down, and I had to use my arm to protect my head and let him vent.

"Uhhh

"Dongyang! What happened to you? I hurriedly stood up.

"Medicine" His painful expression was shocking.

I started rummaging through each cabinet, and finally found two painkillers in the pill box, and I fed him them, and he relented.

Helping him back to his bed, watching him sweat profusely, I sat on the edge of the bed with a handkerchief and dried him.

He was asleep, and I took out another diary to look through.

Wednesday, February 3

Today is the Spring Festival, and it should have been a happy day to be with my brother and his family. But Pan Zhen's arrival disrupted everything, he said my last name, and my brother's adoptive mother seemed to sense who I was and became estranged. She was afraid that I would take my brother away from her, and I could understand that.

Tuesday, March 5

I've been looking for two days, and there is still no news, he only said to go to the Internet café to play, why didn't he come back? Have I lost him?

Wednesday, March 6

Someone brought me news today, I went to his place, I couldn't believe it, he was so badly injured, the white gauze on his back was soaked with blood. I don't know what he's been through, just glad he's alive and maybe those people will let him go.

******

I put away the diary and glanced at Dongyang who was asleep, he used to be the only one in the world, and I forcibly erased myself from his memory. The guilt is too much to compensate.

Gently close the door and embark on the path you should go, carrying the friendship of brothers, the lives of lovers, and the kindness of parents on your shoulders. Don't blame anyone, because that's my life. (To be continued......)