"You ......" I was speechless, I didn't know how to speak.

"Isn't it scary how I look now?" The Queen Mother slowly helped me up, "Appearance is what I valued the most, but after your father left, I didn't know who else looked at this appearance." I understand the saying that women are allowed to please themselves. You're right, there are too few people in this world who can afford to let go of love, and I'm no exception. ”

I looked at her, and it turned out ...... In the past few years, it seems that the saddest thing is not me, although she, like me, is not living for herself now, but at least in the past few years, I am free, even if there is no longer a lover around, there are always friends and brothers, and she is only in this deep palace, and no one can see that she is sad...... I blamed her......

I muttered: "The Queen Mother ......"

She looked at me and said, "I don't blame you, I know you're feeling bad too." Your father was in prison that day...... I got the news, and I only saw him for the last time. He only said that the most sorry thing in this life is your third brother and you, I am not convinced in this life, I am not convinced, I chose this palace, but these three words are not convinced, but the two of you have harmed your life......"

This is the first time I have faced Ding Xiang's death, and it turns out that my stubborn father finally regretted it......

"He asked me to protect you no matter what, and said that as long as you are here, the Ding clan will not die. Later, they came with the news that you were ...... too I thought I was going to break my faith with him again...... I don't know how I'll see him when I go down to Yellow Springs...... I ......" The Queen Mother said word by word, as if she was telling me, and as if she was telling it to herself. Or is it for Ding Xiang?

I just looked at her in a daze, my eyes wet. I have never faced up to the relationship between the Queen Mother and Ding Xiang, and passed by my beloved. It hurts, right? Later, Ding Xiang empathized with others, but the Queen Mother never complained, perhaps, after all, she lost him first...... I can't tell if Ding Xiang still loves the Queen Mother in the end, but he believes that her has not changed from beginning to end. And she has only lost him once in her life. Only married into the palace once.

As the Queen Mother spoke, her eyes suddenly lit up, and a smile gathered from her eyes: "Now." Finally I can see you, and I can finally keep my promise for once. Even if you die in the future......"

I raised my hand to gently wipe away the tears from the corners of Empress Dowager Shen's eyes and cheeks, and said, "If my father knows, I must also hope that the Empress Dowager will take care of her body." As the Queen Mother said. You and I still have responsibilities on our shoulders, and we can't die, and we can't afford to die. ”

Empress Dowager Shen let me move, and after a while, she said again: "Where have you been in the past few years?" I don't believe you can ...... so easily Two years ago, I heard that Hu Zhenguo was mainly married to a Han woman surnamed Ding, so I sent someone to investigate, who knew that Hu Zhen came with news. It is said that the woman suddenly fell ill with a bad disease, and the lord of the country searched for a good disease to no avail. The marriage was postponed, and the salute was only given after the woman's illness had been cured. At this point, there was no more news. It is rumored that the woman is dead at all, but the lord of the country is in love and does not want to admit it; Some people also said that they were indeed suffering from a bad disease, but they were afraid that they would pass on the illness to the lord of the country, so Princess Hu Zhen took her sister-in-law who had not passed through the door to rest elsewhere...... The people I sent didn't find out, so I had to give up. ”

I didn't know what to say for a while, but when I suddenly heard the news of Yan Yue, I didn't know what kind of mood I should be in to deal with it. It turned out that he still refused to admit that I had left Hu Zhen a long time ago...... I believe Ling Yun and they already knew about this matter, but they just didn't want to mention it in front of me. Now it is useless to mention my entanglement with Wan Yanyue again, so he straightened his face, shook his head and said: "That's not me, I just went into hiding, and I only returned to Beijing more than two years ago." ”

Empress Dowager Shen nodded, slowly took my hand, and went to the back of the gauze tent. In addition to the chair at the top behind the gauze tent, there are also two chairs on the side, and the Empress Dowager Shen motioned for me to sit down, and I also walked to the top seat and sat down. We slowly collected our feelings.

She looked at me for a long time before she spoke, "You've grown into an adult, let's say, shouldn't you have come to see my jokes this time?" Although I know it's something you've always loved to do. ”

I sneered and said, "The Queen Mother is serious, I ...... Can't. ”

"Don't dare?" The Queen Mother's eyebrows raised and smiled, and there were thousands of brilliance back on her face, worthy of being a great beauty, even if she has been haggard and old in recent years, she still has a demeanor, "What else do you dare not have, the first time we met, I mocked me as the Chang'e who ran to the moon, you have always been very bold." ”

What happened back then, everyone was in their hearts, and it was suddenly exposed by her, I didn't know whether to recognize it for a while, only a disguised smile: "No, that's to praise the Queen Mother for her appearance than Chang'e, and the moon is shy ......."

The Queen Mother shook her head and said, "You, let's say, what's the matter with finding the mourning family?"

When I heard her title change, I knew that Shen Biying, who was strategizing, was back, so I got up and bowed: "There is no it, I just ask the Queen Mother to help me." ”

"Oh~" The Queen Mother's tail voice was raised high, "How big is this arm?" The mantis arm is also an arm, and the elephant leg is also an arm......"

I slandered: "The elephant leg is naturally a leg, how can it be an arm ......" but I didn't dare to say it, thinking about it carefully, the elephant does not distinguish between front and back, it seems that the front leg can also be called the forearm......

The Queen Mother ignored my mental activities and only asked, "Who are you supporting now?"

Sure enough, it was the Queen Mother, and the question hit the nail on the head.

I smiled and said, "The people I support are naturally related to the Ding family. ”

The Queen Mother's eyes were light, as if she was thinking, and then her eyes froze, and she said, "You want to help the former prince?"

I don't know why, when I was looked at by the Queen Mother, I was a little weak-hearted, and I didn't dare to admit it, but I just bowed my head and said nothing.

The Queen Mother looked acquiescing when she saw that I didn't speak, but seemed to hesitate a little and said, "You ...... I heard your daddy say it...... I thought you ...... ...... will help Lao Jiu"

I was stunned, I didn't expect Ding Xiang to tell the Queen Mother about these things, the Queen Mother Xu saw my thoughts, and said slowly: "Your father came back from Ancheng, probably already felt that something was wrong, and I talked to me for a long time when I found an opportunity to enter the palace that day, and I have always regretted forcing you to take over the responsibility of the Ding family, which ruined your marriage." But at that time, he couldn't think of it, except for you, he really couldn't think of anyone else who could be in this position, just thinking that you could protect your third brother and the Ding family......"

"I've already ...... I don't want to get married. I quickly interrupted the Queen Mother's words, I don't want to follow her words anymore, if I don't take the "purple eye" that day, then is it still possible for me and Jiang Yunxiu, "It's a pity, even if I took it, I also lived up to my father's trust, and after all, I couldn't save the third brother, nor did I save a clan...... Therefore, now I only think about how to avenge my father and third brother, and I really don't think about anything else. As for the Nine Princes, he is only my enemy now......" (to be continued......