Her mother was married three times in her life. The first time, it was with her father, who gave birth to her.

The second time, when she was eight years old, her father left home with her bag after a big quarrel, and her mother remarried soon after. The third time, she was twelve years old, and she was already roughly sensible, and she was able to accept another clutch and reunion with seemingly calm feelings.

It's just that that year, my mother said to her, in the future, you can take my surname with me, change your surname to Li, and call her Li Na. In the future, Mom will probably have to change men, and you will treat them as cats and dogs, and you don't have to care about them. In this life, you are just the daughter of your mother, and you don't recognize anything else. She smiled and agreed. At that time, I vaguely felt that my mother would become a prophecy.

Sure enough, a year later, my mother divorced again, and she never got married again, but there was no shortage of men in the family.

She didn't know why it was the strangers who came home every time instead of her father, and her mother didn't explain. Although she was full of questions, she never took the initiative to ask her mother.

From childhood to adulthood, every classmate liked her, because she was bold and cheerful like a fire in winter, and if she was not careful, she would burn the entire desert, not to mention a small school.

Her mother lived so well on the street where her family lived, probably because of this character. Not afraid of people's words, ignoring the rules, enthusiastic and upright, kind and ferocious.

Women hate, men love.

She is not ashamed of her mother, but feels that her mother is her pride, but occasionally when the mother and daughter are alone, she gradually understands her mother's loneliness.

And at first, I became friends with Summer, just because of a kind of guilt, a habit.

Apologized for yelling at her in the playground that day because of her personality problems.

Habitually pampering and infecting everyone in sight, hoping to become their center. The transfer student, who looked like a little hedgehog, was always careful to smile when talking to people, for fear that his thorn would hurt others, and if he was not appreciated, he would shrink into a ball in frustration.

Later, on the day she was punished for cleaning, she generously stepped forward and stretched out her hand, unsurprisingly harvesting the simple, warm, shy and surprised eyes of summer.

People who have been covered by Li Na will not be too lonely and will not be harmed. Soon everyone accepted the little hedgehog, and she happily became a member of the group.

originally thought that Summer would only be the most ordinary of her many friends, but I don't know when she gradually became her best friend.

When Summer shared her biggest secret with her, her secret love for the boy named Xiang Chen, she sneered reflexively in her heart.

And then a rapid self-loathing.

It is the age when flowers are blooming all over the place, and I have too many fantasies about beautiful love, but because of my mother's experience, I resist myself to believe stupidly.

Such a contradictory and gloomy self didn't dare to show it in front of his best friend, watching his friend's downfall was like watching a small play.

When Xiang Chen left school, she thought that everything was over.

It's like the love my mother had, and every youth movie.

Many people like the word dream chasing, that is because there are too few people who really chase it, and once people realize that their front is a dream, they will be discouraged.

No one likes to be a fool.

But she was a little shocked to find that the summer had changed, she listened carefully in class, no longer held hands with her after class to visit the playground, but chose to study diligently, at the beginning she was just casually proposed to let her and Xiang Chen take the same university, but that summer like a fool actually took it seriously, I thought she couldn't last long, this insistence lasted for a year, until the admission letter of Yuda College came down, she had to accept this fact, summer, she was really chasing her dream.

Later, she went to a different university than Summer, and she thought that she would always keep in close contact with Summer, but she broke off their friendship with her own hands.

Soon after going to the United States in the summer, she met a boy, the boy took care of her in every way, sang and played the piano for her, and wanted to give her the best in the world, at first because of the influence of her mother, she couldn't believe in love, but after a long time, she also fell into the arms of the boy, she was really happy at that time, I remember when she told the news to summer, summer was very happy for her.

The sky is unpredictable. It wasn't long before she noticed that the boy who had been attacking her in every way was beginning to distance himself from her, and that a woman's sixth sense was always so terrifying.

Sure enough, in the middle of the night on a Saturday, she found the boy who said he loved her, boasted that he had promised to let the sea rot, and that he would die playing guitar for another girl under a big tree, and finally kissed. When she saw this scene, she felt that the sky had fallen, and a lightning bolt woke her up in an instant, it turned out that the so-called love was really fake, all the good was fake, and all the vows were even more fake. For the first time, she opened her heart to accept the boy's love, but in the end it ended in such a way, she wanted to cry without tears, so she could only look up and ask the sky with a wry smile, what is love?

In order to find answers, she began to wander around different men, and gradually became in the same stream with those unscrupulous women, visiting nightclubs, smoking, drinking, and fighting became her daily routine, but she didn't tell Summer all this, she didn't dare, she didn't have the courage, she was afraid. Summer called, but she didn't answer, and then simply changed the number, and gradually she lost contact with summer.

The meeting a few days ago, the summer is still that summer, I believe in dreams, I believe in love, but I have seen through the vicissitudes of red dust.

Looking at the girl's smiling face, listening to the girl's soft and delicate voice, I felt a reassuring power, she couldn't say what it was, but it was very much like the home of her father before he left.

Besides, she has always had a knot in her heart, that is, to see how the story of the summer without the presence of the male protagonist will end in the end.

It seems that he needs a proof in his heart to prove that there is something rarer than dinosaurs in this world, called undying love.

There are two villains in her heart, hidden deeply, one sad and the other optimistic, both wanting an answer.

This is probably a ridiculous thing, pinning one's own destiny and the direction in which one will go on the insistence of others.

In fact, it has always been her own who is really weak and afraid of love.

She actually didn't love the blind date boy at all, and although she tried to talk to him for two years, she still didn't have any feelings for him.

On the night she saw Summer, she lay in bed thinking about the direction she should go, whether to find her original self or continue to be so depraved and resigned to fate, and finally she mustered up the courage to call the man, then turned off the phone, packed her clothes, left a letter, and left overnight.

She needs to get back to her former self, life is too short, and she doesn't want to be like this for the rest of her life.