I've been thinking about it for a long time, I've been thinking about this book, and I've been lingering in my mind about the chase of police and bandits, maybe I'm born, I just like excitement, and I've been constantly watching some blockbusters at home and abroad to recharge myself, when I used to write every book, I was halfway through writing, and I couldn't write it, this time, I will stick to it, whether you like it or not, I will stick to it, because this is what I want, and after being silent for so long, I finally figured out what I wanted. Thank you. Thank you to those who will see this round-up in the future.

This story is purely fictional and any similarities are purely coincidental.

I was born into a rural family, and my parents were ordinary farmers. When I was a child, I was a good child, at least I didn't cause any big trouble, and it was normal to get into fights and be naughty. I lived a comfortable life until that year, when my family changed drastically, and I was destined to embark on a road of no return.

That year, I was 19 years old, the conditions at home were not good, my parents were always arguing over money, and the originally harmonious family became not harmonious. I'm woken up every night by my parents' arguments, I'm fed up, I'm really fed up, waking up in the middle of the night and lighting a cigarette will calm me down, don't be surprised, smoke is really a good thing, it can calm people down.

Oh, by the way, I haven't explained myself yet, my name is Chen Xiu, as for the surname, I won't say it, I watched a TV, and one of the eldest brothers in it said, the name is the father and the mother. Now the grass is gone. I didn't dare to use my real name anymore, so I named myself Chen Xiu. Isn't it artistic, I've always thought of myself as an artist, maybe I watch too much TV. I didn't go to school, I graduated from junior high school, and I just wandered around the street, which is also the reason why my family was dissatisfied with me, always reaching out for money, and I had no choice but to look at the eyes of my family. It's okay to laugh at yourself. I've also worked a lot of jobs, washing hair in hair salons, stringing on construction sites, and waitress in hotels, but I haven't been able to do anything. Hehe, I always comfort myself that I will definitely be productive in the future, and I will definitely be rich in the future.

That winter, my life changed forever, and now I'm in prison, thinking back to that winter, if I hadn't made that choice, I probably wouldn't be sitting here, with nothing but cold bars. Do you regret it, I once asked myself, the voice in my heart told me strongly, I don't regret it, everyone said to pretend to be strong, maybe that's what I am now.

It was unusually cold that winter, with heavy snow every three or two days, and I had a few friends at a string shop. Eating skewers and drinking wine, I'm so unhappy. They're all the same as me, they're not going to school anymore, they're always wandering the streets, they're what people call second-rate, every gang has a head, and we have it, but it's not me, we call him the Boss, a few years older than us, at that time. In our eyes, this person is exquisite, and he is righteous enough. That's enough. It's ridiculous to think about it now. We drank wine that day, chatted about the day, and I really can't remember what we were talking about, anyway, it was just some bragging, and we worshipped the handle that day, five people. My second child, and the remaining three brothers, I will introduce them to you later, I don't know, it was because of this meal that I completely embarked on this road of no return.

Hey, you little cubs, give me a little sound, didn't you see us eating? It was a few men at the next table who spoke, looking at the wine bottles on the table, and they didn't miss a drink. I'm fucking, I'm talking, I don't have anything to do with you, I can drink you, I don't know how to drink some wine. It was the fourth child who replied. The fourth child is the most capable of playing among our buddies, and he is also the best physique, 175 is not tall, but the thick muscles on the body are not ornaments, and the fourth and fifth are my small hair. Who the are you talking about, and the people at the table stand up as they say that, who the are you talking to? Know who I am? In the northeast, it is customary to come out and pretend to lift people. Who am I as my younger brother, who is my eldest brother, generally, I know people when I hear it, forget it. At most, sit down and have a glass of wine. The fourth child is a brainless person who is more impulsive. "you, I don't care who you are." That's how the bloodshed happened in the Northeast. We all stood up when we saw that the situation was wrong, and I put the bottle on the edge of the table, so that it would work well with the guy in my hand when I got my hands on it. This is the boss coming out. "Brothers, when you eat in the eldest brother's store, you come to praise the eldest brother, it is to see the eldest brother, face, forget it, the wine brother please, okay!" "No need, I have to play with these little cubs today." "you." As soon as the fourth child finished speaking, the wine bottle smashed down, bang, the intimate contact between the wine bottle and the head, with the fragments of blood fell to the ground, and the scream of the "blood" waiter made us wake up, followed by the constant scolding and the sound of the wine bottle breaking, and I don't know whether the wine bottle is in close contact with the head or the ground. The second one to do it should be me, because I'm relatively close, and I'm also prepared, pick up the bottle, and smash it down with all my strength, I smashed the same person with the fourth, because he was too close to me, to be honest, I didn't smash him at the time to be angry for my buddy, but I was afraid that the fourth child would have no effect on him, don't turn around and rush at me, so I have to be prepared first, just in case! I can only remember that after that person was hit by me, we threw the wine bottle at the gang, and the gang didn't care about us, they all went to see their accomplices, and we were able to escape, to be honest, it's really exciting to think about it now, seriously, for a moment, I had the feeling that I was making a movie, after beating people, we kept running on the street, I don't know how long, we were tired anyway. We stopped, "Er, you're too ruthless, I'll smash him, you can make up for it." "Am I not afraid that he will do it? We can't give him room to fight back, otherwise, there are so many of them, what will we do. "At this moment, we are still pretending to be free, and we don't know how much trouble we have made. The boss didn't speak until I learned later that the boss knew the person we beaten. Honestly, I can't tell you that we didn't continue to drink that day. Instead, they all went home.

I barely slept that night, the first time I shot someone, I think I'm quite powerful, fast, no different from the people on TV, but what I don't know is that the TV uses props, and today I use a real wine bottle, and I was almost in a nightmare all night, I dreamed that a person came to me to ask for his life, holding a knife, and I was the most me, I ran hard, kept running, kept running. Finally he caught up with me, "Ah, no. "I woke up, sweating, the room was empty, my home is a two-story building in the countryside, I live upstairs, my parents are downstairs, fortunately I didn't wake up my parents, light a cigarette, calm myself down, looked at my phone, it's four o'clock in the morning, tonight is destined to be a sleepless night, I don't know what to do, whether the gang will retaliate. What should I do, I asked myself. The rooster crowed, indicating that the day was dawning, and at five o'clock, the sky was gray, and the sky was very low, as if it was going to snow. No matter, I'll sleep again, just squint for a while, and I haven't slept steadily. "Buzz...... Buzz...... "The phone rings," "Hey." "Maybe I haven't woken up yet, I said in a hoarse voice." Something went wrong. The voice on the other end of the phone was suppressed, and I didn't hear how excited I was. The voice was deep, "What's wrong, what can happen."" Something happened to the guy you hit yesterday" I seemed to hear a shocking news, like five thunderbolts. "What's wrong, what's wrong with him" I tried to calm myself down. But I still couldn't control the fear in my heart. "That person has a fractured skull, intracranial hemorrhage, enough people are choking" I really don't know how to describe the mood at that moment, the sky is falling, yes, that is probably the only thing I can think of, my sky is falling, I am killing. I really killed someone. "Hey, hey, are you listening. What happened to you. "You're saying he's dead, aren't you?" "I asked a friend from the hospital to inquire and said that it didn't work when he was sent there yesterday. It may not be able to make it up. You and the fourth child should prepare early. "Dut...... Honk...... Beep, that's the sound of hanging up, what should I do, oh my God, what should I do. I kept asking myself, I really didn't know what to do. I opened the cigarette case, and I wanted to smoke a cigarette to calm myself down. I tried to calm myself down, the lighter couldn't be used in my hand, I found that my hands were shaking, my hands were shaking, my hands were shaking, maybe the fear in the bottom of people's hearts, was completely stimulated, the cigarette was lit, inhaled, the smoke, a trace of wandering in your body, lungs, which made me calm down. (A joke comes to mind.) What to do if there is a gas leak at home, don't be anxious, don't panic, light a cigarette and calm down. Haha) Smoke is a good thing that will calm you down quickly. I was wondering if I was going to turn myself in, they were the first to pick it up, I was just an accomplice, and I could be considered self-defense. Even if someone dies, I will be sentenced to defend myself too much. I studied law on my own, and this is the first thing that comes to my mind, and maybe turning myself in is the only thing I can do. In that moment, it occurred to me that even if I was convicted of excessive self-defense, I would have to stay in prison for a long time, my youth, my freedom, nothing, no. No. No. I don't want it, I want to be free, I can't go to jail, I'm only 20 years old, my whole life can't be ruined like this. I was lying in bed, cold all around, until 8 o'clock, three hours, the longest three hours of my life, I was making a decision, a decision that would affect my life.