I couldn't get used to the noise and hustle and bustle of the night market.

To put it simply, I was guilty of an occupational disease.

A person walked in front of him, and naturally looked at the other party's body shape, walking gait, and then naturally came out with a state assessment in his heart, always guarding against how to defend or counterattack when suddenly attacked.

Among the shouting and shouting fist orders around me, my ears were full of sounds that were more likely to arouse my alertness, and even the muscles in my body would react accordingly to those sounds.

So before I finished a bottle of beer, I was already nervous three or four times and suddenly turned around, and almost threw out a buddy who patted me on the shoulder from behind......

Brother Seahawk looked at me a little strangely, and I really couldn't find a suitable topic for everyone to talk about.

And although old musicians like Brother Haiying can barely gain a foothold in the dance hall and even play their own band, the living environment and conditions are getting worse.

So after a few drinks, some names that I had never heard of and things that I had never thought of kept ringing in my ears, and Brother Seahawk cared far more about these names and things than I did when I came home to visit my friends.

Suddenly, a voice in my heart was gradually ringing, and it became clearer and clearer.

I don't belong to the environment I used to live in anymore, and I can't even keep up with my friends' minds.

I've been away from this city for so long that the city has forgotten me, and even my friends have forgotten about me.

I was sitting in the middle of the city, but I was drinking alone.

The lack of alcohol is boring, and everyone can see my boredom, so naturally I dispersed early.

For a few days in a row, I met many friends.

This feeling of loneliness is getting stronger and stronger.

When they are older, they all have their own families and naturally have their own life circles. Many of my friends were surprised and then curious about my sudden appearance.

But in the end, it was relative silence.

The days of the past, those days when we were together, have become memories of youth and frivolity.

Dusty or forgotten.

After trying to think about it and then mention it, it seems that I deliberately want to give an explanation to my friend.

I didn't bother to go out, so I stayed at home alone. Every day, I either accompany my wife to the street to buy some home-cooked dishes, or I sit on the balcony and look at the sky.

I had only been out of the army for a few days and I was starting to miss my troops.

I couldn't sleep in, and although I didn't have a wake-up number, I would wake up early every morning, and then quickly dress my hands and feet, and fold the quilt into a square shape.

I always run in the early morning mist without being supervised, and the sound of my footsteps slowly wakes up with the whole city.

When night comes, every unusual movement wakes me up from a deep sleep, and a pair of hands have already crept under the pillow.

Habitually, I should have a dagger under my pillow......

When I wrote this, I wanted to say to the bloody kid who wrote "Wolves......

Bloodpiercing, you dead fat man, if you don't give me half of the manuscript fee, I'll be done with you!

After ten days like this, I feel like I'm about to become stupid?

Why don't I get lazy?

Why do I have to toss myself around this rare vacation?

In this idle and bored state, I remembered Jiang Kuan's giant grandson's request to me.

I got up early in the morning and walked slowly towards the school that Jiang Kuan said.

Some schools in Changsha were as beautiful as clouds back then.

Even if this appearance is natural, under the influence of culture or art, even an ugly duckling can quickly have the behavior of a swan, which is naturally very attractive.

Let's just gossip here, right?

I feel that the influence of culture and art can sometimes make people become temperamental, but sometimes it can really make people become a little elegant!

Before I even walked into the school, I had already seen several extremely handsome gentlemen walking across from me with their orchid fingers shaking their fingers, and they made me so disgusted!

It is undeniable that if these gentlemen dress up in ancient costumes, hold a gold-sprinkled folding fan and wear a winged hat, it is really the taste of a beautiful son in the turbid world.

But I really can't stand a gentleman in a casual suit smiling and dancing towards .......

I hurriedly lowered my head, and then quickened my pace and rushed towards the inside of the so-and-so academy.

To say that in the environment at that time, the so-and-so academy was still very tightly managed, and when ordinary people passed by the doorman, the old man who guarded the door had to interrogate a few words.

At least it won't be like now, every weekend, when it comes, the BMW Mercedes-Benz stops at the door, and then it is to watch the phenomenon of fragrant cars with beautiful women with white hair and petty babies become an erosive landscape.

But at that time, I just stared so straight in, and the old man who guarded the door waved his hand quite kindly and said hurry up, I'm in a hurry!

Well?

What does that mean?

I was thinking about it while walking towards the academy, when I saw a woman with a lot of personality beckoning to me and saying hurry up, hurry up, then the People's Liberation Army armor, you hurry up!

People's Liberation Army A?

I wonder when did our military master have such a title?

I jumped around the woman to ask what was going on.

But before I could speak, the woman with a board inch stuffed me with a wooden gun, and then said hurry up, this test shooting must shoot that kind of momentum, especially you PLA A, B, C, D, that is to perform hard, don't fool!

Presumably in order to accentuate the tone, the woman with the board inch said imposingly as she walked towards the camera - film costs money......

I pinched the wooden gun in my hand, and then I looked at the handsome men around me who wore military uniforms and all kinds of clothes, and I kind of understood.

I've been making trouble for a long time, and I'm trying to shoot a movie here, and I just think I'm a drama bug in that certain academy, right?

I pinched the wooden gun and was about to walk over and tell the woman that I wasn't a drama bug, I was here to find someone, and there was already a shouting over there, and then the test shooting began.

I just looked at a handsome guy opposite me who was obviously lacking in confidence and shouted, wearing a little devil's military uniform and rushing towards him, the wooden gun and rubber bayonet in his hand swayed and I looked at the posture that I couldn't pierce and I could still fall on my own heels.

I say it in good conscience......

I'm really not a stinky showman, I'm just a habitual action.

A shout of kill plus a standard anti-stab, and then I felt that the wooden gun in my hand hit something, and then I looked at the handsome man who was on the point and screamed, and the whole person flew out sideways.

Everyone was stunned!

I guess I've never seen anyone stab people out with a wooden gun, let alone an ordinary person who can shout such a sharp voice, all the drama bugs and the handsome guys from the so-and-so academy stopped the blind gesture in their hands, and looked at me so stupidly.

For a long time, the woman with a board inch suddenly jumped up from behind the camera.

How should I describe that woman?

That is the virtue of the big horse monkey on Mount Emei who was stung by a wasp, and the whole person danced and shouted vigorously as the old master danced.

All right...... It's just this momentum, it's this taste!

The woman didn't pay attention to the handsome guys who fell to the ground and hummed, and said directly in front of me that when the real shooting was filmed, it would be like this, which acupoint are you with, I will find your acupoint immediately, and I will ask you to shoot the big action of the extras in this short drama!

And then I just look at my military uniform and say why are you wearing this? This is a film on the theme of the Anti-Japanese War, why are you wearing a modern military uniform? hurriedly picked up and changed into the coat of the Eighth Route Army, and I said that the drama was .......

I hurriedly took advantage of the woman's turn to look for drama and said, sister, don't worry, you are mistaken, I am not a drama bug, I am here to find someone. Do you know Meng Sini?

Hearing me say this, Sister Bancun also turned her head to look at me, and then said I said, why don't you look like a drama bug? You're really a soldier, aren't you? The Meng Sini you are looking for is in my class, you teach these People's Liberation Army A, B, C, and D to do it, and I will help you find Meng Sini.

Come on!

I kind of got someone to arrest the strong man......

And looking at those extremely handsome gentlemen, I thought how come these current gentlemen have the idea of feminization? With this virtue, I teach them to play assassination and play at a decent level?

It is estimated that it will take at least two years to see the effect of the pips!

There's no way, I can only make do with a few routines, but why is it so awkward when I listen to the voices of those gentlemen shouting and killing......

It's easy to make do with those guys to learn a few blind strokes, and as soon as I turned my head, a very beautiful sister stood in front of me and said You are looking for me?

I admired Jiang Kuan's grandson's eyes.

I've seen a lot of good-looking girls, but this one in front of me is really a bit of a national color and fragrance, especially when the eyes turn slightly, then you can say a lot of words.

I'll just say yes, I'm Jiang Kuan's comrade-in-arms, and he asked me to come and see you. Tell you to take care of yourself and wait for him to come back.

The girl smiled, and I knew something bad was going to happen when I saw it.

It was a cold, disdainful smile of disdain.

The girl said that Jiang Kuan still remembers me? In the past two years, there has been almost no news, and the letter is just a few simple sentences, but now I think about calling people to come and see me?

You just go back and tell Jiang Kuan, it's time for us to finish!

After saying that, the girl turned around and left.

I'm just a little out of the mood!

What's this called?

The woman who can make Jiang Kuan's grandson think about it in his heart for two years actually came to such an answer after hearing Jiang Kuan's greeting?

Then how do I reply to Jiang Kuan?

I hurriedly walked around the girl and said what was going on? You have made it clear, and I can give Jiang Kuan an an answer.

The girl looked at my uniform and sneered and said that I am nineteen years old, and I am only nineteen years old in my life.

I was young and pretty, and I used to be the Trumpet Flower Lady somewhere, and the people who pursued me were all in the car, and all of them could give me a bright future.

I have to find a better home for myself when I am young and beautiful, or at least to enjoy a good life.

But what can Jiang Kuan give me?

I won't talk about how many dollars a month I make as a soldier, and I can't even be by my side, so why should I spend the best years of my life waiting for a man who can't see a future? To pay for a relationship with no future in sight?

If you don't understand what I'm talking about, then I'll tell you more directly!

I want the enjoyment of a good life, not the Puritan toil! Tell Jiang Kuan that we are finished, it will be over a long time ago, and it will be over on the night he went to be a soldier!

I just stood there and watched as Monsini walked away with her little waist twisted and her grace remarkable. And I can see that the girl is living a good life, I don't know anything else, but I have seen a pair of high heels on the girl's feet in a department store.

That's 1,091 pairs of designer shoes.......

I was almost stupid!

This is the woman that Jiang Kuan's grandson has been thinking about for two years?

This is the answer that Jiang Kuan's grandson got by playing with his life and plucking his life?

Jiang Kuan is only twenty years old this year, and Jiang Kuan is only twenty years old in his life......

So what are we working so hard for?

We don't know that it's better to sleep lazy than to practice hard?

We don't know that the monthly allowance is so much that three melons and two dates are not as good as going home and selling tea eggs to earn more?

We can practice this ability, and we can even learn to use high-precision weapons, which means that we are not stupid?

Could it be that Meng Sini is stupid?

It's not like it......

My mind was in a mess......

Later, I really couldn't figure out this question, so I took this question back to the army and found a suitable time and place to ask the instructor.

The instructor was drinking with a cup, and next to her sister-in-law, who had just come to visit relatives, was busy making a few more side dishes to entertain our hungry ghosts who came to eat at the door.

The instructor drank the wine in the cup very magnificently, and then said, bald, think carefully about what the girl said, especially think about what she said these words?

Then you think about these ways that you pondered, what identity do you use to think like this?

Then you'll have the answer!

I figured it out, and then it really dawned on me.

The first word Meng Si Ni's girl said was - me.

And the first word I think about is -- we.

That's the difference, and it's two completely different lines of thinking.

I said that I am a cheap person, so don't take what I said below as a stupid old man scolding the street, I just want to express that.

According to Meng Sini's line of thinking, that is, as long as I am full of food and drink, and have fun, other people's other affairs will be my business.

The more direct idea is that I will follow whoever can give me a comfortable life.

As for feelings, those things are not sold on the street, and they can't be eaten. Naturally, I didn't take my feelings seriously.

This can be regarded as a way of life.

And we think a little differently.

We are full, and we still think about our father and mother, and we still think about our buddies and brothers.

So we went to practice, our group of brothers suffered in the ice and snow, and the father and mother could live at home with peace of mind!

This is another way of being a human being.

To put it bluntly, the army condenses and sublimates the feelings between people to another level.

Therefore, the feelings of the military masters are the most sincere and deep!

So, the difference between being sentient and being ruthless is so huge.