066 Old Clothes
"Huh? It's someone who knows Sister Xinai, and she goes to Grandma Himeko's house to work when she's on vacation, and she met me when she took me to take a bath a few days ago. Miao'er took Jin Changyuan's hand and walked out, but hesitated in her heart.
Tell me about clothes? I'm afraid it will hurt the self-esteem of this young man who has just regained some confidence, but sooner or later she will know, she can't help but wear those clothes when she gets them back! After hesitating for a moment, Miao'er still said cautiously tentatively, "The family is all good people!" Last time, they also said that they would pack up some clothes that their sisters didn't wear for me and Sister Xinai to wear! ”
As soon as these words fell, Miao'er obviously felt that her hand was tightened, and the footsteps next to her were also half a beat slower. Miao'er half-lowered her head and didn't dare to look at his current expression, thinking that it would definitely not look good.
Jin Changyuan is really uncomfortable in his heart now, his heart is trembling, and his eyes are a little moist. His nephews and nieces are now afraid that they will have whatever they want, and go to the best schools and get the best education. But why did his daughter follow him to live such a life? How did he get to this point? What a failure! Looking at his daughter's even small clothes, Jin Changyuan felt more and more that he was a bastard, sorry for this villain! What does the adult world have to do with her, she is the one who has been left behind like herself, and she doesn't even have the right to choose. They willfully brought her into this world but couldn't give her a good life, it was really a father in vain, and he was ecstatic when he first learned of her existence, but when did he start ignoring her!
Jin Changyuan didn't want to think about it deeply, lest he think that the woman had caused him to lose his good mood, so he sorted out his expression and touched Miao'er's head with a smile, "It's Abba's bad, Abba's heart is rough, I didn't find out that our Miao'er has grown taller again, let's go, Abba, I'll take you to buy two clothes now." “
"Don't!" Miao'er shook her head hurriedly, why do you want to buy free clothes now! It's a waste to spend this unnecessary money, anyway, as long as she has enough nutrition, it won't be long before she grows taller, and she can't wear this clothes again. Now the conditions at home can still be saved! She had just seen that after buying painting utensils and bed sheets, Jin Changyuan obviously didn't have much money in his wallet. If they buy two more clothes, what will they eat afterwards? Is it difficult to borrow money to maintain the salary until next month? Maybe she still has some savings at home, but Miao'er doesn't plan to spend it.
"What's wrong?" Jin Changyuan was held by his daughter, and looked at his daughter who didn't look very happy with some doubts, don't children like new clothes? Especially girls, no matter what age they are, they love beautiful clothes!
"Abba, I'm hungry, let's go eat first, I'll just wear the clothes casually, anyway, it won't be long before I grow taller again, and it's a waste to buy it." Miao Er struggled to figure out how to phrase it so that it didn't sound so hurtful." Sister Xinai also said that there is no need to spend money on this, and it will not be wasted when we grow up to buy beautiful clothes, and I will go to school next year, and I usually have to wear school uniforms! ”
Jin Changyuan felt that something was blocked from his heart to his eyes, so sour and soft that he didn't know how to describe it, he really wanted to wave his hand and didn't care about anything, and said to her lovely and sensible daughter, don't be so thrifty, buy whatever you want, Abba will buy it for you, buy a hundred and eighty pieces and wear new ones at home every day, but thinking of his shriveled wallet, he really can't open this mouth.
Money, heh! The things he had always thought were unimportant and looked down on now had pushed him to such an extent that he had to think about even the money to buy clothes for his daughter. Oh, he didn't know what to say except for a wry smile, so it's no wonder she wants to leave, it turns out to be prescient!
Knowing that he injured his hand and couldn't draw, he was dropped out of school and kicked out of the house, even if it was already useless. I already knew that he couldn't afford to raise her daughter, and one day he wouldn't even be able to afford her clothes, so he found a way out early, right?
It's really realistic, it's really sad! What is love? Is it really that fragile? Is it possible that the love and affection in the past are all fake? Is it really like my father said, she looks at herself for material things like her family's money?
These questions have been bothering him since she left, he is unwilling to admit all this, and denying their previous love seems to confirm his stupidity and naivety, losing his family, school, future, and life for the so-called love...... The result was betrayal! He didn't want to think about this at all, and he didn't want to think about how selfish and sinister human nature was......
But at this moment, in the face of this pair of beautiful, watery eyes that looked at him with dependent eyes, he found that he had been thinking wrong, it turned out that he was not so nothing, at least from that failed relationship he got the most precious, his angel, a kind, sensible and smart little angel who would feel sorry for him! In the past, those complaining about the sky and sad autumn, the feelings and people that made him painful seem to be unimportant at this time, the most important thing for him is how to work hard to make money, so that his little angel can live a good life.
At least she must be able to eat, eat, and wear beautiful clothes, so as not to bring her to this world in vain, and she must not be too much worse than other children. Thinking of this, Jin Changyuan felt that the dust that had been enveloping him was blown away by the breeze, his eyes were bright, the air around him seemed to be much fresher, and the whole person was different all of a sudden.
The past events, that woman is not so painful to think about again, the feeling of love to life and death seems to have all turned into a bubble and disappeared all of a sudden, now think about it, maybe as early as the moment she left, he was already disappointed and no longer loved her, but that unwilling emotion has been affecting him, he lost everything for her, how could she leave with some money and leave, without even looking at her daughter?
Acknowledging the reality of her selfish power is like denying the love between them, and affirming her father's words proves his failure. So he has always been reluctant to believe it, and has been making all kinds of excuses for her, but now that I think about it, it's really funny, that kind of woman is really as ruthless and unrighteous as his father said, or is the old man with poisonous eyes! He only brought her home once, and his father saw through her true colors, but it was ridiculous that he was blinded by feelings when he was opposite to her day and night, and said so many hurtful things to his father, and now he wants to go back and apologize but he doesn't have that face!
Wait! He thought about a way out, and when he was in a mess, he went back to his knees and begged his father for forgiveness.