00 wedges

"If you could turn back time, even if you lost your direction in the middle of your life, I would never let you go and let you go willfully to the end with bruises, because..."

- Zuo You

01

"Because of what?" Under the long street lamp, she looked at the half-love words that were half-written, and couldn't help but become interested in the various bloody plots behind, and asked the boy softly with interest.

Zuo You's tall, slender shadow followed closely behind the girl with the ponytail, and the girl's question overwhelmed the boy.

- Actually, I really have a lot to say to you.

- Thankfully, you don't.

"Huh?" When Shang Xia relied on the dim light, he could barely see the story that Zuo You wrote in his diary, which was very similar to a love story, and he couldn't help but look at this cold male god in front of him, but his mind was as delicate as a little girl.

"Hey, it's okay to be cold in front of your classmates, what kind of shelf do you need to put in front of me?" The girl still walked as if no one was around, and the boy only pursed his lips, not wanting to speak, and continued to silently listen to the natural sound of her slender vocal cords rubbing along the way.

02 Shang Xia

If you want to talk about the first time we met, it goes back to 10 years ago. On a snowy night, I climbed step by step, and the whole trail seemed to be as long as it could not be walked in this season.

My parents seem to be close friends with his parents, and I didn't see him when I used to get together with my uncles and aunts. Knowing that when I was 7 years old, I sneaked out of this sheep intestine trail.

The sound of deep snow piercing the silence of the night. I sneakily climbed onto a plane tree that had completely lost its branches and leaves (I couldn't help but be more active in the first place), the cold bark was rough, and I gritted my teeth as the night went on, grasping the branches with one hand and going up with the other foot, just like a monkey going up a tree.

Patches of white snowflakes fell on my cherry hat, leaving transparent traces of water on my face that was red from the cold, but my petite and delicate body was slightly bloated because I was wrapped in a thick cotton coat. But I don't know what to think, but I still climbed up step by step like a snail without hesitation - it wasn't until I climbed to the top of the tree and realized how the bottom was so far away from me, that I understood what the so-called "can't go up and down" feeling was like.

So my tear ducts are also frantically making transparent liquids with a rhythm that can off the tree at any time, and I also have a characteristic, which is crying... Extraordinarily large. I clung to the thicker branch in my body, my eyes closed, this is good, if I don't die, I won't die, I really want to die young.

In the whole snowstorm, some only left a long period of darkness, a brief sobbing sound.

It seems that hanging up like this is too unvigorous...

Then God couldn't bear to see me so depressed, and landed a great naivety that I would not admit that he was handsome, and the boy suppressed my crying.

"My dear, little sister, please don't stop crying..."

The boy has a flat head, he doesn't seem to care even if he is covered with white snow, under the thick eyebrows is a pair of delicate eyes, a glove with loopholes moves left and right on the bridge of the tall nose, not still snorting, but this is not as good as humming Yang Kun's hot song at that time, through the distant wind and snow, I can still see his teeth clearly, like day, slightly giving me hope for life.

He wore the most popular personality scarf around his neck, and although there was a faint light, I was still not sure what the color of his down jacket with his hat fluttering, a pair of slender but strong legs wrapped under a pair of jeans, and his shoes were deep in the snow but they were pulled out as if they didn't care, as if nothing had happened to him walking in the snow.

"Hey, help!" My sharp voice suddenly became more and more poignant with the wind, and I should have stopped this young man with a personality.

But then I noticed that his expression didn't seem right—there was a cold glow in those bright eyes, and then panic.

"There's... There are ghosts! "I couldn't believe that this kid was so daring, and was frightened by my words.

In fact, in this old night path, any poignant voice, including me, would be frightened.

However, I was so speechless, looking at the salted fish that was about to arrive, suddenly jumping away, and trying to reach out to catch it again, as if I couldn't do it through a thick solid wall.

Once again, my tears flowed down my face.

The cold wind and the dappled moonlight echoed my crying, like a horror story often told by old people, which scared this fair-faced boy into running away.

"You're a pretending B-dealer!" I don't know why, the cry was louder, there were no stars in the night sky, only the shadows of the trees, the bluestone path covered in snow, and me and him.

03 Zuo You

I admit that the feeling of walking in the cold wind is really chic, and I wanted to try the feeling of being a lone ranger alone in this late night, but I heard a faint sobbing sound in the distance-

"You're a pretending B-dealer!"

When this sentence came to my mind, I realized that there was indeed a person hanging on a branch not far away where the trees were concentrated but there was no feeling of the beauty of the herbs.

As a result, my trembling pace at the touch finally slowly changed from running backwards to slowly moving forward.

The quiet night was broken by this sudden roar, and in a house not far away, my parents were drinking and chatting with my friends, and the lights were flickering, but I still locked my eyes on the front.

I only heard the sound of "ah", the black shadow suddenly became like a gibbon, and fell from the tree, maybe the wind around me was too loud, I did not hear the screams of landing, but vaguely saw her weak arms swinging on the not very thick tree root.

"Help!" Her poignant voice made me wonder if I was really hell. But as a "talent", how can he be frightened by the slightest sesame fear in front of him?

So my steps turned into three steps and ran one step at a time, and I kept shouting, "The one in front of me who doesn't know if it's a human or a ghost, hold on, the hero will come soon!" ”

"I'll be hanging up when you come over!" I carefully identified the source of the sound this time, went to the bottom of the tree, and looked up at the man who had just scolded me so much... Girl.

"Hey, why don't you speak, you won't be in a vegetative state, right?" My casual tease seemed to provoke her anger again.

"Nonsense, if it weren't for the fact that this girl was in danger, she would still be able to use you coward?" Under her high hat was a face that completely subverted my ideological outlook, although her cheeks were no longer red at the moment, and the sky was gradually white.

"If you want to live, you have to listen to me, hold on first, I'll go back to Mom and Dad..." I found that my eyes had been completely disoriented, and the clothes on her waist and abdomen were gradually lifted by the long force of gravity, and then, a bright pure white came into my eyes.

"Ahh

"Oh come on...", under the snow, my mouth gnawed a large mouthful of ice slag, and I always felt as if there was a heavy object lying on my body. Pushing away the snow around her, I saw an indelible sense of irritation in her flushed face—

"Ahhhh The screams were heard again thousands of miles away, and I heard her crying out at me in a momentary stupe.

"Look at me! I'll tell you, you're in trouble today! You're responsible for me! She pouted and said with a three-inch tongue that I was useless, and I spread my hands helplessly and shook my head.

Excuse me, did I mean to?

04 Shang Xia

Before returning to the hut, I dragged him to his parents by the flower thief who was still dead and hard-mouthed, and at this moment they seemed to be toasting, and the yellow-orange bubbling liquid seemed to be still for a while, and I found that they were looking at me with a funny look, and then my dad spoke, "Lao Zuo, look, your naughty child has not been subdued by my Xiaoxia?" ”

"Hey, I said Lao Shang, why are you getting more and more unable to speak now, it's obvious that your family Shang Xia is bullying my family Zuo You, it's just that this kid has been letting her..."

"What?" I looked at this boy who was still unscrupulous in front of me just now, "You are that Zuoyou!" "I put another popcorn on his head.

"Lightly start!" His annoyed look reminded me of the time when he was humming with his hands in his pockets, and he burst out laughing.

"Hey, I said, if you're sick, can you let me go first?" He saw that I was smiling unabashedly (I was polite to him, but he hadn't been to the party for years), and finally wanted me to beg for mercy, but this was it—it didn't seem sincere.

"Hey, by the way, Lao Shang, look at the two babies in front of us, the age difference is only two, what a good man and girl, born a natural pair..."

"Come, Shang Xia, call mother-in-law..."The woman sitting next to Mr. Zuo probed me with a kind smile, and I saw that there was no malice, so I went with the flow.

"You, you, you!" But Zuo You seemed to understand something, and pointed a finger at us.

"Zuo You, do you think there is anything bad about our family Shangxia? What a marriage. Listening to the adults say that, I just giggled, but I didn't know what it meant.

Including when asked about Zuo You in the future, he just smiled slightly and didn't say a word.

With our growth, time is imperceptibly developing our body, posture and psychology towards the boundary of youth.

"Hey, look, that boy in the school uniform is so handsome when he plays." On the brightly colored basketball court, the sound of various brand-name sneakers rubbing against the ground can be heard from time to time. The thick clouds dispersed, a ray of sunlight sprinkled down the mild air, and Zuo You's upper body was even more dazzling due to the light reflected by wearing the school uniform, especially the last fixed-point three-point shot, and the hit!

"Wow!" The girls in the audience seemed to be shocked by the wonderful performance of the capable players in this game, and they stopped for a while before they reacted, breaking the atmosphere that was not very peaceful.

"Isn't it just shooting, what's all the fuss?" I watched the senior in front of me being thrown high by my teammates, and then looked at the group of girls around me who were eager to go up and give birth to him immediately, and couldn't help muttering, "Hey, I said, do you believe that he will take the initiative to take care of me next?" ”

"Just kidding, if you can do this, I'll treat you to the food in the future!" The girlfriend next to me looked at me who still looked dignified, and even dared to say such things in a wild voice, and countless questions came to my heart.

Then I looked at him from afar and seemed to fix his eyes on me, and I smiled helplessly at this boy who could only play handsome, so I watched from a distance as he followed his teammates and punched him to indicate the next fight, and his footsteps came in my direction.

"No, I won." I spread my hands to my girlfriend, expressing my joy and helplessness.

05 Zuo You

That year, I was a junior in high school, and she was a freshman in high school.

"Hey!" Ignoring the crowd, I chuckled and stepped forward, the beads of sweat falling from my hair like morning dew, lighting up the faint dawn.

"You're good, you know how to play, and the girls around me are almost uncontrollable." Shang Xia pouted a little dissatisfied, and said angrily.

"Hey, I'm also a celebrity, Xia Xia, give me some face-" I saw that she was not in a good mood, so I immediately started to comfort her.

"Xia Xia, Xia Xia, you are so good." She rolled her eyes at me.

"Okay, good, my bad, it's okay to let you sit in the back seat of my VIP when I drop you off from school." I really couldn't resist her temper, so I could only compromise half a point with her temperament.

"Think beautifully!" She smiled slyly at me, and then strode away, leaving a scent of wonder in the shade of the campus trees.

Every night, under the street lamp, there will be our shadow, which is infinitely extended below, leaving the best memories of youth. And every time we walked home together, she would always walk calmly in front of me, and I, holding the bicycle, always followed behind her shadow.

Along the way, after a brief period of silence, she would tease me from time to time, and then because I noticed that she was grinning thin lips, I liked the way she smiled, like honey, in the dimples next to her cheeks, brewing a lot of sweet happiness.

"Hey, what's wrong with you?" Seeing that my eyes had been staring at her face, she turned her back delicately, and I could see the sweet aftertaste of her mouth, so I simply did not say anything to spoil the quiet atmosphere.

"No, it's nothing, I just think you're fat again." I'm a little incoherent.

"What?" Her hands swam up my abdomen at some point, and I felt a sharp pain and tingling all over my body.

"It hurts... It hurts! I laughed and grabbed her still strong hands, the firm and powerful palms wrapped her jade onion fingers, and the moment my hand touched her, her palm was quite soft, as if it was slowly rubbing on a ball of cotton fabric, and my face turned red at that moment.

"You! Took my first hand-holding! She looked at me with some annoyance, and nudged me, and I didn't know why, I didn't expect that such a weak force could shake me several steps.

"After all, you sent it yourself..."

"Ahh

On the day of the college entrance examination, she woke me up early in the morning and handed me the hot milk she had secretly brought from home, "No," she blinked her diamond-like pupils and offered it with both hands.

"The ......," I was slightly stunned by the sudden discovery of her conscience.

"This is what I deliberately set aside for you for breakfast, and the few days you walked with me in high school should be regarded as a ...... It's welfare, come on for the college entrance examination. She said these words a little shyly, and the breeze blew, and she bowed her head slightly, and her eyes were a little erratic.

"Thank you." I smiled and thanked her for being able to give me this special care at the most critical time of my life. I didn't expect that the more surprising thing was still to come, but I felt that the clavicle began to feel a quiet warmth at this time.

"You, you, I'm two years older, and I don't even have a collar to do the opposite." Her hands were like the rain of early spring, resting on my shoulders, skillfully flipping my bent collar, leaving an indelible mark on my mind.

06 Shang Xia

After graduating from high school, Zuo You was admitted to a university close to his hometown, and he still studied day and night as usual. And I continue my learning career in this school full of memories.

Until that day, in the summer of my seventeenth year, the best memory.

The festival was supposed to be the most romantic time in the whole school, I followed a group of female compatriots to hold their breath, the first few shows really surprised us, usually all kinds of boredom mixed with screaming, so I simply didn't look up to look at it, and wrote my homework offstage.

Suddenly, time seemed to stand still, and I felt a brief moment of intense silence that made the whole space stand still. Then there was a sudden burst of sighs from the audience, "Look, the pianist in the white dress in front is so handsome!" My companion shook me, and I looked up tirelessly, but I didn't expect it, as if I had been shot by Cupid's arrow, and my eyes watched his hand play from the first note to the end, and the song was like water, not so much meandering, only the serenity that flowed out slowly. His fingers seem to have a special magical power, and every time I touch the white keys, it is also when my heart starts to move.

When he finished the last note, he stood up gracefully, and then bowed politely, gentlemanly. The surrounding crowd finally couldn't hold back the surging in their hearts, the applause was thunderous, and the screams resounded in the sky.

I watched in amazement at his striking performance, all his movements, including his smile and his eyes, replayed in my mind several times.

Therefore, I managed to fall in love with someone at the beginning of my relationship.

What made me even happier was that he agreed to my confession.

From then on, it became him who accompanied me every morning, replacing Zuo You. Because Zuo You was busy and my studies began to be nervous, I didn't ask him to accompany me anymore, but this boy named "Yuan Chen" accompanied me from morning to night.

He is very intelligent, versatile, and proficient in various musical instruments, Yuan Chen, who is proficient in various musical instruments, often takes me to his piano room after school, and every time I stay, I have to stay until late at night before I can go home. Over time, my academic performance began to plummet, but it was him, who was not affected in the slightest.

"You say, I'm with you, but nothing else, but your grades have been raised......" Under the street lamp, I continued the road with some dissatisfaction, so far away that there was an unknown darkness ahead.

"Because—" He suddenly leaned towards me, his slender arms gently wrapped around me, I inadvertently lost my strength, the slightest warmth came from both shoulders, the sound of heavy breathing came to my ears, I slowly closed my eyes, feeling the moist heat between his lips.

We embraced each other, and the faint night decorated each other's serenity with a sparkling light, and even the flowers and plants on the ground began to lift their skirts slightly as the wind blew.

When I opened my eyes, I saw a figure in a black trench coat gradually coming out of the thick black shadow, and the light gradually climbed up from the soles of his feet, and the familiar feeling was like a time in the past, slowly scratching me. The atmosphere was finally broken at this moment, and I saw that Zuo You's originally expectant and beautiful face was full of shock.

07 Zuo You

In my busy life, I followed the tide of time, and my mind began to surge, and it may even rise to a level that I thought was incredible, but when I saw the two of them kissing that night, I should have understood that I should not have fallen in love with Shang Xia so uninterestingly, this girl with her own dreams could leave me at any time.

“…… Shang Xia, hello......" My stammering accent couldn't hide the endless disappointment at the moment.

"Uh, Shang Xia, what is this?" Yuan Chen saw that my eyes were not quite right, and asked with some puzzlement.

"This is Zuoyou, my ...... Brother. After hesitating for a moment, she came over and took me by the hand as a gesture of kindness. I watched her smile barely squeeze out, and an indescribable feeling of discomfort beat in my heart.

"Haha, it turned out to be Shang Xia's brother, hello, my name is Yuan Chen." He held out his hand to me, and out of politeness I stepped forward to shake him.

Of course, for that incident, when I walked under the streetlight with her again, I would pretend to miss it with my memory, and forget the best.

After graduating from university, I rented a small library in the center of the city, and decided to open a simple library, which I was not used to doing alone, and my hands would always tremble a little whenever I passed the thick books.

She ...... I think I like to read books too. "I was a little excited to put the last thing back in its place.

In the hall, there is no special furniture, the warm wallpaper can add a little warmth to this cool space, and there are various large and small round stools around several round tables, Shang Xia once told me that she likes to collect all kinds of round stools, and then I follow her mind to put these around what I think is memorable, waiting for her to come every night.

After all the readers had left, I finished packing up the books that had been left on the table and prepared to close the door.

In the middle of the night, except for the occasional sound of the wind, there is no color that can impress the thick night.

But I don't think so.

"Can you give me a seat every day in the future?" The fire was still burning slowly, exuding a little bit of mildness, and the sound of Shang Xia was like a winter plum blooming in the heavy snow, blooming silently.

"As long as you want, the door here will be opened for you every day." I couldn't help but laugh when I saw her flannel hat under her fluffy hat.

In the days that followed, she would always come when I was about to close the door, pick a few random books from the shelves, and take a few breaths at the fire, as if to thaw her cold hands, and sometimes she would cross her fingers a little embarrassed to put them on her chest when she saw my expression.

"Well, when the ice melts on your hands, it's easier to turn the page."

Looking at her slightly embarrassed smile, I couldn't help but pour a few more coals into the stove for a few more days, and all that remained in the middle of the night was the occasional smoke wafting from the remote library.

At this time, I usually give her an extra hot drink prepared in my hand, and she just smiled and took it, in such a situation, she usually sits on a round stool, curled up to show her willingness to keep warm, however, in general, I don't take the initiative to talk, I know that she is tired, especially falling in love with a boy who can't give her a future, which is even worse for her at a young age.

She sat on a round stool, her misty eyes fading as the night wore on, until her eyelids fell back together. I saw that she finally couldn't help but doze off, and I didn't bother to wake up, but just took off the coat hanging on the wall and gently draped it over her.

Cycle.

08 Shang Xia

When I woke up, he had already put the prepared breakfast in front of my desk, "I didn't bother you to see how you slept last night, and it's not too early now, so let's go back to school quickly." "When he heard me in the bathroom, he vaguely explained all sorts of things that weren't very important, as if he was holding toothpaste.

"Oh." I gently responded, picked up the washed dishes and chopsticks, and ate the free breakfast.

He was always silently by my side to support me and accompany me through my lonely journey.

But I didn't know how to thank him.

Even if he knew, that "thank you" had long been accustomed to him.

"Let's break up." It was another blank night, and I remember that winter, when countless snowflies came down on my body like flying bullets, silently and crisply, piercing my chest.

"Why?" My tears finally fell at this moment, "Do you know that I sacrificed my youth for you, I gave everything to you, and you repay me like this!" "In the long dark night, my howls and weepings flooded the town with the onset of the blizzard.

"I'm sorry." His eyes wandered.

"I'm sorry, can it be solved, you say!"

"I find out I don't love you anymore." He finally confessed his heart, and I knew that he had never really loved me from beginning to end, it was just my fantasies. Yes, it's just a simple desire for the so-called "freshness" of youth.

I stopped talking, and wanted to hug him as a final goodbye, but he blocked my outstretched arms and completely extinguished the last glimmer of my light.

"You're just naïve." These were the last words he left me.

I was alone in the snow, which still showed no sign of stopping, and my red eyes were filled with clear liquid that could not break the embankment for a long time.

I was silent, and after he abandoned me, I would be a lonely being.

09 Zuo You

She hadn't come to my library for days, and sometimes I went to look for her and didn't catch her.

Somewhat disheartened, I silently lit a candle in the dark night and spent the rest of my time before work, which can be regarded as a way to kill the sunk.

Fortunately, my efforts were not in vain, and I looked forward to the stars and the moon. It's just that she still lowered her head and didn't speak, sitting silently on the round stool, and two tears would fall from her red eyes from time to time, leaving a "hissing" sound on the burning stove.

I didn't speak, and I didn't even feel any surprise. Because I knew since she disappeared that this day would come no matter what, even if it was long overdue, and this ending would not be escaped.

I reached out and handed her a few tissues so that her sobs were not so painful, and she unceremoniously pulled several and wiped them her face as if to vent, the tissues on the table already soaked with her tears.

"What did I do wrong, why did he do this to me!" Her incomprehensible heartache exploded at this moment, and her hoarse voice rendered her cry like a snowflake fluttering endlessly outside the window, freezing the whole window, and at the same time, my body temperature.

I still couldn't help but compromise, sat down next to her, "If you want to cry, cry out......" I gently rubbed the strap in her ear, the same slightly hoarse voice startled her, her dull eyes were towards me, the corners of her mouth were so wide, I knew that the scars in her heart were once again cruelly revealed, even the Great Rift Valley was not as good as her.

"I don't need your pity!" Once again, her cries resounded through the space.

I pursed my lips tightly as I watched her cry and feel like I had been stabbed by countless sharp knives.

"Have you forgotten what you said?" My words broke the solemn sadness, and she seemed to remember something and gradually stopped crying.

"Yes." Even if her sobs were small, every time she snorted, it still made my heart ache even more.

"I've seen you, and I'm responsible for you—" I stopped talking, trying to see what kind of expression she would look at when she heard it. Of course, as I expected, her split hair was scattered and she was crying, but she still barely smiled. I watched her burst into tears and smiled, and without hesitation, I stepped forward and hugged her gently.

"You! and take advantage of me. She looked at me seriously, and did not resist, and let my enthusiasm warm her until the dawn of the next day.

10 Shang Xia

I thought that my life would be ruined from now on, but after that night I realized that the person who is truly worthy of my love has always been by my side, I know that he has been waiting for me at the fork in the road of life, no matter what I look like, even if I am crawling and bruised on this road, he will encourage me and help me go home in my most desperate moments.

It's like when you're too busy playing a game, and a real Prince Charming will suddenly come and destroy all the thorns in front of him with his unique light.

Next to the platform of the train, we were silent, just walking silently with our heads down, every step seemed to be recalling all kinds of life, such a scene reminded me of me and him under the street lamp, but the memories of the past seemed to never come back.

"Just send it here." I listened to the prompt sound of the service area lady, and finally tidied up his clothes, and he looked at me with some reluctance, as if this farewell would be eternal.

"Do you really want to go?" Zuo You's eyes told me that he really didn't want me to leave. A cool breeze blew through my skin.

"I want to go to City D to develop, because that's my dream, didn't you say that no matter what I do, you will support me?" I smiled slyly at him, but I couldn't hide my frustration.

"Can you stay?" He still wanted to keep it.

"......," I was silent, "so be it." I said, and turned my back, silent tears running down my cheeks, soaking my collar, and I thought, maybe this should be our last time, I don't want to brutally break it.

- "Youth, it's best to leave some regrets. At that time, Zuo You hummed a song and walked past me.

Thinking about it, I couldn't help but raise the corners of my mouth slightly, "Maybe this is the best relief for each other......" I sighed at the passage of time and thought to myself.

"Because of you, I won't have regrets in my youth!" Suddenly I heard his cry in my ears, and I subconsciously turned my head to feel the sound of the wind as he roared.

The train gradually moved into the distance, and the sound of "boom boom" slowly pushed out of our minds as time passed, and the boy hugged the girl tightly next to the platform, as if as soon as she let go, she would suddenly leave him. And the girl, after a feeble struggle, finally climbed up the boy's solid back with both hands, feeling the temperature he exuded, and the faint aroma of lavender, unconsciously, silent tears dripped again, but there was no parting in it, it was filled with a short time, and it was also the little happiness that belonged to them.

11 Epilogue

"If you could turn back time, even if you lost your direction in the middle of your life, I would never let you go and let you go willfully to the end with bruises, because..."

"Because of what?"

"In our youth, it's not enough to go straight up and down, it will only let you collide without purpose, and end up bruising each other. If...... If there is a left and right to control you, I think even if there is no hope ahead, with me with you, hand in hand with each other, the most perfect youth will be cast. ”