Dr. Ma threw himself on the guardrail, grabbed my wrists with both hands, and pulled me up with all his strength, but I hung on the outside and swayed, as if it didn't work at all, because I saw that everything under my feet was foggy, so I didn't have any fear at all, and even felt that if I fell, it might be like falling on cotton, soft and comfortable......

Actually, there is nothing to be afraid of falling down, there seems to be no difference between life and death, but I kind of hope to fall from here, what is underneath? It was foggy, and I began to wonder, is this really a neurological hospital? Could it be another world down there? And I still insisted, a big part of the reason why I didn't let go, was that someone cared about me, as if no one cared about me in my memory, my parents showed up once after I was injured, and then they didn't care about me, and although my grandmother also loved me, she was a psychopath after all......

I didn't expect that at the moment of my life and death, it was Dr. Ma and him! It's that he has always cared about me, and seeing that I am about to leave this world, he is so anxious. One last look at the world made me feel that someone cared about me one last time......

"Ruolan, hold on!"

Dr. Ma sweated like rain, word by word had to be squeezed out of his teeth, encouraging me and making me persevere, and I just looked up at him, a figure gradually appeared behind him, Wan Boyi was behind him, but Dr. Ma didn't know, Dr. Ma in front was exhausted in order to save me, and Wan Boyi in the back looked at the scene in front of him and smiled, smiling gloatingly, because he saw that I couldn't hold on, my hand was gradually getting rid of Dr. Ma's hand, and Dr. Ma's hand was full of sweat, slippery, and couldn't hold my hand, My whole body was falling little by little.

I don't know how long this stalemate lasted, Wan Boyi didn't make a sound, and Dr. Ma used all his strength to persevere, and I kept hanging in the air, starting to be exhausted......

Suddenly, the doll in my hand became very heavy, very heavy, very heavy......

Like a huge stone, constantly pulling me down, Dr. Ma gritted his teeth and sweated like rain, but I was getting heavier and heavier, coupled with the sweat of his palms, I slipped little by little until I completely got rid of my hands......

"Ah...... Don't ......" At the moment I fell, Dr. Ma could only shout like this and watch me fall, but Wan Boyi, who was behind Dr. Ma, smiled and waved my hand.

It was only for that moment that the doll suddenly stopped being heavy, I held it tightly in my arms, everything was over, and I finally did it! Take the doll away! It turns out that this is what it means to take the doll away!

I floated down like a goose feather.

It's all foggy down there, but there's a small spot in the distance where the stars shine, and when you look at it, it's a bit like a central lake, right! That should be the central lake, where the starry sky is always shining, and the lake water is like a diamond.

There seemed to be a lot of people shouting in the water or on the path, and it stands to reason that I was in a position as high as a ten-story building, so I shouldn't be able to see the situation there, and it was still night, but my intuition told me that there were many, many people there, one by one, outstretching out their hands and shouting.

In the water! Many people only show their upper bodies, and more can only show one head, their eyes are wide, and their pupils shine like crystals under the refraction of the water, but the light is full of help and pain, and from a distance, one by one the flashes rise and fall on the water surface, is it ...... The central lake that I watched before is made up of dead souls? The bright spots on the surface of the lake that sparkle like diamonds are the frightened eyes of drowning people......

"Take me away! Take me away...... "I seem to hear thousands of voices coming from the other side of the central lake, take me away? I looked at the doll? Didn't it keep asking me to take it away? Can't people here even die? For them, death is the only way out, right? However, I can only take the doll with me, and there is nothing else I can do......

That feeling of helplessness that I want to save but can't do anything about it, deep guilt embedded in my heart, I don't turn my head away......

Saw the window! It should be a window on the 12th floor, right? I know, it's the balcony, and the balcony has dead black guardrails, but it's ...... inside It's not the appearance of the ward, but I see the central lake, and I see myself! I'm standing on the edge of the lake, arms outstretched, eyes closed, what am I going to do? Suicide? Yes! Like a bird standing on the edge of a cliff, I spread my wings and prepared to fly down......

Straight down, just about to fall into the lake, suddenly I was hugged by a person, who was injured in the leg in order to save me, and blood flowed.

It's Wan Boyi! That person is Wan Boyi!

How do I get in? But my body keeps falling! It was as light as a goose feather, but it was also falling slightly, and I reached out to grab the railing to get his attention, but I felt like I was drifting in the endless sea, and I couldn't touch anything......

Then Wan Boyi walked into an elevator with himself, and he was bleeding from his leg, and the elevator stopped? I curled up in it, looking cold, and Wan Boyi slowly approached, and at the same time her lips were close to me......

Have I ever kissed him? Why don't I remember this scene at all? Was it me before? No wonder Shanshan hates me so much, I robbed him of his boyfriend? How can I do this! But when I saw this scene, I still felt that my face was hot, my heart was beating, and I felt that feeling of happiness......

Slowly I fell down again, and I couldn't see that window, what did I see before I died? Is the memory opening up little by little? But what's the use? I've fallen downstairs, and the moment I hit the ground, I'll be crushed to pieces......

Another floor, I fell to the balcony of the lower floor, through the black railing, I actually saw Shanshan! Shanshan seemed to run out of a community, crying and running out, but the entrance of the community was a road, but Shanshan didn't look at it at all, and ran across the road.

"Shanshan, watch out!" I shouted in mid-air, but she couldn't see or hear me at all, and a car collided directly with her, and Shanshan was bounced so far away that she fell heavily to the ground, and immediately surrounded a group of people, and Shanshan was covered in blood.

Wild goose! And me! We came out of the neighborhood together, got into the crowd, and there was a boy who ran ahead with Shanshan in his arms, and we ...... We went into the hospital...... Obstetric?

Don't...... Is Shanshan's child like this? Was it lost because of a car accident?

Before I had time to think about it, I couldn't see the balcony, I fell down little by little, raised my head to see the situation of Shanshan later, but I could only see the ceiling in the sun, what a strange feeling, just now it was the road street hospital, but when I looked down, what I saw was not the sky, but the ceiling. And what about the next layer? What will I see? Do I have to look through the windows on every floor as I fall? And within each layer, there is my previous life, but although I see my past self, it is as if I am watching another person's story, and I do not recall anything at all......

It's Sissi! See Sissi! She and I are inseparable, day and night, go to school together, go shopping together, go out at night together, we talk and laugh, we can see from the expressions, we are very happy together, she and I are in the same bedroom, I remember! Isn't Sissi the girl who shared bread with me?

Suddenly I felt that my chest was wet, and when I looked down, I was holding the doll in the right place, and I was urinating? Haha, I was amused by myself before I died, it was just a fake child, how could it be a bird, but this water stain really wet my clothes, I picked up the doll, and was surprised to find that its eyelashes were glued together, and it cried?

"Ruolan, are you here? Great, sit down, sit down! Suddenly, I saw a middle-aged man standing inside the railing and talking to me.

I was stunned for a moment, and suddenly I reacted, I fell one floor again, counting down to the balcony on the 4th floor, I was in the air outside the balcony at the moment, but the people inside were actually talking to me?

I was just about to speak, and I saw another self, walking in from the outside, and the appearance of the ward in the balcony just now instantly turned into a mansion, and the middle-aged man took me to open one door after another in the house, as if looking for something, the house is really big, there are so many rooms in it.

Oh, my God! That...... That's not ...... I actually saw it......

The weirdo in the ward next door to me! Yes! That's him! The weirdos who live in the ward next door to me and often peep at my door! Did I know him before I was admitted to the neurological hospital? That place seems to be his house, and I've been to his house? Is that middle-aged man his dad? What do I have to do with him......

The memories are pieced together little by little, but they are getting more and more chaotic, and I am more and more curious, who I really am and what I have experienced, but ...... What's the use of thinking clearly, aren't I dying! I was still descending, and I was almost out of sight of this balcony, but I could only gradually see a ceiling, and a ceiling, and a suspended ceiling above, but not the ceiling of the mansion just now, but the ceiling in the ward of the psychiatric hospital...... It's all back to the beginning...... It reminds me that I was falling from the roof of the psychiatric hospital building.

I can see a memory on every floor, and I'm kind of looking forward to the next layer of the world, what will I see? What memories of yourself will you see? When I finally fall underneath, will I regret my suicidal actions? Even regretting it is useless, I have already fallen......

It was by the central lake again, I stood face to face with Dr. Ma, he gently took my hand, I didn't resist, but gradually approached him! Oh, my God! I'm actually with Dr. Ma too? Do I pedal two boats? No face! Fortunately, he has committed suicide, is in the process of committing suicide, and is about to die! (To be continued.) )