I didn't sleep peacefully that night. Mench leaned back in his chair and snored.

I couldn't sleep, so I walked outside on crutches. This night, like the night of the battlefield before, saw no moonlight, no starlight, only soldiers sleeping by the campfire. The light of the fire reflected on their peaceful faces, and I could not help but sigh again in my heart how good it would be to have no war.

On the high slope not far away there was a short man, and that man was Panyu. It was clear that he was not asleep. I tried hard to walk up to him and said, "I can't sleep, do you miss a female singer?"

Ban Yan said: "Yes, I miss her, I pity her."

I said, "I think she's changed you a lot."

Ban Mo looked at me for a moment, and I continued: "You used to be frivolous and cynical, and you felt that anything could make you happy, so I never saw you work hard or pursue something. Ever since the female singer appeared in front of you, everything about you has changed. You first become willing to work hard for one thing, then you become silent again, and the frivolity of the past is gone. It's much better than before, but I still want to see you who loved to laugh before. ”

Ban Yan looked at a grass on the ground, and only after a few minutes did he speak: "What do you think is true love?"

I asked, "Do you want to do that?"

Ban Yan said: "Of course it is from the heart."

I said, "My opinion is the same as Mench's, no matter where my lover goes, or what she wants to do, as long as she feels happy doing it, let her go." If she's happy, you'll be happy too. ”

"I think love should be to stay together, go through hardships together, and then spend a happy life together."

I thought about it for a moment and said, "You are transforming your lover's happiness in this way, and if you do this, you will not love her, but your possessive love for her."

Pan Yan said: "Isn't the purpose of pursuing a person to stay with that person for the rest of his life and share the tribulations?" Possessiveness is human nature, is it inevitable, okay? ”

I said, "Can you bear to see the man whom you have been seeking suffer with you?" Unless, of course, she wants to, unless she feels happy to be with you. In short, my point of view is that you are also right, possessiveness is human nature, it is inevitable, then we will try to minimize possessiveness, for me, I love someone, pursue her, just to fight for the right to see her happy smile more. ”

Ban Yan sighed, plucked up a grass plant from under his hand, and threw it forward. And say to me, "Have you ever loved someone?" Have you ever chased someone? Are you eligible? ”

I was a little disappointed: "Then you didn't say anything about me!"

With that, I limped away.

A few hours later, before the sun was out, the soldiers quietly let the non-combatants in the arsenal move.

As soon as we were halfway through, the battalion commander left with a few men with explosives bags and ran cautiously towards the enemy-occupied area.

Those of us who were not combatants took refuge in some abandoned houses in the city. The medical office was scattered. Mench told me to follow him to the young woman. There is no need to look for Ban Yan, he is next to the young woman. The four of us hid in an air-raid shelter, and the young woman said that this air-raid shelter was mostly used by soldiers, and that they would definitely be visible when Mr. Battalion Commander lured the enemy into the city.

We waited until noon, and the gunfire never stopped.

Soon after, the door of the bomb shelter opened, and sure enough, it was the battalion commander. But there weren't a few people left, and only twelve people came in. I asked Mr. Battalion Commander, "Are these people the only ones left?"

The battalion commander replied: "No, there are twelve more people in another hiding stronghold."

I breathed a sigh of relief: "Oh, that's good, that's good." How many enemies are you responsible for? ”

The battalion commander replied in a somewhat depressed tone: "I don't know, the commanders have all withdrawn, the army commander has sacrificed, and the division commander is the same." Now the task is to die in battle. ”

I'm a little sad.

The battalion commander gave the soldiers a meal and led us to another exit of the bomb shelter. Outside the exit is a restaurant. The battalion commander asked the four of us to hide on the second floor of the cafeteria, then we packed up our equipment and prepared to set off for street fighting.

Before leaving, the battalion commander took out a worn-out copper ring and handed it to the young woman, saying: "Because I have no money, I have never dared to take it out, and if I don't take it now, I won't have a chance to take it, goodbye."

The young woman slowly took the ring, put it on her hand, then held the battalion commander's hand tightly, pulled the battalion commander over, and kissed him for a minute. At last let go of his hand and let him become a martyr, and the young woman said, "Farewell."

The battalion commander said, "Remember, live well."

The young woman smiled and nodded with her tear-covered face.

Pan Yan walked up to the young woman and said, "Why don't you stop him, he is a lover, can you bear to let him die?"

Menqi saw that Ban Yan was unrepentant and was about to interject, but I stopped him, and I motioned for Menqi to wait and see. The young woman said, "Of course I can't bear it." But he is a soldier, and it is his mission to be a martyr, it is his glory, and I have no choice, just let him go, and I will go one day. This is his choice, a choice that would rather die than change, and I respect him. ”

Ban Xiao lowered his head, sighed deeply, and looked up at the smoke-filled sky outside the window. Finally sat in the corner and said nothing.

Three days later, reinforcements arrived, and the enemy was repulsed.

We looked downstairs at the soldiers celebrating their victory, and at the young women who were anxiously looking for Mr. Battalion Commander. By the fifth day, there was still no news from the battalion commander. On the sixth day, the battalion commander's number appeared on the commander's speech in memory of the martyrs. The battalion commander died. After hearing the news, the young woman did not shed tears, but revealed a kind of happiness. In this way, Ban Yan looked at the young woman's face for a long time.

Soon after, we said goodbye to the young woman and boarded the train home.

On the way home, Ban Yan finally returned to the previous frivolity, which was not frivolous, but cheerful.

He criticized Mench's habit of nibbling on that tough loaf of bread, and told me to run around the train.

On the third day, I woke up from a nap on the train and read the newspaper for a few hours.

When the sun is ready to set. As always, I headed to the terrace at the end of the train. Because now there is no smoke on both sides of the railroad tracks, like a peaceful place. I saw Panmi sitting on the terrace, very calm. I walked over to him and asked, "Isn't it beautiful?" I used to see all the rocks in the cave, but now I can smell the grass and blow the wind. ”

"No, for me, four days ago I saw the haggard face of a female singer, but now I can see it."

I continued, "And what did you see in the mines?"

"There, I can't see anything, and I don't want to see it."

After Pan Yan finished speaking, I bent down and propped my hands on the railing, and when I looked at this beautiful piece that was about to be burned by the war, Pan Yan said again: "I won't mention the previous bad things, this will only show our weakness." I kind of understand that the past will eventually change the future, and what we can do now is to get involved in the change. ”

I'm glad that Bang Mo has finally changed.