I don't remember what the season was, but in the breeze, in the sunset, riding a bicycle in the distance, the mind created a world of tranquility. Whenever he is frustrated, he hides in his own little world, without sorrow or joy, without love or hate. Indifferent to the real world, with an outward appearance of indifference. and its light, and its dust. Gather all your excellence and sink in a long world. Sadly, he never met the angel who saved him. Until one day, the world collapsed. He had nothing left.

When he was four years old, he saw others playing with fire, and he went to play too, and as a result, he burned his grandfather's house and a paulownia tree.

When I was five years old, I got into a fight with someone, but I couldn't beat it.

When he was seven years old, he went to school, but because the teacher who signed up was negligent and wrote his name wrong, he couldn't get into the class, and he waited outside the classroom for others to get out of school and then go home

When he was eight years old, classmate Zhang from Dongcun bullied him to be honest and wanted to accept him as a younger brother, but he refused, he threatened to give him 20 years, he couldn't beat him, but one day five years later, classmate Yang threw him two meters away with one hand.

By the time he was twelve years old, he was already able to recite three hundred Tang poems. Unfortunately, the book sold to him by the bookstore was pirated and had several typos in it.

At the age of thirteen, he has a crush on a girl at work. has begun to hide his feelings. Just because that girl is a genius, it is destined from the beginning, and it is a gradual ending.

Blank in the middle of the five years......

At the age of eighteen or nineteen, there was finally a girl by her side who looked like her, and she cut off her relationship with him because of a lie. He didn't explain, he didn't want to explain, he felt very tired.

That year, he went to Shaanxi and met a girl, because he was familiar with her, he wanted to stay with her for a while, but because of gains and losses, he kept talking coldly, and finally separated, not even friends.

Yang Alin is a poor third generation, except for the relatives of his grandfather who once had a vice president of a provincial bank, there are many people in the Yang family in Hedong who are well-off but do not belong to their lineage. Grandpa, Dad and he are both blood type A, and their personalities are similar, so they don't like Ah Furen. The only time Grandpa begged someone was to ask the relative for a loan to buy land, but the man agreed and died before he could act, and the most far-sighted thing of Grandpa's life came to an end. Father Yang is stronger than his grandfather, so he offended a lot of people, these people joined forces to secretly fix him, and most of these people are his cousins and cousins, these are what he only knew and understood in the last few years, he thinks his father also knows, but he likes to hide it in his heart, even if he is drunk and loses his temper, he doesn't tell his family, his sister and mother don't know but he knows. He has a slightly better temper, because he has more traditional education, and he refrains himself from being peaceful, but it also suppresses his nature. He occasionally felt that his strength was better than his brain, and he had beaten his sister before, and he had also fiercely repaired the provocateur. At the age of 13, he collected his mentality, did not fight with others, was humble and cautious, which also made him cowardly, unless he was forced to the limit, he did not do it, as soon as he made a move, he quickly gathered his strength to defeat the other party, ninety percent of the people were not his opponents, he rarely exercised, he thought that this should be the genetic father.

They are a family of four, his father and mother he and his sister, he and his father and sister have similar personalities, although they often quarrel, but the relationship is still very good, which can be seen from the father's filial piety to grandparents and sister's filial piety to parents.

The grandparents thought that his eldest grandson would definitely not be at home after going to college, so they divided all the family property to the uncle's family, and even distributed the homestead bought by Yang's father to the other two grandsons, but was abandoned by the uncle's family and had no land to live in, or the aunt and sister-in-law and Yang's father couldn't bear to build a few rooms to live in, but his mother suffered from cerebral hemorrhage at the age of 45 and spent several years of accumulation in the family, and he couldn't find a satisfactory job after graduating from bachelor's degree. Then the little sister got married, and the birth of the little sister's child emptied half of the father's old bottom. Grandpa looked down on Dad, and Dad looked down on him. But Grandpa had to rely on Dad, who was convinced that he would do well.

Their family lives in the township, the location is good, and there is a street at the door. They must be the poorest on this street, maybe there are poorer people in the town than them, but they are indeed poorest on the most prosperous road. He knows the hardships of his parents, and he doesn't ask for extravagance and requirements, Yang's father and Yang's mother always feel sorry for him, and he has met the best parents.

In the last days of his last life, he wrote the following emotion: "There is always something that comes when you are not ready, and then you realize that you are not perfect enough to accomplish it. More than one person said that I was rigid in doing things according to textbooks, and I often reflected on why I couldn't do things well. Gradually, I felt that I had been on the weak side, and while I was fighting for fairness, resistance had come to me from different directions. Every achievement is hard-won, and every sweat is so real. Hardship and hardship, Yuru is successful. Every bit of trouble will be my motivation to move forward, and every obstacle will hone my resilience. If you don't achieve your goal, you won't give up. Carefully look for every possibility, and whatever it looks like right now, I try to turn it into the result I want. ”

What is really lost is not necessarily pain. If you remember it in your heart, how can it be unforgettable? Time and space rotate, close to the end of the world. The years go by, and the moment is eternal. How many things does a person have to go through before he can calmly face happiness and misfortune. Maybe he didn't need more experience, he had already forgotten himself and forgotten others.

Like that poem:

I can't make that cool night come back,

I can't see my girlfriend's slender body,

I can't hear that song of joy,

The nightingale sings in the garden, touching the heart.

The spring night has flown by,

You can't say, "Wait, come back".

The autumn of slaughter has come,

The rain sprinkled infinite sorrow.

My girlfriend is sleeping in the grave,

Love is buried in the depths of her heart,

The autumn wind and rain will not wake her dreams,

It will not warm her blood and restore her posture.

The nightingale's song was finally silent,

For the nightingale has flown overseas,

It doesn't want to sing a better song,

It's like wandering in the cool of the night.

The intimacy and joy of the past have flown far away,

That's how happy the days are,

The feelings in my heart have become cold,

Ah, what is gone - never again!

I don't remember what that turned out to be

The days that have been with you

Whether you still remember it or not

I always remember

I was like a lonely bird

Never know how big and far the sky will be!

The past has gone far, and the future still needs to see the road ahead and move forward.