The following is all about Fangfang's diary, and I will not show it in front of you in a diary and format! What changes will be separated by a case divider in the future!

I walked alone on the street, not knowing what to do, but I couldn't give birth to the baby in my womb, but I was afraid to go to the hospital. An eighteen-year-old girl is pregnant before she is married and has no husband with her, what should others think of me? At this time, I thought about dying, but where did the tuition fees for my younger brothers and sisters come from, and my parents finally raised me so much, and they still expected me to reduce the burden on them? Let's go to the hospital and get rid of it! So I mustered up the courage to go to the Municipal Maternal and Child Health Hospital!

I have come to this hospital with my hostess and their children for vaccinations a few times before, so I am still a little familiar with this place. According to my previous record, I came to the door of the gynecology clinic, and I hesitated and knocked on the door and walked in.

"It's Xiaofang, why are you here alone today? Have a seat! ”

"Doctor, I'...... I ......"

"What's wrong with you? This is a hospital, so it doesn't hurt to say anything! ”

"I ...... I...... I'm going to ......"

"What's wrong with you? What's uncomfortable? Tell me and I'll keep it a secret for you! "The doctor looked at me with kind eyes.

"I ...... I'm pregnant? ”

"Oh, what do you want to do then? Is it to protect the tire or what? ”

"I want to ...... I want to beat him down! ”

"Oh, reach for your hand and let me see how many months?"

"It's been more than a month!" I reached over as I spoke.

She pressed two fingers to my pulse and said, "Does the child's father know?" How did you come alone! ”

"I'm ...... I'm ......."

"You don't have to say it, I see! Now the pregnancy is not long, and there is no problem with the fetus! Just pay attention to nutrition! A small production is better than a big production! It's not easy to be a woman! ”

"Thank you, doctor! When can I have surgery? ”

"Sooner rather than later, just today, you go and pay the surgery fee!"

"How much does it cost! Doctor, I don't have a lot of money on me. ”

"Well, I know, you pay one thousand and five first!"

I walked out of the clinic and walked to the payment office! I counted the money on my body and it was only 2,000, and after paying the surgery fee, it was only 500! Hey, how will I live my life in the future? So what's the solution? Sitting at the door of the operating room, I was nervous.

"Who is Li Fangfang?" A nurse shouted.

"I am."

"You? Are you not accompanied by relatives? ”

"No, I'm alone."

"Oh, then you sign the surgery contract!" She handed me the pen and the contract.

I'm going to have to look at what's written on it, and there's a lot of it anyway. I followed her instructions and wrote the word Li Fangfang at the end and the date below. After a while I heard my name called again, I walked in.

"Don't be afraid, I'll give you an anesthetic now, tell me if there's anything uncomfortable, I'm your anesthesiologist!" A doctor in a green coat told me. After saying that, he gave me a shot in the back.

"What do you have to do now? He pricked my hand with a needle! ”

"Well, nothing? I don't feel pain! ”

"Well, that's fine, you close your eyes now and wait until you wake up!" A male doctor and two female nurses walked up.

"I took off all of her underwear and covered it with a surgical cloth. Dr. Lee, how is the patient's anesthesia? "I listened to the surgeon ask.

"Everything is ready, then I'll retreat first!"

"yes, okay."

"Little sister, how are you doing first?"

"I'm fine!"

"Take a scalpel, quasi-gauze, and do local disinfection......" I don't remember what they said later, and I don't know how long I slept.

"Little sister, wake up!" I opened my eyes and looked at her.

"Okay, how about you thank Jue?"

"I feel a little bit of pain down there!"

"It's fine. This is a normal reaction. After going back, you should strengthen your nutrition and pay attention to rest! Don't go into the water, it's best to stay in bed for a month, and then go to work after a month! I think you are young, remember! She said to me as she dressed you. Would you like to rest here for a while, I'll call you later!" ”

"Okay, thank you!"

"No thanks!" With that, he turned and left the operating table. When they all left, my tears flowed again!

"Child, it's not that your mother doesn't want you, it's that you didn't come at the right time, it's not that your mother doesn't love you, and your mother can't support you when you are born without a name! You are reincarnated into a good family! "This is when I remember what my grandmother told me before, saying that the child is reincarnated in this life because you owe him in the previous life or he owes you. That's why we don't just knock them out. That's why my sister was born. In our country patriarchal thinking is very heavy. At the thought of this, my tears fell again.

"I can't bear it!" I don't know when the nurse walked in. "Every girl who came here shed tears afterwards! I don't know what you think, you didn't do a good job of asking him to think

Why are you going to do it? If you don't do any preparation before you do that, it's always us women who get hurt in the end! She saw that I couldn't stop crying and quickly changed her words: "Little sister, I didn't mean you, how do you feel?" Does it matter? ”

"I feel better now, can I go now?"

"Well, yes, remember, stay at home for a month of bed rest, don't get cold water!"

"Thank you, I remembered!" After saying that, I walked out of the operating room tremblingly! When I came to the gate of the hospital, I was confused looking at the crowd coming and going!

Let's find a place to live first! I walked around the city and couldn't find a suitable house. Either the house is too small, or the price is too high! It's getting dark, and I don't even have a place to live now.

"Little girl, are you going to rent a house?" An old woman asked me.

"Yes, do you have a house to rent?"

"Yes, but it's a bit remote, the rent is 200 a month, and the water and electricity bills are not included. Are you going to rent? ”

"Can you take me to see it, then?"

"Okay, then you can get in my car!" With that, she led me to an electric tricycle. I followed her into the car. "Girl, I don't think you're a local, are you?"

"Hmmm! I'm just here. ”

"Oh, did you find a job?"

"Not yet?"

"One of my sisters is now looking for a waitress, I wonder if you're interested?"

"That's good, but I can't go to work yet, I just had a minor surgery and I won't be able to go to work in a week!"

"Oh, that's right, I'll help you reserve a seat, and I'll go to work when you're better!"

"Okay, thank you!"

"Don't thank you, it's not easy to go out to make money now, everything has to have a few more eyes!"

"Uh-huh!" I suddenly felt like my sky was getting a little brighter. The car made a few turns in the city, bypassed a few alleys, and stopped in front of a courtyard gate!

"Girl, it's here! Get out of the car! Let's take a look at the house first! I followed the old woman in. The courtyard is divided into many rooms, and there is a small alley in the middle for people to enter and exit. We stopped in front of the last house. "Let's go in and have a look!" The old woman opened the door and saw a bed in the middle of the room, and some kitchen supplies on the left side. There is also a wardrobe and desk on the right. "Girl, what do you think?"

"I think that's it!"

"Okay, let's pay two months' rent first, others want half a year's rent, I see that you just have surgery and will charge less!"

"Thank you, Grandma!"

"Where's your luggage, do you want me to pull it for you?"

"Thank you so much! Let's go together! ”

We went to the guest house together and moved our luggage! In the evening, Grandma brought a few quilts and some dishes and chopsticks. Before leaving, Grandma asked me to close the doors and windows. I felt warm while sleeping in bed. But in the second half of the night, I felt wet underneath, and my mother was bleeding! I quickly took out a tampon from my bag and put it underneath. I finally waited until dawn, and I couldn't wait to boil water to soak the sheets. Hey, it's really a disaster!

A week has passed, my head still feels a little dizzy, I can't help it, I bought some daily necessities and instant noodles for 100 yuan. Now I only have two dollars left in my pocket! If you don't go to work, you're going to starve here!

"Girl, I see that your face is not very good, you should not rest for a few days before going to work!"

"Grandma, let me tell you the truth, I'm running out of money, and I don't even have the money to buy instant noodles if I don't go to work anymore!"

"But your body!"

"It's okay, I'm young!"

"Alright! I'll take you there! That place is a café! Call the old place! ”

Grandma drove me in a car and came to this café called the old place for a while. The café is not large, but the business is quite good! Grandma went in and talked to a middle-aged woman and came out after a few words!

"Sister, this girl is very good! Just let her do it here, I'm short of people here anyway! And he came to me.

"What's your name?"

"My name is Li Fangfang, you can call me Fangfang."

"I'm the boss lady of my son, the salary is 1,002 for the first three months, and 1,500 for the back, can you see that you can eat three meals?"

"Thank you so much, when can I go to work?"

"Just today! But today there is no pay! ”

"No problem!"

"Fei Fei, come over and take this newcomer with you!"

"Okay!" A young girl in her early twenties came over!

"Hello, my name is Zhang Feifei, you will follow me in the future!"

"Hello, my name is Li Fangfang, you will call me Fangfang in the future!"

"Okay, let me tell you some operational matters and precautions!"

This job is not too tiring, just serving coffee to the guests, since I am the first day of work, Fei Fei didn't let me do anything, just followed her. Fei Fei is a very good girl, she is not only beautiful but also very careful and meticulous, and she always explains to me with heart.

"Fangfang, we're off work, I'll work the morning shift tomorrow, you can get off work with me!" By the way, where do you live? ”

"Can I get off work? I'm late! ”

"Oh, so? Let me help you ask the hostess! ”

"Okay, thank you then!"

"It's okay, wait for my news!" With that, she went to talk to the proprietress about it.

After a while, she smiled and gestured to me, meaning that I could leave work! And I was still standing there stupidly, and she came up to me! "Fangfang, we're off work!"

"Oh, okay!"

"Let's go, let's change clothes together!" I followed her to the locker room! We went to a small room in the back and changed our clothes and walked out through the back door, she told me that we would commute through the back door in the future, and the door could not be walked. I've written it all down!

"Fangfang, where do you live?"

"I'm staying at the grandmother's house that sent me."

"Oh, what a coincidence, I live there too, why haven't I seen you!"

"Well, I've only been here for a short time, and I haven't seen you yet!"

"Hehe, that's of course, let's go together, I'll have company when I commute to and from work in the future!" I'm so happy! ”

"Me too, I'm afraid I won't find my way back! With you, I don't have to worry about not being able to find my way home! Hehe! ”

"By the way, I don't know how old you are, I'm 20 years old!"

"Then I'll call you sister, I'm 19 years old!"

"Very well, my good sister! Then let's call each other sisters after work! ”

"That's great, it's great that I have a sister here alone and unaccompanied!" Someone walks with me and always thinks the road is too short, and we will be home in a short time!

"Sister, are you a resident?" Fei Fei suddenly grabbed me!

"I'm not unaccompanied, of course I'm alone!"

"Okay, let's sleep in a room today, I'm a little scared to live here! Shall I go and accompany you? ”

"Well, I'm a little scared too! Shall we have a good chat tonight? ”

"Okay, as long as my sister doesn't dislike it!"

"What did my sister say? What more could I ask for? ”

Hand in hand, we ran to my nest! I made two bowls of instant noodles and just served them to the table.

"Little sister, are you going to eat this?"

"I just came, and I don't have any money on me, so it's good to have this to eat!"

"That's too, it's so late, and it's not easy for the two girls to run outside. That's it for tonight! As she spoke, she took out her purse from her pocket, took out three 100 yuan from it and said, "Sister, I see that your face is not very good, and you can't eat instant noodles all the time, you can take the 300 yuan and use it first!"

"Why am I embarrassed to take your money, besides, we've only known each other for a day?"

"Yo, sister, this treats me as an outsider, doesn't she? We have just married sisters with different surnames, and when my sister is in trouble, how can I stand by as a sister? ”

"Okay then, when I have money, I will definitely pay back my sister!"

"Just say that I will pay it back, my sister is still fat, I am an outsider! Let's eat noodles first! Otherwise, the noodles won't taste good when they're cold! ”

After that, we quickly ate the noodles.

"Sister, I see that your face is very bad, is something happening?"

So I told her everything I had been going through.

"Who are these people, there will be retribution! Sister, then you are okay first, it doesn't matter if you want your body! We'll have a break in two days, and I'll go buy some supplements for you. ”

"It's okay, I'm still young and can hold on!"

"How's that going to work? Haven't you heard that a small birth is better than a big birth, this is related to our women's lives! ”

"It's alright, it's late at night, we have to go to work tomorrow? It's better to rest early! ”

"That's right, and your body should rest a lot. You sleep inside, I sleep outside. Sister, I'll sleep with you in my arms today! ”

Fifi hugged me tightly, and I burst into tears again. But this time it was tears of happiness. Let me find the warmth of my mother. I slept soundly that night!