Brother Xiaoshan, see the words as faces.

Seeing the words like faces, looking at the delicate handwriting engraved on the paper, a wisp of panic rose in my heart for no reason, and I couldn't help but smile helplessly.

Brother Xiaoshan, I'm sorry I left in a hurry, I didn't come to say goodbye to you in a hurry, so I left in a hurry, you won't blame me, right? I think Brother Xiaoshan will not blame me, because Brother Xiaoshan is a very tolerant person, no matter what kind of setbacks, what kind of grievances, even if he encounters a difficult situation in life, Brother Xiaoshan will deal with it calmly and wisely, never bring emotions, never give up on self-pity, always be so strong, so sorry Brother Xiaoshan, sorry

I'm sorry, I shook my head with difficulty, a little trembling and fumbled in the pocket of my clothes, finally found a cigarette, and came to the smoking place around the corner in a few steps, pushed open the window, lit a cigarette, took a long breath, let the smoke fill the whole lungs, closed my eyes, and slowly exhaled, the smoke drifted out of the window, blended into the wind and snow outside the window, I don't know when, light snow began to fall in the air.

A breeze blew, and the smoke mixed with the wind and snow was blown into the window again, and it was pasted on my face, and my vision was blurry, I sniffed, wiped my eyes, picked up the letter, and continued to read.

Brother Xiaoshan, in fact, I wanted to write this letter to you a long time ago, but I wanted to put pen to paper, and I wanted to hesitate, and finally settled down, but I didn't know where to start.

Brother Xiaoshan, don't blame my mother, I understand her feelings, in fact, every woman is very, very fond of fairy tales when she is very young. In fact, when every little girl hears the story of Cinderella, she hopes that she is the kind Cinderella, and hopes that one day she can wear a crystal slipper and go to the prince's ball. When I was young, every time I saw my mother wearing high heels, stepping on the ground, making a clicking sound, I would envy for a long time, at that time I was thinking, when I could also wear high heels, I could be like my mother, take elegant steps, and let the heel and the ground make a crisp, beautiful sound. Hehe, that's what I dreamed of at that time, hehe.

Dreams are beautiful, but reality always makes some untimely jokes. When I put on high heels for the first time, I didn't have the joy of realizing my dream at all, and my feet really hurt.

That summer, I had just been admitted to high school, my mother gave me a pair of red high heels, saying that it was a graduation gift for me, I put on stockings and high heels, proud like a princess, but when I finally came to the end of the graduation trip after a long journey - Sun Hao's brother's dormitory downstairs, my calf was already a little spasmed, I stared at the door of the dormitory waiting for my stupid brother to pick me up, but I didn't expect to wait for a somewhat indifferent boy, his indifferent face could not see any expression, It seems that he hasn't smiled for a long time, although his face is very indifferent, but his eyes are very clear and abnormal, he said that he is my brother's roommate, and then he took my bag, turned around, and silently led the way in front, I followed him carefully, glancing at his figure from time to time, the figure was not slow, there was no too much movement, as if I was afraid that too many movements would disturb the outside world, just like those eyes, indifferent, deep, for fear of being contaminated with too much cause and effect. Maybe I was a little engrossed, and my steps were a little messy as much as I tried to control, and suddenly, I heard him say in a calm voice, "It's the first time I've worn high heels, do my feet hurt?" If your feet hurt, take them off, and I'll hold them for you. ”

Does the foot hurt? I remember that I gave him a shy smile back, did my feet hurt, and I thought that the reason why Cinderella waited for the prince to come and look for her, and put on the crystal slippers that made her uncomfortable again, maybe it was because the prince said to her at the ball, did her feet hurt? If your feet hurt, take off your shoes and I'll hold them for you.

Does the foot hurt? I threw away my burning cigarette butt, pulled out another one, lit it, and took a big puff. Outside the window, the snow seemed to be getting heavier, and the breeze was swirling down, and I closed my eyes, and I felt as if I had gone back to three years ago, back to that summer afternoon, and I seemed to see that smile with a little shyness again.

I chuckled and shook my head.

I seemed to hear Lu Xue say again, "Brother Xiaoshan, you said you would help me with my shoes, but now my feet hurt again." ”

"When did Hill say that?"

"Three years ago."

Three years ago

I smiled softly.

"What are you laughing at?" Sun Hao suddenly walked over and asked suspiciously.

I shook my head, looked at Sun Hao and Wang Huan who were walking over, and said, "It's nothing." ”

"Who knows, what nerves he has?" Wang Huan glanced at me disdainfully.

I opened the letter and continued to read, Sun Hao and Wang Huan cautiously came over, I glanced at them and didn't refuse.

What kind of person are you? Why do you have such a pair of indifferent eyes, what kind of person are you? Why use a heavy back to hide the self that should be glorious. Whenever I think of your clear eyes, I always feel, Brother Xiaoshan, you are so far away from me. Speaking of which, I've been struggling with this for a long time! Hehe.

I don't know when I started to like to think in the way you did, I don't know when I started to like to meditate by the window, I liked to drink tea, I don't know when I started to distance myself from my friends, I don't know when I learned to smile, I don't know when I started, I suddenly understood the loneliness of Brother Xiaoshan, I don't know when I started to like cooking, I don't know when I started to melt into Brother Xiaoshan's clarity.

Hehe, it's a little funny to say, I thought that as long as I worked hard, I should be able to keep up with Brother Xiaoshan's footsteps, so I also specially applied to a foreign college to verify it! But when I appeared in front of you confidently, expecting to get your surprise and smile, I found that Brother Xiaoshan had gone further, and I was almost unable to keep up with you.

Brother Xiaoshan, I'm leaving, in order to keep up with your footsteps, in order not to let your figure blur in front of my eyes, in order to no longer let Brother Xiaoshan move forward alone, I'm leaving, Brother Xiaoshan, I will miss you.

Brother Xiaoshan, I really want to ask you a word, but I am a little afraid to hear your answer, and even more afraid that you will not answer, I am really afraid that I will be like the kitten we once met, will be blocked by Brother Xiaoshan in the most rational way, although that way will minimize the damage, but I still don't want that, I don't like that. Brother Xiaoshan, I want to ask you, will you miss me?

Will I miss you?

Will I miss Luxue?

Yes.