Courage, the ancients said: shame and courage.

Courage is often a derivative of predicament, and courage is born and dying because of predicament. In the predicament, people have the courage to face the unknown that deviates from the expectation, and add it to themselves, in the predicament, or crawl or turn the tide, or succeed, or fail. When the dilemma disappears, courage is also classified as an experience and stored in the mind for the next dilemma.

However, courage is not the same as success, although we all understand this truth, but we are deliberately deceiving ourselves, allowing ourselves to deliberately avoid the problem, and luckily think that we are one of those few people. Many times, in most cases, courage does not change anything, courage tends to slowly wear out with the passage of time in adversity, evaporate in the claustrophobic predicament, and people will slowly become crazy, violent, or cynical, and get by.

Courage is dispensable, at least I think so, it can't change anything, even if it can change, the probability is very low, it's better than nothing, compared to courage I am more accustomed to using careful thinking, probability calculation to face life, face choice and face yourself.

Although careful thinking is not enough to deal with all the emergencies in life, but at least it is better than the courage that rolls out when the disaster is coming, I think so, so I am not optimistic about Xiao Yin's willfulness, I don't know if she really did it, successful or not? A few days later, she still came to make the model, her face was as usual, and I could see that her emotions did not fluctuate much, I think no matter how she chose, this matter should be considered to be over.

It's a good thing to have courage, Lu Xue said afterwards, still with her unchanging, elegant and delicate smile.

Courage, maybe.

Saturday was supposed to be another party day, but everyone was suddenly entangled in things and couldn't get out. Sun Hao had to accompany his mother to the hospital for a check-up, and Zhang Hui and Feng Xiaolu had to go to take wedding photos, so the party had to be canceled.

In this way, the 216 party ushered in its first cancellation after graduation.

On Saturday afternoon, I sat on the floor and gently opened the model of the Merkava that I had sealed, maybe it was time, I thought, maybe it's time to make another Merkava. I gently opened the lid of the box, looked at the model parts inside, and took a deep breath.

Still, forget it. I shook my head slightly and put the parts back in the box.

Is that all? Maybe this time there will be a different ending.

Maybe, that's just maybe.

Do you want to give it a try?

Try? Forget it.

I looked at the lid and then at the delicate molded parts encased in a simple bag, and if I pulled them slightly, they would come out of the trap.

I picked up the bag and put it in my hand.

Not ready yet? What should come will always come.

Yes, what should come will come, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and slowly exhaled, and slowly reached for the closure of the bag.

Just then, there was a knock at the door.

I steadied, smiled wryly, put the parts back in, closed the lid, and put it back in the corner of the closet.

Next time, when I'm ready.

"What's the matter? Dew Snow. I asked, opening the door.

"Shanzi, it's me." The door opened, and it was Xiao Shuai standing outside.

"Why are you here?"

"Looking for you for a drink, knowing that no one is with you today." Xiao Shuai replied, picked up a case of beer and a few side dishes on the ground, and walked in the door without looking at me.

"Zhang Hui told you?" I closed the door and asked again.

"Well, Teiko went to take wedding photos, let me come over to accompany you."

"I don't need to be accompanied."

"I need to." Xiao Shuai couldn't help but say, set up the table, put the wine and food, and handed me a bottle of beer, "Come, drink with me." ”

"You're coming by car?"

"Coming by car, my car caused an accident." Xiao Shuai said with a shrug of indifference.

I looked at Xiao Shuai, shook my head slightly, picked up the beer and poured a glass, raised it to Xiao Shuai, signaled, and then put it to my mouth and took a sip.

Xiao Shuai looked at me with a smile and picked up the wine glass, the difference is that he drank it all in one gulp.

"Drink slowly."

"It doesn't matter."

"Your parents will be worried, and your girlfriend."

"So it doesn't matter." Xiao Shuai shrugged again, said indifferently, and then poured himself another glass, and drank it dry in one gulp.

It seems that he really doesn't care, laissez-faire, decadent and cynical.

I looked at him, picked up my glass, and took a sip.

Xiao Shuai shushed, pointed to his empty wine glass, and pointed to the remaining half of the wine in my glass a little defiantly, as if to say, let me drink dry.

I shook my head, "I can't drink that fast." ”

"Oh, is it? Hey, General! ”

"General?"

"Chess, General!" Xiao Shuai smiled playfully and repeated it again.

"General?" I frowned, thought for a moment, picked up my glass, and drank the remaining half of the glass in one gulp.

Checkmate? No, this is not a general, this is another situation, it is my turn to go but I find that there is no way out, and I am forced to make a choice that is detrimental to myself in a difficult situation, although this is not what we want, but in desperation, we have to do it, even if I am unwilling, unwilling, messy.

Chess, I looked at Xiao Shuai, the man who was once firm, proud, and selfish, but now he has become decadent, laissez-faire, and cynical.

"What do you think?"

"Chess."

"Chess?"

"Passive coercion."

"What's that?"

"A case in chess."

"Oh, I don't know, you still play chess."

"I won't."

“”

"It's just that I know the term."

“”

"Sun Hao is right, you are really a freak."

Freak, I shook my head helplessly.

"Don't deny it, if you're not a freak, then someone knocked on the door for so long, how could you not hear it?" Xiao Shuai said lightly with a teasing smile.

Knock? I looked at the door, and there was no knocking, but the sound of the key opening the door.

The door was opened, and I stared in, and it was Lu Xue with an eager face and Zhou Ying with a light smile that came in.

"Brother Xiaoshan, are you okay?" Lu Xue asked anxiously as soon as she entered the door.

"It's okay, you little brother, you're drinking with me." Xiao Shuai replied lazily.

"I'll just say it's okay, how can something happen to a freak." Zhou Ying's laughing voice came from the door again.

Xiao Shuai was obviously stunned for a moment, and looked at the door fixedly.

"The little handsome brother is here, no wonder the little brother didn't hear the knock on the door." Lu Xue smiled and said hello to Xiao Shuai, but there seemed to be anger in that smile.

"Oh, I was thinking about it, I didn't hear it." I nodded and replied.

"It's okay, I came here to ask Brother Xiaoshan what he wants to eat at night, you won't blame me for keeping the key." Lu Xue said with a smile, but the smile was a little more far-fetched than usual, as if she was trying to hide something.

"It's nothing, you can keep it, I want to wait until we finish drinking at night, I shouldn't be able to eat it." Looking at Lu Xue, who was eager, I don't know why, I actually said such a thing.

"You're here." Zhou Ying also walked over, looked at Xiao Shuai, smiled, and said calmly.

"Yes." Xiao Shuai didn't look at her, maybe he didn't dare, maybe he didn't want to, he just nodded lightly.

"Okay, I said he's okay, let's go back." Zhou Ying chuckled, then said to Lu Xue, and then turned and walked out the door.

"Brother Xiaoshan, drink less alcohol." Lu Xue smiled and whispered a word of advice, and also turned to walk out the door.

Smile, I don't know if it's my illusion, the smile before Lu Xue turned around seemed to have returned to the previous elegant, peaceful, and peaceful smile, the smile that was unique to her and seemed to never change.

"General!" Xiao Shuai picked up the cup and drank it dry, and said with a wry smile.

General, no, that's passive coercion.