Chapter 49 So be it

I have never regarded myself as a good person, and I know in my heart that the struggle of a good person in society is cowardice. I've never lacked courage in life, but when you close your eyes and everything in your dreams comes to mind, you can't tell the difference between reality and fantasy, and I know that I really can't be a bad person.

Even though Wu Mu's so-called evidence is in my hands, I still can't send this evidence out. Who can I give it to, and can I give it to the Internet? Seeing myself break up a family, I don't have the courage, I don't have the heart, even if I hurt the most now, but I still decided to suppress this matter, even if Wu Mu did it to me.

The snow in winter is drifting again, with the passage of time, the New Year is coming, maybe everyone is filled with the joy of the New Year, but I, still addicted, going to work seems to me to be a long time ago, because I haven't been to the unit for a long time, okay, this is a long vacation!

I told Nan Nan the cause and effect of the incident, it's strange, I didn't tell Wanrou about this matter, maybe I don't want to destroy my image in her mind, we still chat as harmoniously as before, maybe this is also a way to manage love.

Nan Nan, this girl, heard about this incident, and really felt sorry for me, a Northeast girl full of gunpowder, you really can't imagine that she will do anything out of the ordinary, just ask me for the video, what she means is that it must be spread in full coverage of the Internet, otherwise how can I swallow this breath. I regretted telling her! After a pause of appeasement, the situation was calmed down in her sigh, in exchange for the title of "You are a good person all day long". For me, none of this matters, it's over, just let it pass!

Nan Nan said that she would come back after the New Year, and hoped that I could pick her up at the airport because she brought me a gift! I didn't have to pick her up, I was just curious what the gift was! We made an appointment that she would be back on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, and well, what a gift I was looking forward to!

During this time, when I was idle at home, I did all the things I wanted to do and didn't want to do, don't think about it, the main thing is to read books in the library or something, because it's so boring!

At noon that day, Radish called, "What have you been busy with lately?" "If you're not busy, you're going to die of idleness all day!" "Haha, the leader gave himself an early holiday?" "Leadership? I don't even know who the leader is! "Haha, do you remember the party I told you about some time ago?" "Well, okay, I want to drink now!" "Ha, guess you haven't changed, but it's ahead of schedule!" "Ahead of schedule? What the hell? "After the New Year, we will have a party, and many people have come back early this year, this time it will be lively!" "Tell me who they are!" "Well, actually, I'm not sure, but there are two people who came back from Beijing, one is the squad leader, and the other is the life committee!" "Damn, squad leader, I remember, what did that kid from the life committee do when he came back! A thief can drink it! "Haha, let's come back and see, I'll tell you the location when the time is full!" "Okay, how much does everyone pay!" "Tentatively, it is five hundred per person, more refunds and less compensation!" "What's the matter with that, it's all whole and it's all spent!" "Ha, that's what you think, but others don't have to!" "Okay, I'll wait for your information!"

Putting down the phone, my thoughts brought me back to the green years of the year, and the past came to my heart one by one!

I was in a small place, and there were a lot of children my age, but after the implementation of family planning, most of the families were only children, and at that time, the children all got together to play, because there was no one to accompany you at home. Kindergarten, elementary school, junior high school, high school, basically every learning process has childhood friends, and I haven't stepped out of the place where I live for 20 years, and only when I go to college do I know that the world is so big. From childhood to adolescence, I was always so happy, learning is not a burden, it is the joy of being together, but time flies, and it is fleeting.

Now all that is left is memories, and the occasional party is usually seen or returned to the city to work, and they travel far away, and to me it is only a happy impression in my memory. I always sigh in my heart that I miss them!

Most of the people at this party were junior high school classmates, and we were all ignorant teenagers at that time, and those who had feelings also knew what love was, it was just attraction between the opposite sex. At that time, the learning atmosphere in our class was very good, mainly because the teacher was too strict, in addition to homework and exercises, you have to learn badly, the teacher is really beating you, there is really an urge to hate iron and steel, now I think about it, but also thanks to the teacher's strictness, but when we understand, time is gone!

I have a deep impression of the class leader, she is a weak and beautiful girl, junior high school is the school flower, learning is really good, there are a total of three people in our class who were admitted to Peking University and Tsinghua University, including her! When school first started, boys were basically attracted to her, and we who grew up watching the Dream of Red Mansions basically have no immunity to this kind of weak and beautiful girl, although we don't know what love or star chasing is, but the eyes at that time really never left her! Of course, I'm not the only one like this, all boys are like this, but I will find a way to talk to her more, ask questions or something, who said that we were still young at that time!

I was deeply impressed, mainly because I was surprised by everything about her, and I thought she was a weak girl at first, but later I learned that this weakness was just an appearance, and she really had a strong heart! In fact, the class leader has heart disease, congenital, and can't withstand intense activities, so she can rarely be seen running in physical education class. Everyone took care of her and made her a class leader, one was encouragement, the other was care. But people are really good, academic performance has always been the top ten in the year group, leading our class, the first in the annual group of the sports meeting, the first in the annual group of the singing competition, everything that can be fought for, she led us to be the first, and everyone really convinced her in their hearts!

Later, the family gave me a stationery box with a mirror, the squad leader was also very good to me, oh yes, not me, it was very good to everyone, after I had this stationery box, the squad leader always borrowed it, girls, normal, I also like to let her borrow, so that we will have more opportunities to talk, sometimes I will take the initiative to send, hehe, a little careful!

However, that summer, I caught a few longhorn cows and put them in a stationery box, and watched them play in class, happily forgetting that the class leader wanted to use the stationery box! When she borrowed it and saw it, a scream shattered all my dreams at that time! She was really scared! And I, I didn't apologize, everything seems to be done on purpose, in fact, I am also very wronged, and when I want to say sorry, people already regard me as a passerby! And this sentence is sorry for fifteen years late!

Things are not people, and the past is just a memory that stays in my heart, all these years have passed, I really want to ask you, are you okay!