"Packed up?" I looked at Sun Hao and asked.

"Yes." Sun Hao nodded, as if he was not in a good mood.

"Well, then I'll go to sleep." I nodded and prepared to go back to my room.

Sun Hao didn't speak, picked up the cigarette on the coffee table, lit one, and handed me the cigarette case at the same time, I looked at him, sat back on the sofa, and lit a cigarette.

Sun Hao looked at me and seemed to want to say something, but in the end, he just shook his hand, took a puff of cigarette, and smiled helplessly.

I shook my head slightly, stopped looking at him, and sat quietly on the sofa to smoke with him.

Sun Hao's expression has been very low since we came back from the trip, he didn't say why, and we didn't ask.

"Do you have to go to work tomorrow?" He asked.

I nodded.

"Then go back to bed early."

"It's fine." I replied.

"Oh." Sun Hao took a cigarette in his mouth, and the corners of his mouth twitched a strange shape, "This doesn't look like you?" ”

"You're Ruxue's brother." I replied calmly.

"Oh." His voice was long, with a hint of realisation and meaning.

"You're not here, it's a hassle to be neighbors with a woman." I looked at him and said.

"Oh." Sun Hao looked at me very seriously and nodded his head. I think he should know what I mean.

We didn't talk again for a while, until a cigarette was smoked, Sun Hao wrung out the cigarette butt in the ashtray, and then took out another cigarette case and sent it to his mouth, but in the end he didn't light it.

"Let's go, go out for a drink with me." Finally, he said.

"I've got to work tomorrow."

"But I'm Luxue's brother." He looked at me and smiled.

I thought about it seriously and nodded.

Sun Hao stood up, shook his head and walked out the door, I seemed to hear him say, "It turns out that you are better at acting than me." ”

"I can't act." I replied lightly and walked to the door.

"What?"

"It's my natural state, not pretended."

"Really?"

"Yes."

"Not really."

I looked at him and said, "I want to be neighbors with Luxue for a while in the future, because of your relationship, we will have some contact, and women's thinking is very weird, or it is difficult for men to understand, men will see a woman at most from the half-sleeved shirt to the illegitimate child, this is a straight line of logical thinking, but women are not, women will be associated from the eyes between two men to old age, or cannibalism, in short, women's thinking is not logical, It's also hard to guess the reason for what the woman is thinking. ”

"So."

"Therefore, in order for me to be friendly with my neighbor in the future, I should accompany you, the neighbor's brother, to avoid the unpredictable accident of being named a woman's intuition."

"So."

"So, I'm not acting, and I won't act."

Sun Hao looked at me playfully, shook his head noncommittally, opened the door and walked out.

"Brother, are you going out?" Suddenly, Lu Xue opened the door and poked her head out and asked.

"Well, go out for a drink, you go to bed early." Sun Hao said.

"Oh, Brother Xiaoshan, drink less, you have to go to work tomorrow." Luxue looked at me and smiled.

I nodded.

"What about me?" Sun Hao looked at her strangely, with a playful tone in his tone.

"You? You're fine, no matter how much you drink, no one will care, so go with confidence. ”

"What kind of sister are you?" Sun Hao shook his head helplessly and walked downstairs.

"Brother Xiaoshan," Lu Xue called softly again.

"Huh?" I turned my head and looked at her.

"Drink less." Lu Xue said with a smile.

I nodded, shook my head, turned my head and walked downstairs.

The autumn night was breezy and with a bleak smell, Sun Hao and I casually found a food stall and ordered a few side dishes and a few bottles of beer. It was almost late at night, and there were not many customers at the food stalls, and under the shade of the trees, it was quiet and peaceful, only the autumn cicadas chirped from time to time, as if they were holding something.

Sun Hao poured himself a glass, took a sip, and then leaned back in his chair, looking at the sky, as if thinking about something.

I didn't bother him, just took my glass and drank slowly. After a while, Sun Hao suddenly asked, "Xiaoshan, have you ever liked anyone?" ”

I looked at him and didn't answer him, because his eyes were a little dazed, and I didn't know if he was asking me or himself.

"You know, you won't like anyone." Maybe seeing my hesitation, Sun Hao smiled, picked up the cup and took a sip, and said with a self-deprecating wry smile, "Brother, I have liked many people, but none of them died well." ”

I didn't speak, but I picked up the cup and took a sip with him, waiting for him to do the next thing.

"You don't know, I'm actually pretty good at cooking."

I shook my head, "You never talked about it. ”

Sun Hao leaned back in his chair again, with a faint smile, as if he was remembering something. "I once cooked for a girl, and I once practiced hard for more than three months to make a good meal. It's hard to believe that people like me will work hard for the people they like. ”

Do you work hard for the people you like, I don't know, I haven't felt like this. Like someone? For some reason, I suddenly thought of the face of Luxue, who was always smiling. I shook my head slightly, dispelling the illusion of boredom.

"She was my former neighbor who moved away and didn't get back in touch until I went to college, when she came back here alone and went to another university. Strange to say, we were just walking on the street, and we met each other, and we recognized each other at first sight, and we both saw joy in each other's eyes. Believe it or not, a chance encounter on the street may seem like a miracle, but it seems to us to be almost a matter of course, as if we should have met in the first place. ”

I picked up my glass and took a sip, closed my eyes, and shook my head slightly.

"At that time, she said that she was not used to eating in the cafeteria, so I worked my cooking skills, until that day when I made a table of food in front of her, she smiled and burst into tears."

Sun Hao picked up the wine glass and took a big sip, shook his head with a wry smile, and seemed to not want to say any more.

"And then?"

"She's married." Sun Hao looked elsewhere and said lightly, and then added, "With others." ”

Are you married to someone else, Sun Hao's eyes were full of sadness, revealing a tangle of wanting to refuse and give up. For some reason, my mind suddenly conjured up the scene of Lu Xue walking on the red carpet wearing a wedding dress holding the groom's hand, her face no longer had the same smile, she looked at me with sadness and resentment in her eyes. I shook my head, picked up my cup and took a big sip.

"If life is only as it is when you first see something, the autumn wind is sad and paints a fan." Sun Hao said lightly, curling the corners of his mouth, with a taste of self-deprecation.

I looked at him, then looked away, and a cool breeze swept by, rolling up the fallen leaves and dancing in the air, and then hovering and drifting down again.

"Nalan words."

Sun Hao nodded, and then asked, "Don't ask me, why did she marry someone?" ”

"If you want to say it, you will always say it."

"It's really boring to talk to you."

"Forget it, there's nothing to say, anyway, she got married later, and the groom is not me."

"Aren't you good now, too. Isn't there anyone who likes your mom? I took the glass and looked at the foam inside, and said lightly.

Sun Hao shook his head slightly, "Don't dare." ”

"Don't dare?"

"Actually, I've had a few girlfriends, some introduced and some of my own, but I don't know why the ending is always the same, maybe this is my life, my life should be, who made me a child's life, just stand up for this life." Sun Hao shook his head and said to himself, then glanced at me and added playfully, "Oh, by the way, you don't believe in fate." ”

"Maybe it's just that you have formed the subconscious intention of avoiding failure in the face of too many failures, and then formed the habitual thinking that you don't want to face the same problem again."

"Please, can you say something I can understand?"

"You're afraid of losing, so you don't dare to fight for it again."

Sun Hao looked at me with a smile, and finally laughed, "Xiaoshan, are you talking about yourself?" ”

I froze and looked at him fixedly, am I talking about myself? I'm, I'm saying, myself.

"And said you don't know how to act."

"Me"

"Forget it, forget it." Sun Hao waved his hand impatiently, tilted his head, curled the corners of his mouth, and said lightly, "Life is like a play, it all depends on acting skills." ”