"Is this the worshippers?" Looking at Qi Gao, who was sitting in a car and gradually moving away, Li Yan said in a low voice.

"It's just the weakest of the gods." The old man's voice sounded, it was the existence that Li Yan called You.

"Is it the weakest? Hehe, haha, it's so funny, but ah, no matter how weak you are, it's too much stronger than me, too much. Li Yan's eyes were filled with infinite sadness, "Compared to him, what am I?" Soul beasts? Worshippers? Haha, for the sake of friends, for strangers, he has fallen into life and death dilemmas again and again, what about me? It's just garbage. ”

Li Yan leaned against the wall weakly, his eyes were blank, and in his mind, the battles between Qi Gao and the heavy-headed lizard, with the sickle, and with the earth-walking whale, were played in his mind again and again.

"I'm so envious, so envious!" Li Yan sighed, "Why? Also high school students; Why? The same sudden gain of strength; Why? Again, we have to fight. But how much different will the ending be? What is the reason exactly? ”

Because a source of power is called the Worshippers? A source of power called a soul beast?

Li Yan didn't understand, in his opinion, the so-called soul beast and the god worshipper were just the same thing, and there was not much difference. But—

"Sure enough, is it still human itself?" Li Yan whispered, "You, what do you think, looking at such a god worshipper, and then look at me who is so down-and-out?" ”

"My hatred for the worshippers only makes me want to tear him to pieces." Yu said.

"Hate? Me too, and I hate the worshippers! Li Yan covered his face and sat down, "If only I were a god worshipper, if only I were him, if only I hadn't experienced this." Is this named the emotion of jealousy? Is it a feeling called love? It's ridiculous, maybe I really hate from love. ”

"You should not have been like this, your future achievements will eventually overshadow the worshipper, and you will stand on top of the world in the future. All you have to do is just wait, as long as you can fully merge with me, as long as you can get all my power, this world will be under your control. You said.

"What will become of me when I am fully integrated with you? Becoming not you, nor me? A completely different new existence? Li Yan asked.

"You're still you, I'm still me, the one who has the power, and in the end you are the only one who dominates the world. All I want is to look at you, to watch you, to do what you want to do, what you want to do, what you should do, it's up to you. You said.

"It's too much, why should it be? You are so powerful, why do you give me all your power to this ant-like existence. Li Yan lowered his head, "Obviously there is no need to do this, as long as you want to, even if it occupies my body and obliterates my consciousness, I will not resist." ”

"The flaws of soul beasts are unavoidable, and in order to be able to fulfill my long-cherished wish, I must get rid of this bondage."

"Then you can use me?" Li Yan stood up angrily.

“…… I'm sorry. ”

“…… Forget it, it's not you who is wrong. It should be said that everything is my fault, and the reason why I am like this is only my own fault. Even if I were in the same situation as the worshipper, I guess I would still be like this. Hehe, it's ridiculous to think about it, it was a lucky thing, but I made it like this. ”

"Luck and misfortune are just subjective opinions. You still have a long way to go, as long as you can get rid of the shackles of the past, what will greet you will be an infinitely brilliant future. ”

"Do you think I'll help you fulfill your long-cherished wish?"

“……”

"You want to destroy Long Yao, you want to kill all the worshippers, but why should I do this? I have absolutely no reason to do this, do I? ”

"But you're still on this path."

“…… Because he is a god worshipper, because you are a soul beast, sure enough, the soul beast will hate the fate of the god worshippers, is it inevitable? Even if I only got the power of a soul beast? ”

"Remember, as long as we are fully integrated, you will be the strongest."

"The strongest? What am I going to be the strongest? Do you think I'm really going to do what you say? Yes, now I hate the worshippers and want to kill them, but what if I let go of the past? Do I still hate the worshippers? Do you still want to kill the worshippers? ”

“……”

"You're wrong, and I don't have to, I just have to have a good time when I get your powers. But the reason I didn't do it was because of the past, because of hatred. If you still want me to fulfill your long-cherished wish, you must pray that I will never forget the past and be tormented by it forever. Until death, or kill all worshippers. ”

“……”

"Haha, right? The person I trust the most is just a guy who prays that I will always be in pain, that I will always be tormented by the past. ”

“…… You are right. ”

"I don't have anyone I can trust in this world."

Yes, he Li Yan is only alone, whether it is a classmate or teacher, whether it is a worshipper of God, or the blessing that gave him strength, no one is worthy of his trust, and no one will pray for him.

Now he is more like the second boy in the anime, how much like the villain who was finally influenced by the protagonist.

However, will he, like all Form 2 teenagers, finally recognize the reality and embark on the path of growth? Will he be like the villain with inner pain and meet a protagonist who can influence him?

"Perhaps, I hope to have someone I can trust, and maybe, I hope that the protagonist like that can come."

Hehe, now I'm not like a girl with a spring? Waiting for the Prince Charming of your dreams? Unfortunately, my "Prince Charming" will never appear, and I don't need any "Prince Charming".

Li Yan laughed at himself as he stood up.

"Can you just wait? Will what I wait for, and what I end up getting, the ending I want? ”

"Li Yan?" The voice of doubt sounded in Li Yan's ears.

Like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, Li Yan turned his head stiffly, and in the distance, a familiar figure was standing.

"Yangmei?"

Li Yan turned around and ran, leaving Yang Meimei with a puzzled face.

"That's Li Yan, right?"

Due to the distance, Li Yan's clothes are very tattered now, so Yang Meimei is not very sure.

"Why? Why? Isn't this what I've been dreaming of? I finally met someone who might save me, why should I run away. ”

Li Yan ran away desperately, as if there were countless evil ghosts chasing him behind him.

Bayberry?

Why her?

Now that I have any reason to approach her, what reason do I have to approach her? What else qualifies her to receive her care?

Yang Meimei is a member of the study committee in Li Yan's class. Due to the fact that Li Yan's grades were very poor for a period of time, the teacher asked Yang Meimei to take care of Li Yan's studies.

And what Yang Meimei did was not only to guide Li Yan's study, but also to help the taciturn Li Yan deal with the people who bullied him, often taking care of Li Yan in various places, and even being ridiculed for being like Li Yan's mother.

Officially, due to the relationship between Yang Meimei, Li Yan's grades began to improve, his personality gradually became cheerful, and his friends gradually increased.

But Yang Meimei may not know that Li Yan has actually been secretly in love with her.

But Yang Meimei's grades are also among the best in the grade, and her personality is also the kind of cheerful and responsible person, as long as she believes in something, she will definitely do it to the end.

Thinking about the fact that the teacher didn't call Yang Meimei before, before he knew about his study, neither of them spoke a few words for a semester, and after the teacher commanded, everything was different.

In the final analysis, Yang Meimei is just because of the teacher's instructions and her own conscientious and responsible personality, so she will always take care of Li Yan.

If he suddenly wants to confess to Yangmeimei, Yangmeimei will definitely be very embarrassed, right? A person with average grades like him, a short man like him, and a cowardly person like him, Yang Meimei will definitely not like it, right?

Although a friend told him that Yangmeimei is not beautiful, her personality is not likable, and her grades are too good, no one will chase him at all, as long as he goes to confess, even if Yangmeimei does not agree immediately, as long as she continues to work hard, Yangmeimei will be his sooner or later.

Li Yan also admitted that what the friend said made sense, but no matter what other people think of Yang Meimei, Yang Meimei is his goddess in his heart, and Yang Meimei studies so hard, she should not be the type to fall in love in high school.

Therefore, Li Yan has never had the courage to confess.

"Meimei, I couldn't please you at the beginning, what about me now? If you watch it, you'll feel sick to death, right? If you knew what I did, would you regret knowing me? Li Yan looked at his hands blankly, not sure that it would be that kind of ending.

Li Yan ran, stopped, ran, stopped, and before he knew it, his vision was blurred by tears.

"I thought that my tears had already flowed, but I didn't expect it, but it was just not time to be sad."

When Li Yan stopped, he found that everything around him was so familiar.

"Here? School? Li Yan looked around in disbelief, "Why did I run to such a place?" Want to repent? But is there anything here where I need to repent? ”

Yes, he had plenty of places to go if he wanted to repent.

Sure enough? All he wants is salvation!

"Do people like me deserve salvation?"

Not eligible!

Even if the whole world could forgive him, he would not be able to forgive himself.

"I don't need salvation!"

But why? Can't take my eyes off it?

Why? My mind is filled with memories of the campus?

Why? I'm walking towards campus?

"Hehe, it's so funny, saying that you don't need salvation, your body is very honest."

Opening the enchantment and seclusion, Li Yan walked into the school from the school gate.

There is a monitor at the gate of the school, and if you walk in from the gate, you will inevitably be photographed by the monitor, which Li Yan is very clear about, but it is clear that he still insists on walking in through the gate.

Perhaps, in Li Yan's heart, only by walking through the gate can he prove that he is a student of this school.

The question is, does this school still recognize him as a student?

"There is no salvation here, and the greater my expectations will only bring me greater despair. But that's not bad, then I can leave all hope behind and be completely immersed in the darkness. ”

Obviously waiting for this hope, obviously hoping for salvation, the ultimate goal, the final result, is hope shattered, but falling into darkness?

How ridiculous!

"yes, I'm such a ridiculous person."

Sitting under a banyan tree, Li Yan's thoughts seemed to go back to the past.

"This is the place where Yang Meimei tutored me for the first time, and I think back on how lucky I was at that time."

Coming to the bottom of the teaching stairs, Li Yan seemed to see two chasing figures.

"At that time, I quarreled with Yangmeimei for the first time, and it was here that I was pulled by Yangmeimei. At that time, I still remember that I slapped Yangmei and told her not to meddle in her affairs. ”

"What kind of mood did I have at that time? But it was from that time that I began to like bayberry, right? Li Yan walked up the stairs step by step.

Every step I take, what I see, what I recall, is the figure of Yangmeimei.

"It turns out that the memories of my campus are the memories of me and Yangmeimei?"

It's ridiculous!

Is there anyone more pathetic than to regard a woman who may not take him seriously, as his most important thing, as his most unforgettable memory?

Perhaps in Yang Meimei's heart, the person named Li Yan is just an insignificant green leaf in her long life.

Unconsciously, he had come to the classroom, and in this classroom where he had stayed with Yang Meimei for more than a year, Li Yan sat in his seat.

"I didn't expect to have my seat, should I say I'm glad?"

Li Yan sat for a few hours, and when he came back to his senses, the world outside the window was shrouded in the afterglow of the setting sun.

Why? Am I going to stay here?

Why? Am I this idle?

Why? I can't let go of my nostalgia for this place?

Li Yan knew, he was waiting, waiting for the sound of "Go home." ”

Yes, every time he used to accompany Yang Meimei to study late, until Yang Meimei said "go home", they were separated.

But this time it was different, no matter how long he waited, he couldn't hear that sentence anymore.

It's not because Yang Meimei went home first, but because the worlds of the two of them are already different, and in different worlds, how can the voice be conveyed?

"Li Yan?"

Turning his head in astonishment, what kind of scene was that?

This is the most beautiful fairy tale that Li Yan will never forget, in this life.

God may really exist somewhere in the world.