Walls, we all live in walls, since when did it start? And when did it feel like we were living within the walls? What do we think of this wall? Is life without walls necessarily good? I don't know, or I don't want to know. I don't want to change. I only hope that my life can go on as I expected, without accidents, without changes, and calmly to the end, just like many ordinary people who come to walk in obscurity, without changing anything, without contaminating too much cause and effect. Let yourself be like a lonely soul wandering in the world.

Since when? This kind of thinking.

After a while, Sun Hao took back a few pieces of flooring, and it was obvious that these were carefully selected, and I picked a piece of texture that was not much different and cut to replace the broken ship's gunwale, and the model started again. Maybe after that accident, Xiao Yin also became calm and confident. Fortunately, there was no mistake in the carbonization treatment, and the project entered the next stage smoothly, to carry out the preliminary assembly of the parts, Xiaoyin did it very seriously, because it was an antique construction, the glue bonding was canceled, and the toothpick was used to connect with a toothpick in the way of punching, which was much more difficult in the project. Many times Xiao Yin's hand was punctured by a toothpick, and every time she would jump up with a babbling cry, put her hand in her mouth and suck it, and then sat down again, assembling it seriously, her eyes revealing persistence and firmness. Every time she jumped up, Sun Hao would mutter, "Don't do it if you're afraid of pain, I hurt what you called." Xiao Yin and I chose to ignore his words.

Luxue doesn't make models, she says she prefers to watch us do them. Now that TV has become Sun Hao's exclusive property, he can watch whatever he wants, but he still has no decision on the issue of sound, but he still has something to gain in exchange for quietness. Lu Xue would soak in the pot of Tieguanyin every night, put it within reach of Xiaoyin and me, and then sat across from us, put her head on her knees, and looked at us with a smile. Her smile doesn't seem to change, it never seems to get tired, it always seems to be the same. Xiao Yin said that she smiled beautifully, and hoped to be like her, but she didn't last long before she rubbed her face and pouted and shouted tired, Lu Xue just smiled and shook her head, and then looked at us with a smile that didn't change.

I've been thinking about the fence these days, and I've looked up some information. In "The Shawshank Redemption", it is said that people will hate the wall at first, then get used to it, and finally fear the absence of it. I don't know if that's right, maybe it's right, maybe it's not, I don't know. I rubbed my head, got up and walked to the corner of the Internet café, opened the window, and lit a cigarette to soothe my nerves. In the wee hours of the morning, most of the people in the city have gone to sleep, only a few rooms are still lit up, and the people outside the window, those who sleep and those who don't, do they have their own walls? How will they perceive their walls?

I shook my head, snuffed out my cigarette, and headed back to the lobby of the Internet café. Wang Huan didn't go to sleep today, I don't know what holidays are going on the Internet, she is in high spirits swiping the web page to scan the goods, and I have a feeling of sadness for her wallet. I walked around the bar and grabbed a glass of water at the water dispenser. Wang Huan glared at me fiercely, as if to say, and smoked in the Internet café again. I ignored her murderous eyes and continued to fetch water, when suddenly there was a commotion in the Internet café.

"Damn, why did this person next to me fall?" A voice said.

"Really, blood is spurting from my nose." Another said.

"How many films have you watched? Hair kills people. A girl said leisurely.

"What about the priest? Come and save people. ”

"I can't, I'm a level of resurrection, is there an advanced point?"

"Who else are you saving, come, brother, come and make up a knife and grab someone's head."

There was chaos and commotion in the Internet café.

I rushed forward and squeezed into the crowd, only to see a customer lying on his keyboard, bleeding from his nose. "Wang Huan, call, call an ambulance and call the police." I yelled at Wang Huan.

Wang Huan was looking nervously outside the crowd, heard my roar, hurriedly took out his mobile phone, and dialed in a trembling voice.

"You all stay away, don't touch him, don't touch the patient if you don't know what the cause of the disease, don't contact the patient, so as not to worsen the condition, do you have a medical student here? Nurses can too. I shouted anxiously.

"I'm a priest by profession, why don't I try resurrection?" A voice teased.

"It's useless, it's better to make up for it and save trouble." Another voice said.

"Let him not believe in our sect leader, or he will be resurrected in full state."

There were all kinds of sounds around me, but it seemed to me to be dead silence. What makes people so apathetic?

I don't remember everything after that, I vaguely remember that the police came, the ambulance came, and then Li Fatzi. After that, the ambulance left, the police left, Li Fatzi also left, and the customers who surfed the Internet returned to their seats to continue passing the time. The late-night Internet café is noisy, and the late-night Internet café is deadly silent.

Do they all have their own walls?

"Brother Xiaoshan, are you okay, Brother Xiaoshan, don't scare me."

Who's calling me? I turned my head to see Luxue looking at me anxiously.

"Why are you here?" I asked, fixedly.

"I'll just say he's fine, in his words, it's what state he has entered, anyway, it means that he wasn't here just now, don't ask me where it is, I don't know." Sun Hao shrugged and said.

"You're here too, why are you all here?" I asked.

"You were very strange just now, I was afraid that something would happen to you, so I used your mobile phone to call them." Wang Huan explained.

"So you have my phone, I thought you didn't, I used to call you, it seems like it's your first time calling, will you call? Oh, I forgot, it wasn't you who hit it, it was Wang Meinu who hit it. Sun Hao said with a look of disgust.

"Brother, can you shut up?" Lu Xue seemed to be a little angry.

"What are you anxious about? I'm not in a hurry, I called someone in the middle of the night, just to see him look like a god, who do I talk to? ”

"Oh, I'm sorry, I'm fine, you go back to sleep." I said.

"What else do you sleep? It's all here, then, the beautiful woman will help my brother get some beer, and then some snacks or something, I will give my brother a crush. Sun Hao said and handed Wang Huan a banknote.

Wang Huan took a few cans of beer and some snacks and put them on the bar, Sun Hao picked up a can and opened it. Poured it into his mouth, and then slammed it into the bar, "Xiaoshan, don't you look like a god in the future, okay?" Brother please, I don't care if you call me in the middle of the night, I'm afraid something will happen to you. ”

"I'm fine, I'm just thinking about something." I said.

"You, really, forget it, when I didn't say it."

"Come, Sister Wang Huan, you can drink some too, you were also a little frightened just now, come and suppress the shock." Lu Xue smiled and picked up a can of beer and handed it to Wang Huan.

Wang Huan took the beer, opened it, took a sip, and let out a long breath, "What happened to that person just now?" Scared the hell out of me. ”

"What did the doctor say?" I asked, "The doctor said, it seems to be a ruptured capillary plus shock, and it shouldn't be a big deal." ”

I nodded.

"Brother Xiaoshan, what were you thinking just now?" Lu Xue asked with a smile, her hair a little disheveled, with faint bags under her eyes, and she was taking a sip of a can of beer. The whole person looked a little haggard, only the smile was the same as before.

"Fence." I said.

"What comes to mind?"

"It's going to start again." Sun Hao muttered.

"Everyone will fence themselves off with a wall, separating what they identify with and what they don't identify, what they have and what they don't belong to, what they admit and what they deny, that's our worldview and values, but it's not static, it's changing, it's changing all the time."

Lu Xue smiled and nodded, Sun Hao and Wang Huan glanced at each other, shrugged and touched their glasses, and continued to drink their wine.

"It's changing, and people are always gaining or losing, identifying or disagreeing. It's just that we don't mean it, we think it's immutable, it won't change from the day it stands, but we're wrong, it's changing. In a certain period, we built it to better protect ourselves, to have a sense of security, and to better reflect the value of our own existence. But the world is constantly changing, whether we want it or not, whether we admit it or not, we are also changing, more or less. New elements are always being added to the wall, but we don't know it, which leads to our worldview and values becoming unrecognizable, and we don't know each other. ”

"Where did you start to change? We are influenced and hinted at by others all the time in our lives, but there is a phenomenon that is more popular and widespread, and this phenomenon is called popularity, which is accepted and recognized by the vast majority of people. People often think that this kind of general, general description of personality reveals their own characteristics more accurately and is more in line with their own vital interests, and of course it is easier to be included in the wall. ”

"But what's popular isn't necessarily a commodity." Lu Xue said.

I nodded, "Where did the epidemic start and how did it spread?" ”

"It's like a butterfly flapping its wings in the distance, but it forms a storm." Lu Xue said.

"This storm has swept a lot of people, and many people think that it is harmless, even beneficial to themselves, and will unconsciously include it in the wall, so that in a sense, people get benefits, identify with certain views, and thus broaden their worldview and values." I say.

"But is that correct?" Luxue said quietly.

"Don't know? It's up to us, each of us, to measure what is right or not, and there's nothing wrong with the storm itself. I said.

"What's the hardest thing in the world?" I forced a laugh, shook my head, and asked.

"Earn money." Sun Hao said.

"Spend money." Wang Huan replied.

"If you don't make money, how can you spend it?" Sun Hao said.

"Earning money is not just to spend, how to spend money is learning." Wang Huan replied very philosophically.

Sun Hao nodded in agreement, raised his beer and touched it with Wang Huan.

"The hardest thing is to know yourself and look at yourself." I said.

"So?" Lu Xue asked with a smile.

"So we should all get out of the walls and re-examine ourselves outside the walls and know ourselves, even if there are too many uncertain changes." I took a sip of my wine, "But not everyone is going to get out of the fence and plan the wall systematically, people."

"That's actually very pitiful." Lu Xue said.

"Yes, we're all pathetic."

"What about you, little brother Shan, will you get out of the wall?"

"I don't know, I'm not ready for change, I think I should stand on the wall and look at myself first, although it's hard."

"I'm sure you can do it, little brother." Lu Xue said with a smile.

"How did you become friends?" Wang Huan asked, "Xiaoshan is a freak, if it weren't for work, how far would I have been hiding." ”

Sun Hao thought he was charming, smiled and said, "This is a long, long story, and it will take a lot of time to tell this story." ”