I don't believe in fate, if everything in this world is predestined, and life is just going according to the established procedure, then what is the meaning of living. Life is a process of continuous choice and choice, in which we constantly revise our outlook on life, worldview and values, and constantly write our successes or failures, gains or losses. No matter what your circumstances are in life, some things will definitely be left, even if it is our choice of every small step, it will leave clear traces, which is the value of life, this is the mark of life.

"Sun Hao is a child's life, so do you think I am a fairy life?" Feng Xiaolu muttered to Zhang Hui in a low voice.

"Yes, you are a fairy in the sky, and you have wronged yourself and followed me when you see that I am pitiful." Zhang Hui said lightly.

"It's good to know, if you dare to treat me badly, I will, I will" Feng Xiaolu stammered for a long time, as if she suddenly woke up, and said aggrievedly, "Even if you treat me badly, I can't seem to go back." ”

The crowd burst into laughter.

Guan Ling looked at them funny, "Sister Xiaolu, if he treats you badly in the future, tell me, I will help you get angry, it's really not okay and our little handsome." As he spoke, he glanced at Zhou Ying intentionally or unintentionally.

Zhou Ying smiled and asked Sun Hao softly, "How do you know that you are a child?" ”

"I was frail and sickly when I was a child, and it was a Taoist priest who saved me." Sun Hao shrugged.

"He also sold you a talisman?" Feng Xiaolu asked curiously.

Zhang Hui and Xiaoshuai both shook their heads helplessly.

"When I was a child, everyone called me Golden Retriever Tai Sui, I was thin and yellow, and everyone thought I wouldn't live long."

"That's it?" Feng Xiaolu seemed very disappointed.

Sun Hao smiled and continued, "At that time, I would always do some weird things meaninglessly, such as a pregnant woman in the neighbor's house, and I could know whether it was a man or a woman a month or two before giving birth, and occasionally I could see through the situation upstairs in my house." ”

"It seems to be very mysterious." Feng Xiaolu held her cheeks, looked at me, and asked, "Xiaoshan, you can explain." ”

I frowned, looked at Feng Xiaolu, and then at Lu Xue, the smile on Lu Xue's face seemed to condense, as if she was seriously thinking about something. "When people are young, their memories often overlap, so they can't tell the order of things before and after, and it's likely that he remembered them wrong."

"Who knows," Sun Hao shrugged and continued, "Anyway, at that time, I felt like I was dying, and I liked to sit by the flower bed and bask in the sun every day. At that time, I was not very afraid of death, and I counted my days every day like an old man. ”

"Later." Zhou Ying asked.

"Later, a friend of my mother, a well-known veteran, burned me a stand-in and prescribed a very strange medicine, and then it was fine."

"Home remedies cure serious diseases," Feng Xiaolu echoed.

"That home remedies are too biased, if Xiaoshan said that my memory may have illusions when I was a child, but he must not be able to explain the home remedies."

"Xiaoshan can't explain the problem? Talk about it, talk about it. Feng Xiaolu seemed to be interested, and Zhang Hui couldn't help shaking his head.

"Use the shell of the live cocoon chrysalis to burn it to ashes, then bake the egg yolk into oil, mix them into a puree and use the talisman ash as a medicine to take it, about a week, and it's fine."

I frowned and looked down in contemplation.

"Traditional Chinese medicine is really broad and profound," Feng Xiaolu said as if she didn't understand, and we shook our heads again and again.

"There's no scientific basis for that." "Science is a discipline that can be replicated, and I can't be sure that something made with the same materials and methods is pharmacological." Can you treat someone with the same condition? Also, I can't be sure if you were really sick at that time, people often have depression because of their weakness when they were young, maybe the medicine cured your depression, not physical illness. ”

"Who knows." Sun Hao shrugged and raised his glass to everyone.

"Could there be any other explanation?" Zhou Ying picked up the cup and took a sip and asked with a smile.

Lu Xue frowned slightly, forced a smile and said, "Brother Xiaoshan is right." ”

"Xiaoshan didn't also say that he wasn't sure if the soul existed, so it could be explained by metaphysics." Zhou Ying said intentionally or unintentionally.

"Metaphysics?"

"Yes, the shell of the live cocoon chrysalis burned to ashes means to frustrate the bones and raise ashes, and the egg yolk is baked into oil to say that the fire is fried and fried, which is the two major tortures in the world, and it also coincides with the meaning that Sun Hao wants to come to the world to atone for his sins, and finally burns the stand-in, which can be regarded as going back to restore his life instead of himself, so God will no longer impose disasters on him." Zhou Ying said with a smile.

After Zhou Ying finished speaking, the living room instantly became quiet, and the atmosphere dropped to freezing. I frowned in contemplation, as if something I had overlooked.

"Whatever," Sun Hao said with a smile, "What is heaven not going to heaven, even if I am here to atone for my sins, it is worth it to know your brothers and sisters." As he spoke, he picked up the wine and drank it dry.

Looking at him, I shook my head slightly, he often said that life is like a play, it all depends on acting skills, maybe he is acting for himself.

The party that day was always in a gloomy atmosphere, and everyone's interest was not high, and finally it was dispersed. Sun Hao drank a lot of wine that day, and went back to the room to sleep after the party, Zhou Ying always had a smile of yes and no, as if she was hiding something, Guan Ling seemed to be familiar with us, and when she left, she seemed very calm, greeted Lu Xue with a smile and said that she would pick her up tomorrow, Lu Xue seemed to be thinking about something, and the smile that never changed disappeared on her face, replaced by a slight frown. It was normal that day that Zhang Hui and Feng Xiaolu, although Zhang Hui's mood was also a little low, but it was much better than Xiao Shuai, Xiao Shuai was still shouting when he left, he didn't drink too much, he didn't drink too much, let's bring wine again. Looking at the way he looks, I know he's really drunk too much.

After everyone left, Lu Xue said hello to me and went back to the room. I sat alone in the living room, turning off the lights, letting myself be completely immersed in the darkness, emptying all my thoughts, I always felt that there was a shadow haunting us, but I had no clue about it, I thought about it carefully but still could not grasp the context, and it was not until late at night that I had to go back to my room to sleep.

The next day I didn't really want to talk for the whole day, I still wanted to find out the veins of that shadow, I was not used to the existence of unstable factors in life, but the more I tried to find out about it, the more vague it became, it was like a legendary ghost, the more I pursued it, the more confused I was. I went to work in a trance like this, and Wang Huan looked at me strangely and vigilantly for a whole day and night, just like looking at a mentally ill person, as if as long as I hit someone and destroy things, she would immediately call the police, and she was relieved until the shift was handed over, and her vigilant eyes turned into pity.

That night, Lu Xue made a table of very light dishes, saying that she wanted to clear Sun Haoqing's stomach. Sun Hao looked depressed all day yesterday because of a hangover, and looking at him, he seems to be much better today.

After the meal, Xiao Yin knocked on the door and came in, intending to continue our unfinished model. After Lu Xue finished cleaning up, she went back to the house with a smile and picked up a mobile phone and handed it to me.

"Brother Xiaoshan, when I bought a mobile phone yesterday, I watched this one and it suited you very well, so I bought it, come, see if you like it?" Lu Xue smiled and said, "Cut, you will give favors with my money, why didn't you say buy me one." Sun Hao pursed his lips and muttered in a low voice.

Lu Xue glared at him, still smiling and said, "Then, Brother Xiaoshan, let's see if it's easy to use?" ”

I looked at it, didn't pick it up, shook my head and said, "This, I won't use it, you better keep it for yourself, I can use my previous one." ”

"Brother Xiaoshan, learn to accept the kindness of others." Lu Xue shook her phone and smiled.

I thought about it, took the phone and put it on the table next to me, and said thank you.

"Cut, what a waste." Sun Hao muttered dissatisfiedly.

Lu Xue smiled disapprovingly and went into the kitchen to soak a pot of Tieguanyin.

Xiao Yin and I continued to make models, and today it is still the integration of widgets. Xiao Yin's mood today doesn't seem to be very high, and she snorts from time to time, as if she has been wronged.

Lu Xue poured Xiao Yin a cup of tea and asked, "Xiao Yin, what's wrong?" Because of what's upset? ”

Xiao Yin looked at Lu Xue and then at me, and whispered, "Brother Xiaoshan, why do you say that boys always like to bully girls?" ”

"The little girl was bullied at school, and told Shu Xiao, and Shu Huang beat him." Sun Hao laughed.

Xiao Yin gave him a look of disdain.

"Xiao Yin, why did he bully you?" Lu Xue asked with a smile.

"He was my tablemate, he didn't study well, and he always liked to mischievous, either grabbing my hair or scribbling on my books, and threatening me not to tell the teacher." Xiao Yin said with a crying voice.

"It's okay, Shu Huang is looking for his parents." Sun Hao still said with a smile.

"Brother, just shut up." Ruxue seemed a little angry.

"And what do you want to do?" I thought about it and asked.

"I don't know, I just don't want him to bully me anymore."

"He's not bullying you, he's liking you, right? I've been like that before. Sun Hao whispered.

Lu Xue turned her head and glared at him, and Sun Hao shrugged and kept silent.

"Have you ever heard the story of a wolf coming?" I thought about it and said.

"Here comes the wolf, the story that taught us not to lie?" Xiao Yin asked puzzled.

I nodded, and shook my head again, "That story is not to teach us not to lie, it is human nature to lie, people lie to protect themselves, but on the premise of protecting themselves, we must ensure that we are not hurt by the results of lies, and we must not hurt others." That story is actually more about an effect, a marginal effect. ”

"Don't teach bad kids." Sun Hao pouted.

"I'm teaching her how to survive." I said.

"To survive like you, I think it's better for her to be bullied."

I shook my head slightly, ignored Sun Hao's nonsense, and continued, "That kid shouted twice that the wolf came, and the adults went, and when the adults felt cheated, they didn't go on the third time, what does this mean?" ”

"It means that it's not good to deceive." Xiao Yin replied solemnly.

"We're talking about marginal effects, and the same stimulus becomes a decreasing trend." Lu Xue said with a smile.

"I don't understand." Xiao Yin and Sun Hao said in unison.

"That is, what if that child stopped shouting that the wolf was coming when the wolf was really coming, and if it was really shouting, there was a wild boar that was wounded and fainted?"

Xiao Yin frowned and thought for a moment, "The adults will go to save him." ”

I'll show Snow and nod at the same time.

What does that mean? , what does this have to do with her being bullied. Sun Hao asked puzzled.

"He bullied you because he could take pleasure in it, and if he stopped feeling pleasure, he wouldn't be bullying you." I said.

"How? Brother Xiaoshan. ”

"Isn't he not very good at studying, then you can tell him, you say, you like the pictures he drew in your books."

"He painted ugly." Xiao Yin said dissatisfied.

"Hey, I'm starting to teach kids to deceive." Sun Hao shook his head and sighed.

"You just say that the painting is very beautiful, and you like it very much, but you can't let him paint it in vain, and every time he paints, you give him two questions." I continued.

"Why?"

"Xiaoshan, you're teaching bad kids." Sun Hao protested loudly.

I glanced at him and continued, "At first, I drew two questions, three days later, two questions, and after three days, you will no longer lecture to him, and tell him, you have collected enough of his paintings, and you no longer need them, so that when you stop explaining the problems to him, he will naturally feel that his labor has no return, so why do you want to scribble on your books." ”

"Does this really work?" Xiao Yin was skeptical.

Lu Xue smiled and nodded, "Of course it will be useful." ”

Sun Hao looked at us strangely and muttered in a low voice, "How do I feel that this room is full of conspirators." ”