The first time, the snowy night, the bloody night—the beginning of grief
On the 28th of December 2002, it was a snowy night, the cold filled the night, but it was disrupted by a piece of snow, scattered with dots of lights far and near, maybe the lights were too weak, maybe the heavy snow blurred the lights, everything was very beautiful, only the lights that were in a hurry from time to time but had to slow down and slow down the lights stubbornly illuminated the light at hand. Before the ruts behind them could leave their mark, they were gently covered by the snow, as if covered with a thin veil, hazy and cold, but extremely moving.
The small truck in front of him floated out a voice of complaint and pity: "You have to spoil her sooner or later, it's so expensive, a student buys it so expensive, she values you and you buy it??? ”
"No, you see, she has liked these shoes for a long time, one is that business is not bad today, and the other is the New Year, she and her classmates have made an appointment to practice during the holidays, there are no shoes, always let her rent, and it is more expensive, anyway, sooner or later she has to buy it, and then I just passed by today, so I bought it", a man said in a gentle tone.
"Okay, okay, okay, you're like this, you buy whatever she wants, and one day she wants the stars in the sky, can you buy it?" The woman asked rhetorically, a little angry.
"Look at you, people say that girls want to be rich, let's just have this ability, she likes it, don't talk about anything when she gets home"
"It's not that she won't buy it, the problem is that if she learns to use dim sum and her grades improve, I won't say anything, but if she improves a little in her studies, I can't wait to reward her! You see the old king who sells fish, the girl of the family, in the same class as her, everyone is the first every time, his daughter-in-law is hard to talk in front of me all day long, but Xiaoyu, when can I study on the snack, I will thank God, this is not to say that it's okay, it's really angry when I say it", the woman complained vigorously, owed the body, and shook off this large number of words angrily.
"Alas! I said, don't nag, you have bought everything, the money has been spent, and you are ready for the New Year, you are going back to nagging, and you will be talking again, you can't force yourself to learn this thing, what is it to learn what is it, how to turn back and turn your hair that you worried about overnight gray? The man explained eloquently, tilting his head towards the woman and looking at it, probably hoping that his words could dispel his wife's entanglement, and there was indescribable warmth in his deep eyes.
"Quick--crunch--―――――――――――duang_" Rapid braking followed by screams, crashes, falls, rubbing, spinning, freeze-frames, snowflakes falling, and blood
The window pane is covered with a thin layer of mist, hazy, making people drowsy, Xiaoyu crawls in front of the desk, hazy eyes, looking out of the window in a daze, the window is clearly thick snow, but can not penetrate the darkness of the night, maybe the lamp on the desk only illuminates this square inch of place, unconsciously Xiaoyu looked at it and actually took a nap, in the dream she was happy that there was no winter vacation homework in high school, it was a great blessing, recalling that before junior high school, I always had trouble with my mother for winter and summer vacation homework, and I was sad in front of teachers and classmates, Compared with high school in a flash, she was particularly relieved in her dream at this moment, feeling that high school "long live, long live", there didn't seem to be much content in the dream, but the time was surprisingly long, and the rhythm was extremely slow, but the alarm clock on the table was already 1 o'clock in the morning.
A series of telephone ringtones were very loud in this quiet night, and Xiaoyu was awakened by this ringtone, she was confused, yawned, and walked lazily towards the phone. "Hey~~ Who are you looking for?"
An unfamiliar, hurried and calm voice: "That's the case, there was a couple who had an accident, we searched through all the information, and finally saw this number on the receipt in the shoebox, the signature was a little unclear, it seems to be called Duan Qingmin, do you have a kinship?" ”
Suddenly, Xiaoyu suddenly woke up, "It's my father, what accident?" What an accident", Xiao Yu didn't have time to think about it, and he didn't even have any images in his mind. I only felt a cool air spread down my spine from the back of my neck to my backpack.
"Don't worry, that's the case, their car overturned, and now in the border city hospital, please come over, don't worry! You try to take a taxi to come. ”
"The car overturned? What's going on? How did you turn it? How's the people? Did it bleed? Comatose? Xiao Yu asked so many questions in one breath, in fact, his mind was already buzzing blank, I don't know where to remember, I don't know how to imagine, the hand holding the microphone trembled strongly, almost like a rope clenched in a tug-of-war, making a little effort Maybe the phone handle will break. The other hand clenched into a fist and squeezed hard into the right side of her face, and she didn't even feel the pain caused by the exertion.
"Don't worry too much, it doesn't matter, you hurry up and come to the emergency department of the border city hospital" The other end of the phone tried his best to stabilize her mood, but Xiao Yu couldn't realize this at all, and couldn't think about it.
"I'll be there right away," Xiao Yu said hard, the phone was heavily buttoned, and then her mind began to complicate, grabbed her scarf and hat, took the key from the wall of the doorway, and rushed out of the door. At one o'clock in the morning, the aisle was so dark that she couldn't even feel where her hands and feet were, so she staggered and groped her way downstairs, fortunately, it was only a 2-storey private house, and soon went down to the staircase, and the cold air hit strongly from the crack in the door, she not only shivered, but didn't care about the bone-chilling cold, but just wrapped the scarf around her neck and put on her hat. As soon as you push the door, the snow is enough to cover the vamp. At this time, her mind began to imagine the image of a small family pickup truck overturning on its side on the snow, and her heart really tightened. The residents of the urban village had already fallen asleep soundly, and almost no house had a light on at this hour, except for the street lamps that could penetrate every inch of the land. The visibility in the middle of the street lamp and the street lamp was very low, fortunately it was snowing, and then the faint light reflected a little light, but this light was very dazzling in the eyes of the small fish. Her steps were quicker and heavier. But the scene of a pickup truck overturning involuntarily floated in her mind, and she had mixed feelings in her heart. Dad overturned? Surely bleeding and unconscious? Or is it dead? She couldn't stop thinking about it, and asked herself. "No, no, no, my parents must be fine, the man just said that it was just a rollover, there must be no big problem, yes, sure. Maybe it was just a bruise, a little bleeding, and she scared herself again, and she pressed her face hard with her own hands. Suddenly, the voice on the other end of the phone rang in her ears again, "That's it, a couple had an accident", and jumped to another sentence "Don't worry, it's like this, their car overturned". Her heart began to heavi, confused, and flustered again, "Who is he?" ”。 She suddenly remembered who was on the other end of the phone, and said, "Who is he?" ”。 Silly, it must be a doctor. She continued to rush forward, and finally reached the crossroads, where the lights were much brighter than the alleys she had walked through, and even the street lamps here were brighter than those in the alleys. But there was not a single car, and she looked anxiously around the intersection on three sides. But his feet did not stop, and he kept running along the road. The border city hospital is at least ten stops away from here, and the bus will be gone for a long time, so she can only see if there are taxis, and suddenly she touched the trouser pocket of her jeans, took it out and stood and looked at it. She anxiously touched the other pocket, it was empty, there was no money, what to do, she was in such a hurry, there was no money in her pocket, and for a moment she felt anxious, helpless, and desperate to the rabbit trapped in the desert. She began to complain to herself, and then she felt for the upper pocket of the cotton coat, and there was something, and she took it out and looked at it, God! When to load 11 bucks. She didn't have time to think about when the money was loaded, and a little white rabbit in the desert came to her mind, and suddenly there was a mineral spring level with a bottle cap open. She ran forward at a fast pace, at this time, it is estimated that almost half an hour has passed since she received the call, and there is still no car, she is anxious, and she can't help but start thinking crankily. A bloody scene came to her mind, her parents were lying in a pool of blood, there was no one next to her, only she was crying out loudly in pain, "Dad, Dad, Mom, wake up", and suddenly a bright light in the distance woke her imagination. There was a taxi, she hurriedly waved her hand to intercept it, almost blocking the front of the taxi, the car finally stopped, and as soon as she got into the car, she said, "Uncle please take me to the border city hospital, the fastest, the fastest one"
"Okay, but I can't afford to be an uncle for you, I'll only run 3 after this year," the driver said calmly and a little unpleasantly. "What's wrong! What is the matter with going to the hospital in such a hurry?"
"Big deal, dad and mom overturned, trouble is fast." I don't know why, during the time from answering the phone to getting in the car, although she had mixed tastes in her heart, she had many scenes in her mind. But at this moment, when the driver asked, she couldn't help but shed tears, deep worry, pain, and panic burst out wantonly at this moment, and her voice was almost choked. This kind of mood is like when I was sick when I was a child, before I saw a doctor, I was only uncomfortable and uncomfortable at most, but when I was asked by the doctor in front of the doctor, I suddenly felt a sore nose, a little hurt, aggrieved, and cared for.
"Overturned? It's not a big deal! Don't worry, it's definitely not a big deal, it's snowing, I'll drive as fast as I can, and I'll be there soon" The driver's voice suddenly dropped a few decibels, and the air in the car seemed to be scarce.
"I don't know, I just got a call saying that the car overturned" Her mind finally broke down, although the driver in front of her was a stranger she had never met, she still felt that her nervous and anxious heart was passively released. Her tears had run down her cheeks and down her neck.
"Don't worry, don't panic, there won't be any big deal, don't you just say that the car overturned on the phone, and nothing else, so it's definitely fine, at most it's a small abrasion or something, don't scare yourself" The driver tried hard to see her through the rear mirror, and his heart was a little heavy, but he still comforted her calmly.
"Well, I know, I just can't help but think of those horrible scenes." She cried, her eyes as if she were looking at the front of the car, but it seemed that there was only a dim white light in front of her. Didn't even notice or read clearly the tissues handed by the driver.
"There's paper here, don't think about it" The driver suddenly didn't know what to say, and even felt that he couldn't find any effective words of comfort, so he just let her choke and cry.
"When you arrive, grab a tissue and don't be afraid"
"Well, how much?"
"12 Quick, forget it, you don't have to give, hurry up"
"No, I have, it's just 11 fast, and there's still one piece missing" She put the money in the storage box next to the driver a little apologetically, and hurriedly got out of the car and left. Run all the way to the building with a light box with the word "emergency" on the door. The tears on her face that had just been dried were also traced under the strong light of the hospital, the nurse took her to a small partition room, at the door, her steps were extremely heavy, and she felt that as long as she moved, she would collapse, looking at the two bed frames in front of her that were covered by white cloth, she was almost blinded by the white light and white cloth, and even the ceiling and all the white were melted together, and her cheeks that twitched finally broke the embankment "Dad, Mom". At this moment, the sky fell, and her cry was terrible, and the whole emergency room was tragic, penetrating through the windows and corridors to the snowy night outside, no one stopped her, and she shook her sleeping parents wantonly. Tears had made it impossible for her to see their faces clearly, and she hugged her father's shoulders in pain.
For Xiaoyu, the days of the sky falling were so long that she felt that everything around her was silent, but the sky was clear, and the sun seemed to be eager to melt all the snow in a few seconds. She looked down sadly at the big box in her arms, as if this was everything under her boundless light, or her whole life, except for the dazzling light and the dazzling snow, there was only this box left in her eyes. The black backpack fell stubbornly behind her back, and she followed closely behind a middle-aged man in his 40s.
"When you arrive, your grandmother must be in a hurry," the man said in a deep voice.
"Xiaoyu, my Xiaoyu has finally arrived, let grandma see my poor little girl." The gray-haired grandmother with a bamboo stick said with a smile on her face. "What are you thin, come into the house, be careful of freezing", the old man who was still smiling just now had a sad and happy face and pulled Xiaoyu's arm to the house, this is Xiaoyu's grandmother, the middle-aged man just now is Xiaoyu's only uncle.
"Yes! Come in, our countryside is not as heated as the city, and it's cold, because if you want to come, you have a special coal stove, and you are reluctant to burn coal in winter." A middle-aged woman is also in her 40s, Xiaoyu's concubine (aunt)
"Well, it's not very cold" Seeing her grandmother, Xiaoyu couldn't help but have a sour nose somehow.
"Don't say anything else, put the luggage and get busy", the uncle said as he put the two large sorting bags in the back room, and the aunt also came to pick up the shoebox in Xiaoyu's hand, but at this moment, she hesitated, and her frozen hand couldn't let go. The aunt who was aware of her stubbornness, took the opportunity to help her write down the black backpack, she suddenly came back to her senses, put the box in her hand reluctantly put it on the cabinet, looked at it for a long time, the room was filled with a warm smell of coal, while the ground was drying a large couplet with black characters on a green background that had just been written, the green paper (custom, there are relatives or important relatives in the family who passed away for the New Year, only the green couplet can be pasted) is too eye-catching, and even the air is clearly mixed with strong grief and sadness.