Chapter 55: Faith

These words really made Li Feng feel strange.

"You teach me?"

"Is there anything wrong?"

"This ...... Naturally it's not right, I've always thought that you are just my thoughts or one of my thoughts or something, we should be one, I have you, you have also learned, I have experienced the same learning, so I don't think you are better than me, in this case, it seems to be talking about who will teach whom...... It's strange that you shouldn't be smarter than me. ”

"We are naturally one, otherwise how could I be in your inner world, you don't have to doubt this, as for your opinion on teaching this matter, you don't need to make a fuss at all, this is normal, you are talking to yourself, this state can be seen as self-reflection, three times a day to reflect on my body, this is a good habit, you have your thoughts, I have different ideas from you, isn't it normal for everyone to communicate and learn from each other."

"This ...... For the first time, I wondered if I really had schizophrenia, and you said that these were normal, but I still felt a little uncomfortable, how could a person's mind be divided into two? ”

"Isn't it normal to look at a thing or a thing in many ways, you see one side and I see the other side, and there are different views and perceptions and different ways of dealing with them? It's just that you didn't pay attention to your own thoughts, and I did. ”

Li Feng was somewhat helpless, because such an argument seemed meaningless, so Li Feng had no choice but to respond: "Okay, okay, you convinced me, it's all normal." ”

The darkness in my heart listened to Li Feng's heart and chuckled: "It seems that you have been hit a lot, originally you were a stubborn person, and you also have your own fairly mature worldview and outlook on life, it is not easy to convince you, but now it's good, you will admit it in a few words, what's wrong, let's hear it, maybe I will give you a good advice." ”

"It's nothing, my mission looks like it's going to fail, and I've done my best, but now there's nothing I can do......."

"Task? What task? ”

"Save the hostages, now we are in a desert, one of the two hostages is seriously ill and unconscious, the other is better, but he has lost hope and cannot walk, and I am too exhausted to take both of them, we are still short of food and water, this desert may be the place where we are buried...... That's about how it went. ”

"Oh, can you still walk?"

"I can go out on my own."

"Then there's no problem, if you go out and survive, you'll be fine."

“…… Is this what you call good advice? ”

"Haven't you done your best? That's not going to work, I'm sure you'll have a clear conscience, won't you? ”

"But I've been working so hard for so long, not for this result."

"You're still a donkey, and you're an obsessive-compulsive person, do you have to succeed in everything? Does everything have to be perfect? In just a few decades, you will have a good life if you look at it and let it go. ”

"I'm not in my seventies or eighties, isn't it right to try to fight for something? How to listen to what you say, it seems that you are very vicissitudes. ”

"Perhaps, let's not discuss this issue, let's talk about your current troubles, in fact, many things seemed very serious at the time, but when you look back and think about it later, you will find that it is actually nothing, at that time, you can't see it and you will feel ridiculous when you think about it yourself, the most obvious example, for example, you like a girl who likes to die, and you feel that you can't live without her, but after the passage of time, you won't even think of her, believe me, what I said makes sense, as for now, Since you can't do anything about it, you have to learn to give up, and then it's just a memory at best. ”

Li Feng shook his head slightly: "No, it won't be just a recollection, this is different from what you said, at least the severity is different, these are two lives, if they die in the end, I will feel guilty." ”

"You still can't see it, what about human life, it will die after all, to put it mildly, people live to go to the end and die, whether it is a great man or a mortal, and then only nothingness remains, and talking to you about life and death makes me feel a little funny."

Li Feng was a little annoyed: "I don't think there's anything funny about this!" ”

"Okay, okay, this is very serious, right, anyway, I hope you can see it, in fact, there are many things that don't need to be obsessed, just take it lightly, even if you don't understand this truth now, but I think you will understand it in the future, so, what are you going to do now?"

Speaking of this, Li Feng gloomy again: "...... I don't think I'm going to give up, even though it seems hopeless and I want to keep going until I ...... They died. ”

"Then did you ever think that you might die because of these two people?"

"If you think about it, you will die."

"You're talking lightly, but it's decisive, I just want to ask if you're really so free? Don't you have a little concern? ”

Li Feng could only be silent, how could he not be concerned, would his mother go crazy if she knew that she was missing, and would her sister be sad to know that she was dead?

There was silence for a while, and then a sigh came: "Okay, don't give up your life at every turn in the future, you are different from others." ”

These words made Li Feng stunned again: "It's all one life, how can it be different?" ”

"You'll know in the future, now that you're persistent, then stay here a little longer, it's good for your recovery, and then stick to your persistence."

Obviously, Yu Dian knows something he doesn't know, which makes Li Feng feel even weirder, but what is even more obvious is that Yu Dim doesn't plan to say it, and Li Feng doesn't plan to force it, so after a pause, he said something else: "I'll naturally be better when I take a break, I know this, I don't need you to explain, I want to know what will happen to you if I really die?" ”

"I'm not going to do anything."

"Why?"

"Because you're not going to die."

This time, it was Li Feng who smiled: "I won't die?" This is the first time I've heard that people always have to die. Didn't you just say that? ”

"Because you're different from other people, including your life."

"I really can't figure it out, what the hell is different there? If I can't die, isn't it my job or hope? How are you sure I'm not going to die? ”

"It's useless to put my words, you can slowly experience it yourself, as for your stubbornness, I don't want to say anything now, just do it if you want to, you can't die, I can tell you for sure, I believe this will restore some of your confidence, and I can be regarded as helping you."

"You said that earlier, and there was all that argument and all that nonsense."

"How can this be nonsense?"

"Isn't it a contradiction that you advised me to give up and now let me do it at will."

"I have to say that you are still immature, I don't know the truth of taking a step back and opening up the sky, and there will be sins in the future, now since you can't see it, then I have to give you some confidence in another way, is there anything wrong with this?"

"Okay...... No, how do I get out now? ”

"Save it, just stay here honestly, you still don't understand, staying here is good for you, it's not just as simple as recovery, in addition, to give you a conscience advice, you don't have to be in the daytime to rush, why can't it be at night, believe me, the night is good for you......."

The voice became farther and farther away, smaller and smaller, and finally everything fell silent again, Li Feng wanted to ask something, but in the end he remained silent, it seemed that there was a secret in his inner world, or...... I'm just a real schizophrenia, but in any case, the advice I gave is still good, yes, how could I be so stupid, since it's in the desert, why don't you rush at night, this can save a little water, not to mention, the heat emitted by your own activities at night can also make Lei Ting a little warmer, and it doesn't have much impact on me at night, why can't I think of it?

Li Feng blamed himself a little, and then there was a quiet silence, since the suggestion made by the other self was good, then Li Feng temporarily believed that it would be beneficial for him to stay here for a while longer.

I don't know how long it took, because Li Feng couldn't even feel the passage of time when he stayed here, and when he began to feel it, when the feeling of soreness, numbness and pain hit, he had already woken up, and the first thing he saw when he opened his eyes was the hateful sun in the sky, which was the first time Li Feng had a disgust with the sun, because Li Feng didn't want to delve into it.

There was a rustling sound on the side, Li Feng squinted his eyes and turned his head, Li Feng's memory is very good, he remembers that he was lying on the ground when he fell due to physical exhaustion, but now he is lying on his back facing the sky, this is naturally Liu Jin helped him, and I don't know what Liu Jin thinks when he sees himself falling, what is he doing?

Li Feng turned his head and saw that Liu Jin was kneeling on the ground shaking his body and digging a sand pit with both hands, a shallow sand pit had been dug up, he was digging a second one, Li Feng saw at a glance that Liu Jin's ten fingers were almost bleeding.

"What are you doing? Didn't know your fingers were bleeding? I want it to hurt for sure. Li Feng lay down and didn't move.

Liu Jin turned his back to Li Feng, and after hearing this, his body shook violently and was completely stunned, and after a long time, he turned his head with difficulty, and the incredulity in his eyes when he saw Li Feng gradually turned into surprise: "I thought it was ...... God forbid! ”

Li Feng smiled, then adapted to his body and slowly sat up, what are the benefits of staying in the darkness of his heart Li Feng is now somewhat clear, what kind of body should be or what kind of state it should be, I didn't see it any better, hunger and thirst and the feeling of emptiness still exist, but there are still benefits, Li Feng feels that it is his spiritual recovery, at least his brain is not empty, and Li Feng knows very well that his explosive power not only consumes physical strength but also consumes mental strengthIn the past, when I was in this situation, I didn't have any energy at all and rested for a long time to recover, but now I can say that I am mentally very good, which is very good, very good!

"God? I'm afraid that he doesn't have time to bless us, I don't believe in that guy, it's better to rely on yourself, and we are materialists, those ethereal things can be saved, and I want to thank you, you dig a pit to bury me and Lei Ting so as not to be eaten by the wind and sun or something, you are a good person, really, Liu Jin, you must know that no one digs a pit for you, but now there is no need for those, now have a good rest, and we will continue to rush at night. ”

Seeing Li Feng wake up, after being excited, Liu Jin quickly recognized the reality: "Brother, you better take Lei Ting away, I really can't do it, my shoes are full of blood, and now I feel even more dizzy, and it is difficult to stand up when my body is weak, how can I go?" I just dug a pit, and even if it was over when I lay down in it myself, I was a man, and I didn't want to kill my beloved and benefactor. ”

Li Feng slowly stood up, shook his legs and arms, didn't look at Liu Jin, looked at the distance that seemed to be full of yellow sand as far as the end could not see, and said: "What you said makes sense, I admit it, but that is under the premise that I can't do anything, but now it's not like this, I feel that I can okay, I can hold on for a while, and I believe that there should not be much more road we need to take, it may be not far ahead, and I don't think you are really willing to die willingly, I don't give up, and you should also persevere, Like you said, you're a man, and even if you're going to die, a second before you die, you're supposed to be still moving forward, even if it's crawling. ”

"You suddenly collapsed just now, and now you don't look very good, brother, don't hold on, if you can't survive, it's all my fault."

"Liu Jin, it's better to believe me if you believe in anything else, I'm not a fool, if I feel that I can't do it, I don't need to say it, I will leave you and take Lei Ting away, now it's decided, you don't have to say anything, I'm hard enough, when everyone can still hold on, that's it, in case there is salvation not far ahead, but you were given up before, what will I think in my heart at that time, just because of this Liu Jin, you don't have to say anything, it will make me bleed and cry."

Liu Jin smiled a little miserably, he didn't say anything in the end, Li Feng first went to check Lei Ting's state, and then also ran to dig a pit, and after digging the dug sand pit much deeper, he first hugged Lei Ting in, and then pulled Liu Jin down, a blanket covered the pit even if it was a temporary resting place, Liu Jin had been hesitating, and wanted to say something after nesting in the sand pit, but Li Feng stopped him in advance, and then said two words: sleep.