Chapter 4: Lovers are born for the first time
Not long after she left the company, she heard from her co-worker sister that the orders she used to be in charge of were getting fewer and fewer, and the sample production process had improved, and now it was much easier for someone else to replace her. When Chang Berry heard the news, on the one hand, he sighed for his life, and on the other hand, he praised his work performance at that time. However, there are too many things that Changberry feels satisfied with now, and he no longer cares about the past frustrations. As for the male boss with the sharp beak and monkey cheeks, she thought it ridiculous when she thought about it now.
Yes, when life is youthful, people are like spending it in a sweet dream. When I woke up from my dream, my youth made a pause. Chang Berry feels that the mirror of time is more than a year. She is a seventeen-year-old girl. For more than a year, with the company of my boyfriend "Yang" and a quiet job, life is like honey. She grew up in relatively simple relationships, and received several salary increases because she worked hard and never made mistakes. Thousands of dollars are sent home every month, and Dad's cold stomach disease is also cured. My mother no longer worries about life and no money to buy fertilizers, seeds, and pesticides.
It's just that the only thing that makes Chang Berry feel a little confused is that although her boyfriend "Yang" cares for her very much, he won't buy her snacks if she asks for cosmetics, and he won't buy her cosmetics if she asks for snacks; If she wants to go to a small hotel to eat something, he will pay the bill and do it, but he never gives her money to spend or buy her clothes; It seems that this aspect has become an insurmountable wall between him and her, and at the same time it has become an unspeakable convention. In addition, her boyfriend is in the prime of marriage, and he always asks for skin-to-skin intimacy with her, even if he pays special attention to his physical limitations, he still has a fetus for him. For the first time, Chang Berry couldn't stand his courtship, and cried and gave him his first night, and the painful experience of a girl that night was only known to God, it was the loss of control and helplessness of young life.
One night, Berry asked her boyfriend out for a walk. She said to him: Yang, we have been in love for more than a year, I want to reduce that day, you know, for you and I have been in the hospital, don't say the pain, that is, I am afraid, I am afraid that we will lose our fertility when we get married. Now, after all, we're not married, and you have to control it. I told my family about us, but they thought I was too young to get married for a few years. I hope you pay attention to my feelings. Boyfriend "Yang" listened, his expression looked a little unhappy, but he still smiled reluctantly and said, you are my little cutie, you can do whatever you say.
However, not long after, a girl in a white dress quietly appeared, which made Chang Berry feel so painful! But her boyfriend "Yang" thought that Chang Berry didn't know. It is in this way that Chang Berry thinks that she can see a truth about true love. Although she can't help but believe that the "sheep" loves herself, it is difficult to say whether this love is a cucumber that has just blossomed, and the beauty of the girl in the white dress is a challenge to the temperament girl Changberryzi.
It was a holiday in the park. Chang Berry and her "Yue Lao" sister went for a walk there after shopping in the city. People come and go everywhere, and there are all kinds of fun places, swimming pools, singing booths, and small sales spots set up in the park. Chang Berry and Sister Yue Lao had just walked into the shade of a tree, and they found "sheep" and a girl in a white dress wandering in a corner of the park. Sister Yue Lao snorted in surprise, and Chang Berry immediately raised her index finger and shrugged her, they did not alarm "Sheep" and the girl in the white dress. Although the "old moon" sister still wanted to stay there to find out, Chang Berry still pulled her away quietly.
Since then, Chang Berry and her "sheep" have been separated by a layer of window paper, and the "sheep" has deliberately concealed it because of the old love; The berry is reluctant to say it because of its deep love. So the two hearts that love each other are born on both sides of this thin layer of window paper. Not to mention the appearance of "sheep", his youth, old age, meticulous thinking and knowledge of science and engineering have always been the basis for Changberryzi to love him. "Sheep" knows that Changberry has a bullish temper, and behind this temper is a shining but deep heart, his Changberry is a girl's body, but this heart has already matured, which is actually the reason why he loves Changberry.
Born in the mountains, Changberry Zi is a girl who has experienced difficulties in childhood and has been tempered by the environment. Chang Berry began to question the true love in the world, she really grew up, and she wanted to prove the feelings of the "sheep" for herself.
Once she said to "Yang", my dad has a cold stomach again, and my salary is not enough to pay for his medical expenses, can you borrow some money and I will remit it it to him? "Sheep" said: I am not stingy in other aspects, but my principle is that we should now work hard to make money and solve the affairs of the family by ourselves. If you really need it, I'll do my best; As soon as he heard it, he said: You are talking nonsense, so forget it. Since then, Chang Berry has never mentioned borrowing money again.
It's winter again, and the tropical region is frozen. Chang Berry has always been not afraid of the cold, saying that he has thick cowhide and only adds a sweater to work. But after working for a while, I felt a chill. In this way, simply go to the "sheep" to test it. After meeting, "Yang" saw that she was a little trembling, so she casually said that she would wear more clothes when it was cold, and Chang Berry said that she didn't bring thick ones to work. "Sheep" said that if there is none, go buy it! Chang Berry said that he had no money, and he had to wait for his salary to buy it. The "sheep" said "me too" and stopped squeaking. Chang Berry simply said jokingly, who called you "sheep"? The wool comes out of the sheep, you can buy me a woolen sweater. "Sheep" said a little impatiently, then you borrow money to buy it, I don't have money now.
When she went to work in the afternoon, she put on the silk jacket she bought during her afternoon shift. When the "sheep" saw it, he said, didn't you say that you don't have money to buy clothes? Why do you have the money to buy it now? What's wrong with the berries? This is a kind eldest sister who offered to lend me a hundred yuan for me to buy; It's good to resist the cold for a while. "Sheep" said oh, it was borrowed by a kind elder sister. Then he was very angry and said: Aren't you saving my face by borrowing money from others, you know that you are my girlfriend! Berry was speechless.
The next day, the "sheep" gave Chang Berry 100 yuan and asked her to return it to the eldest sister. So Chang Berry said that's good, I'll pay her back first, and I'll pay you back when I'm paid. "Sheep" said yes. In fact, this is the first time that Chang Berry has told a lie and the first time she has "cheated" her "sheep", and she feels that she is really playing big this time. Yes, no matter how poor she is, she still has the money to buy a woolen sweater. But in this way, Chang Berry didn't do anything, so she simply waited until her salary was paid to return the 100 yuan to her "sheep", and to Chang Berry's surprise, the "sheep" she loved so much was put away without even saying a polite word.
Changberry, who has always been strong and casual, began a troubled trek. Since then, she has stopped going to meet her sweetheart so casually. When night came in the city, she went to bed early, and walked into a philosophical dream of love that she had rarely had.
It seems to be a shopping mall, and I met the girl in the white dress, Chang Berry has no special feelings for her, no matter how beautiful she is, she can't compare to her temperament beauty Chang Berry, even if she is richer and more talented than her. And she was sure that the "sheep" would not go to her again. But this encounter made Chang Berry feel lonely, so she lowered her head and hurriedly walked past the girl in the white dress, who looked at her intently...... Berry suddenly thought bitterly that she might soon repeat her mistakes. And what kind of woman will be next? ……
When she woke up, she felt strange about her dream thinking, and it turned out that people also had bizarre thoughts in their dreams. Now, she feels that she is not afraid of people taking love, she really has no scheming in mind, and her heart is simple and clear. Just complicate yourself to test this love.
But she also thought that people have the nature of seeing things differently in their bones, and after visiting the Yangchun Garden, they will still miss a certain inconspicuous Yueji or gladiolus that first catches their eyes......
The reality in real life is still the mountains and rivers, but the human heart is difficult to find. She didn't believe that she could have the same persistence and peace as in her dreams, maybe there was still a restless element lurking in her bones, but she had been suppressed by herself. She can't always live in imagination or promise, the fantasies and promises given by others are just the birds and flowers of the spring of life, and only truth and simplicity are eternal, and they are the sunshine and water that they rely on for survival.
In the dream, he left, walked quietly, and walked without hesitation. He followed a fluttering figure in a white dress away, while Berry Berry stood in place, at a loss. He didn't even say a word, even to give her an illusory excuse, a frivolous reason to comfort her. She knew he was going to go a long way, but he wasn't alone. When will you be back? Will it come back? Her heart was as cold as water. That fluttering figure in a white dress may be like a holy angel who can give him everything he wants, and he is everything to hers!
His "pursuit" was her pain. She wandered in the world of dreams, but also in the lonely mind, and lingered at the intersection where he strode through. Is she waiting for him? She must have been waiting for him, and she wanted nothing more than to wait for him here. She's going to wait for him to come back! Although she didn't know if he would come back, and it wasn't clear if she still had the shadow of an angel in his heart? But she can only do this, and only in this way, can she have the faith to support her already tired young life.
Of course, when she woke up, she felt another puzzle, why didn't she have a trace of sadness in her life in her dream? There is no resentment against him in reality? It was as if he had just gone on a business trip or traveled. The only thing she believes in is that only she will wait for him in the same place! And for the rest of the years, she can only live her life by doing this. He was gone, but his face and his figure were deeply imprinted in her heart, a scar of love that no matter how much time passed, she could not erase it, even if it was only a little trace of injury. In the dream, it seems that a male friend comes to pick her up and tells her that he will not be coming back. She told him he would come back and he would definitely come back! She can't go back, she's going to wait for him to come back! Yes, she was convinced that he would come back, and she was going to wait here for him to come back......