When I was a child, my face was full of heartbreak, no scooters, no little bully, no new school bags, no beautiful clothes and shoes, I didn't feel that it didn't matter if I didn't have them, and the important thing was that I didn't even have a warm family.

I don't have a grandfather, my grandmother hasn't hugged me for a day since I was a child, my dad loves to drink and get drunk and drop things, and the serious thing is that even my mother wants to fall, and she doesn't have a lot of heart in the past, like a crazy person, and after the fight, she sits at home and cries! The neighbors next door laughed to death, and the people in the village laughed off their big teeth, which became the laughing stock of the villagers.

Mom is tired and tired of doing a hard job, serving coal to others, earning more than a dozen yuan a day, if you have more cars, you can earn more, Dad digging coal and going to work don't mention it, go if you are happy, drink and quarrel at home and sleep a lot, and take me out of anger when you are unhappy.

I have a sister, and I can still say that she is also a non-clime thing, she can scold anything, and everyone dares to scold me, including my mother, and of course I hate people who are disrespectful to my mother!

The people in the poor village of my family look down on my family, and my father, a relative of the family, is gradually alienated from my family, of course, the premise is that my father himself is not angry, I don't blame anyone, I know that I can live by myself, although I have nothing at that time, including a brother who can block my fist.

Where can I not be bullied at school, at home, and by the river in the village, who do I go to for these hardships, how many people can I beat when I am so young? I can't beat it, I don't dare to cry when I go home, I don't dare to say, I want to be beaten and scolded by my father again, I can only hide in the quilt and cry quietly at night, my mother knows that I am crying, but my mother thinks I am crying in a dream, and the next day I will only ask intentionally or unintentionally: Did I dream and cry again last night?

At that time, I felt how sad I was, I was bullied and no one was angry for me, no one listened to me, I had to live on my own!

One day during the holiday, he went to the mountains to herd sheep in the morning, and his father didn't know where to use the money, so he ran to the uncle to borrow it, and people threw him a sentence: I will burn it for you on the fifteenth day of the first month!

I saw it clearly at the time, and my father slapped himself and said: I don't even want my face!

Uncle angrily pulled my dad and shook it hard, my dad was thrown to the ground, uncle is bigger than my dad, my dad is small and not strong, he can't beat the beast at all, my mother is not in no one to help, I was so young in the past was thrown away by comedy, it didn't take long for my aunt to come out of the house, I was happy in my heart, but the result was wiped out in an instant, she not only did not persuade the beast, but also joined forces with the beast to beat my dad, I could do nothing but kneel on the ground and beg him, I cried and shouted: Don't fight, don't fight! The beast didn't hear that his hands were getting heavier and heavier, and he pushed my dad down the hill in front of the door, and I watched helplessly as my dad rolled down, to the end! Dad lay in the ditch for a long time and couldn't get up, I thought they let it go, and it was over, but I thought that my dad had just stood up and a big stone weighing about 20 kilograms rolled towards him, and my dad just turned around and the stone passed by his back, and I was terrified! The corners of my father's eyes and mouth were full of blood, and the two beasts didn't let go of my father, and pressed my father to the ground and beat him, and after a while, my grandmother came over, and I thought in my heart: You finally can't stand it anymore, and you are willing to come out to persuade you?

The whole village gathered in a circle to watch the play, no one tried to persuade the fight, and all kinds of ridicule: forget it, don't help, let him be killed! I remember everyone's eyes!

Grandma used to tell him to stop fighting, and the beast didn't listen and beat his mother, and then someone pulled it away, and the mother came back, and when she came back from work, she saw this scene, and her mother didn't say anything, and picked up a piece of wood and threw it at the beast's head, and she was about to smash it down, but her mother was too soft and didn't hit her head, but just smashed it towards the beast's retreat.

When the brute saw that my mother had returned, it was getting dark, and she was tired, so she got up and went home.

I couldn't cry anymore, I got up and fell to the ground with weak legs, it was my sister's house that helped me, and the people in the village didn't watch the show, so they all went back to their own homes.

I think tomorrow they'll be able to make headlines like entertainment reporters again!

When I got home, I looked at my father lying on the ground covered in blood, at that moment I hated myself for being too young and couldn't help him anything, his usual beating and scolding of me disappeared in an instant, I just hoped that he was okay and well, I cried too tired in the panic, very soft and weak,

I don't know when I went to sleep, I don't remember how my dad went to the hospital later, I woke up at about 10 o'clock in the morning the next day, there were a lot of people at home, the only thing I didn't see was my dad, a family of relatives, all of them were from my mother's family, they all came to discuss the results of the matter, most of them still scolded me for not being able to do it, saying that they only knew how to cry! I was only twelve years old.

The village chief also came the next day, and when it comes to the village chief's fight, he thinks he is a good person, but how do I feel that he is a wolf in sheep's clothing!

The village chief dealt with the result and said: 400 yuan in compensation, don't quarrel or anything in the future, and then this matter will be over, and then my family has never entered his door, and so are they, I have blacklisted him.

In fact, there is a reason why he did this to my father, he raised a lot of sheep at home, and I raised two lambs, and one day he came to trick me into selling my little sheep to him, and I was not fooled. The next day, I sold it at a high price、He knew that he was not happy, so he did this to my father、!

That day, my mother told me a lot of things in the past, a lot of things that I didn't know before, and he said that his family has been unhappy with my family since he was a child, because his family gave birth to three daughters and no sons, and my family has one of them, as a brother, of course they will be jealous.

When I was young, I had no one to take with me, and my grandmother was too busy so my mother could only take me to the coal when she was two-year-old, and my mother put me on the top of the coal hill when she was working, and my mother didn't pay attention to me when she was working, so I rolled off the top of the coal hill and hit my head on the car pedal, and I was bleeding at that time.

My mother was frightened and ran home with me on her back, and on the way back, many people cursed me to death, and of course, the beast family was indispensable, and the result was not as they wished, and they hated it!

Mom said that the two brothers were not in harmony since they were children, and later married the yellow-faced woman back, so they sowed discord between the two families, and the results speak for themselves, and finally to the present as he wished, the relationship between the two brothers was completely broken, and everything was as he wished;

Later, he adopted a son, and he didn't treat others well, and if he wasn't his own, he beat him every day, didn't eat enough, didn't read books, and later didn't dare to clip the food in front of them, and his hands would tremble, and then he didn't give him a study, so he was called to herd sheep and cattle every day!

Since my father was injured, it seems to be a different person, drunk every day, beating my mother is getting worse and worse, watching my mother being tossed every day,

I'm so uncomfortable, I hate such a father, like a girl, broken jars, he doesn't love his mother, and I don't feel sorry for him.

I hate, hate, hate the whole village, hate all the relatives of the family surnamed Han, hate my father for not giving me a warm home, I want to leave, leave all of you.

I got up quietly that night and ran away from home in the middle of the night wearing a set of clothes that I had been with me for almost three years, and I was afraid that my family would find out. So I walked very fast, I ran out of the house, I ran fast, I left behind all the things I hated,

I ran so far and so far that I dared to stop and look back at the house, the dim light, the whole village seemed so lonely, so sad and gloomy, that was my cottage, my home, I was gone Dad, I was gone Mommy, I was gone my dear cottage! Those who bring me pain, bring me sorrow, and give me hatred, you remember me Han Xinglei swore with tears, I will pay it back, double!