I don't know how Sister Dan will feel after reading this letter, whether she will blame her, or whether she will have more pity, I really don't know. She just wants to tell her her truest thoughts, and Mei Ying never hides anything from Sister Dan, because there are fewer and fewer people in her life to talk to.

For two days in a row, Mei Ying rode her broken car around looking for a storefront, and the price of the store was not suitable, thinking about the pitiful start-up capital in the drawer, she couldn't help but be a little discouraged. It turns out that doing business is not as easy as imagined, even if it is only a low-cost business.

When she got home at night, Mei Ying decided to give up looking for a shop, and the narrow matchbox-sized house would cost so much money a month, so it was better to sit on the ground and start the price, without the drag of rent, so she didn't have to work too hard. Ran Ran has already brought a lot of goods to her, and the money has been confiscated, saying that it is a consignment, Mei Ying doesn't understand this, anyway, she will pay after selling out. It's good, her business is also zero-cost, and she went to the grocery store and bought a plastic sheet.

Today is the day when Mei Ying and Zhou Kai agreed to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and yesterday Yan Ling finished stamping all the seals for her, and now she only needs to take the household registration book to complete the last procedure. I've heard that the divorce certificate is green, and I wonder if she will get the legendary "green card" soon.

Maybe she went early, or Zhou Kai came late, in this early morning, in the alley paved with yellow leaves, the cool breeze was tight, and Mei Ying couldn't help but shiver. It's late autumn again, and less than two years of marriage is over, and in what should have been the harvest season, she still hasn't gotten anything. Love is unsettled, life is lost, and even the marriage she once worked so hard to maintain has fallen apart. She doesn't blame anyone, she doesn't believe in fate, but she accepts fate!

Finally saw Zhou Kai coming on a bicycle, the dark gray jacket on his body was still the one she chose for him last year, his complexion was not white and tender, but his mother always let him wear light-colored clothes, which had troubled Mei Ying for a long time, and also warned him, "You are my man now, your dress must be pleasing to my eyes, and then listen to your mother's command, beware of me divorced you." "Life is impermanent, some words are hard to receive, and they are fulfilled before the sun evaporates.

"Xiaoying, you're here, it's cold outside, go and stand inside."

Zhou Kai's tone was very low, like those small insects that emerged from the dust, for fear that they would be wiped out as soon as they spread their wings. Looking at his melancholy face, his beard was not shaved, Mei Ying reached out and stroked his face that he had gradually become accustomed to but was about to forget.

"Zhou Kai, take good care of yourself in the future, no matter how busy you are, remember to shave, you don't look good when you have a beard, like a little old man, whose girl will like you."

"Xiaoying, I'...... You know what I think about you, why do you say these things? If you think divorce is a relief, and I fulfill your wish, can you give me time for me to have a good conversation with my mother, three years? Okay? Give me three years, and I'll marry you into a family that belongs only to the two of us. ”

His tone was full of pleading and longing, and Mei Ying couldn't bear to listen to him any more.

"Zhou Kai, let's go, don't say anything, a man must be like a man, we will still be friends when we meet in the future, you should have a better married life, and I can't give you anything." Wouldn't it be nice for us to walk with each other? Not to mention three years, I never even thought about tomorrow, I should belong to the kind of people who fend for themselves in nature. I don't have any illusions about life anymore, and you don't have to have illusions about me, let's go. ”

Mei Ying took Zhou Kai's hand and entered the hall of the Civil Affairs Bureau, the two of them took out their respective certificates, certificates and photos, and after some interrogation, a pair of rough hands stretched out from under the counter, handed them two green books, and busily opened without saying anything.

Is this a green card? Is it to return her free single pass? Mei Ying shook off the little green book and turned her head to look at Zhou Kai with a sad face. In fact, she doesn't care if she's happy or not, she's just relieved. Zhou Kai's love is free, and she also has a different kind of tenderness, and she is grateful to him in her heart. But she understands that he very much longs for a healthy family, with parents, with him and her, and their child, and this child, she has no way to give him.

"Xiaoying, this is the ring you left at home, you can take it, let me have a thought." Zhou Kai put the wedding ring in Mei Ying's pocket.

"Zhou Kai, you keep it, you know I don't like these, besides, if a person has his own light, why use these mundane things to embellish. Your mother bought it, so you can pay it back for her, thank you. ”

"Zhou Kai, be happy, you are free from now on, you can wear whatever you want in the future, my aesthetics are not necessarily good, maybe your mother's concept of clothing is better than mine." I'm going to go first, I'm going to be busy with life. When you pass by my stall in the future, don't forget to stop the car and patronize it. ”

Leaving Zhou Kai with a blank and innocent face, Mei Ying turned her head and waved at him again.

"Zhou Kai, you are really a good man, if there is no order in love, I think I will like you, don't be discouraged, come on!"

From afar, she saw him smiling, so relieved, Mei Ying rode on the bike, let the cold wind blow, but she no longer felt cold. When I walked away, I could still vaguely hear him shouting in the wind.

"Xiaoying, where is your stall, I will definitely come to patronize it."

"Hehe", Mei Ying smiled in her heart, as long as he was good and no longer resented her, then she would have one less regret in this life. In the twenty-four years of life, she has experienced vicissitudes, and the road ahead is under her feet, but sometimes she has a sense of steadiness when she steps on it, will she keep falling?

"Don't leave me anywhere in the future, only if I hold you, you won't fall, you know?"

Leng Xu's words by the stream of Fuhu Temple that day sounded in her ears again, she wanted to find a secluded place, she wanted to roar to the heavens: "Leng Xu, where are you?" I miss you! I want to kill you! How can I complete the rest of my life without your traction?! You bastard, you have been cut by a thousand knives, four years, four whole years, more than a thousand days and nights, even if you come to look at me from afar, I am so thin, so thin that I can't even recognize myself, let alone you. Now that you are so merciful, will you feel distressed? Will you still tell you not to wear makeup, or look good in a skirt and high heels? ”

While riding the car, she was mourning like a cloud, and suddenly hit a big tree on the side of the road, and Mei Ying couldn't stop squatting on the ground and crying bitterly. She didn't care about the image, she had turned all the vehicles and people into nothingness, all she saw in her eyes was him, just the shy big boy that year - Leng Xu.

From Lin Yumo to Leng Xu, she has experienced all kinds of illusions and realities, and the vicissitudes of life that young boys don't have and the voice soaked in her bones on Lin Yumo's body made her obsessed, but the infatuation can't escape the ethereal assumptions, and those too unreal images can only torture her for a short time. And Leng Xu is real, the temperature of his palm, the manly aura he exudes every time he hugs her, and every word he says is so hot on her face, she has no way to eradicate those fragments of memories from her mind.