Chinese On the last day of February, I was in a complicated and uncomfortable mood, unable to sleep over and over, and completely lost sleep......

Well......

There are always a lot of things I want to talk about in my heart, but there is no one to talk to, and I am not afraid of everyone's jokes when I say it, I am a person in reality, I have only one friend, and I am also my most ironclad friend, but he went to the army, so I can only use words to knock the thoughts in my heart.

Maybe I'm getting older, or maybe I'm confused about the future......

To be honest, yesterday during the day, my mother repeatedly asked me when I was going to go out to work, and I could only answer that she would do my best to go out and find a job.

But......

I'm a person with no diploma and no skills, I really don't know what to do, I'm at a loss, I'm scared, maybe ......

I've been dying - stumbling on the Internet and writing novels, not only to weave a dream that belongs to me, but also to escape reality, unwilling to face up to myself as a person with no diploma, no ability, and nothing.

I've been comforting myself that I write novels...... The money earned is similar to the money people earn at work, two or three thousand reads () a month;

Sometimes if you tip more, you can earn a little more......

But I know it!

Be clear about one thing and write a novel......

After all, it's not considered the right way.,Really.,I signed it at the beginning.。 When I made an appointment for the first book, I cried to my family and signed it, because my parents thought the other party was a liar, and my relatives also said that writing novels could make money? Are you kidding?

At the beginning, my parents didn't support me to write, and my relatives also sneered at me, and when we met, they asked me if I had earned 10,000 yuan a month by writing novels, and I could only laugh at it......

I wrote a novel for two years, and in one year, I relied on a book. earned the first manuscript fee in his life, which is actually a thousand yuan for full attendance.

At that time, writing 300,000 words a month could cost 1,000 yuan. Yes, when I got the money. My parents became neither supportive nor opposed to me writing novels.

However, I started writing books in 09, and it wasn't until last year that I achieved a little bit of success with Japanese teachers, and because of my persistence, I was rewarded, but ......

I often ask myself if I go into other industries. After working for so many years, will you only take such a small amount of money?

I don't know the answer......

Maybe, maybe not.

When I first wrote novels, I wanted to make money to prove myself in order to gain recognition from others, but after writing novels, I realized that the novel industry requires great perseverance and taking it seriously, especially for people like me who are not talented. There are also people who write that they make a lot of money by playing, but I'm not such a person, and I update it every day. Code word ...... per day

Day after day, year after year, looking back, I don't know how I persevered all these years, I have worked hard, I have been a gunman, I have done almost everything, I have even written a thousand words and 5 yuan, well. I can only get 15 yuan for writing 3,000 words, and only 50 yuan for writing 10,000 words a day......

And this kind of life is very monotonous. It's very mechanical, and it doesn't come into contact with people much. I always have the feeling that I have derailed from the times and become a no-go of the times.

I'm also scared to go out......

Because I don't know anything but write novels, and as I get older, I get more and more afraid.

In fact......

At the beginning of my shelf, I promised my family that I would go out to find a job after the year, but I didn't know what I could do, I wouldn't know anything, I would only write novels, and today I really feel that I may have written novels and become a fiction waster.

These days......

My family has been asking me if I am looking for a job or something, and my mother even said that if you don't have a job, blind date girls can't look down on you, and some readers have asked me these days, why is there such a big change in my book, and whether I have been stimulated by anything in reality.

Actually, I wasn't stimulated......

It's just that......

I don't have much time left now, and if I go out and look for a job, I'm afraid I won't be able to continue writing books, which is a very real problem.

After all, writing novels is very tiring, really tired, not only physically, but also mentally, it's indescribable, I admire those who can still write novels after a day of work, although there may not be many updates, but ......

Those people are so much better than I amreads();!

I just want ...... right now

Hurry up and finish writing the study of God, a little faster, a little faster......

On the premise of not reducing the plot as much as possible......

According to my own thoughts, the thoughts in my heart, I wrote it completely.

Some readers say that the god of learning is not as good-looking as the teacher, but I want to say a word from the heart, the Japanese teacher when I wrote a hundred chapters, and when it was not put on the shelf, I felt the limit, maybe everyone didn't believe it, but the later chapters were written by me, purely for the sake of writing, and learning the gods......

I write about it until now, and I don't feel that way.

Albeit......

The female characters in the book are not as likable as the teacher, but ......

I said from the beginning that this book carries my dreams and hopes, so I am completely complete and follow my own ideas, including the creation of female characters, and do not deliberately create likable female characters.

The plot of the god of learning......

At present, it has only developed to the early and middle stages, and it is about to reach the middle stage of development, and there are several big plots in the final period.

I ...... in my heart

There are many ideas, but when they are turned into words, there are only a few that can be written, and maybe a thousand words can only be turned into a sigh in the end.

Maybe after the end of the study of the gods, there will be no more www.biquge.info the Dark Knight Hall in the Biqu Pavilion.

Possible......

I found a relatively unbusy job in the future, and I will continue to find time to write books and finish the end of the Japanese teacher.

Dreams never change, in fact, until now, I still have dreams of adaptation, publication, etc., but unfortunately dreams will always be dreams and will not become reality.

If your peers see this, please don't laugh at me for talking in my dreams, I ...... Just a fool with a beautiful and impossible dream.

I finally understood one thing, every ordinary and ordinary person will eventually have to make a compromise with reality and go to the outside world, it is impossible to live in my dream world forever......

It's completely on the verge of shattering.

But no matter what......

I can guarantee that as long as Xueshen does not enter the small black room, I will definitely withstand the pressure of reality, finish it well, and it will definitely not be unfinished, this book has poured all my efforts into it, and the teacher next door to me does not have such a good treatment.

After smoking a cigarette......

Start coding words!

I now feel like I'm going back to years ago, when I stayed up all night drinking coffee and typing on the keyboard......

- Written in 2016 by the Dark Knight. 2。 At 3:50 a.m. on the 29th. (To be continued.) )