Looking at your back quietly, you haven't looked back for me once!

It's the third year of junior high school, the so-called exam, everyone is also obvious to all, a small test in three days, a big test in five days, anyway, some papers are for you to do, some are time for you to test, the teacher is also tireless, we are also trying to do everything possible to make ourselves good in the test, unlimited learning. The results of the first math test came down, and I thought that I could get a good score, even if it was not a perfect score, it should be more than 110 (the total score was 120 at that time), and my heart was still full of expectations. But I've said a lot of things that I expected, and it's just not what you want. When I saw the volume, I was completely stunned, my mother was only over 90 points, I was very lost, I didn't know how to describe my mood at that time, I was speechless to myself, and I felt completely lost myself. Looking at the other people's highest scores, they were almost 11, and most of them were still around 100 points, and this time I was completely shocked. Thinking that I would rely on mathematics to close the gap, but now this level seems to be not enough, thinking about how to gain a foothold in this class, I feel that at least I should do something earth-shattering, of course, it is not a model school rule. Since then, I have written a few words in my math book, "I am a fool", and these words have inspired me until the end of the high school entrance examination. After the blow, I began to look for reasons in myself, and I turned over and over the paper to find dozens of reasons that I thought made me fail in the exam, and I wrote them down in a notebook, and used it to remind me all the time.

At that time, Xie Yuhan was still very good in the exam, so I pretended to ask her questions, mainly to get closer to the relationship, so that I could develop further in the future. Some people may ask, don't you still like Chunyan, how can you go to other people? For this question, in fact, what I want to say is that when you chase someone for several years and are rejected, then she may really not want to be with you, and she doesn't put you into consideration at all in her heart, and if you blindly chase her, she will feel very disgusted, maybe it is not good, you don't even have to be friends. This is a suggestion I have given to you, and it is also the conclusion that I have drawn from seeing many people around me like this. So I directly gave up the pursuit of Chunyan at that time and changed my goal. When I'm fine, I call her and ask her for something, including non-learning things. This time I called her, "Xie Yuhan, where are you from?" "How do you go to this school?" Actually, I think I'm asking nonsense, alas, what is shameless in order to get closer to the relationship. She also answered my question very enthusiastically, "My home is in Danshan, my home is close to here, I will definitely come here to study the competition." "What about you?" When I heard her ask again, I knew that she didn't dislike me, and she also talked about it endlessly, "I was originally studying at YT Middle School, but the school was broken by my reading, so I didn't have a place to study, so I had to come to this place to race, but fortunately, I met you guys, you guys are very good, so I think this thing is still better." "Later, I asked a lot of questions, I can't remember exactly, but there is one question that I still remember, like yesterday, because of this problem, it affected me for several years, and it also affected an important decision I made in the future. Here's how I asked the question, "Did you play a friend?" A girl like you must be playing with friends. She rolled her eyes, looked at me a little suspiciously, and didn't answer, I knew that this question was a little touching, and quickly said: "Hehe, don't be weird, I'm just asking casually, nothing else is meaningful." "Actually, I've been praying in my heart that you must not have a boyfriend, otherwise Lao Tzu will not be able to play. Sure enough, she spoke: "I didn't play a friend." "I heard her say that she didn't play with her friends, so I breathed a sigh of relief, but it's okay, at least I still have a chance to compete. But she said again: "I don't plan to play friends now, I'm still young, and reading should come first." When I heard her say this, I was still very disappointed, thinking how could I do this, alas, forget it, anyway, let's work hard, I don't believe it, I encounter such a stubborn one every time. In the days that followed, I had a good relationship with Xie Yuhan, she would give me anything delicious, and I was the same, my mother would bring me food every week, send me some delicious food, and I called her along. Of course, I will also call my good brother, Mr. Peng, I am not a person who values color and ignores friends.

After chatting with her several times, I found that I had begun to forget about Chunyan, but I also knew that it was impossible for me and Chunyan to be together, so I didn't feel guilty anymore. As for me, I borrowed her pen and it seems that I have been using it, and she has not asked me to return it, and I have no intention of paying it back, and sometimes I even think that this pen was given to me by her. Of course, I usually study hard, and I listen carefully to any class. Because I have a person in my heart, I hope that I can do things that surprise her in terms of results, so that I also have the capital to pursue her, and she became a very big motivation for me at that time.