While everyone was anxiously waiting for Lu Haoshan, the guy was hiding in the back alley of the tea restaurant.

When Li Qiuping walked down the back alley with a garbage bag, she looked at the dark shadow shrinking in the corner and was startled.

"Ho...... Who are you? Speak? Li Qiuping held the garbage bag with trembling hands, pointed to the black shadow that shrunk into a ball, and greeted the heavy garbage bag in her hand if the situation was wrong.

"It's me!" Lu Haoshan raised his head and said, "Don't be afraid, Li Qiuping, it's me." ”

"It's you! Scared the hell out of me. Li Qiuping patted her chest and said, putting down the garbage bag in her hand, "Why are you here, why can't you go in when you get home!" ”

Li Qiuping asked and didn't see him answer, as if he had been hit hard, and he was wilted.

"What's wrong with you, what's going on?" Li Qiuping walked over, squatted beside him and asked cautiously.

"Come home! Otherwise, the family should be worried. Li Qiuping urged.

Seeing that he was still indifferent, Li Qiuping asked, "Can you tell me what happened?" ”

Just when Li Qiuping thought that he would not answer, and was thinking about calling someone, he heard a low voice next to him.

Lu Haoshan explained the cause and effect in detail, Li Qiuping couldn't cry or laugh, she still thought the sky was falling? That's it!

"It's not a big deal, so why bother? It's like a child. Li Qiuping said, her voice gentle and inclusive.

"I didn't seize the opportunity when it came, I was really useless." Lu Haoshan lowered his head and said in frustration.

"I remember you didn't study acting in college. Do you see this as an opportunity for you? Isn't it time to put what you've learned into practice? Li Qiuping continued to persuade, "For example, singing, some people are born with incomplete tones. Singing out of tune, if you don't eat this line of food, you won't get it. Presumably you don't really want to be an actor, but you can't stand everyone's enthusiasm and run for you before and after Zhang Luo. ”

"To put it mildly, you are a college student, how do you want to be a drama!" Li Qiuping was puzzled, "If this is in Shenzhou." But they will be defeated. ”

And he said, "Is that really nothing?" Don't think about it anymore, there's no need to regret it. If you think about it, even though you have received some blows, it is considered an experience in life. Oh! It turns out that I don't have the talent to be an actor! There's no need to act like I've broken the rules, I just have to do something else. ”

"I don't have a face to go home. didn't have the face to face Xiao Wu and them. Lu Haoshan said with annoyance. It's a very simple thing, how did I mess it up. ”

"If you blame yourself so much, they will feel distressed, how worried they should be about you now!" Li Qiuping said softly, her clear eyes were as gentle as water.

"They, especially Xiao Wu, were busy for two days and two nights for my business, and I messed them up." Lu Haoshan sobbed and choked. "It's the first time I've been so flustered and overwhelmed today. It was as if it was about to suffocate. ”

Li Qiuping took out a handkerchief from her pocket and handed it to him. Seeing that he didn't move, he stuffed it directly into his hand.

Lu Haoshan wiped his eyes with a handkerchief.

"Living in the world, you will experience more serious setbacks than this, it's just that you don't play well, it's not a big deal, it's okay." Li Qiuping whispered, "All successful people have experienced many failures, just keep in mind and work hard next time." ”

"Give me another chance, and I'll definitely be able to play well." Lu Haoshan said sadly, not only because he felt that he had disappointed everyone, but also because of his self-esteem.

I was thinking of getting paid to buy gifts for everyone, but now there is nothing.

The more I thought about it, the more sad I became, Lu Haoshan cried like a child, woo......

Seeing him crying sadly to death, Li Qiuping thought for a while and said, "You also know that I came from Shenzhou, and the ingredients in my family are not good, although my grandfather is a university professor, it is a pity that he was defeated."

Young and ignorant, I used to foolishly think that it would be okay to draw a line with my family and throw myself into the arms of the organization. At that time, the thinking was particularly extreme, following the young generals in the exciting red era, we were no longer in class, the teachers were busy studying, checking and exposing each other, we took to the streets, looking angrily at sunglasses, long hair, pointed shoes and snow-white shirt collars, calling it all 'Ah Fei'. We adore Paul. Kochakin, imitating everything about the young Paul, jumped down from the balcony on the second floor in turn in order to exercise his bravery and will. We have our own organization, we publish our own newspapers on a regular basis, we read the writings of Mao, Lie, Ma and En half-intelligible, we sincerely care about and discuss state affairs, we tell each other how much gold and cash have been confiscated from so-and-so's house, and we look at all the disparities between the rich and the poor in society with hatred, because we once naively believed that all this had been wiped out long ago. All the sense of crisis was aroused in that era, and we were glad that we had finally caught up with the revolution again, and we regarded 'defending' as our unshirkable sacred duty. We had no uniforms, nor did we have military caps, and I still vehemently believe that these teenagers and youths, who did not have uniforms and caps, were the most outstanding group of young generals at that time. With tears in his eyes, his expression was indifferent, and his voice did not rise or fall.

"But the reality is very cruel. ”

Lu Haoshan gradually stopped crying, opened his big bright eyes, and looked at her for a moment, looking at her trembling with a sad and sad death.

Li Qiuping opened her palm, her five fingers slowly closed, and then let go, her black eyes were as silent as a dark rainy night. "At the end of that year, one day, a companion came to us in a hurry, and he announced to us the astonishing news: the 'little cobbler' who lived next door to us had just been revealed to be a fugitive landlord and a blood debt to the working people. I think in that moment, we were stunned by the news. I can still clearly describe the appearance of the 'little cobbler', I remember it as a kind middle-aged man, with nails on his clothes, smiling at everyone's sights, at the corner of the road, guarding his shoe repair pick all day long, every time I saw him, I would politely call him 'uncle', and I think that my shoes and my companions had been repaired by him more than once for free. And now, this 'little cobbler', whom we have politely called 'uncle', turned out to be a 'fugitive landlord', and we talked about it, and our faces turned red with excitement, and we all agreed that he was a 'homecoming group', and that there was more than one murder case, and that on the eve of liberation, he absconded from Shanghai in the chaos, and we also asserted that his house must have hidden shell guns, daggers, and changing accounts. I would like to ask history to forgive us, at the time, for a 13-year-old me, what could be more exciting? Think of a fugitive landlord disguised as a cobbler lurking around us, and we will face a real class enemy, whose full truth is shown to us by all novels and films. It was at dusk that day that we rushed to the house of the 'little cobbler' with angry shouts. ”

Li Qiuping's voice was low and seemed to be a little cold, Lu Haoshan obviously felt that the air pressure around him was getting lower, and the air suddenly became a little gloomy, "I remember that at dusk that day, the family of the 'little leatherman' was eating, and I saw that when we poured into the house, the family's face suddenly turned pale. The little cobbler was surrounded by us, trembling and nodding his head incoherently, answering our questions incoherently, all of which were confirmed by the nod of the 'little cobbler'. 'Beat him,' a voice shouted angrily, and I saw countless fists rain down on the 'little cobbler'. When it was my turn, I saw my fist raise in the air, then form an arc and slowly draw forward, but it suddenly trembled in the middle of it. ”

Li Qiuping's eyes were blank and painfully recalled, "Do you know what I saw at that time? My hands trembled suddenly, and I saw a girl, so small and so thin, curled up, trying to disappear behind her father, so small, so small that we had completely forgotten that she existed. At that moment, I saw a pair of beautiful big eyes, a pair of frightened, frightened, humiliated, helpless eyes, and I somehow suddenly remembered the frightened fawn at the zoo, and at that time, I saw such eyes. I was suddenly overwhelmed and I didn't know what to do? I don't remember what happened afterward, I just remember that my fist ended up going out, and it was already so weak. I don't know how I got out of that family, I hate myself, I'm like Paul. Kochakin, like that, fiercely condemned this shameful petty-bourgeois tenderness. ”

Li Qiuping took a deep breath and suppressed the astringency in her heart and her eyes full of tears, "I don't know how I got home, I think my lost soul has attracted the attention of my grandma, grandma rarely asks me about things, since I was a child, she always listens to the heated discussions between me and my grandfather with relish, she has a surprising trust in her grandfather, she believes that her granddaughter is fighting for justice." But that day, my grandmother sensitively noticed my abnormality. Soon after, the whole truth of the matter was clarified, and she severely reprimanded me and punished me for not being able to kneel for a long time, completely ignoring the arrogance and dignity of a young revolutionary general, and I had never seen my grandmother lose such a temper. I also know that my grandmother later came to apologize without telling me. Later, our family also suffered a catastrophe, which is very sad, isn't it? I think my eyes were filled with fear, fear, humiliation, and isolation. Li Qiuping looked at him with a sad smile, "Grandma and grandpa were sent to the Wuqi Cadre School to do farm work, holding the hand of the pen and stick, picked up the hoe, and I also followed in......" The words changed and said, "I think of my grandma now, and I think of my grandma with gratitude, it's hard for you to imagine that my grandpa is a great intellectual and has stayed abroad." My grandmother is not very literate, can cook, sew, embroider vividly, and has a docile personality. It is very traditional for women to receive a feudal education, but all my enlightenment comes from my grandmother's silent care. There was a deep sense of admiration in his voice. (To be continued......)

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