readx;?(after 5 years)

Mei Ying walked out of the hospital, her weak body trembling in the light rainy sky, today is the day she was discharged from the hospital, yes, she is sick, very sick, she is not a complete woman now, she no longer needs love! Lin Yumo's failure five years ago broke her heart, she didn't want to hear any explanation from him, she quarreled with him for the first time, rejected all his calls, and never even replied to him in text messages. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info What she hates most is a man who doesn't keep his promises, her request is actually very small, she only wants her birthday, and she said, "If you don't come, you will die." She is a sincere and trustworthy woman, she is waiting for him with her heart, and she has no intention of marrying another man, but she will never allow her loved ones to ignore her.

She just wanted him to comfort her heart, she just wanted to see him, and she loved him very much, and gave him another month's deadline, but he still didn't come for a whole month. This is something Mei Ying can't tolerate, and she is not a recruiting girl, if she recruits, she will come and go immediately. So, she sent the card to Lao Qin and asked him to return it to him, and also changed the mobile phone to a guaranteed number to shut down. In the past five years, she hated him in her heart, what she wanted was not one explanation after another, all she wanted was their agreement that time, just a real hug from him. She began to doubt love again, and the two men she had loved in this life, one died, and the other lived as if dead.

Today, she was discharged from the hospital, she was grateful that God didn't want her to die too, she suffered from uterine cancer, it was already hopeless, she thought she would die too, but she survived, she will not have love in this life, let alone a man, her human desire has been cut off with a scalpel, and her heart is silent again. Over the years, she has had a hard time, and she has done a lot of business at a loss, and the money she earned in the early years has been exhausted by her, if it weren't for her sister to give her the money from the sale of the old house, I'm afraid she would have even had a problem with her life now. Her stubborn heart will never tolerate weakness, she is not used to taking the initiative to call men, even if she loves him in her heart, she will never take the initiative to find him. Yes, she doesn't want to think about those pictures in his home, what if he can't give up his wife and children to find a reason to prevaricate her, he and his wife used to love each other, there is affection between them, and they also have a daughter, and what does she have in Meiying, a reincarnation love has long made her ignore these, she loves him, loves like a madman, and her infatuation with him breaks her heart. Every night when the moon shadow was dappled, she went to find her heart in the clear light, but she had no heart, and even her body became erratic, no matter day or night, she lived like a ghost.

For this reason, she also deeply reviewed and deleted his number and that intoxicating voice, but his number has taken root in her heart and cannot be erased no matter what. Last year, she went to see Leng Xu during Qingming, and his clear eyes made her want to go with him, she was hopeless in life. After the worship, she happened to meet Qiangzi, even he didn't know where Sister Dan was going for many years, Sister Dan's parents have also left, she couldn't help but sigh at their respective encounters over the years, in fact, she misses Sister Dan very much. Qiangzi's children are almost six years old, a very cute girl, she hugged the child and cried for a long time, the heart of Qiangzi cried softly, after dinner he came to knock on her door, hugged her and called her "shadow", called her "silly girl", he still liked her, he said that his marriage was out of the persecution of his parents, she didn't want to listen anymore, quit the room, and hurried away on the last bus that night. She didn't want to have a second Lin Yumo in this world, she was really annoyed and sad, she finally understood that there are two things in this world that really can't have both, that is, fish and bear's paw!

After two months of recuperation at home, spring came again, and she wanted to go out for a walk, looking at the green and smiling on the embankment, and blaming herself for squandering her time. She has drunk too much wine over the years, and she is no longer the cheerful and lively plum shadow of the past, her heart is full of shadows, and her eyes are getting worse and worse, and many times she can't even see her own shadow. Flipping through the old wallet, taking out the calling card, and walking to the telecommunications office, she wants to restore the old number, she wants to be the Meiying of the year again, this time, she has been depressed for too long. She was ready to leave the city, and she had to give herself a home and a place to rest.

Her birthday is coming again, but she has long lost interest in celebrating it, no one wants to contact her, and she is more and more afraid of making noise. It was hazy and her phone rang.

"Hey... Hey, is this Mei Ying's phone? The moment she received the call, her heart began to throb again, yes, it was him, his voice would never change, his magnetic voice rang in her ears again, but she... She was disheartened, and she was a cripple, and she could no longer love him as much as she used to. In fact, two years ago, she found out that something was wrong with her body, if it weren't for this, she probably wouldn't be able to control a longing heart to go to him.

"Yes! Hello Lao Lin! She only said six words, and although she tried her best to control it, she burst into tears.

"Girl... Girl, I... Miss you! I've called countless times, and every time I say it's off, but you said you wouldn't change the number, so I kept calling, especially on your birthday, I always call you before dawn, I'm really lucky that you received my call today, you know? I'm going crazy looking for you, today is your birthday, and I want to be the first to say happy birthday to you on this day. Where are you, and is it still the same address you used to send from? I'll come to you right away! I'm right here in your hometown, and I've been here for two years now. Lin Yumo's voice trembled a little, and every word that came from the phone hit Mei Ying's heart deeply.

"Don't come to me, I'll go see you." Putting down the phone, Mei Ying hid her face and cried, for five years, she hadn't used that number, but the number was kept, and of course he called with a voice prompt to turn it off. It's been five years, and when she's going to forget him again, he's here again, and she still can't suppress a heart that misses him, but... She could not give him anything now, the kisses he had once loved, the body he had caressed, she had nothing but a shell, her body was completely empty, and she could no longer give him the pleasures of the past. Yes, she knew very well that it was her willfulness that hurt her, and she could have waited that year, but his failure made her crazy, she called Yan Ling and Ran Ran to accompany her to jump, and once again stood on the highest platform, and then she fell down, bleeding all over the ground, she drank too much, she was like a madman that night, and later... Later, she was sent to the hospital again, she was actually more than a month pregnant, but when she fell, the child was gone, and the doctor told her that she could no longer have children. She felt that she was taking her life to love Lin Yumo, and she couldn't leave Leng Xu's child behind, but in fact, she still regretted it later. If you love a man, you should have children for him, because love needs to be continued, and love really needs a mature child to be complete. She was heartbroken when he lost their baby to him. So, she ran out of the hospital in a frenzy, and on the street, under the neon lights, she howled hysterically, "Lin Yumo, I hate you!"

Later, she stopped her mobile phone, never wanted to listen to his voice again, never wanted to see him again, rented out the house again, she changed a lot of places to live, how could he find her. But today, he came again, five years later, she still couldn't let go of him, she used the old number again, she still wanted to meet him, she wouldn't accept him again, she would lie to him that she was married, but today it happened that her husband was on a business trip, and she wouldn't let him know that she was already a crippled woman. Yes, she was too strong, too proud, and she would not allow anyone to ignore her perfection.

Seeing the affectionate text messages he sent, he rejected his call again, and replied to him briefly, "See you at seven o'clock in the evening Yulong hot pot, it's best to be close to the door, I don't have a good eye right now." ”

In the past two years, in addition to surfing the Internet every day, playing mahjong, and drinking, she has nothing to do, and her eyes are short-sighted.

He recognized him at a glance as she walked up to him, and he walked towards her, looking at her thick lenses, and he was a little surprised.

"Girl..." Before he could finish his sentence, he choked up a little and hugged her tightly.

Mei Ying let go of his hand and sat down slowly, she didn't want to get too close to him, so she picked a place opposite him, raised her head, and stared at him silently. It's been five years, and he's old, but his figure is still the same as before, and it's still Lin Yumo, who she used to be obsessed with. At that moment, she also wanted to cry, there were too many grievances in her heart, too much sorrow, too much unsatisfactory, and she wanted to talk to him, but she endured it, pretending to be indifferent, and teasing him like she saw him for the first time.

"Lao Lin, are you okay? Are they all right? "Yes, she did it on purpose, she just wanted to torture him again, they already had children, but his breach of contract made her unable to have children again, and after a few years, she still couldn't let go. The vow she made at the age of eighteen broke the vows for the two men, but in the end, they failed to achieve positive results.

"Girl, why don't you listen to me, it's been five years, it's been five years! Are you still haunted by that one of my no-shows? That year, two days before your birthday, she was hospitalized, she suffered from severe depression, medically called major depressive disorder, 60 percent of such patients have suicidal tendencies, she doesn't even care about her daughter, she sits at home in a daze all day, and sometimes hits her head against the wall. Girl, you say, how can I leave. I couldn't tell you more clearly on the phone, my heart was in turmoil, the children were still young, and I couldn't leave them. Now she has been much better after treatment, life can take care of herself, at her request, the year before last I sent her back to Emei's hometown, and she took the initiative to divorce me, my daughter is going to take the university entrance examination this year, I no longer have any worries, I have been in Chengdu since I sent her back to her hometown, I want to breathe under the sky with you here, I want to find your breath. However, in the past two years, I have found nothing, I can't find you at the address you gave me before, I have to wait, since the last time we met, I believe in fate again, I always feel that I will meet you again, don't you, girl? It's been five years, why don't you even wear glasses, or cover up your charming cat eyes, you are a little more bookish now, my little plum shadow has grown up and matured, but I, a bad old man, are getting older and older. Come, girl, let me take a good look at you, your face is too pale, and your demeanor is very haggard, is it not good to eat again? ”

Lin Yumo was about to walk to her side and sit down next to her, Mei Ying refused his kiss, took out a cigarette from his bag, Lin Yumo took out one for her, soaked it in water and put it on her lips to light it for her as before, at that moment, Mei Ying seemed to be back to the past, spitting smoke rings leisurely.

"Lao Lin, let's talk like this, you can sit and listen to me. I'm married, and he's away on a business trip today, and he should be back early tomorrow morning, so I shouldn't have come out to see you, but your magnetic voice tempted me again, and my heart couldn't resist. Lao Lin, you remember, you owe me, you owe me an elopement! I don't have a chance to let you get your long-cherished wish again, I want you to owe you forever, I want you to still can't sleep! I used to hate you, but time has changed everything, I don't want to hate you anymore, I'm tired of hating, I changed my mobile phone number, I just don't want you to get intoxicated with me again, the infatuation I talked to you about has exhausted my life, I don't want to be a madman, I don't want to have only love in my life. So I got back on my feet, I did a lot of business, I wanted to let the busyness fill my empty heart, but, you know, I wasn't good at it, and every time it ended in a fiasco, and then ... I had almost no money left, my sister sold the house left by my parents, sold it for a lot of money, the money was given to me, I didn't want to do anything anymore, I was very decadent, I went out every day to get drunk, I kept singing every night, my mind was never clear, when my alcohol was getting better and better, but I couldn't get drunk anymore. Many times I really don't want to wake up, I can't look directly at my miserable life! After Mei Ying said this, she was already in tears, poured herself a glass of wine, and drank it all.

"Girl, it's been so hard, why didn't you come to me, why didn't you call me, why did you ask Lao Qin to return that card to me. Girl, look, I've always carried this card, you put it away, don't shirk it again, okay? I... Can you give me another chance? Let me take care of you, I said I would give you a lifetime, I will not lose my trust in you, I don't owe you, I will give you an elopement, okay? I'm just Lin Yumo now, no longer anyone's husband, my daughter's future path depends on herself, I have trained her very well. Girl, come to my arms, this is what you want most, isn't it? My baby, let's go to live in a small town with few people and few cars, far away from the city, okay? I read poems to you every day, and you write a diary to me every day, and write down yours, mine, and his life, okay? I know you hate me and hate me, but there are always too many last resorts in this life, in the past five years, I have lived like a year, and even my interest in work has been lost, I am looking for you like a madman, and I have also been to Lao Qin to inquire about your news. However, you are such a bad girl, you don't even contact anyone, and even your mobile phone is stopped. Later, I stayed in your hometown, and I went to every hot pot restaurant, but I couldn't find you, and I almost collapsed. Today is your birthday, I dialed your phone again with a bit of luck, it's really pitiful, I finally found you. You know? The moment I heard your voice, I was about to cry, let's not be separated again, okay? Lin Yumo was so excited that he was a little incoherent, he didn't mind that the people at the table next to him were looking at them.

"Not good! Very bad! Let's stop all love and hatred, I don't hate you anymore, I forgive you. You have taken responsibility for me with responsibilities and obligations that you cannot shirk, and you are actually selfish. The so-called obligations and responsibilities are just to satisfy yourself and don't want to lose the halo of your good man, your wife is sick and hospitalized, you can ask her for a caretaker, you are not a poor person, don't you say that money is a bastard? If one is not enough, please invite two, and your daughter can also be taken care of by your parents, is it so difficult for you to spend a day with me? Yes, I said I wanted you to be a good man, but I would prefer you to be a good man who keeps his promises. I'm not an unreasonable woman, I'll let you go back as soon as my birthday is over, and a few of my friends are looking forward to seeing you that day, because they don't believe what I'm saying about you, they don't believe that a man's voice can enchant me. But you called and said you couldn't come, looking at the suspicious eyes of my friends, I was so shameless, and at that moment, you were like a phantom I made up in their hearts. You know me, I'm not hypocritical, but I also have vanity, and I'm also very strong. So I went with them to Jumpy, I can't remember how much I drank, I fell off the high platform, and the most surprising thing was that I was pregnant, you know? I conceived your child, but you let me lose it in order to be satisfied with your reputation as a good man, and the blood of that place has been blurred in my mind, and from now on, even if I meet the man I love again, I will not be able to bear children for him. That night, I hated you so much that I swore I would never see you again. But I really can't help but think that you love you, so I waited for you for another month, and I quietly recuperated at home and didn't go anywhere. Yes, you told me that your wife was sick, and I knew you couldn't say the word divorce, and I didn't force you. What's more, your daughter is still on summer vacation, and you can't leave, and I excuse you for various reasons. I don't want to tell you about your miscarriage because I don't want to distract you, but your calls are getting fewer, and I can count how many times you called in a month. I really don't want to wait any longer, I've had to wait too much in my life, it's really tiring. You're a nightmare of mine! This reincarnation love has overdrawn my life. Yes, for a lifetime! It's my whole life! I'm no longer the Mei Ying I was back then, I won't love you anymore, you go, go back to your hometown, go to accompany your daughter well, I don't need you anymore. ”

"Girl... You're too stubborn to tell me about such a big thing. I was too busy for the first month or so, running around every day to find a hospital for her, I knew I ignored you, but I just wanted her to get better as soon as possible, so that I could go to you with peace of mind, I didn't want to explain a lot of worries and trivial things to you, I just wanted to give you happiness. Later, when I found a hospital to treat her, your phone never got through. Over the years, the only thing I care about is my mobile phone, I always keep charging, I'm afraid that you call me one day and I miss, whether it's asleep or waking up, I always put my phone in my closest place, but, you never call me, I'm very annoyed, I want to drop my phone again and again, but I'm afraid that at that moment you are pressing my number. I'm going crazy in my heart, I want to go, I want to see how desperate my heart is to see you, but at home... The mess at home made me unable to take a step. I also hated myself so much that we didn't see each other for five years because we missed an appointment. Girl, can you give me a chance to atone for my sins, huh? Lin Yumo's eyes began to redden, and Mei Ying remembered her parting at the station five years ago, and couldn't help but feel a little soft-hearted. But now, she's... He was a normal man, and she couldn't be so selfish as to possess his sound body.

"No need, Lao Lin, someone takes care of me now, I live a good life, you better find a companion, don't come to me again in the future, don't call me if you have nothing to do, don't bother me again, I won't make any waves in my heart because of your arrival." It's been five years, and everything has already been a sea of life. Let's leave it at that, drain this wine, all in this wine, I have said too much tonight, and I don't want to tell you about the child, but I can't help but say it. When the pain of the past is no longer painful, my heart is also calm. Here, cheers! ”

Mei Ying raised her head and drank the glass of wine, in fact, her heart was sour, it was painful, if she hadn't had that damn disease, if she was still a complete woman, she could be sure that she would go with him. Yes, she still loves him, loves so much that she has endured all the pain for him, in this life, except for Leng Xu and him, she has never loved other men, there are many men who like her, but these men are like jokes one after another in her life, she has also slept with a man who has a slight affection, but it is not called love, it just meets her most basic needs as a woman, from now on, she doesn't even need these, she will leave the city, stay away from the hustle and bustle, and live a peaceful and peaceful life.

Standing up and walking out, Lin Yumo settled the account and ran all the way to catch up with her, he hugged her tightly, begging her again and again not to go, Mei Ying's heart was already as hard as a stone, she wanted to give him a good aftertaste, not her broken body today. The streets at night are no longer charming and charming in Mei Ying's eyes, her life no longer has any desire because of an operation, and her heart is too quiet, even in the face of the man she once loved.

A sedan drove past them, and a grumbling tune floated out of the window...

ohbaby, don't go

You know I love you

ohbaby, don't go

You know I miss you

ohbaby, don't go

I'm so lonely

ohbaby, don't go

I'm so empty by myself

How aggrieved it is to watch you cry silently

I know you care too much about me

It's not easy for two people to come together

How can you give up so easily

I'm going to hold you

I won't let you go

Come back, come back

I'm going to hold you

I won't let you go

Come back, come back