Now, I can't find an excuse to see Ruolu again, but now that I think about it, many of my thoughts were wrong. At that time, I once praised her with the sentence "fragrant as before", and I secretly thought that I admired her so much, looked up to her, and was more discerning than others, and secretly compared myself to the confidant of the bamboo basket. Now, I know that these are just self-judgments, and if I congratulate them with verses, there are only a few lines:

"Not invaded by dust, the bamboo fence hut is willing. It was only because of the misunderstanding of Lin Hejing that the poet was provoked to talk about it to the present. ”

It is not so much that this poem is a review of Ruolu, but rather that it is a review of the entanglement between me and Ruolu. And the beginning of this qiē mistake is from that day, I may be drunk, maybe not drunk, perhaps, half drunk, half awake, half dreaming, in a daze, I am most of my life.

On that day, I stood behind the floor cover and looked at her, she was wearing a pale yellow palace dress, embroidered with silver thread with a small flower of Zhu Rui Tiannu Mulan, and even the ornaments on her head were white jade magnolia of the same color, elegant and demure. I recognize this dress, it is a reward that Eniang received when she was young, Yun'er once got a light blue embroidered camellia, but she didn't.

Pulling back the distant thoughts, I focused my eyes back on the bamboo basket, only to see her standing in front of the window, silent, she looked out the window, but I looked at her for a moment. Slowly, such a picture, such a feeling, seems to coincide with another picture, it seems to be when I was a child, also in this palace, Eniang is a **** standing in front of the window, looking at the plum blossoms outside the window, I can't see enough. I don't like this kind of picture, I don't have time to think about it, and my steps have already stepped inside.

When she looked back at me, there was a moment of surprise in her eyes, but then she turned to respect, and she no longer saw any difference from other palace maids. The faint face is probably difficult to remember once you look at it, but you can't take your eyes off it. I'm a little distracted, why do I care about her in the slightest? Is it because of her temperament like Eniang and Yun'er?

But I am a little resistant to such a "Xiao like". When I commanded her, ordered her, and deliberately spoke to her with a straight face, in exchange for not panic, but a confused but confused face, the look of a real thirteen or fourteen-year-old girl, different from the appearance of Fang Cai.

At that moment, I curled the corners of my lips slightly, and decided to take her under my wing, perhaps to change the original plan and make her no longer a pawn.

Anger is in the early morning of the day.

One moment ago, she was still smiling with me, but the next moment she was like a decent, obedient palace maid, I can't look down on her like this, isn't she playing some trick with me? Very good!

That day, I walked away. Her indifferent appearance is the most dazzling.

I didn't see her for months. I thought it would be okay, but a woman, although she is special, is not as troubled as I am. Since I was a child, I have learned to never do business without returns, and the same is true for marrying Hui, and the same is true for befriending such ministers and celebrities. And her role was originally to fulfill my game of chess.

However, the news about her still reached my ears in fragments.

Is it better to be with the old thirteen? Although the thirteenth child is gone, he inherits the grace of Huang Ama, and his mouth that will make people happy, many little girls secretly admire him, and when the brothers laugh, they often make fun of him. No, she became one of them, and she was still hot! I'm going to see, what do you get?

Seeing her that day seemed to be an unexpected encounter arranged by God.

At noon, after the study was dispersed, I saw the old thirteen carrying the white deer to the imperial garden, thinking about it, she still did not give up. Do you really admire the thirteenth brother like this? For his sake, he did not hesitate to please one of his pugs?

When he came out of Eniang's house, he bumped into her.

I always thought that when I saw her again, I would be impatient, indifferent, and angry with her, but none of them, unexpectedly, no? The original tightness in his chest was gone.

At that time, her eyes were clear, and she looked at me and said, "The slave believes that one day, it will let it obediently listen to the slave and maid." ”

Are you obedient? Zhuzhen, I will also let you listen to me obediently, this is a bet, and I can only win.

The arrangement of Eniang's birthday banquet was facilitated by me, and Ming Quan had a reasonable sentence, after being in one place for a long time, she would always lean on me.

Sure enough, as time passed, she slowly lost her original indifference. Sometimes when I think about it, I realize that gossiping with her is not only to make her lean towards me, but also to enjoy it. This kind of feeling of talking freely has never been in love with the ninth brother, and most of the time, Zhu Zhen listens quietly, whenever she sees her looking at herself with adoring eyes, it is the vanity of a man who is making trouble, which is twelve points of comfort. It is not simply the respect between men and women, but the affirmation of my ability, which is more effective than any flattery, flattery, and favor. Even occasionally, the idea of being suppressed by me would secretly arise again, and the idea of giving up her game of chess would arise again, only for a moment, and then disappear.

On the day of my childhood, the thirteenth came to me, which made me quite puzzled. He handed me a small box and told me to hand it over. I know that he has a good relationship with Zhu Zheng, but the old thirteen is not close to me, what is the important thing, I can't wait for Zhu Zhen to return to the palace and then send her, I want to hand it over? The old thirteen was also refreshed, and said, Zhuzhen's birthday is the day of the new year.

When I first heard the news, my back was cold, I knew what it was like, I was playful at the beginning of school, and I failed to complete the homework assigned by the master, and that was the feeling when the master checked it on the second day. I couldn't tell whether I was competing with the old thirteen or if I really took it seriously, so I immediately left the palace and returned home. She was not in the house, and it happened that Wutong came in with a food box, and when she saw me, she hurriedly came over to say goodbye.

I said casually, "Where is the bamboo basket?" ”

Wutong replied, and signaled the bamboo basket to me, and I only noticed that the food box was sent in by the governor of Zhili, and I asked for a kit kat that had been left in the treasury, but it was useless. I opened the food box casually, and the fragrant smell filled the whole room, and I casually asked Wutong, "What kind of dim sum is this?" I've never seen it. ”

Wutong replied carefully: "The girl said that it was called a cake." The girl made several of them, put different ingredients in them, this one, the girl added honey red beans and lotus seed boiled black beans in it, the girl said that it was to be given away. ”

Giving away? Could it be me? Thinking of this, my mood suddenly improved.

Close the lid and catch a glimpse of the pattern on the body of the box - red beans, "May you pick more Jie, this thing is the most lovesick", but it is you who disdain the most, bamboo basket, who changed you? Which "Jun" do you miss? Will it be the thirteenth brother? Will it be, me?

When I went around to the kitchen, when the servants saw me coming, they all respectfully stepped aside, and I ignored them and went straight into the pastry room. It was only her and Qiu Ling inside, and I motioned for Qiu Ling to withdraw.

The pastry room is not large, full of rich sweet fragrance, and the bamboo basket stands by the board, cutting the fruit one by one. She was facing me sideways, I could only see her little half of her face, it was rare quiet and warm, the first time I gave birth to a thought, if there is a wife like this, and add one or two children, it is to lose a body of court affairs, and I am willing. I didn't even dare to take a step further, for fear of breaking this qiē.

She said she'd send me one. Zhuzhen, I don't just want you to send a cake, I want more, I want a portion in that food box, with your intentions.

The body was very light, with her fragrance, and expectation, I went back to the study and waited for her, waiting for her to come. But when I saw the food box she brought in, my whole body suddenly became cold. That food box was not meant to be given to me, after all, the thirteenth brother was more important than me. As long as she remembered that it was my deliberate neglect during that time that made her get closer and closer to her thirteenth brother, her heart couldn't help but be sour.

During the banquet, she was silent, and I didn't want to speak, and the meal was dull. I didn't have time to prepare her gift, knowing that she was affectionate, I explained to my ninth brother before leaving the palace, and I almost forgot about it. I still remember the ridicule of the tenth brother on the side at that time, saying that I will also be interested in women, I ignored him, and even I gradually didn't understand what I wanted.

Hui Qing came back sooner than expected.

Sure enough, as soon as she entered the house, she came straight to the study to find my theory, and I caught a glimpse of the bamboo basket's hand shaking, but she forced herself to calm down. I didn't want to scare the bamboo basket, I went out to get rid of Hui Qingqing, how did I know that she was stubborn. When she entered the house, Zhu Zhen still lowered her head and silently made a list, so well-behaved and unusually quiet, which scared her in the end.

On the thirtieth day of entering the palace, after the banquet was dispersed, everyone gathered in the palace to enjoy the fireworks, the old fourteen talked to me, I was a little absent-minded, what he said, I didn't listen to it. When Lao Jiu saw it, he simply hugged me back to his house with Lao Shi, I didn't object, this move was exactly what I wanted. There was still some distance from the courtyard of the study, and I heard the noise inside, ignoring the jokes of the ninth and tenth children, I walked in quickly, and I knew it was her.

A room full of servant maids, with a mess of cups and plates on the table, is very lively. Since I knew her, I have never seen her smile so unscrupulously, never seen her speak so loudly and noisily, and never seen her play so recklessly, as if she was a wild girl who was not bound by heaven and earth. The more I explored her, the more I found that she was not the woman I thought she was when I first met, and she was different from Yun'er. What annoys me, but what makes me happy, is that even though I realize this, I still don't want to stop this qiē.

Rewarding a room of people can make her happy, and no matter how much you tip, what is it?

There was something in the ninth brother's words, and I knew that he was beginning to be suspicious of Zhu Zhen. Before, Zhu Zhen had little contact with them, and she always looked obedient, so the ninth brother naturally wouldn't notice her. But this time, it was too similar, and she was so similar to the arrogance of arguing and arguing that day, even though she was surrounded by wolves, that no one had to doubt it.

I hurriedly interrupted Zhu Zheng's reply, and the ninth brother didn't ask anything more, but his eyes seemed to have already understood the game I had made.

I asked Zhuzhen to wait for me to come back, I just wanted to take a few more glances at her while she was still smiling. But when I returned, she was asleep on the table. I carefully carried her to the bed, stripped off her coat, and spread her hair out, something I had never done with Hui Qing. It was at this moment that I realized how simple it was to satisfy and fill my chest.

I sat on the edge of the bed and watched her for a long time, without a trace of thought. I don't know when the idea of being in a hurry to prove myself and to keep her by my side has become less and lighter. On the contrary, I am relieved to see the surprise and joy of her return, and I am irritated to see her listlessness.

"Let him compete for joy and reward, not for prosperity and easy to be happy." A lazy girl like you is afraid of getting involved in right and wrong. At this moment, I finally admit that if you want, I can always set up a world for you to be far away from right and wrong, and you can do whatever you want in it. Despite this convincing herself, there was always a thought that jumped out to disturb my feelings, and perhaps, it was me who she wanted to stay away from.

At the beginning, the fourth brother praised him, and the prince's few words made Yun'er leave me far away, why did he? But because he is the prince, since this is the case, I robbed him of the prince! Now the bamboo basket is going to stay away from me again, no matter who is in the middle of the work, even if it is herself, it is not a dream.

It's just that I did a lot of calculations, but I didn't calculate that she would be involved with the fourth brother, and it attracted the attention of Huang Ama. At this point, Eniang, who has never asked me to act, also inserted a bar. I know that Eniang is worried about me, and I don't want me to lose anything because of my children's affection, but today, I can't let go of it, and I can't bear it!

But even though I tried to stop it, and try to fix it, things still spiraled out of control. Her identity is my bureau, which was the straw I planned to give to the prince at the last moment. It's just that I've already suspended my action, and Ruolu's return caught me off guard, what was the negligence, why did she become Ruolu Gege after all?

Everyone in the audience acts, but it seems that only I am afraid of this, if the tenth brother and the thirteenth brother are open-minded, then what about others? What about the fourth brother? Have you forgotten what her last name is? And the emperor Ama, who has always been discerning, can't he see the subtlety between Ruolu and his prince? Or did Huang Ama have no intention of stopping it?

It wasn't until Ruolu was sent to Yuqing Palace that my conjecture was finally confirmed, enough to wipe out my annihilated sense of fear, Huang Ama, what else does he know? What else did he not know!

On that day, accompanied by Huang Ama's reprimand, I walked into the courtyard of Fengyin Pavilion by mistake. If there is no ghost in my heart, why don't I want to use this move to gain some favor in front of Huang Ama, if I say that there is a demon in my heart, when I see the lazy woman under the swing frame, I have become a Buddha on the ground.

If love is not heavy, it will not give birth to a woman, and if you are not attentive, you will not be blissful. Ruolu, in this life, I know that I can only look at it from afar, and in the next life, I do not seek to be pleased, but to know each other. (To be continued.) )