Since receiving the newly drafted divorce agreement from Xinxin, Mu Nan felt that life had suddenly become chaotic. He began to lose the distinction between day and night, and he began to think less about eating and sleeping. When others eat, he eats with them, and when others sleep, he also sleeps upside down. Even brushing his teeth, washing his face, and going to work every day have become an inertial action for him, and he doesn't think about it at all. Although he is still fine in the eyes of others, he is actually no different from a walking corpse. Life, in his eyes, has lost its color and meaning.

If there is anything else that can make Mu Nan feel certain recently, it is her mother's nagging. From the day he knew that the child could not follow him and return to Xinxin, his mother always took the opportunity to talk to him about the child, and he never tired of it. Today is a day off, thinking that he has to face his mother's entanglement all day, Mu Nan's head immediately became bigger, so he simply hid out as soon as possible. He got up early in the morning and hurried out without breakfast.

It was still early in the morning, and there was no one on the road yet. Mu Nan walked aimlessly on the road alone. The water of the Spring River is a little cool, and the willows on the embankment seem to be slightly wilting like flowers that have bloomed past the season. Before you know it, summer is coming to an end. Mu Nan was immersed in this slightly melancholy morning, and suddenly the mobile phone rang, it was Xinxin.

Mu Nan picked up the phone in a complicated mood, and Xinxin's kind and familiar voice immediately rang out: "Mu Nan, are you free next Monday?" ”

"How?" Mu Nan regretted it after asking, what else could it be? In addition to the divorce, what else can he do between them now when he is free?

Sure enough, Shin Shin continued: "I think let's go through the divorce procedures next Monday." ”

Mu Nan let out a soft "oh", so light that he could hardly hear it.

Xinxin obviously didn't hear it on the other side of the phone, and she asked suspiciously: "Is it inconvenient?" ”

Mu Nan shook her head, and then immediately realized that Xinxin couldn't see herself, so she hurriedly accentuated her voice and said, "It's nothing, it's okay." ”

Xinxin replied softly, but for some reason she was uncomfortable. In fact, at first, she was afraid that he would shirk it. But now. He promised so happily, but her heart was not clear. Shin Shin just held up the phone, not wanting to hang up, as if she hung up this time. They have been strangers ever since. But the business was already over, and she didn't know what to say again, so after hesitating for a moment, she still said, "Then I'll hang up." She sighed inwardly and was about to hang up. Mu Nan suddenly said, "Wait a minute." I...... I would like to see the children on Monday. Seeing that Xinxin was speechless, Mu Nan hurriedly said, "I'll go by myself, don't take my mother." I'm afraid...... I'm afraid that if I don't see my child, he won't know me anymore. And, I ...... I miss children too. ”

When Xinxin heard this, her nose was sour, and she hurriedly said "yes", and hung up the phone in a hurry, and tears were already pouring out of her eyes.

Here, Mu Nan was alone for a long time on the phone that hung up. He didn't actually finish speaking, he still wanted to say, "I miss you too." But he couldn't say it.

He stood alone on the side of the road. The days flashed through his mind like old film, and he suddenly felt the urge to cry. No, isn't it ridiculous for an adult to do that? It was as if he heard reason say that to him. But immediately, an even sharper voice jumped out and shouted: If you want to cry, cry out, anyway, there is no acquaintance here, why not? He knew it was his heart saying. How long has it been since you have followed your heart to do things? Let's just follow it once this time. Thinking so, he relaxed his senses, and the tears couldn't help but burst out of his eyes, and then. Soon, this silent cry turned into a howl. Occasionally, passers-by looked strangely at this man who was out of control, but he didn't realize it.

After a bitter cry. Mu Nan finally regained his senses. He originally thought that this little indulgence would at least make it easier for him. But he soon found that not only did he not relax, but he felt even more depressed. For the first time, he realized that he did not look like a mature man in his thirties, and he felt as lonely and overwhelmed as a child in the face of these undesirable changes in his life.

Because the divorce is only done in the afternoon. Mu Nan deliberately took a half-day off on Monday afternoon. It's really unlucky, divorce is discriminated against even going through the formalities, and in the past, getting a marriage certificate was done at any time.

Mu Nan was afraid that her mother would come with her if she found out, so she didn't tell her family, she just pretended to go to work normally and went directly to the Civil Affairs Bureau. But I don't know what's going on, he waited for a long time and didn't see Xinxin and the child. Mu Nan felt anxious on the one hand, wondering if they had something to do on the road; On the other hand, he was a little secretly happy, hoping that Xinxin had changed her mind. So she didn't want to call to urge, thinking that it would be good to give Xinxin a little more time, she might regret it when she was angry and didn't want to leave. But he didn't dare to leave, so he waited at the door of the Civil Affairs Bureau in a daze. I waited until the sun was setting in the west, only to see Xinxin coming in a taxi with her child in her arms. Shin Shin explained that the child was asleep, and the old man would not let him come out. had to wait for him to wake up, and the mother and son took a taxi and hurried here. Afraid of missing the processing time, Shin Shin ran along the way, the bag on her shoulder slipped to her arm, and her hair was a little scattered.

How difficult it is for a woman to take care of a child alone. Mu Nan couldn't help but feel uncomfortable when she saw it, and hurriedly took the child over. I haven't seen him for many days, and the child is a little recognized, and he pouted vigorously in Mu Nan's arms to cry. Shin Shin has been coaxing beside her. It made Mu Nan's heart astringent. In the past, the child was the closest to him, but now he almost doesn't know him! Xinxin saw it, and she couldn't bear it, so she quickly found a happy topic: "The child can talk a lot now." Grandma can be called out or something. When Mu Nan heard this, he was also happy, and teased the child to call him father. But the child still recognized him a little, just looked at him and refused to speak.

There are actually a lot of people who go through the divorce procedures, and the two of them queued up for a while to do it. After the formalities were completed, the two walked out of the Civil Affairs Bureau together, Xinxin took the child from Mu Nan's hand, and turned around to leave.

The sand raised by the wind blew into Mu Nan's eyes, and he reached out to wipe it, but he touched wet tears.

The child struggled in Shin Shin's arms, as if he was not feeling well, and Shin Shin, who had just walked down the steps, had to stop and fix his diapers for him. The child grabbed Xinxin's shoulder, looked at Mu Nan who was still standing on the steps in ignorance, opened his small mouth and called out clearly: "Dad." ”

For a moment, the two people up and down the steps were stunned. The setting sun shines obliquely, and the silhouette of a family of three is reflected on the undulating marble steps, motionless, like a pair of exquisite paper-cuts.

Far away on the horizon, the setting sun is sinking into the clouds of the western sky......

PS: This chapter is a little different, to be exact, I have a bit of a preference for it in my heart. When this article was only a short essay of 30,000 words, it was already in existence. I've always wanted to make it the end of the book. But until now, there are still too many unfinished stories, and it seems incomplete to end like this. But I think it's really suitable for an ending, what do you think? (To be continued.) )