Chapter 60: The Awakened Dreamer
Yang Liu and the three sisters were enjoying a hearty lunch, and Su Yi was nibbling on dry fast food.
Today, Su Yi was promoted to supervisor and transferred to another branch to preside over the work, and she is getting farther and farther away from home.
Traveling abroad is simply torturous, spending money to get food, not sleeping well, not eating well, and having to run around with more or less things. In those days, I was sluggish, with headaches from time to time, tired and uncomfortable, and it was very hard. With last night's ample sleep, the tiredness of a few days was swept away.
As soon as he came back yesterday afternoon, Zhao Haoran's phone came over, and Su Yi was slightly moved by the cold and warmth. At the beginning of the meal just now, it was another concern, and Su Yi was eating fast food. Knowing that she doesn't have to run around all the time outside, his information is overwhelming.
"Why don't you stay at home for a few more days when you're away from home for so many days?" Zhao Haoran knew that except for the night she just came back from Beijing, she had been away from home for more than half a month.
"I'm not free, the time is full, how can I be free?" Rushing back and forth, home is like a hotel, where to live is not to live, Su Yi thought.
"Don't you want him?"
Zhao Haoran's words poked Su Yi's heart, and she chuckled in her heart, very shocked. Yes, where Yang Liu is, where has been natural for many years, but she hasn't thought about whether she has thought of him. There may have been before, but in recent years, I don't seem to have deliberately rethought this issue. Su Yi felt that she was not there, and he was all there. Su Yi was silent and did not answer Zhao Haoran.
"I think you are very affectionate, now that your house is deserted, your husband seems to rarely come home, you have to watch it closely" Zhao Haoran was a little regretful and reminded Su Yi.
"Oh." Su Yi was a little bored in her heart, and replied simply, and didn't bother to ask Zhao Haoran why she knew about her family's affairs.
"What about you, you're also very affectionate, aren't you?! Why are you so free to talk to me? For so long, Su Yi had never asked Zhao Haoran such a personal question, and she asked casually and curiously to divert the topic.
"We? I've been separated from her for two years. Zhao Haoran replied simply, as if he had not yet come out of the grief of divorce.
"Excuse me! Don't be unhappy. ”
"Hehe, it's nothing, it's all gone." Zhao Haoran smiled a little helplessly, not to mention free and easy, inevitably with remembrance.
"Didn't you look for another one?" Su Yi cares about others.
"I want to find it, but I haven't found a suitable one yet. I like it, and I have a family. Zhao Haoran did not miss the opportunity to hint at confession.
"If you have a family, then you don't have a chance." Su Yi hit Zhao Haoran unconsciously.
"Oh." Zhao Haoran replied gloomily.
"How old are you? Who are you looking for? Su Yi didn't want to help him without kindness. According to normal times, Su Yi rarely wants strangers to inquire about personal privacy, but she feels that a person like Zhao Haoran who knows how to be considerate and caring should not be cared for by no one.
"I'm almost 50 years old, and I wish I could find someone as gentle and graceful as you." Zhao Haoran praised Su Yi from the bottom of his heart.
Others' praise Su Yi can be laughed over, Zhao Haoran sincerely praised from the heart, Su Yi listened to the sweetness in her heart, she couldn't help but be curious about his story: "Is your ex-wife bad?" ”
"She is very good, she is also beautiful, we have a daughter, it was I who neglected her, and finally chose to separate irretrievably." Zhao Haoran is repenting for his failed marriage.
"Do you still love her?" The same question, it was Su Yi's turn to ask him.
"I don't know if I can still call it love, but sometimes I miss her." Zhao Haoran really can't tell whether this is family affection or love, if love has turned into family affection, he should love her in his heart.
"Since you miss her, you love her, why don't you work hard to redeem it?" Su Yi felt that Zhao Haoran's question was too similar to her own situation, and she couldn't help but ask herself while asking Zhao Haoran.
"She reorganized her new family last year, and now the only contact is with the children."
Listening to Zhao Haoran's sad and painful narration, Su Yi seemed to empathize, thinking about herself and Yang Liu, thinking about innocent children, she couldn't help but be a little afraid. Zhao Haoran seems to be considerate, but there are so many imperfections, and Su Yi's fantasy about him suddenly fell from the sky to the ground. Only after knowing a person can she see this person clearly, she is somewhat glad for herself, and her heart becomes heavy.
"Oh." Su Yi returned to the skinny reality, and had little interest in Zhao Haoran.
Zhao Haoran felt Su Yi's mood change, and he quickly changed the topic: "Where do you go to work now?" I'll be invited over to dinner when I have time. ”
"Later, there will be a chance later." Su Yi is not good at hitting Zhao Haoran's kindness, so she can only be perfunctory.
"Well, there must be a chance. Then you are busy, I have something to do. "How could Zhao Haoran, who has read countless people, not hear Su Yixuan's voice, he understands that today's words have come to an end, and if he continues to talk about it, he will not gain anything, it will only cause disgust, and he will go down the steps when he finds it.
Looking at the love in his hand, Su Yi's eyes were full of melancholy. Zhao Haoran's shadow and Yang Liu's shadow are fading one by one, without a clear impression of substance, she feels empty in her heart and has nothing to rely on. Su Yi clearly felt that the willow was getting farther and farther away from her, and gradually only the vague back was left, and she never stopped. I really want to keep him and stay in my heart forever, but ......, Yang Liu, Yang Liu, why aren't you the one who makes me attached? Su Yi was shouting in her heart, shouting, irretrievable powerlessness, and her head was crazy and chaotic.
What happened between the willow and the willow? Su Yi calmed down and continued to torture herself. Why do you feel that the willows are getting farther and farther away? The problem should have existed for a long time, but I just turned a blind eye, deceived myself, pinned my emotional unhappiness on work, and used busy work as an excuse to not face it seriously. The problem of sexual disharmony between the two people existed from the beginning, and I thought that Yang Liu had a lot of opinions on this aspect at the beginning, but I felt that Yang Liu cared too much. Husband and wife life has gone from coming and going from time to time, to dispensable, and now it is better to talk than nothing, the feelings are getting weaker and weaker, the care is getting less and less, and the heart is slowly estranged, is this the case? Su Yi was thinking and analyzing seriously.
I haven't communicated well with Yang Liu for a long time, before at home, under the same roof, each busy, and I don't care about it, and I don't care about it until now after I have separated, I found that I and Yang Liu, I haven't put the problems of the two people out and communicated well. With Yang Liu's cleverness, he should have understood the root of the problem early, but he respected himself, accommodated himself, and lost his enthusiasm for himself while constantly forbearance and tolerance, and slowly alienated the distance between the two, could this be the case?
Small problems grow into big problems. Su Yi felt that she couldn't get warmth at home, and she believed that Yang Liu felt the same way. If it weren't for the family relationship of his son, maybe this family would have broken up a long time ago.
Is Yang Liu leaving herself? Or are you leaving the willows?? The stubborn disease accumulated over the years has grown into a big tumor in front of her, and Su Yi feels so powerless.
Do you still love willow? If another Zhao Haoran appears, does he have enough strength to resist? The cruel topic was chosen, and Su Yi felt so confused.