One hundred and five chapters
"Huijuan, just say whatever you want, I'll listen, but don't blame me for not having enough time. Yao Xinli had no choice but to say, an indifferent tone, as if it was intended to make Qin Huijuan feel that she was not interested in her explanation. But Qin Huijuan didn't care about Yao Xinli's meaning, whether Yao Xinli liked it or not, she still told Yao Xinli the whole story of this matter, and it was a coincidence, the car that was supposed to run every half an hour was one less trip today, which gave Qin Huijuan enough time to tell Yao Xinli all this. At first, Yao Xinli didn't plan to listen to her explanation seriously, just thinking that she wouldn't talk about how many cars would come, so she didn't have a chance to talk about it again. But unexpectedly, as soon as Qin Huijuan opened her mouth and said a few words, Yao Xinli became interested. Even he didn't know when he held Qin Huijuan's two hands in his hands. She listened carefully, but her palms kept sweating, and when Yao Xinli learned the reason why Li Zhengyi resolutely decided to separate from her in order to avoid being dragged down by his cancer, Yao Xinli's heart was very moved and shocked. However, when Yao Xinli heard that Li Zhengyi was actually using Qin Huijuan at the beginning, using Qin Huijuan's love for her to stimulate herself to separate from him. This made Yao Xinli feel very angry, and the kind of emotion she had for him was gone, she felt that she knew too little about Li Zhengyi, and felt that her parents' trust in Li Zhengyi was too hasty. At this point, no matter what Li Zhengyi's starting point is or what his purpose is, it is unfair and immoral to Qin Huijuan. Li Zhengyi's character and image have also been greatly discounted in Yao Xinli's heart, which can be said to be a despicable behavior. Although he said that he was also thinking about me Yao Xinli, what about Qin Huijuan, you Li Zhengyi are okay now, and Qin Huijuan will have such a happy result. If you die, then what will happen to Qin Huijuan in the second half of her life? Thinking of this, Yao Xinli was angry at the same time, but also felt worthless for Qin Huijuan to be used innocently and become a victim of this so-called love between the three of them.
"Huijuan, tell me the truth, do you regret all this you did for him now, do you hate him?"
Qin Huijuan shook her head a little puzzled by Yao Xinli's current question and said:
"Xinli, why should I hate him, how kind he is, I did all this voluntarily, what do I regret Huijuan, have you thought about it, if Zheng Yi didn't have this disease, how could I have the opportunity to be with him, Xinli I said don't be angry, do you know what I thought before, I thought that after you get married, I will also find a way to get him and let him be my lover...... Hee-hee-hee. Speaking of this, Qin Huijuan, who was very serious at first, actually wanted to giggle like a joke.
"I love Zheng Yi so much, I just love him, as long as he is happy, I am willing to do anything." Qin Huijuan said again.
Huijuan ....... At this time, Yao Xinli really didn't know what to say to her.
Looking at Yao Xinli's tense face, she let go of her hand, Qin Huijuan was afraid that her words would be misunderstood by Yao Xinli, which would make her have a bad opinion of Li Zhengyi, so she hurriedly said:
"Xinli, do you know, Zheng Yi did this completely because he loved you, he didn't want you to bear these pains for him, how great is this, haven't you noticed, it's still you who is loved in his heart now, don't you feel it......"
Who would have thought that Qin Huijuan would be emotionally moved when she was talking and talking, and her heart began to get excited, and a few tears would flow out of the corners of her eyes unconsciously, and these tears that flowed down made Yao Xinli not know whether it was her tears of sadness and grievance, or her tears of gratitude and admiration for Li Zhengyi. Before Yao Xinli could speak, Qin Huijuan gently scraped away the tears with her fingers and continued:
"Maybe this is the fate arranged by God, since then, I have been looking for an opportunity to tell you about this matter, but Zheng Yi is seriously ill, and I can't contact you, and when you go to Zheng Yi's ward to see us, I can't tell you this in front of Zheng Yi. Now that I've told you everything, you won't blame me and Zheng Yi anymore, Xinli, right? ”
Hearing Qin Huijuan asking herself, Yao Xinli looked at Qin Huijuan with a solemn expression and said:
"Huijuan, thank you for telling me all this, in fact, these are important to me, knowing and not knowing are the same for me, I just want you and Li Zhengyi to be happy."
"Xinli, I just like your atmospheric personality, I know you won't blame me, in fact, I have already seen it, you don't like Zheng Yi, otherwise you would have been the same a long time ago." Speaking of this, Qin Huijuan grinned again.
"Xinli, do you know, when Zheng Yi and I were together for the first time, I found out that the two of you were innocent, and when he was doing that, he didn't understand anything, and he looked like a virgin. Xinli, you said that now how can there be a person who can stand his body after having a boyfriend and girlfriend, just the two of you, I am really grateful to God, thank him for giving Zheng Yi to me, even if I can live with him for a few years and a few months, I am satisfied, Xinli, do you know, Zheng Yi can recover like this, the expert said that this is the power of love, it is a miracle created by love......"
When Yao Xinli heard this, Qin Huijuan, who was regarded by Yao Xinli as a love game trader when she was in school, now made Yao Xinli a little impressed, and was moved by her infatuation. Especially when I learned that her work was removed because of this, I was more and more moved. But thinking of the scene when Li Zhengyi's house was in Li Zhengyi's house, Li Zhengyi's sharp eyes looked at Qin Huijuan, Xinli not only felt a little worried about Qin Huijuan's future, she felt that Qin Huijuan and Li Zhengyi were a very unequal love ratio in terms of emotional attitude, so Yao Xinli asked again:
"Huijuan, you love him like this, but does he love you, Huijuan, do you know, love is a matter of two people, if you have been like this for a long time, will you still feel happy." The meaning of Yao Xinli's words is obviously to remind Qin Huijuan that Li Zhengyi doesn't love you.
However, what Yao Xinli didn't expect was that her question made Qin Huijuan happy, and the joy was very exaggerated, leaning forward and back, covering her mouth with one hand, tears were about to burst into laughter, and said:
"Xinli, you are really, you don't understand anything, and you still don't understand what love is." After speaking, Qin Huijuan continued to laugh again, feeling that what Yao Xinli said just now was very naïve.
"Xinli, let me tell you what love is." At this time, Qin Huijuan's voice also raised, and Yao Xinli was so startled that she hurriedly looked around, lest she be watched. Fortunately, there are not many people in the small station, and the few people in the sparse Lala are also dressed in the countryside, the conversation between Qin Huijuan and Yao Xinli did not attract their attention, they focused their attention on the traffic safety posters on the indoor walls, and the pop songs played by the stall owners at the counter in the house, and there were only Yao Xinli and Qin Huijuan sitting on the three rows of chairs, which seemed to be very empty in the small station.
"Huijuan, be careful not to be too loud, this is a public place." Yao Xinli reminded. At the same time, she was also a little anxious, and she was no longer interested in what Qin Huijuan said, and the emotion just now was also laughed out of the clouds by Qin Huijuan's hip-hop smile, and she didn't want to listen to the following words, feeling that all this happened is now a thing of the past, and no one can go back in time, even if it can be repeated, all this will not change. After thinking about it for such a long time, Yao Xinli has already had a clear understanding of her relationship with Li Zhengyi: Li Zhengyi is not her love, and their separation is also an inevitable result. As for what Qin Huijuan said just now, no matter what purpose Li Zhengyi broke up with him, and no matter how Qin Huijuan took advantage of such an opportunity to stick Li Zhengyi in her hands, now, these are just a process of the evolution of things, although there will be some touches in my heart just now, but now it has become diluted with Qin Huijuan's heartless appearance.
The injustices and worries about Qin Huijuan just now seem to be superfluous, and maybe only a person with a heartless character like Qin Huijuan will be Li Zhengyi's most suitable partner. Now, Yao Xinli has only one thought in her heart, which is to leave quickly, go home early, and have a new start early.
Listening to Yao Xinli's reminder, Qin Huijuan also glanced around, and also felt that she was a little out of shape, and immediately stuck out her tongue and said:
"It's okay, they can't hear"
Then Qin Huijuan still didn't forget to start the topic of love with Yao Xinli.
"Xinli, you haven't had a partner, so you don't have this experience." As soon as she said this, Qin Huijuan realized that she had spoken out of her mouth, and hurriedly corrected her words again.
"No, no, it's wrong, how to say it, it's just..." Qin Huijuan couldn't find a suitable word for a while, and after thinking for a while, she said again:
"Let's put it this way, what love is, it's like the dress you are wearing now, it's the relationship between people and clothes. I ask you Xinli, do you like the dress you are wearing, but this dress is not yours at first, it is hung in the store, anyone can buy it, but it is hung there and you are optimistic, you have to buy it, you were or now, do you know that it likes you, but whether it likes you or not, it is now worn on your body, it belongs to you. In fact, love is like this, when you meet such a person, as long as you like it, no matter what method you use, as long as you can turn him into yours, it is your victory, don't think about whether he likes you or not, whether he loves you or not, and when he falls in love with you, I'm afraid this person is already the clothes on other women's bodies, remember I asked you at the beginning if Zheng Yi is yours because we are good friends, I can't do this, if I replaced you with someone else, I would have put Zheng Yi a long time ago..." Looking at Yao Xinli's wide-eyed eyes in surprise, Qin Huijuan quickly closed her mouth, and quickly explained with some embarrassment:
"Oh Xinli, don't think about it, I've already told you about Zheng Yi and me, I really didn't do anything before, I didn't do anything to be sorry for you, you must believe me, Xinli." Qin Huijuan grabbed Yao Xinli's hand in a hurry, shaking it constantly, and her voice was almost like pleading with Yao Xinli.
"Huijuan, what are you doing, why do you want to say that, don't say that, I don't blame you for anything, don't do this." Yao Xinli also hurriedly said to Qin Huijuan, who was a little nervous.
That's true, when Qin Huijuan hadn't told her all the truth, Yao Xinli did have some misunderstandings about Qin Huijuan. feels that Qin Huijuan's personality can do something to Li Zhengyi behind her back, if it weren't for Qin Huijuan taking the initiative to do something, Li Zhengyi would not break up with herself for no reason like this, only if Li Zhengyi and her make that kind of physical contact, Li Zhengyi will make this decision, she knows Li Zhengyi, he is a person who has the courage to be responsible. Despite this, this is not enough for her to blame Qin Huijuan, Yao Xinli always believes that the emotional things between men and women are never decided by one person, Qin Huijuan and Li Zhengyi can come together, Li Zhengyi also has an unshirkable responsibility, this can't blame which party used what kind of means to confuse the other party into his arms, this is an extremely irresponsible statement, whether it is for himself or others. Yao Xinli would be surprised by Qin Huijuan's words now, because she didn't expect that she would have such a set of love theories, and it sounded so reasonable, Yao Xinli had heard such a statement for the first time. Originally, she wanted to say to Qin Huijuan that love is not a gift of gratitude and gifts, but now it seems to be redundant. In Qin Huijuan, there is already a best annotation of love, to summarize Qin Huijuan's statement, this is: "Take it." ”
"Huijuan, don't think about anything, how can I blame you, if I blame you, I don't need you to send me today." Yao Xinli said comfortingly to Qin Huijuan again.
"Xinli, you really don't blame me." Qin Huijuan still asked in a somewhat disbelieving tone.
"Huijuan don't say anything, the car is coming." Yao Xinli broke free of Qin Huijuan's hand and ran outside. By the time Qin Huijuan came out, Yao Xinli had already gotten into the car. Since it was winter, the glass of the bus was locked. Qin Huijuan could only look at Yao Xinli from the car door.
"Xinli and I will go back with Zheng Yi tomorrow, see you tomorrow......" Because there are not many people in the car, and it is very quiet, Qin Huijuan's words made Yao Xinli, who was sitting in the back row, hear it very clearly, but because it was inconvenient, she didn't answer her, Qin Huijuan waited in front of the car door until the bus started to leave, just when Qin Huijuan was a little reluctant to watch the bus slowly accelerate, she suddenly saw the reminder sign of the rear window of the car, and immediately shouted loudly behind the car:
"Xinli, you're doing the wrong car......"
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