Text Chapter 307 The Aftermath of Sadness
In the belated twilight, people who hurried home and people who went out for a walk after dinner mingled. The city has walked into the afterglow of dusk, into the leisure after the bustle.
Couples walking hand in hand on the tree-lined path feel the leisure, but also feel the subtle fluctuations of each other.
"You can rest assured. Is it possible to leave next? Lu Kaiwen's casual tone concealed caution.
"Hmmm... Tell me about Los Angeles, what's it like there? The girl kicked with interest the stones she could find.
"It's a very contradictory city. Silence and hustle coexist there, fashion and vulgarity dance together. You can never say what impresses you most, just like you seem to be forever bathed in sunshine and still have to face the darkness. But the inclusiveness of that city is something that everyone is convinced of. The ocean, the desert, the black quarter, the sun, the fashion, the chaos, the racism... Everything is integrated into that city. There is no mainstream ideology in that city, but everyone can find their own happiness. Baby, you'll be accepted into that city too. You will find joy there. The last thing that is lacking there is sun and sand. Lu Kevin's thoughts drifted with his voice.
"Tell me about it, then. What is your impression of the city? Do you like it here? The girl didn't seem to be immersed in the other person's description, and she didn't hesitate to ask.
"Here. It's full of life, and it's full of change in hard work. It's also a place of tolerance, and it's also a place where people have to be nostalgic. I love it here, and here I found you. Here I was born again. So, I have to love it here. Kevin Lu's voice trembled.
The girl stopped. Her eyes began to wander over the other man's face.
"What's wrong? Am I wrong? Kevin Lu came to his senses, and his heart hung in the air.
"Why do you make me feel strange every time you talk about me? Are you hiding something from me? The girl's eyes gradually sharpened.
"Nope. You know, people who grew up in the West like to exaggerate. Of course, this is also a sign of high emotional intelligence. I like you, so I like to hold my angel high. No way, that's my way... Straightforward and crisp. Kevin Lu insisted on his truthfulness.
The girl's eyes are slowly returning to softness.
"It's not that I don't like the way you express it, it's just ... Maybe you Westerners are different from us. It's too numb, so that the little woman will always have doubts. Forget it, I like your way. I'm getting used to it. The girl's tone began to revert to laziness. She continued to take her steps, continuing to look for pebbles to kick.
Lu Kaiwen secretly adjusted his breathing and secretly let go of his hanging heart.
"I remind you that I am purely Oriental and Chinese. I love my country. Don't call me a Westerner anymore. Kevin Lu began to fight back.
"Haha. You're a banana at best. Also, you're a big-tailed wolf at best. Ha ha. The girl burst into laughter. She broke free and ran.
"Bananas. Yes. I understand. Big tail wolf? What does that mean? Hey, what is a big-tailed wolf? Kevin Lu was tasting the confusion brought to him by the girl, and he was also feeling the happiness of the girl.
A figure standing in front of the door of the unit made the couple's laughter freeze instantly.
"Why are you again?" Su Qing frowned.
"I'm sorry, I brought you some bad snails." Ning Feiyang handed over a food box in his hand with a cramped and embarrassed smile.
"No need. I don't want to see your stuff, and I don't want to see you. You let me go. Su Qing waved her hand.
"Mr. Ning. Are you going to my house or... Lu Kaiwen, who was snatched next to him, took the food box and stopped the girl's body.
"Can I walk with her in the courtyard of the community? If it's inconvenient ... I... Ning Feiyang swallowed with difficulty.
"It should. Wait a minute. Kevin Lu is also adjusting to embarrassment and discomfort.
Pulling the girl aside, Kevin Lu leaned into the girl's ear.
"Good! He's already here. It's better to have a good conversation with him. Everything has to be faced and not avoided. Is that right? Kevin Lu poured out tenderness in complexity.
"Why? I didn't let him come. I don't want to meet this person. Chase him away for me. I warn you, don't add to the chaos. The girl vented her bad mood at the moment.
Kevin Lu could only smile bitterly.
"Huh. But he'll still come. We can't face this every day. You're his daughter after all. You still have to face him after all. You... Lu Kaiwen's cautious persuasion was finally interrupted by the other party's glaring eyes.
"You say it again?。。。 Don't mention that title to me, I'm my father's daughter, and no one can replace him. The girl poked her fingers and vented.
"Good. I was wrong. But... In the face of such a big-tailed wolf, you can't back down. Right?... Face him calmly and let him retreat. Come on! Lu Kaiwen clenched his fists in a hurry and took a pose.
"Huh. Right. Big tailed wolf. Dealing with the sanctimonious cannot retreat. All right. You dodge. The girl, who was in a good mood, made her decision neatly.
Kevin Lu flashed to the side. He looked at the middle-aged man with complicated eyes.
"Say whatever you want. Let's go over there. The girl pointed to the winding path in the courtyard.
"Good. We passed. Thank you, Kevin. Ning Feiyang hurriedly expressed his incoherent gratitude.
Lu Kaiwen looked at the backs of the two people who left one after the other, and all kinds of emotions came to him.
The moment that should be warm in the afterglow of the sunset is full of irony, sadness, and sadness.
Lost on their own. I, a person with hatred, was lost in front of such two people with strong blood ties.
"Mom. What should I do? Do you tell me more? The stunned Lu Kaiwen muttered to himself. He is immersed in his own world.
"I'm sorry, I was rude just now." The girl who was walking slowly in front suddenly made a sound.
"Nope. Child. It's me who disturbs your life. But... I still can't help it. I want to see you, and I want to hear your voice even more. Child, I'm at the moment... Very happy. Ning Feiyang's voice suddenly bloomed with intoxication.
The girl smiled wryly at herself. She didn't stop, she didn't change her rhythm.
"Happiness? It's an exaggeration. I can't afford it. The happiness you speak of is the greatest irony to me. Your happiness has nothing to do with me, let alone any intersection. My happiness as a child was to ride my father's neck to the big market outside the mountains. My happiness is to show off in the new clothes my dad bought. My happiness is to eat the snacks that my dad brought back. When I was a little older, my happiness was to be praised by my father. My happiness is that I can help my dad substitute for the children. My happiness is built on my father's loneliness. For the sake of my happiness, my father did not remarry. He's waiting for me to grow up. He was expecting greater happiness from me. My happiness and my dad are closely linked. So, please don't tell me about your happiness. There is no intersection between our happiness. I will not allow you to defile my happiness. The girl walked slowly, slowly pouring out her thoughts.
"I... Know. I.. Yes.. Feel it. I'm sorry. Father.. I could feel his deep love. I really... Fortunate. He raised such a good daughter. Ning Feiyang's choked voice floated intermittently from behind.
Su Qing gritted her teeth.
"So, you don't really have to show up. As I said, I shouldn't have come to this city, and I shouldn't have disturbed your life. I've been happy myself, and I don't even know it, I've been making mistakes. Do you know? When I figured it out, I hated myself. I hated myself for failing my father's love. I hate myself for being selfish. I hated myself for being hesitant and lost. I have the proudest dad, I have a whole world, but I shattered it myself. I now have to put the world back together in my mind. I'm sorry, I don't hate you, I hate myself. Hate yourself for being lost and hesitating. Hate yourself for betraying your father. Su Qing began to swallow her voice with difficulty, and tears began to well.
There was no sound for a long time. There was only the sound of footsteps and breathing.
"Kids. You've really grown. I can be relieved to hear you say something like that. Your dad is a dad who deserves his daughter's deep love. I hadn't seen him, but I could feel his presence. Kid, you know what? When I first met you, I was thinking, what kind of family can raise such an excellent daughter? When I found out about your background, I was truly relieved beyond words. I'm glad you are so self-reliant. I'm glad you're so strong and so good. I'm glad you came to me. If it weren't for your persistence, I might never have been able to experience such relief and happiness. Thank you, kid! The voice behind him gradually became cheerful and firm.
Su Qing continued to smile bitterly, and the tears gradually dried up.
"Really? Am I that good? I was just lucky. I did not fall into the same miserable situation as the abandoned and trafficked children, I was not artificially mutilated, I was not reduced to a tool of human traffickers. That's my greatest luck. My greatest luck is that my father gave me happiness and dignity. An abandoned child is not supposed to have dignity. But he gave it to me. He used his loneliness to give me an inexhaustible treasure for a lifetime. That's the pride and dignity of a girl. You should know that a girl's biggest weakness is vanity, but I don't have that weakness. Ten years ago, when I found out about my background, I erased this weakness. And thank you for that. and the woman named Xia Xiaofu. You used your grievances to help me overcome a girl's weakness. That's what you call brilliant. I accept your compliments. Because.. I deserve your praise. I've been awake. "The girl gradually became aggrieved in resoluteness, resolute in grievances.
"Kids. I'm sorry. It was we who made you lose the primary color of the girl, and it was we who made you lose the softness of the girl. Kid, let me make up for it, okay? Let me take your father's regrets. Let me see you be happy all the time, let me watch you recover. Let's face the future together. I can't say I'm as selfless as your father, but I'm inextricably linked to you. I will make you rediscover the deep love of a father. I... Ning Feiyang's voice rose and fell.
Su Qing finally stopped, and she slowly turned around.
She saw a face with tears in her eyes.
"I'm sorry, I can't fit a second dad in my heart anymore. Regret can only be regret. I've just learned that. All I can tell you is that I am happy now, I have found love, I have found my future. I promise you, I will be vain and soft. I'm going to go back to being a girl. You can rest assured. We... We can let go of each other. The girl said slowly, she slowly pulled out her handkerchief and passed it slowly.
Ning Feiyang shuddered and took the handkerchief. He did not wipe away his tears, but he held them away in joy.
"Kids. Are you sure? Do you really think so? Kevin is a man who deserves to be entrusted with happiness. He... Child, we will always watch you happy. I'll wait for that moment when you forgive Dad once and for all. Ning Feiyang's eyes lit up.
The girl was able to read the anticipation in each other's eyes.
"I wish there was a day like that. All right. Can I go back? The girl's voice suddenly relaxed.
Ning Feiyang squeezed out a smile. There was bitterness in the smile.
"Thank you, thank you for stopping my stupidity and impulsiveness. Thank you for your love for Xiaoyu. Go back, Kevin must be worried. Ning Feiyang smiled. The bitterness vanished in an instant.
The girl turned quickly, and she stepped into her own steps.
Ning Feiyang was a little crazy at the youth in the white dress.
The girl's sudden pause made his heart beat violently.
The girl turned her head.
That smiling face made Ning Feiyang's heart move instantly.
"Thank you for giving me two years. I've learned a lot in the past two years. I have to admit that you are a very attractive man. I wish you happiness too. The girl raised her voice.
The white skirt quickly drifted away.
Ning Feiyang stood in the twilight, standing in the different taste of stuffiness and humidity.