On the evening of the Chinese New Year's Eve, Jiang Lesheng was lonely and bored and received a letter from Cong Jing again, which surprised him. It's still the kind of very beautiful envelope, or the beautiful fountain pen, the lower right corner is still "detailed", and the thin two-page letter paper reveals a faint fragrance.

Liu: Hello!

It's been 12 days since we separated, and I haven't heard from you. It seems that the debt owed to me is not going to be repaid.

I shouldn't have ignored you and stopped writing to you, but here is an incident that has caused me so much pain that I can't find a better person to talk to. Besides, I'm not a cautious person, so I don't care about your fault.

My brother (and possibly younger brother) Liu Zhu is dead! Died in the suburb of Xigang Coal Mine. The day before yesterday, after finishing the night shift, he and four workers were buried 300 meters down the shaft when he suddenly rose to the top half an hour before he ascended the well. The five bodies were dug up last night, and their heads were smashed flat, and it was terrible to see.

I am not related to my current grandmother, parents, younger siblings, and I have been suspicious of this secret since I was a child, but it is not accurate. It wasn't until I graduated from junior high school that my grandmother was seriously ill and afraid that she would not live long, so she told me my true life - I am not Chinese, I am a Japanese orphan she picked up.

In the autumn of four or five years, Japan was defeated and surrendered. Early in the morning of the day the pioneers assembled, the tribal chief ordered all the infants to be killed or thrown away, and none were allowed to be taken on the road, and the silence of the dawn was broken by a terrible cry. The timid mother threw her infant behind and joined the fleeing army herself; The child who refused to throw it away was forcibly snatched from his arms and fell to the ground. After dawn, the streets of Heishui were scattered with abandoned babies wrapped in oriental flower cloth, some dead and some alive.

The boy and I later called Liu Zhu were packed in the same bullet box and placed under a big tree. The body was covered with a yellow military blanket, and a white piece of paper on the military blanket read "Kazuko Oshima on September 1, Showa 20". This note, which has been kept by Uncle Luo Guo Liu, who adopted Liu Zhu, records that Liu Zhu and I are twins just two days old, and our mother is called Kazuko Oshima.

In the midst of people's cursing, the living abandoned babies were adopted by well-wishers one by one, and they were all little lives waiting to be fed! Uncle Liu, a coal miner in my grandmother's neighborhood, took the boy and named him Liu Zhu, and his wife was a widow and had never given birth. My grandmother gave birth to five brothers in her father's life, and all four boys were born to my uncle after they got married, and there was not a single girl in the two generations. When my grandmother saw that my skin was white and my eyes were black, and she didn't cry or make trouble, she smiled at her, so she took me home and named me Honglian, wanting to be a daughter to my current father, who was not yet married.

The name Red Lotus is only called by my grandmother, her old man and my father. I was shocked that you gave me that picture of me as a blooming lotus flower! Was it a coincidence or a coincidence?

Before World War II, my father worked in an automobile factory in a foreign city across the river. In order to fight the German fascists, he was recruited to join the Cossack cavalry of the Far East and fought bravely on the Ural front. The Soviet Red Army marched to the northeast, and as soon as my father got home, he stretched out his hands and lifted me high above his head. In the five years before he went to Korea, many people introduced him to him, and his father's precondition was that the other party must accept me as a daughter, so he never succeeded.

Liu Zhu and I lived in a small courtyard, and we grew up day by day. His face is about the same as mine, but he is darker than me and stronger than me, and he protects anyone who bullies me. I asked my grandmother why they called us little devils, and she said don't listen to their nonsense. I asked my grandmother why my parents hadn't come back, and my grandmother always said that it would be soon, and she would come back after defeating the American devils.

I look forward to my parents' job change. Our family moved into the administrative compound, and there was less contact with Liu Zhu. My mother gave birth to three children in quick succession, my father was busy with work, and I helped my grandmother with household chores and took care of my younger siblings, just like Jane did when she was a child. He started school at the age of 10 and graduated from the teacher training the year before.

Liu Zhu dropped out of junior high school without graduating and went to the mine instead of his adoptive father. Uncle Liu and his wife did not hide it, and told him all about his life experience, Liu Zhu was very filial, knelt on the ground and said: "Thank you for the kindness of the second elder, I will definitely give you a pension to the end!" "He called my grandmother grandma, but he rarely came to my house for fear that my mother would dislike him.

Over the years, I have to go to see Liu Zhu every holiday. I went to their mine this summer, and that day he had just ascended the shaft after work, and the miner's lamp pinned to his hard hat was still on. I caught his big rough hands, and the nails were full of soot, and I cried, but he smiled and said, "It's nothing, someone in the world has to go down to the cave to dig coal." "I still remember my mouth full of white teeth as neat as mine.

The news of Brother Liu Zhu's death was told to his grandmother by Uncle Liu early this morning, by the way, if I go home, I will take a last look at Zhu'er, after all, I am the only relative he is related to by blood.

At the mouth of the well are lined up with five white coffins. The person who gave the eulogy first read the supreme directive: to fight there will be sacrifice, and the dead are a regular occurrence...... At the end of the memorial service, each family member of the deceased received a pension of 216 yuan, equivalent to six months' salary.

I finally saw the note left by Kazuko Oshima, the mother who brought us into the world, where are you now? I lit a pillar of incense for Liu Zhuge, bowed three times in front of his coffin, and silently prayed that the twenty-year-old soul would no longer suffer in heaven. I gave all the 200 yuan I had saved for a year and a half of work to Uncle Luo Guo, and I did my last filial piety for Brother Liu Zhu.

The fate of man is so elusive! Jane says that all people are equal in spirit, and that fate is not fair to everyone. If it wasn't me but Liu Zhu that my grandmother picked it up, and Uncle Liu didn't pick it up Liu Zhu but me, what would my fate be? "Orange is orange born in Huainan, and orange is born in Huaibei," it is naturally me who is more bitter than Coptis chinensis.

Liu, as soon as I saw Brother Liu Zhu's head being flattened by a stone, I remembered the scar on your forehead, why fate was so unfair to you! Brother Liu Zhu is irretrievably gone, you still have hope to change it by your own efforts, don't be pessimistic and discouraged. How well did you review your homework? I believe you will succeed!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Red Lotus 1966. 1。 25。

After reading the letter, Jiang Lesheng's mood was as heavy as pressing a stone, and he couldn't imagine that her life experience was like this! No wonder she is so kind and so compassionate. She is obsessed with Jane Eyre, and Jane's spirit is in her blood. He deepened his understanding of Cong Jing, and the two hearts were closer together.

The spring of the Great Northern Wilderness is long overdue. The beginning of spring has passed for many days, and the ice and snow have shown no signs of melting. After the long winter vacation, the new semester is about to start.

Many things in the world, the greater the pressure and resistance, the more tenacious they are to develop. For example, weeds pressed under stones often stick out of their branches from the side to absorb as much sunlight and rain as possible, showing tenacious and strange vitality. The development of things has its own laws, and accumulating enough energy will produce a leap.

Cong Jing returned to Maoshan in Jiang Lesheng's ardent anticipation. Liu Zhu's death gave her a lot of mental blows, her face was pale, and her chin was thin and sharp. He felt sorry for her, but he couldn't think of exact words to comfort her, he just sat and sighed with her, kept handing her a towel to wipe her face, and coaxed her to say to her like a child: Don't be sad anymore, I will be your brother Liu Zhu in the future.

As if doing chemistry experiments to add catalysts, after the start of the new semester, their relationship developed rapidly and gradually became public, no longer deliberately concealed in public, and there were more individual contacts. We play ball and run together in the morning, sing and play the piano in the twilight, and unpack and wash the bedding together on Sundays. You Hongshan gritted his teeth with hatred: Good Jiang Lesheng, you snatch love with a knife! I will not be a man when I fall at your feet!

Entrusted by Principal Lin, Du Pu chatted with them as the eldest sister to inquire about the truth and truth, so that the principal could do his work in a targeted manner. The two of them unreservedly revealed their hearts to Mr. Du. After hearing this, Lin Bai pondered for a long time, and said to himself: Full love utopia! One is unaware of the height of the sky, and the other is confused.

Principal Lin had a long talk with Cong Jing alone. This time, she shyly admitted that she fell in love with Jiang Lesheng at first sight, felt that his character was excellent and talented, especially sympathetic to fate for his injustice, regretted that he was buried, and was willing to do everything she could to help him. "He is indomitable, and I am convinced that he will not fail me".

Principal Lin asked her if she had considered it, and was she worried that someone would intervene against you? For example, can resistance from the family side be supported organizationally? Cong Jing replied confidently: This is our own business. We meet no matter the wind and waves, we will move forward hand in arm! Isn't there a poem called "Happy Flowers Bloom for Warriors"?

Lin Bai remembered the scene when her husband was classified as a rightist and the unit leader forced her to write a divorce application, and her answer was strikingly similar to Cong Jing's attitude today. She dispelled the idea of reprimanding Jiang Lesheng fiercely, and the young man trembled in his heart, enduring the double mental torture of desire and fear. She couldn't bear to hurt two innocent hearts.

Sure enough, as Principal Lin reminded, intervention and repression followed.

In less than half a month, You Honglu came to the school twice and talked to Jiang Lesheng Cong Jing respectively.

The conversation with Jiang Lesheng is mainly about pressure: I don't work well at a young age, what kind of love do I talk about? Teachers' falling in love can have a negative impact on students; At any time, we must not relax the transformation of our world outlook, and the pursuit of a bourgeois way of life is the beginning of corruption and degeneration! During the second conversation, he even threatened and warned him: I advise you to let go of your duties, she is a state cadre, you should be self-aware! Let's put it bluntly, the organization will not tolerate you if they think you are not suitable. If they refuse to accept salvation and refuse to repent, they do not rule out the use of organizational means. Opened the mouth "organization" and closed the mouth "organization", and even used the word "rescue" in the mad.

Jiang Lesheng sat across from him, like a piece of lifeless wood, letting his mouth splash like a river of spittle. Later, I couldn't bear it anymore, and asked rhetorically: I don't understand your words, and I don't understand what I did wrong. Teachers are not allowed to fall in love, otherwise they will not keep their duty? Corrupted and depraved? We are all unmarried young people, so why should we not be talking to the right person? Who has the right to deprive us of our autonomy to fall in love? The more he spoke, the more furious he became, his eyes red as he spewed flames. It's just that I remembered my sister's admonition that "my brain is too thin", so I tried my best to restrain myself. You Honglu sneered: You have to listen if you understand or not, you must stay away from her, don't be sticky with her! This was obviously an ultimatum, and after saying that, he picked up the file bag and walked away.

The conversation between Honglu and Cong Jing is both graceful and powerful, and they do their best to sow discord: How much do you know about him? Do you know his family? What does he have to your eye? Family composition determines fate, are you willing to jump into the fire pit to be buried for him? You are too young, too naïve, too naïve, too deeply corrupted, and too obsessed! …… I heard that you like to read a foreign book of "Jane Eyre", and you are too deeply poisoned! Talking about love is to seal the capital and repair, and simple love will not do! What are you pouting? Am I not right? …… Your family is very superior, and you are so beautiful, how many people covet you! The future is immeasurable but you don't know how sad it is for your parents to know that you have gone astray?

His lewd gaze swept greedily over her breasts, and the person who "salivated" was actually himself.

Cong Jing changed her usual quiet and shyness, constantly interrupted him, and stood up with tears in her eyes to argue with him fiercely. Finally, I asked You Honglu: Are these words your personal opinion, or do you represent the organization? You Honglu's face sank: It is a personal opinion and a representative of the organization, on behalf of Director Wu of the Political Department, we can't watch you go into the water!

Within a week, Cong Jing received a letter from her parents at the same time, a brown paper envelope printed with the Transportation Bureau of the District Administration Bureau, and a colored lattice envelope with handwritten Municipal People's Hospital.

My father's letter was not a single page. Careless, dad is busy with work and doesn't care enough about you. When you grow up, you should make your own decisions, and if your father doesn't investigate, he won't have a say, and of course he won't take care of it. But I would like to remind you that the subject must have a deep understanding, and the family background is not absolute but cannot be ignored. You are not politically mature enough, so you have to report to Secretary Sun and the field director for advice.

After all, his father is the director of the bureau, and his education is not high but he is reasonable, Cong Jing was very moved when he saw it.

The mother's letter was densely packed with three pages. The following is an excerpt from the excerpt:

"Last night, the officer called home, and my mother was so anxious that she didn't sleep for half the night. You are too bold to dare to talk to yourself! Do you still remember the year before last when I sent you to work in Maoshan, and my mother asked the leaders present to join the group in one year and join the party in three years? You must first solve the problem of joining the party, and I warn you, you are not allowed to talk to anyone before joining the party! ”

"Are you in a relationship with a guy surnamed Jiang? That person is good-looking, writes well, and can play erhu, right? Was he a landlord or a kulak? Not even a state cadre? You are so contemptuous and self-deprecating, have you drunk ** soup? ”

"Cong Jing, Cong Jing, other people's girls are looking for objects, they are looking for people who are stronger than themselves in all aspects to climb higher, league members are looking for party members, secondary school students are looking for college students, and general cadres are looking for section chiefs and directors, look at you, it's just indiscriminate!"

"The most unacceptable thing is his family background. At present, his conditions are not as good as yours, and it is understandable that he will have a good development in the future, but what future does his composition determine in the future? There must be something wrong with this person's moral character - if he truly loves you, he should leave you far away, he can't bring you happiness, and the more he loves you, the more he ruins you! ”

The letter was like a bombshell, and it made her dizzy, her eyes were full of stars, and her head was buzzing. What stings her the most is the sentence at the end: He can't bring you happiness, the more he loves you, the more he ruins you, like a sharp blade stabbing her in the heart!

She gritted her teeth and tore the letter to shreds, throwing it into the blue sky like snowflakes. Jane's cry rings in her ears: To hell with worldliness and prejudice!

Cong Jing turned to the side and couldn't sleep. At dawn, I dreamed of a Japanese woman in a kimono, walking in broken steps, talking half-baked Chinese and saying child, I am my mother Kazuko Oshima, please tell me why you are crying? Cong Jing was about to talk, but the floating clouds under her feet lifted her and floated away. Mom, where are you going? Do you know your daughter's sorrow?