The curtains were torn by the night wind, the deafening thunder was piercing the darkness with a blinding white light, and the raindrops were pounding on the glass. A man sat on the bed with a pale face, his eyes wide and full of horror, looking ahead in a daze, his eyes empty. The corners of his forehead were covered with sweat.

That bloody scene was played out again. She was thrown onto the haystack, blood rushing up the haystack, her little hands trembling, blood gushing out of her nose and mouth, and her severed throat was shocking in the light of the fire.

The cold wind mixed with the rain poured out of the window, and the gusts of cold wind mixed with thunder 'woke up' the man sitting in the bed.

He wiped his sweaty forehead and lifted the thin quilt covering his body. Weakly walked out of bed, barefoot in the face of the wind mixed with rain outside the window, and laboriously closed the window. Some of them returned to the bed and lay down straight, and after a while, some blood regained on their pale cheeks.

He's been dreaming like this for a long time. That bloody scene went and went back, and came and went

Six years ago, at the age of fourteen, he sat in a passenger car for the first time in his life, and he was a little stammered in the face of the conductor's inquiry.

'yes, where to get off'? I had to learn from the previous passenger to buy a ticket to the provincial capital.

'What should I do?' With no home and no friends, where do I go? Looking at everything that was rapidly reversing outside the car window, Gu Yu felt fresh, exciting, and a little inexplicably afraid.

"If it doesn't work, I'll come back after a while," Gu Yu comforted himself.

As the bus jolted, there was a dull pain in the ribs, and the pain replaced the novelty. gritted his teeth all the way to the terminal.

Standing in the crowded square in front of the station, Gu Yu looked around blankly. In the distance, there are rows of high-rise buildings, and in the near distance, colorful advertisements are displayed. The hustle and bustle of the city is dizzying.

For a while, the question of where to go from here became a problem.

Looking around blankly, his eyes full of strangeness.

'No stay'? A bewitching woman of about twenty came up to Gu Yu.

Seeing that Gu Yu was a little at a loss, the woman enthusiastically introduced, "Little brother, let's live, we have the cheapest place there, only 20 yuan for a night."

'Eldest sister' Gu Yu replied, 'I'm here to find a job'.

The woman was stunned, glanced at the young man dressed in rustic clothes, and thought, 'It's not difficult to find a job, but you must have a place to live first, you live with me first, and then I will help you pay attention to it, you see if it's okay'.

Looking at the woman with a sincere face, Gu Yu had no idea for a while. Subconsciously feel your pockets.

The woman saw the hesitation of the young man, and looked enthusiastic: 'It's not easy to go out to beg for life, and my sister won't lie to you'.

'There must always be a place to stay,' Gu Yu thought

'Then it's troublesome sister,' Gu Yu returned with a smile.

'That's it?' Twenty yuan a day', Gu Yu was a little painful. If it weren't for the other party's help to find a job, Gu Yu wouldn't have lived for ten yuan.

Looking up at the mottled ceiling, the air was full of the smell of sweat and oil emitted by the bedding, and the more annoyed I was, the more I felt that this bed was so narrow, so hard, and so cold.

When I woke up, it was already dark, the slab floor seemed very quiet, the corridor was empty, the doors of the rooms next to each other were tightly closed, the windows of the whole building were opened and closed in a disorderly manner, the dust carpet on the floor was spread, and Gu Yu's heart was a little broken. If it weren't for the deposit, I would have liked to slip through the window.

Stepping on the dust of the floor and going down the slab, the slight creaking sound made Gu Yu a little suspicious of its solidity, and he was relieved when he arrived at the gatehouse. Through the glass, a man in his forties was dozing off in a chair, his head shaking.

The air outside was a little cold, with a few stars scattered overhead, and the sky was a little depressed. After passing through a dimly lit alley, the sight cleared, and the street was lined with stalls, snacks, and department stores.

Gu Yu was eating steamed buns while chatting casually with the owner of the shop.

"Big brother, why is this so shabby, not a little grandiose in a big place'?

'It's going to be demolished here'

'Oh, where are you going to open a store?'

"Besides, the housing prices in other places are too high, and I can't afford to rent, so if I can't do it, I'll go back to my hometown," his voice was a little low.

'Big brother is short of people here'

'Lack, lack of buns' hehe, the boss laughed self-deprecatingly.

'I've just come here, and the people are unfamiliar, and there is a shortage of manpower'?

"Oh, it seems that the grain shop diagonally opposite was going to hire workers a few days ago," he said, looking at Gu Yu and shaking his head, "That's hard work, I'm afraid you can't do it."

Gu Yu wiped his mouth and stood up, thanked him and walked out. I was a little anxious when I thought of 20 yuan a day for accommodation.

"It would be nice to have a job to take care of food and housing," Gu Yu looked at the various shops with a watchful look. I couldn't stop thinking.

The faint pain broke his dream untimely, and the thought of the wound that was difficult to exert his strength did not feel a little gloomy.

After a while, my eyes were a little dazzled by the flashing neon lights, my head was a little dizzy, my body was weak for a while, and I couldn't help sighing.

When he went back, the man in the porter was watching TV, and when he saw Gu Yu coming back from outside, he nodded symbolically.

Gu Yu saw his indifference. He put away his thoughts about talking, and when he entered the house, he fell on the bed.

The mind is chaotic, 'there is no way forward, there is no way back'.

From time to time, painful wounds made him feel 'no future'.

The shadows of the trees reflected on the wall made him feel hideous.

The moon outside the window is unfamiliar, this room is unfamiliar, and the smell in the air here makes Gu Yu feel rusty. Touching the ribs that hurt a little, my mood became more and more depressed.

Bitterness, sorrow spreads along with the clouds that cover the moon

The town, Xiaohe, Teacher Fang, Fang Ling'er and even the little lizard all came to his dream

Gu Yu was awakened by a strange sound.

By the light of the moon, he saw a huge mouse attacking his shoes.

Slapping the bed board scared the rats away, but Gu Yu was also completely sleepy

Until there was a dark cyan in front of the window, 'Thank goodness, it's finally dawn.'"

Gu Yu stood in front of the window, waiting for the sun to come to 'kiss him' and 'hug him' He likes this feeling at this time. At least the sunshine made him no longer alone.

Due to the deviation of the angle, the sky was bright, and the outline of the sun did not appear in view, some frustrated, some lost, and here the sun also joked with him

There were footsteps and voices in the hallway, and it seemed a little noisy.

A new day begins.

'What about mine'? Gu Yu thought.

I washed my face and relaxed a little. There were still water stains on his face, so he couldn't wait to leave the door of the hotel.

He didn't have a towel, so he just had to wash it.

When he went out, he didn't see that 'sister' either. He deliberately slowed down.

Early in the morning, there were only some snacks doing business, Gu Yu was a little hesitant, but he still stubbornly walked towards the fritter stall

Disappointment comes sooner than hope.

At the end of the alley, Gu Yu sat on the steps dejectedly.

In the sun, the pale face, the thin body, the lonely shadow