The spring sun is shining in April, and the morning in the city is full of energy and busyness.

The crowd of people gathered in the subway passages, and faces with various expressions took turns approaching and then taking turns to move away.

Su Qing walked into the subway car in a daze with the crowded flow of people, and the almost boiling noise in the carriage did not make her sober up.

Usually, Su Qing always carefully dodges all kinds of intentional or unintentional touches, but at this time, she doesn't care about everything around her, she lets her body shake in the crowd with the rhythm of the subway. Allow the body to be touched by those around you, intentionally or unintentionally.

The rhythmic shaking of the subway put Su Qing into a state of false sleep, and there seemed to be a dream replaying in her numb mind. This dream has been replayed, but each replay is different.

In the dream, Su Qing walked into a high-rise apartment in a daze, where there was a distinctly masculine atmosphere, neat and monotonous. I didn't seem to say anything, and the man around me didn't seem to say anything. It wasn't until the soothing music surrounded the living room that the suffocating dullness was relieved.

I don't remember what I said. I just remember being led to a spacious bathroom amid the music.

I hurriedly took a shower in the bathroom, and after the shower, my stiff body seemed to be much more relaxed. Standing in front of the mirror, I once seemed to muttered something to myself, but I can't remember the specific words anymore.

Confused, he was led to a bedroom, where he only remembered a large bed. The big bed was very comfortable, and I quickly felt sleepy when I lay on it.

His caution and nervousness made him clearly feel all the subtle sounds around him, his side was gradually approaching a body, that body was gradually getting closer to him, although he was nervous, he could still feel that the people around him were very careful. All you can do is bury your head in the pillow as much as possible and not look at the other person, and try to blur the other person's image.

The body around him exudes the scent of soap after bathing, and holding his arm obviously has the power to make people unable to resist. I suppressed my appreciation for such a body, and just closed my eyes to declare my resistance.

The man's hand roamed over his body, and the stroking gradually changed from a light stroke to a heavy kneading. It seemed that goosebumps arose the moment my body was touched, but with this caressing, my body gradually relaxed, and the pimples on my skin seemed to gradually subside.

I was cooperating with each other for a while, and my disgust gradually faded away.

I gradually have a longing, which is both the body's reaction to the touch and the expression of the man. At that moment, another face appeared in front of his eyes, and it was a handsome face. The face was covered with concern and teasing. But soon there was a mockery on that face, which made his eyes, which were almost open, shut. The word "deal" kept jumping in my head.

His body tensed again, but soon the tension loosened again. A burst of itching travels to the cerebral cortex. Although I tried to refuse to think about what the other person was doing, I still couldn't help but think about the current process, which was the other person's tongue wandering.

I gave up the confrontation, and all I could do was close my eyes and resolutely not cooperate with the other party.

Such insistence could not be achieved, and the other party grabbed his hand and forced himself to grasp one of the other party's organs.

Anger rises, and although he has no experience, he is not ignorant, and it is an insult to be forced into his own hands that such a thing.

I struggled for a while, but I had to give up, because the other party grabbed my hand and increased my strength. I quickly felt the swelling in my hands.

His resolve will not change because of such an antipathy, and his own resistance will not change anything that has happened.

The flipped-over self could only close his eyes harder, and the real tension was finally mobilized.

His body was heavily covered, and he knew that the tense moment had finally come.

She didn't dare to open her eyes, she didn't dare to fight, and she was more afraid of opening her eyes to see the ridicule she encountered at this time and the obscenity she imagined than the struggle she could do.

The clamped legs are broken apart.

All you can do is inhale deeply and wait.

A brief sharp tingling came to his brain very clearly, and he opened his mouth, but something soft was stuffed into his mouth. I can quickly tell that it is the other person's tongue.

It's an insult to have anger on your own. Shake your head vigorously. The tongue stirred in his mouth a few times.

At the same time, the tingling pain and dry soreness in his lower body made him lose sight of one or the other, humiliation and anger mixed together, and the corners of his eyes moistened.

Tears welled up. Runs down the cheeks.

The other party suddenly stopped moving.

Time seemed to freeze, and the sound of heavy breathing was clearly audible.

Suddenly, I felt that my body was no longer sore and painful, and the heavy body that was pressing on my body quickly left.

The long silence gradually aroused curiosity and fear, and I finally opened my eyes.

I didn't see the familiar person, and there was no trace of beauty in the empty bedroom. It seems that everything has been erased.

Somewhat nervous, I hesitated to put on a bath towel and walk to the living room. The familiar man was facing the starry sky outside in his pajamas.

"What's wrong with you?" I actually opened my mouth, this was the first sentence I remembered when I walked out of the café.

"Go wash it. You go, let me be quiet for a while. The other person's voice was a little hoarse. The body still hasn't turned.

"Can I really go? You're not going to regret it, are you? I actually asked again, and at that moment I no longer had grievances, only a trace of worry.

"Hurry up, or I'll really regret it." The other party's tone brought impatience and anxiety.

He staggered away, and as he walked out of the apartment building, he looked back at the place where he felt humiliated, and although he could not see anything, he seemed to feel the figure watching him from behind the window.

Everything happens like a dream, goes like a dream, and ends like a dream.

With the faint residual soreness of the body, the emotionally stabilized self had a dream in his bed, in which he was intimate with a man, he no longer closed his eyes, no longer humiliated, only hearty and sweet.

What did you do? Gave his first time to a man in a transaction. But the result? There seems to be no result, and the process that ended in a hurry became inconclusive due to panic.

Why did you encounter such an embarrassment?

Su Qing didn't want to wake up from a dazed dream, she would rather start all over again, so she must finish the process.

Because she doesn't know what emotions to use to face everything next.

Expressing anger at the man who seems to be on top of it? But he violently drove himself away, and his impatient tone seemed to declare that it was he and not himself who should be humiliated.

Contempt for him? But his lonely appearance in the end makes people not see that he has any guilt. I should really open my eyes and see his obscene appearance. But it was too late, and I didn't open my eyes after all. His obscene appearance only exists in his own imagination.

Show him his grievances? I was possessed by the other party, the pain was short but clear, and I remembered my own mess. But the other party's quick end didn't give him a chance to express his grievances.

Su Qing walked out of the subway in a daze, and the warm sunlight was a little dazzling.

Walking mechanically on the pavement, my mind full of chaotic thoughts.

The office building of Lingyun Company gradually became clear.

Standing on the steps in front of the building, Su Qing took a deep breath. She finishes her messy inner world.

The glass of the office building reflected a dazzling light, and Su Qing's eyes cast on a window.

It was the window of Kevin Lu's office.

At this moment, she didn't realize that what she used to do every day was actually changing.

She used to focus on only one person, and she is changing.

In the building that I had been concerned about for several years and had a deep grudge, I added feelings that I couldn't explain.

What is that? Is it disgust? Hate? Like? Admire?

Su Qing didn't have these consciousnesses at this time, she just had an involuntary curiosity.

Is he there? Are you thinking about your own business? How to face this person? Should you keep a nonchalant smile or show contempt?

Take a deep breath and try to make your gait normal and calm. Su Qing could still feel a faint ache in her body.

An unpleasant experience will leave behind an unforgettable memory of oneself, and the memory at this time is just a mess of nightmares.

Su Qing, who was still in a daze, perfunctory greetings around her, suddenly had an inexplicable fear while walking.

She was afraid that she would meet that man unexpectedly at this time.

I was even more afraid of the faint mockery that the man had always floated at the corners of his mouth.

I was scared, I was scared of this building for the first time, I was afraid to step into it.

What used to be my own longing is now gone.

Cautiously walking into his office, Su Qing sat in her seat almost collapsed.

The tension finally faded, and her mind cleared up with the ease. That muddy drowsiness no longer haunts me.

Yes, this word jumped out of Su Qing's mind.

Entanglement, that man is destined to be an entanglement that he can't get rid of.

It's not that you're not at ease with a man's character, it's not that you're angry and humiliated by that man's dealings.

But the moment the man pierced his body, he was already destined to be entangled.

It was an unforgettable entanglement.