Chapter 170: Goodbye, Not Bye
Gu Ran cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks on the dining table and said with a smile: "I have to have so much money to buy it...... Do you know the housing prices in Shanghai, this house has a market value of three or four million, and I don't have so much money for the time being! ”
Her behavior made me feel incomprehensible, and I didn't understand what kind of thoughts she was out of, I exhaled heavily, thought for a while, and said to her: "Gu Ran, I think you are now a married woman, I don't want you to give something to another man outside behind your husband's back, if everything you do to me, whether it is based on sympathy, or to make up for the mistakes we made when we had a dreamlike relationship...... I really don't need to, because I'm doing well now! Please also be content with the status quo, after all, this road has come to the present step by step! ”
Gu Ran's movements were sluggish for a few seconds, and then she turned around with her plate and said very seriously: "I don't have the so-called sympathy for everything you have done at this time, nor is it mixed with anything about the feelings of men and women...... Because you always like to live casually, but a person's life is only a few years, I don't want you to make do with it! ”
As she spoke, she put the plate and chopsticks on the table again, sat down and said to me, "Wang Ye, do you know...... Your temperament is too much like a child, so Sister Mickey must be tired when she lives with you! Don't blame Sister Mickey for breaking up with you, because when a woman feels insecure with her man, then she will definitely try her best to find that so-called sense of security...... I've traveled the road I have traveled so much that I can better understand her current state of mind! Just because I broke off my relationship with you doesn't mean she doesn't love you, because I know her better than you do...... It's not that I don't know that the reason why she was so good to me in the first place was mostly because of you! At that time, as long as she was with me, the topic would never leave you! ”
I have habitually lit a cigarette for myself in silence, and Gu Ran has passed me a bit too much information, which causes me to not be able to fully digest it for a while! Living up to now, I have almost developed a fear of the so-called love, and I also know that my temperament is not mature enough, which is not only said by Mi Qi and Gu Ran!
But I can't care about the harm Gu Ran once did to me, but it is impossible to forgive Mi Qi for giving me now...... Because she and Chen Jie are the two relatives I once trusted the most, maybe I am like a child, but children also have their own bottom line, I am very sure that this kind of betrayal will never be forgiven by me for the rest of my life!
And Gu Ran's sentence "Breaking off a relationship with you doesn't mean she doesn't love you" made me feel a hint of danger, because when she said this, I felt that she herself seemed to be hinting at me something.
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The night gradually deepened, I lived in this house this night, on the one hand, I really need to find a place to stay, and on the other hand, I am a little busy these days, just like Gu Ran said, I am a person who is used to making do, and there is usually a place to stay, which is already full of the status quo for me! Anyway, I paid the rent myself, and I didn't think there was anything wrong with it.
Lying on the bed, I didn't even take a shower, but my mind was a little complicated to smoke a cigarette to relieve loneliness, got up and came to the balcony, I found that the view here is very vast, I can see through the vanity of the city at a glance, carefully observe this house, basically exactly the kind of decoration style I like, and the ceiling of the bedroom, but also deliberately pasted with many fluorescent stars, when the time to turn off the light, the star will faintly carry its own light, illuminating the limited world in front of me.
Feeling the cold breeze of the night, the phone vibrated at this moment, I took out my phone and looked at it, and found a text message from me with the name of "Neuroman", she asked me: "Stupid, how are you doing in Shanghai these days?" ”
I was a little surprised by her news, but I also had an inexplicable joy, so I hurriedly went back to the bedroom and turned off the light, took a picture of the scene on the ceiling in front of me and sent it to her, saying, "Look, is it beautiful? ”
"Neuroman" quickly replied to me again, exclaiming, "Why did you get here?" ”
I was a little puzzled: "What is running here, is this my newly rented house?" ”
After waiting for a long time, Su Man replied to my message, saying, "You don't live in Sakura's house, is this from your masterpiece?" ”
"Her family is too rich, I'm afraid to go to the 24k pure dog eyes that blind me!" After saying that, I replied quite proudly: "And this thing except me, who do you think can do such a great thing!" ”
Su Man said with some skepticism: "I don't think it can be what you can do, because you stupid person is so thoughtful!" It must have been a girl who did it, right? ”
I have to admire Su Man's logic, she actually penetrated my character at a glance, and guessed that this thing must be from a girl's hand, I don't believe that this is Gu Ran deliberately decorated for me, so I replied: "My newly rented house, when I came, I took a fancy to this place at first sight!" So I just rented it, how about it, do you want to come to Shanghai to have a look! ”
I was joking, but I didn't expect Su Man to take it seriously, she said: "Okay, I'm going to Shanghai in a week, and when the time comes, I'll go to see you by the way!" ”
I cried and laughed: "Are you really coming to Shanghai?" How do you feel as if you are so reluctant to say so! ”
"Then I mean by you, I should rush over to see you overnight?"
Su Man smiled in a tone that seemed to be considering, "Hmm...... What's this...... Why don't you go to the airport early tomorrow morning, maybe I'll be in Shanghai! ”
I knew that Su Man must be joking with me, so I replied, "Okay, I'll wait for you at the airport early tomorrow morning, I hope you don't let me down!" ”
"Okay, see you tomorrow!!"
"See you tomorrow !!! then"
I replied to Su Man's message, obviously one more exclamation point than her, but I don't know what the three exclamation points Su Man sent me me, with my understanding of her character, she is very likely to arrive in Shanghai the next day, but at this time she is busy with work, where will she have time to run around.
After the conversation with Suman, my whole mood was no longer too irritable, on the contrary, I was looking forward to Suman's arrival tomorrow, although I knew that she was probably just a joke, but I was happy to take it as my own hope for tomorrow.
The night deepened unconsciously, and I lay on the bed habitually and silently paid attention to the mobile phone news and Miqi's verified Weibo, and found that almost all of her updated Weibo content was work, and any previous content about life had been deleted.
On her Weibo, looking at the content posted an hour ago, I learned that tomorrow will be the first day of her participation in director Yu Aiming's new film, and I saw that her Weibo fans have grown from thousands at the beginning to hundreds of thousands at this time, and I know that once this much-anticipated movie is successfully launched, then her number of fans will increase by a hundredfold, or even a thousand.
Deep down, I don't know if I should be happy for her or ashamed of her! When I looked up and down her Weibo but didn't find anything, this is a special attention in the message prompt, a person named "micky rice" posted a Weibo again, I knew this was Miki's Weibo that Miki had just updated, so I quickly clicked on it to see.
When I clicked on this Weibo with curiosity, I was a little empty, because the content on this Weibo was just two simple words from her: "Good night!" ”
But at the bottom of this Weibo, she also shared a song called "No More Contact", so I immediately clicked on it and listened: "Maybe I can still see your news on the Internet, maybe the song I sang still exists on your mobile phone, maybe I love you buried in my heart and become a secret, maybe I think about you when you miss me, how many times have I told myself that this situation can be recalled, how many times have I warned myself that I will no longer cry for you to the ground, I will no longer contact you, I hope you don't mind, if you want to blame it, you are not together in the first place, And you're happy with it now, so there's no reason for me to stay......"
I listened carefully to the melody and lyrics of this song over and over again, but I couldn't help but associate the lyrics in this song with the relationship between me and Mickey, but in the end, I couldn't understand Mickey's thoughts......
Logged in to another Weibo account, and found that even the password had to be forgotten, so I had to rely on retrieving the password, to complete the login, I wanted to move my fingers to click a like under Miqi's Weibo, but in the end I couldn't get the courage, so I had to silently cancel my attention to her, maybe as the lyrics said, "You are more satisfied with the present, so it makes no sense for me to stay!" ”
Soon, I copied and pasted this lyric and posted it on my Weibo account, with a short text: "See no more, see no more, see or not, see or not!" ”
The moment I sent this Weibo, I soon found out that Mi Qi actually reposted my Weibo below, saying: "I like this sentence very much, goodbye not goodbye!" ”
She was able to retweet Weibo at such a fast speed, which made me feel that she didn't seem to cancel her special attention to my account, so she would see this Weibo I updated and forward it for the first time, I wanted to comment on a sentence below, but after thinking about it, I finally quit my Weibo account and uninstalled this only software that can see her messages on the Internet, and I also began to try to forget, erasing all the intersections of our past and abandonment