Every strong person has been weak at one time.

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My name is Stephanie, I'm 15 years old and I'm from the United States.

When I was a child, I wondered why I looked different from other friends. They have yellow hair, blue eyes, and white skin, but I have black hair, black eyes, and yellow skin. Once I asked my mom why this was the case. Mom told me because we were Korean.

But I'm American, born and raised in the United States. Where is South Korea? Why haven't I heard of it? It is common to hear on TV about England, France, Germany, China, and Japan. But why have you never heard the name Korea?

I asked my mom, is Korea big?

My mother told me that Korea is a small country, but Koreans are united.

What is unity? My friends around me are also very kind to me, isn't that unity?

Later, I found Korea on the map, it's really small, is it from that kind of place?

I told my mom that I was not Korean, I was American. But my father heard this.

He told me very seriously that we are living in the United States now, but our roots are in South Korea.

I was terrified, my dad had never spoken to me so seriously before. But since then, I have remembered that I must admit that I am Korean, otherwise my father will be angry and my mother will be sad.

So when someone asks me if I'm Chinese or Japanese, I always tell them out loud that I'm Korean.

Since then, my mom has always liked to talk to me about things in Korea. My mother said that our life is very good now, but she misses Korea very much, misses the kimchi there, misses the rice there, and misses the relatives there.

I don't like to eat kimchi, too much salt makes my tongue lose its senses. The rice is okay, but it's a bit troublesome to eat one by one. Whenever I had leftovers, my mother would sternly tell me to finish them. In order not to make my mother angry, I always take very little.

It was also the only time my mother was me. The rest of the time, my mom was very nice to me. By the way, I have an older sister and an older brother. But my mother's favorite is still me. I also like my mom the most. Of course, I also like my dad, brother and sister. But my favorite is my mother.

When I was a child, my mother would come to school every day to pick me up and take me to eat delicious food. Later, when I was older, my mother would not come to pick me up, but when I came home, my mother would always take my school bag with a smile.

My mom is the best mom in the world.

In 2002, my mother was gone.

Mom went far away, Dad said. The priest said that Mom went to heaven.

I know, Mom is dead.

Forgive me for using such a direct and harsh word. Because for me, no matter how direct and glaring, it can't pierce my heart. I felt like my heart had followed my mother to that faraway place.

Why did mom go so far? Doesn't she want me anymore? Mom, you like me so much? Why don't you take me with you?

Mom went to heaven, and heaven is a place where only good people go, and it is said that it is beautiful there, and everything is beautiful. It's a good thing that mom can go there, and we should be happy for mom.

But why is my father crying and my brothers and sisters crying? Why can't I see anything clearly now? Why is my face wet?

I don't know how I spent that time. My dad helped me take a month's off work from school, which was what I wanted most in the past, but now it's easy to do.

I refused my father's request, why should my brother and sister go to school while I have to be at home? Is it because I wake up at night and my pillow is wet when I wake up in the morning?

Dad said I needed to get some rest and get refreshed. But Dad didn't know that as long as I was at home, I would think of my mother, and when I thought of my mother, I couldn't help crying.

Mom used to say that Stephanie was a strong kid and I couldn't let Mom down. I'm going to school, I'm going to study hard.

It's been 2 years, and although I still think about my mother often, I don't cry at every turn like I did at the beginning.

My mom always said that I laughed the most beautifully, and in order to make my mom happy, I would definitely laugh more in the future.

There was a company in South Korea and a draft was held. My classmates said that I sang well, was a cheerleader, and danced, so they asked me to participate.

For the sake of being Korean, I went to participate. It turned out that I won the first place. You also have to sign a contract with me to go to South Korea to train, and then I can be an artist.

Can I be a star too? Standing on the big stage like Michael Jackson and Britney Spears singing to others? But how small is South Korea? How many people will listen to the song?

The people at that company told me that the relationship between China, Japan and South Korea is like the relationship between Canada and the United States. Each other's businesses and artists can come and go casually. China has 1 billion people, and Japan has 100 million people.

Oh, my God! So many people? As long as one percent, no, one in a thousand people like my songs, that's more than a million. In this way, there are more fans than Britney.

But then I'm going to live in that country, and I've seen the map, and it's far from the United States. It's a long, long time to fly.

Shall I talk to my father? No way! Dad will definitely object. If only my mom were still here, she would definitely tell me why I should go and why I shouldn't.

That's right! Mom always wanted to go back to Korea. I'm my mother's favorite daughter, and if I take my place to see it, my mother will be very happy.

That's it, I'll go to South Korea and have a look. My aunt and her family were also there. In this case, Dad will have no reason to object anymore.

I don't know what it's called S.M (it's a perverted name...... How did Dad talk about it. All I know is that my dad looked at me for a long time and didn't speak.

Just when I thought my father would not approve of my going, my father sighed and agreed.

Why sigh? Isn't it good for me to pursue my ideals? Isn't Dad supposed to support me in this ideal?

Dad didn't explain it to me. Just gave me my aunt's contact information so that I could take good care of myself.

Of course I'll take care of myself, I'm 15 years old and not a kid anymore.

Korea, I'm coming!

However, when I got on the plane, I thought of my mother again.

Why do I want to cry again? I am a strong child and I haven't cried in the past 2 years.

South Korea, so strange.

Mom, please bless me!

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Thanks to yurifan for the tip.

This chapter...... Actually, it should be placed in the extra, but obviously, in the recent period, it is impossible for me to update the extra. So I just put it in the text.

This chapter...... Actually, I'm not satisfied, and I can refine it again. But in a company, thinking is definitely affected.

Plus, when the code comes out, I'm too lazy to modify it......

Maybe in the future, you can see a modified version of this chapter...... Well, it should be......

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