Chapter 340 Pain is wrapped up in happiness
The slightest wave of heat and the occasional coolness give the Bund the freshness and comfort of a summer night. Music and square dancing render the joy, and a laid-back atmosphere permeates the humid air.
Walking hand in hand on the gravel paved path, Su Qing's mood was full of illusions.
The familiar and unfamiliar Bund made her surge with too many emotions. There is love, there is hate, there is shyness, there is anger. The entanglement together produces too much complexity, too much collision.
"Sister. Isn't it that every time you come here, you are reminded of too many things. When I was in college, I always wondered why you liked to come here alone. The explanations I gave myself at the time were very ordinary and casual. A girl from other places should like the Bund, which is the business card of S City, and it is open to all foreign tourists. Later, I gradually understood that my sister was here to pour bitter water. The so-called pouring bitter water means pouring bitter water into this rolling river. Sister, do you still have bitter water to pour? Brother, am I so lucky to be a listener? Ning Yu's playful voice was tinged with a hint of bitterness.
"Nasty! When did you become flamboyant? Did you become complacent after becoming the boss of Lingyun Company? I can warn you, Lingyun is nothing in S City, and the real estate market is very competitive right now. You must always be sober and vigilant," Su Qing quickly sorted out her mood, and she quickly threw herself into the role at the moment.
"Yes. My Mr. Su. It seems that my sister still has a concern for Lingyun Company. I've always been overwhelmed by your extreme approach of not hearing from you. I even thought at one point that you deliberately ignored Ling Yun because of our President Ning. Now I can be relieved. Sister. You're still a Lingyun after all. Come back and meet those who care about you. We miss you so much. After two years, are you all right? Ning Yu's leisurely gait squeezed out a slightly dry voice.
"Okay. I am now the Chairman of Meridian Group. Everyone really cares for me, and everyone spoils me. I am Bai Fumei in the eyes of the world. I'm the princess that all girls envy. You say, what's so unhappy about my sister? Hehe, I'll tell you a secret, my sister is here to show off. Su Qing suddenly burst into a crisp laugh, and her body swayed with the laughter.
Ning Yu stopped his walk, and his eyes were full of intricacies to observe the subtleties of the girl in front of him.
"Hey. Can you please not look at me like that. You can see my heart hairy. Su Qing raised her voice and shook off all traces.
"Su Qing. Let me ask as your friend, are you happy? What exactly do you want? What kind of happiness is your self-righteous happiness? Ning Yu's brows furrowed. His tone was full of mockery.
Su Qing's eyes flickered, dodging. She finally gritted her teeth and raised her eyes.
"What the hell are you going to say? Are you here to see me or to accuse me? What did I do to make you all like this? Shouldn't I make my own decisions? Can't I make my own choices calmly? Hehe! They are all self-righteous people, and they are all self-righteous people! Su Qing burst out of contempt and tears in the sudden outbreak of hysteria.
Ning Yu closed his eyes helplessly, he suddenly stretched out his hand and hugged the girl's shoulder, and he hugged the other party into his arms.
He was reluctant to speak, and he used his strength to calm down the other party's trembling.
"Why is everyone blaming me? I know what you're going to say, but you know what? I didn't have a choice. I am a girl who came out of the mountains, and I don't want to be pitied, let alone pitied. I've never had the luxury of love. I went all the way with a deformed mentality of revenge, and I originally had the attitude of dying with Ning Feiyang towards my future. My heart is gray, my nerves are tight, and my body is hard. I reject all softness, I reject all color. I'm not afraid to hurt anyone, and I'm not afraid to hurt myself. Because I am full of grievances in my heart, and such grievances make a girl twisted. Fuck the future, fuck the fame. In order to take revenge on Ning Feiyang, I turned myself into a good girl in the eyes of everyone, and I made everyone have a good impression of me, all in order to get close to you. You say, I'm not an unscrupulous person. Am I supposed to be disgusting... Su Qing confided weakly, she was struggling with powerlessness.
Ning Yu's lips squirmed, but he still swallowed all the comfort back desperately.
"I'm too self-conscious. I'm just an ordinary mountain village girl. I fantasized about beating a socially recognized successful person on my own. Now that I think about it, I was so naïve and ridiculous. I don't care about my reputation, but my reputation is nothing compared to the ruthless order of this society. A girl's carefully planned revenge in the flowery world of S City turned out to be so pale and powerless. That's the irony I've wasted nearly a decade for. A grim and ridiculous sarcasm. Xiaoyu, what should I do? Hate myself for not fighting or hate my fate. Do you know? I'm here to talk to my grandmother, I'm here to deceive myself. I'm here to tell my grandmother that I'm going to make it and that I'm going to be reunited with her. However, I was just trying to make excuses for myself. I'm just looking for an excuse to stay, an excuse to erase my guilt. I didn't stay with my grandmother, I was a selfish and heartless granddaughter... Su Qing's voice choked, and her tears finally welled up.
Ning Yu gently stroked the girl's short hair, he didn't dare to make a sound, he didn't dare to interrupt the girl's confession.
"Maybe I'm destined to be a sarcasm. Maybe God will have to fight against me. I met someone who could help me. His special position and power in Lingyun can help me realize my wishes. With him by my side, I'm no longer alone. With him by my side, I am not afraid of any criticism. I became dependent on him, and I gradually developed feelings for a girl. What's more, I have a girl's desire for the future. I grew weak, I became lost. I finally had the luxury of hope for anything other than revenge. I hope to protect this love. I've always thought of our affection as love. Divine love. A love that does not allow for profanity. But... When he pushed all the incredible love to me, he also pushed me a cruelty. He pushed me to be deceitful, and even more to me to be cruel. He made me have to make a choice. I had to choose between forgiveness and renunciation. Xiaoyu, this is the so-called love I encountered. No matter what choice I make, I am destined to have an unforgettable pain. Just like the unforgettable love at the beginning. The touching love that made me give up everything and indulge in it. I chose to give up with all my body and mind, and I chose self-esteem and disgust. However, I can't give up my memory, I can't give up that touching memory of love. What am I going to do? Giving up revenge on Ning Feiyang, I still have him, and a bright future that I never dared to hope for. However, by giving up on him, I really became a soulless exorcist. Now I no longer have the confidence and desire for love. Do you know? I kept trying to get along with different people of the opposite sex, but I kept hurting them. I'm scared I'm going to keep going like this. Hehe, I have an infatuated and hated brother who is my inner demon. Xiaoyu, don't blame my sister, my sister is still the girl who came out of the mountains after all. Xiaoyu, my sister is really tired... Su Qing's voice gradually dried, and the tears were also dry.
Ning Yu sighed secretly, and he helped the girl to sit down on a bench next to her.
"Sister, I understand. But my heart aches for you. I am even more reluctant to you. Your experience makes you always make choices to hurt yourself. It's enough for you to know that you love him, why bother with his feelings for his sister. Some things are predestined, just like the love you are destined to happen. Sister, Brother Lu is a sensual person, and his feelings for his sister are the brilliance of human nature. Such brilliance is enough to make girls deeply in love. Sister, you are the luckiest woman in the world. Not only have you gained a sincere love, but you have also gained a family affection that you once lost. Sister, get rid of all the entanglements. You just have to tell him that you're back. Promise me to give him a call and tell him that you are here and that you still love him. Ning Yu almost gritted his teeth and said his eagerness.
"No... I can't see him, and I can't hear his voice. I don't want to relive the humiliation that broke my heart. Xiaoyu, I'm Su Qing, I'm not that Ning Keer. I don't want to be that lucky one for the rest of my life. I hate that name. She took my love. In my sleep, I see her laughing at me. I will not allow myself to compromise. Even though my uncles and aunts in the United States called me by this name, I struggled with it every time. Hum! Rather than her. I'm not rare. I'll always be my father's Su Qing... Su Qing screamed again.
A sharp outburst was followed by a suffocating silence. The two embracing people fell silent at the same time.
After a long period of dullness, Ning Yu finally broke the silence with the action of reaching out to take something from his trouser pocket.
"Sister. Look at this. Here's the latest news about him. Maybe it's time for you to make the final choice. Ning Yu's laborious movements were accompanied by an obscure voice.
With the dim light splashing from above the bench, Su Qing barely finished reading the words on the page.
Su Qing was soft again in Ning Yu's arms.
"Sister. Your face is not good, is it uncomfortable? Ning Yu carefully discerned the girl's subtleties.
The furrowed forehead showed the girl's pain at the moment. She opened her mouth to breathe hard into the humid night air.
"Xiaoyu, sister... My sister's heart is so stuffy. Let my sister be quiet for a while. Just a little bit. Su Qing lay in the other party's arms and whispered hard.
Ning Yu hugged the soft body in his arms, and tears choked out of his eyes.
The hustle and bustle of the square not far away sets off the silence of the here and now.
"Alright. I'm fine. Su Qing struggled to sit up straight.
"Sister. You okay? Are you sad? I'm sorry, but I'm here for this. I believe that this report is false, and it may be a misunderstanding. However, without your answer, I can't go to Brother Lu. After all, you've been torturing him. Sister.. Ning Yu's cautious voice leaked into his heart.
"Huh. I am fine. At the moment, I have a sense of relief. I finally knew that I was still the same Su Qing. I haven't changed. I'm still a woman. Su Qing's voice suddenly became lighter.
Ning Yu looked at the pale face in front of him in confusion, and struggled to interpret the words that had been poured into his ears.
"Alas! Silly brother, you are a rough man after all. Don't think about it. My sister really felt relaxed. Do you know? I've always been worried about turning into a four-like, but now I can rest assured. Su Qing smiled.
Looking at the bitter smile blooming in front of him, Ning Yu's heart tightened. However, curiosity also rose.
"Sister, I don't think this thing is funny. Please, tell me seriously, what are you going to do? Ning Yu grabbed the other party's arm and shook it vigorously.
"I... My heart hurts. However, I can confirm that I still love him, nothing else, just a woman's love for a man. I am still the Su Qing who loves Mr. Lu, and I still live in the happiness he brings me... Oh, I used to be so happy, so drunk... Su Qing laughed in the sway.
Tears accompanied by Yanran's laughter blurred the vision and blurred the whole world.