I was silent, and after brewing in my heart for a long time, I replied: "Actually, you and I are the result of too many worries, if after the child is born, I am willing to give him (her) the fatherly love that he (she) lacks, I will let him (her) be my godson or goddaughter, and give him (her) all the love ......"

"Hehe, you can give him (her) fatherly love, but can you give me a future?"

I stared closely at the text sent by Sun Zhenzhen, every word seemed to take root in my heart, the pain of taking root and tearing through the flesh and blood suffocated me, I snuffed out the cigarette butt in my hand and re-lit one, the smoke was soft around my fingers......

I took a heavy puff of cigarette, and when the smoke spread from my mouth, I picked up the mobile phone at the head of the 'bed' and sent a message to Sun Zhenzhen, saying: "This society is very realistic, but it is also very open, as long as he really loves you, he doesn't care about your past at all..."

"That's just a few individuals, such as |excellent|excellent|small|say|more|new|most|fast|.|Does anyone love me? Did you know that when a 'woman' experiences giving birth, her body shape and appearance will change dramatically? When I give birth to a child, who will love a fat and ugly 'woman'? ”

I feel more and more that after Sun Zhenzhen became pregnant, her whole person's 'sex' personality has undergone some subtle changes, and she has no previous arrogance and stubbornness, she knows how to think about herself and take precautions...... Seems to mature overnight and ......:.

I closed my eyes quietly, sometimes I wish I was blind, so that I don't know what kind of smile those bad people will 'show' at me, and I won't be helpless to see my friend crying, and finally suppress my emotions and experience the pain of wanting to cry but not crying.

After a while, my phone vibrated again, I subconsciously opened my eyes and picked up the phone, and found that it was Sun Zhenzhen who sent me another text message, she asked me, "Didn't you really want to kill the child before?" Why are you suddenly persuading me to keep the child now? ”

I pressed the cigarette butt of my fingertip into the ashtray and replied, "I once had a 'daughter' with Gu Ran, but at that time we were still in college, and her family had always objected to the relationship between the two of us...... I didn't have the courage to have this child, let alone the ability to support her, I was very scared at the time, and even as soon as I saw Gu Ran's face, I would deliberately escape, and then the 'spirit' gradually collapsed, and I couldn't stand the pressure, so I made that stupid decision and borrowed money everywhere to beat the child out...... My king has also done not many bad things in his life, but this incident made me unforgettable..."

When I send my story to Sun Zhenzhen in the form of words, I will certainly be pulled away by the whirlpool of memory...... When my phone vibrated again, I came back to my senses and looked at the text message Sun Zhenzhen sent me, and she asked me, "Do you regret it?" ”

"I can only blame myself for not being mature enough at that time...... If I had dared to take responsibility, I would not have developed into the current situation...... Everything is cause and effect, there is no need to talk about regret, because regret is equivalent to denying the former self, and it is also a manifestation of dissatisfaction with the current life, although I have lost, but also gained...... So we don't have to complain about what we don't have around us all the time, but use what we already have as a bragging note..."

"I see...... Thank you, boss, I have been here in Shanghai for more than a year, you have always been by my side, I cry, you will comfort me, tell me that there are more wronged people in this world than me, I am selfless when I am commended for overfulfilling my performance, you will tell me the truth that the arrogant army will be defeated, and if I do something wrong, you will stand up and use your body to block the wind and avoid the 'waves' for me...... So I don't have to care about what I'm missing, but I should be glad you never left, right? ”

I 'rubbed' my hair and said with a smile: "After you said this, I found that I was actually 'quite kind'..."

"Hehe, Sister Manman said that you are a good person...... But Sister Manman also said that good people are not suitable to live in this realistic society..."

I couldn't help but be a little curious: "So according to her, she's not a good person?" ”

"I don't know, you ask her yourself...... I'm going to take a shower, good night..."

After Sun Zhenzhen sent me this text message, I didn't have the heart to reply to her with a "good night...", although the question of how she thinks about the child's stay bothers me, I will respect her decision and let her choose a suitable path for herself.

I couldn't sleep because of some worries, and I didn't fall asleep peacefully after Sun Zhenzhen said goodnight to me, I remembered Su Man, who ignored me in the afternoon for the Buddhist bead bracelet, so I immediately got up and started to rummage through all the suitcases at home, but in the end I couldn't find it.

It seems that in my memory, when I was still in Beijing, the bracelet did not appear on my wrist, which also means that the bracelet was lost in Beijing.

I went back to the 'bed' and picked up my mobile phone, planning to send a text message to Mi Qi who went to film abroad to inquire about some information, but when I picked up the mobile phone, I remembered the phone card I am using now, and subconsciously went to find the address book, only to find that I did not have Mi Qi's contact information at all, and the previous phone card has been broken and lost by me, although I can recite her number backwards, but after careful consideration, I decided to cut off contact with her, I said that I want to be a person who goes against the current.

I remember that I seemed to have a spare key to the house where Mickey lived in Beijing, and if time permitted, I could consider a trip to Beijing instead of worrying about the embarrassment of meeting Mickey.

Standing on the balcony after 'smoking' the last cigarette before going to bed, when I was about to fall asleep, I accidentally received a strange text message on my mobile phone, I don't know where he got my contact information, but I remember his phone number with the mantissa of four eights.

He texted shortly: "I know you haven't slept, I'm on the side of the road in your apartment right now, if you have time, I'll come out and talk to you about something..."

I sneered, "Chen Jie, don't you think you're disgusting enough?" You're nothing until a lump of poop comes out, but when it comes out, you're it..."

"I want to talk to you about Mickey, I'll be waiting for you downstairs..."

"Do you think you're worth it for me to see you?"

"Whether you see it or not, I'll be waiting for you in the car...... And you wouldn't want to know about her, would you? ”

"You don't use Mickey as an excuse to convince me, I'm not interested in her affairs..."

Chen Jie seemed determined to see me, and still sent me a text message saying, "Don't you want to know why Miki left you?" ”

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