Chapter 19: Continuous Grief

Led by Nanxi was a village called Mu Linsen.

In the village, you build houses that are painted in a semicircle. In the center of the hall there is a pavilion made of stone and a well. Originally, it was probably such a large venue, but now the place is cramped, and tents have been set up. There are so many women that one might even think that all the women in the village are present. They are skillfully making this dish to decorate the venue. Iris and Genesis looked at the scene with a new look.

After asking Nanxi where the men were, Genesis was directed to the crowd looking inside the tent in the clearing a little distance from the village. The tents made of colorful cloth look like they are reflected in the blue sky and the green earth on them. It's like a makeshift bed for guests. It really welcomes guests without refusing. The group walked in the direction of Nanxi's house first. The village's paths are narrow and full of obstacles. In front of the entrance is a wooden barrel full of flowers, dried food, and a cat gently passing through it.

The bell rang out nowhere. Nanxi was told that this folk art that uses the flow of the wind to collide and play the plural bells is a specialty of this village. Moving your gaze upwards is the house of the smiling man sandwiched between the windows with a rope on which to dry the laundry. You can also hear the bells here. The young girls who had spoken first happily pulled the rope together, and in doing so the bell rang again. Genesis looked over and closed the window with a coquettish smile. There are no large streets, and it is a quiet village with small settlements.

After crossing the narrow path, the road opened, and in front of it were isolated buildings much larger than the other houses.

Probably not much of a thief, the rose grass grew luxuriantly in the courtyard. There were two women uncomfortably stained in front of the entrance.

"Ahh

Running to the front in one breath was an old woman in an apron. Nanxi exhaled deeply, then lowered his voice and said to her.

"It's safe, it's not true. Is that okay, in case it's always like this......"

"Last night, I locked the old lady's room. Did you visit her room after that? Did you lock it up? You can't open it from the outside. ”

β€œ...... That's it."

"In the years that my grandfather entrusted me, I didn't let the old lady run out to find someone like this. ”

"It's me who is bad, it's me who is not good. ”

It can't be said to be a conversation with a good atmosphere. Another woman walked towards Nanxi. With brown skin and a cute face, he bowed his head to the silent Iris and Genesis. Here Nan Xicai finally remembered that there were people other than relatives by his side.

"No, I'm sorry ....... Introducing to you. That one...... Tomorrow will be his wife's Shamiwen. Mother's servant, Dai Li. I live separately from my mother, and Shamiwen and Dai Li have been protecting my mother. ”

The last sentence revealed how thankful this was for their family, and it was only known through the expression on his face afterwards. Shamiwen and Dai Li introduced the two into the house as if they were competent. After that, it was a busy time. In order to welcome tomorrow's wedding, the bride and groom go out to various places to say hello. Although they were sorry for not being able to hospitably entertain individuals, Iris and Genesis were grateful that they could stay in a cool place under the eaves, and watched them leave without care.

Because it was almost time for lunch, Dai Li, who was a maid, was worried about the two travelers, so she entertained them for dinner.

Jannessis seemed very tired, and immediately after dinner, he fell asleep as if the power had been cut off. At first, his head was like a boat sliding, but in the end he couldn't resist the drowsiness, and his back hung down, and he relaxed his body and closed his eyes. His whole life was always on the go. Although they are not the seven inheritors in the alliance, they bear heavier responsibilities than them. It wasn't until he met Iris that it all changed for the better, at least not by himself.

Iris, who was also sitting on the bench, asked him to lie down gently as he fell asleep, and then looked at the space that had finally quieted down. The home also had an alarm clock ringing in the window.

Ding Ling made a sound. The sound of Dai Li tying utensils in the kitchen can also be heard. Corresponding to Genesis's rest, it creates a very harmonious summer afternoon.

Iris wasn't even tempted by sleep, because as a flower demon, she was very different from humans, and she could rest well just by closing her eyes. It's like getting to know for the first time the tenderness of the sounds that surround your life.

She quickly opened her eyes after hearing the curtains and the sound coming from the hallway.

"Alaala, is it said that he is a spiritual magician like us?"

Before he could get closer, Iris, who was extremely sensitive to spiritual power, felt an unusual fluctuation in spiritual power.

Dai Li heard footsteps and walked to the entrance. From the side, Genesis also opened his eyes slightly. His veins were about to open. It didn't matter if he was asleep, at least to this extent, he couldn't threaten himself, not even Iris, and after saying this, he closed his eyes as if he was relieved.

β€œ......”

Thinking if there would be anything that needed help, Iris, who was also walking towards the entrance, noticed that someone seemed to be shouting and stopped. It sounded like it was coming from the second floor, and then it quickly rang throughout the house. At this moment, Nanxi's mother went up to the second floor as if she was being pushed.

Climb the wooden steps and stop in the hallway to prick up your ears.

"Husband......?"

It was the voice of an old woman.

"Or Younas?"

I guess I mistook it for someone in the family.

"It's Miss Iris. In the morning, you wrapped my hair"

Iris, who was standing in front of the door, whispered some lines that were probably appropriate.

Although it is a small village, it is the time when the whole village holds a wedding feast. Because it was door-to-door, they came to the door sincerely to salute. By the time Nanxi and Shamiwen set their way home, it was already sunset.

"Ah, isn't the bride from this place? ”

"You can understand me. Although only a few words. It's lovely. ”

"Nanxi, it's a shame that you can get it. It's not like you're the only one who can be relied on. ”

Although she was not too willing, the women who greeted her everywhere asked her about Shamiwen as a bride. Instead of Shamiwen, who is not very good at talking to people, he is almost always talking to Nanxi, so his throat has become dry.

"It's getting dark. ”

In response to Shamiwen, who muttered softly, Nanxi nodded. Although the village is usually silent after the sun goes down, today it is a bit noisy. Everyone was laughing. After thinking about all this for the sake of the two of them, I thought that the so-called wedding was not just for the ceremony of the two.

Nanxi took Shamiwen's hand very naturally. U-buo, laughed from Shamivenna.

"The people of this village are so gentle. ”

confided in front of Nanxi with peace of mind. It's Shamivan's statement.

"My brother, who raised me in place of my parents, disappeared a long time ago. It's really nice to be able to marry you, and to be able to have a family again. ”

Shamiwen smiled shyly.

"Ms. Dai Li is very good at cooking. You also taught me what you like. Mother's home is also very large. It's gorgeous, thinking about everyone...... Able to live together. ”

"You don't have to worry about it. ”

Although he said this mildly, Nanxi said cold words. Shamiwen stopped. Holding his hand tightly, because he was pulled by Nanxi who walked to the front, Shamiwen fell.

β€œ...... I'm sorry. ”

"No, I'm just, yes, sorry. ”

"No, I should apologize. Said something that made you、Annoying。 You....... Yes, the ...... at home My mother hated what I knew. ”

Nanxi is really fascinated by this kind of place in Shamiwen. Be straightforward, considerate, and gentle.

"But why hate hasn't been heard well. Parents should pay attention to their words. ”

So it touched the ruthless heart. Sweat oozed from the tightly held hand, and although he wanted to let go and dry it, Nanxi squeezed harder. This is the person who will accompany him for the rest of his life, and he doesn't want to be hated here.

"Talk to your mom about not talking. ”

Shamiwen looked at him differently from Nanxi, who was not looking at him.

"Yes. ”

"I've been like that since I was very young. It's not because I'm old. I also have my father's, and then ...... I also have an older brother...... My father left with my brother that day. ”

"Why ....."

"I was too young to remember, probably, just ordinary...... The relationship between husband and wife is not good. There are also frequent quarrels. It is also a common sight to see which side runs out of the door. So at that time, I thought I would be back soon, but ......"

Didn't come back.

- At that time, why did my father choose my brother instead of taking me away?

Is it because it was the first child to be born?

The age difference between him and his brother is only three years, but my father seems to put his brother first in everything. For example, the order of susurrel, the number of times you touch your head, and the words of praise are also different.

Although it is not a big difference that others will not perceive, it is something that children can perceive sensitively.

- It must have been, the cuter party, only took it away.

So I think.

"After that, Mom became weird. Gradually, gradually...... It's like a machine with screws falling off again. At first, he called me my brother's name. No, I'm not Younas, I'm Nanxi. Although after answering so, I will apologize and then make corrections. After that, it became a point where you didn't just say it and correct it. ”

Shamiwen folded his tightly held hand and overlapped it with his other hand. It's a heartbreak for my lover's life so far. Just such an act made Nanxi very happy. It is this kind of thing that I longs for, so strongly that it is reconfirmed.

"My mother became an overlapping state of interacting fantasies about me as a father and an older brother of Younas. ”

In the past, Nanxi did not have such joy.

"When I was treated as a father, I cried and pounded on me. When I was treated as an older brother, I just said where you were, and then hugged me tightly. This state lasted for several years. ”

Nanxi doesn't want to think of herself as pitiful, but.

"I also often, you see, grow taller when I enter the growth period. I don't actually look like my father or my brother. You see, this should ...... It's a good thing、I thought。 ”

I don't think I'm a happy kid anymore. I don't feel happy when I think about my childhood.

In place of my mother, who was unable to work, I started to go out to work, and when I came back, something painful happened.

"I was liberated from being mistaken for someone. ”

It's a continuum.

"But it became another curse. ”

It is a succession of sorrows.

In order to cut off contact, it is necessary to stay away from each other.

"Mom doesn't know who I am anymore. I don't remember me as a kid. Dai Li told her. Recently, I've been looking for me, and I guess it's a little funny. My words have always been ......."

Because it is a family, it is necessary to stay away.

"I've always been around. ”

Although it may be said that it is unkind, Nanxi does not want to budge. Everyone in the village knew everything about this matter, but Shamiwen was the first.